@angelicxmei
@odel007

https://open.spotify.com/track/6F5pODWGKcrPEZOeWldfvO?si=92a5d66a54a54050

[mui]

ah ah
i cant say the same
got this feeling that im just not
'bro its just a game'
those words never hit my softspot
ur the one i chase
even if u say i care not
im the one u hate
even tho
i care about ya

ah

sry bro
ima swear to god
ya
dont wanna act like someone im not
bro
shawty on her phone
textin a wave to her ops
textin it away to my ops :(

ya puttin money in the baag
all black on
pop a molly in a taab
posted up in the club
think she wanna make a rack
out w the squad
shawty always downbaad ya

said she love me but i dont care
this the last time ima fuckin life share
i dont wanna feel this hurt anymore
i just wanna keep myself away from it aalll

[mei]

love blind my eyes
im stuck in the things
that are not nice
ye
shawty broke my heart
like 1000 times
wanna let her go
but things not right
things not right

do not hit my phone
when its night time
got a couple friends
but i still wanna
cut ties
miss, miss calls
ye i dont wanna talk now
shut my mouth
heavy back i still wanna
goooo
im in my room
and it doesnt feel like home
she told me she likes me
but im on my own
i panic so easy
hit the gas then i goo
i thought it was easy
now im cold

im cold outside
im cold inside
benzos got me feel alright
dont ask me if i do alright
i dont know how do to it righttt

softspot w/ angelicxmei (prod. odel)

@internetjoe
@0arid
@diligencexs

https://open.spotify.com/track/6eC2hVbWTfiWuK2eexfE2Z?si=be73bd2aa89a4881

[mui]

i been countin up my bands
in a drop top
balenciaga fit
ima take a snap shot
why u gotta be a bitch?
fuck my head up
posted up im on my own
makin friends now
makin all these bands now

shawty actin up
its like she toxic
saw her with a new bro
feel like i was nothin
focus on myself
cuz im not the one that they love then
talk me at all
she think im a fuckin psychic
i dont wanna try this

[arid] 

i pulled in a convertible
tried to flip the switch but u know this aint turnable
i dont think u found a way
i dont think u wanna stay
u dont know what to do we finna put u in ur grave
yea i dont know what i should believe
dont need a witness im the first im on the scene
i dont know why u turn around were on a team
im only tryna get the money see the green

snapshot w/ arid (internet joe + diligence)

@sshinju

ye. ye. ye.

dont think it twice
you should take a step
its better than never at all

u can take ur time
there's nothin at all
that'll make me go n change my mind

and when you cry
ur eyes
so beautiful
you got me fallin 
into memoryside

you pulled me in
and everything u give 
it always gotta make me try

by your side
im by ur side
never fade away
ima make u mine
yea by ur side
im by ur side
never fade away
ima make u mine 

this time
im all for real
u miss my message
and my calls
i dont want to feel, nah. nothin at all
why can't i deal with problems so small

memoryside (shinju)

@haveonlyonechance
@angelicxmei

i used to love u <3
now wont text u 📱
i dont wanna stop
wish i never met u ://
sad songs 🖤
in my set
w the autotune 🔊
tell wat i could say
to make it up to u

u makin me so so faded
this shit so complicated
my thoughts they all medicated
all faded out
with a heart so jaded </3

stressin on my own
wont take this
i dont wanna know
that u hate it
ponder on the steps that we takin
blood on my neck 🩸🧛
from the scars that u makin

ye. yeahh.

i got demons in my head
they wont make me 😈
sippin blood red 🍷🖤
for my own team
smokin on my own
i get lonely 🖤

i dont wanna know
if u know me
leave me on my own
not a bro
u a phony

ya, u a bitch !!
u been posin
like brodie
i got all this money $$
but im lone :(
and im lonely 🖤

i been up n down tryina play ur games but i feel like im fallin off
bro
can u not
i dont wanna talk to u
i got all these scenes in my head
and im fallin down
into nothinness
had enough of this
i been smokin less
u actin like u'll never seen my face again
evrry single day
i hold my head in my hands
keepin all this shame
feelin less of a man
i dont wanna care
but i feel it again
heart in my hand
but it crumble like sand

sadsongz 🖤🖤 w/ angelicxmei (tenoji)

@brknglss

https://open.spotify.com/track/52VRGwq41kOaTjLm3pwlDe?si=620a7e530d0b43bf

promise to me u mean it
my trust its all in you
just be who u wanna  be
ya noone gonna care but you
i dont wanna feel a thing
bro
i dont even wanna knowww
missin the times when i think
u werent ever gonna let me goo
..

(l-) lone
im low
so low
that's all
i fold
so cold
alone
im low

lone
im low
so low
that's all
i fall
so cold
alone
im lonely

ya
i dont wanna talk
notice that im okay on my own
yaaa
yaa
that shits so fuckin old
missin u like bro
my heart so fuckin broke
this air its got me choked
this hair on my neck
like standin on my toes

i hope u stay the same like
oh my god
im the one to blame
for the things ive done
open up to me
i'll be ur one

low (brknglss)

my outlet 

- thank u to all the friends ive met on here so far <3

@jeweler737 for the cool prod

///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

this pain so cold
im fightin back
dont let go
i dont ever want that
focus on the good
but it come right back
there's nowhere that i'd go so i lie in my bed

and im so worthless
theres no way you'd call back
im hurt 
u know that
this fucked up concept

i know its pointless
i see ur choices
u used to call back
but i found im selfless

ye 
i been feelin down
kinda stuck like this
even when i try
it dont feel like it
watchin from above 
u da one that i miss
smokin up a lot
when i feel like dis
my heart so cold
when i cry on my wrist

talk to me 
i dont wanna hold it all in
would they notice if i go to my end?
stuck in my thoughts
there's noone that cant change me
im so fuckin lost
and im runnin on empty

selfless // jewelryboy

time +blxty //  shatter3d

@sshinju

brand new whip ya it cold
shawty dont care, wat she said? idk
i been downbad in my head i been told
nothing really matter, u dont care anymore

post up all black head to the toe
ya i used to care but aint shit anymore
i been smoked up w da team and alone
gotta self care 
ya im healin alone

i got all dis money ya im keepin...
ya ur brodie tryina fuckin sweep in....
shawty idk know wat u thinkin....
all these feelings i cant even keep in

u dont even notice bitch u fakin
i just wanna know wat the reason
im just on my own ya forsaken
i been on my own, taken everything

told u that i'd give u everything
u were all i had
i had everything
you dont really care
u just wanna hang
out w da bros
and u been playin games

didnt even try to make things work
then u act suprised when im so so hurt
i aint never cried this much fr
never gettin high cuz it make me feel

i aint gonna lie
i aint pullin thru
blood on my thigh
and it rainin still
fuck it i'll die i'm stayin still
no way i can try
my mistakes wont heal

##healingg

##healingg🖤🖤 // shinju

@shatter3d love u

i miss your face
i miss your calls
and now i know
how you feel (fck)
and now ur gone
i been up writing all the saddest songs
and im so done
nothin really matter ima stay alone
i wont let go
why try when u never loved me so
ur heart so cold
ya
i aint ever felt like this before
when i missed your call
i dont wanna take back the things u told

na
i dont even know myself
lost my head, wat i gave to u
miss your love broke my heart in two
didnt give a fuck u wouldnt see this thru

beckoned to the side
im on my own
then u go lie
about ur bro
i aint gonna try 
there's no point to it all
i just wanna lie here on my own

cant we coincide?
u wont let me fall
im so high ima kill myself
i keep askin why 
did u wait this long?
then u always sigh cuz
no reason at all

and i know that you never wanted 
i'd pull thru but i cant to be honest
it feel like u dont care if im hurtin
i just hope that he's better than i could be

##breakupzz </33🖤🖤 // shatter3d

@am1ss

im tired
of losing
my thoughts 
i know its wat u wanted
contortion
i put some more in
my trust
i make my choices
still breathing
i feel this
still bleeding 
my thoughts in my heart
got the demons
you fucked me up
like i needed
like i needed

i hatin writin all my saddest songs
but i know it's all i know
i been up all night thinkin bout the times
you said that i love you
i dont rlly wanna care anymore
but i know i do that's so true
im out w da bros ya we countin up
w the guap that'd i'd spend on you


ever since u left
im fallin back on u
my head its such a mess
a feeling i cant choose
keep beggin this a test?
there's nothing i can do
so tripped out in my head
im stepping through the loop

contortion // amiss

can you tell me why?
do i even try??
i dont understand why we always gotta fight
and im so stressed out, you're the reason why
nothin really matter anymore, should i die...?
i dont wanna feel like i dont really wanna try
my bro got the bands n we count it ten high ££
smoke in my lungs got me feelin always so right :))
i dont wanna talk, can you make me feel tonight?


you. made me feel this way
no more games, no more charades
deserve what never fade
tears of colour were so grey

i have myself to blame
nothin left to make me hate
try again
i know this late
all my trust
so fucked to save

hatrd4love 🖤  // jolst

@lvc_uk
@sshinju

mui:
i cant decide
bout wat im gonna change for me
girl
this time
i cant even make my mind 
ya.
i dont wanna waste ur time
hate this talk
and i blame my mind

feel so confined
skipping ur calls
now u cutting ties
guessin wat u think
ya it feel like lies
when u stop n stare
i pretend i dont notice at all

i dont wanna feel, 
i dont care anymore
smokin so loud 
i keep starin at walls
i got big bands, i dont spend anymore
writing to the cloud
for my friends, that is all

i dont know why
understand this, i swear i try
ur words they wont get by
end to my thoughts ya close my mind ya

lost my trust but i'll be alright
its fine
shawty do u care if i make my mindd???
this timeee
white liees
tell me that this fake
but u makin me signs

lvc:

keep breaking my heart
my head making me think im fine
your lyin'
why tf you makin me hurt
tell myself that this gonna work
i can still feel you on my shirt
i just wish you'd tell me my worrrrrth

mui:
take my time ya
i dont wanna risk that, makin my choices i aint gonna waste my life, na

lvc:
dont tell me twice
im stuck in my head i cant make things right

mui:
i dont really care, im feelin a goodnight
out in da club im takin pills to survive
shawty wanna stare, i can see thru ur eyes
act like i dont care but i still cant decide

cant decide w/ lvc (shinju)

@1wasterr

this summers gone 🌞🖤
it wont wash away, 🌊
what i never want
i just wish that you'd stay...
there's always loss
unless the love that is fake
im keep writin these songs
to keep the hurt away

and i dream 
in my head
weathered and worn
flowers were torn
feelings faded today
put the negative on
in a one sided way
i know what i did wrong
but i'm sorry to say...

im so nauseous 
im in your comfort
this time im by myself im keeping to my own word
you said your reasons, they got no meaning
i keep on pacing in my room
til im blistered and im bleeding 🖤

summers fade (wasterr)

https://open.spotify.com/track/31PrjGJzsGRVyo3vESHPJB?si=42771c5ac44a4ec9

@jolst
will i ever be enough?
to be the one u love
there's tears on ur face
when i see ur feelin low
and i wont ever know
im bleedin ever slow
emotions fade away
when i try to stay afloat

i cannot try to holddd
i cant control
my head it's stuck into place 
im aloneee
let's take this slowww
i need ur love 
you said u hated all the things
that i did and what i toldd

ya.
ya.

every time
i give up my fate
make another choice
that i always hate
nothing really mattered if this end today 
i been missin, outta touch
motive in da shade

thoughts scattered into dust
white roses in the mud
i got scars that draw across
lookin like tattoos in the dark 

breathe smoke right to my lungs
all my feelings suck
nothing ever mattered all too much
i been ruminating im so stuck

when i try to feel
my heart wanna take u back
i thought the trust would heal
keep this up for real i guessed

if u had one reason
to give me, why u cant?
u wasted all my time
n now im wishing i was dead

will i be enouughhh 🖤</3 // jolst

prod me


ay
ay
shawty, dry ur eyes
soak ur tears into my clothes
ay
smokin inside i forever miss ur touch
ay
i dont wanna feel like this
i hate this loveee
yaaa
loveee
aaaah
ayy

cut so deep my wounds
u break my heart, so cold
i been takin back all my trust
scars on my back lookin like tattoos
i dont wanna cry about u
this pain i feel is thru

you been pickin yo sides
yea besides when u try
to forget about your bro
ya
fuck my life im loww
im a waste of ur space i knowww
ya you hidin urself from showw
so that it's just like i'll never knoww

i said id stay with u forever
you meant all the things, i put the effort
these changes 
upside down in comfort
u hate me
shawty can reallly u change mee???

tearss (muieternal)

gonna take a short break bc im moving house rn but i'll be back soon ly all 🖤

ay
im gettin old
my fate i can't controlll
u love me, now you dont
i know i know i knowww
i can't dream thru all dis smokee

pretendin that u care, no more
froze my heart w the cash i pour
smoke so loud, w da glock like flores
u think that dis hate but it aint, 
i loaathee

crushed my soul
i fallll
it's you, i wasted forrr
i jus need air in my luungs
frozen in my chest
its haaaard


ya
findin myself was the  hardest thing u could tell a bro to ever do
i been up
on my own
keep my mind in a space, so far away from u
you choose
i aint ever gonna trust the truth
so soon
tryina keep control my mood
i dont wanna feel like thiiisss

no moree  (muieternal)

goated prod @convulsiven

can u stay??
i hate the way
can't stoop...
pain
my ache
its real
im not
face my fears
i chase
onggg
make this real
or take the loss...

i cant keep up w the things ive chased
with the songs i made about yaa
wasting my time
with the bands i spent
i chase my life around ittt

this painnn
so worthlesss
i hateeee
it's curseeddd
have faiithhh
feel successs....
i hateeee
forsakeeen

i cannot try this hard all on my ownn
nothin gonna make me feel
im all alonee...
my love for you
it's jaded and so coldd  

an angel in the smoke
it's painful to let gooo
theres noone else i loathe
reflection, mine's so dull
and idek
yaa
idekk
yaa

potential (neather)

@jolst

when u look me like that... 🖤
im stuck goin round in my head
ur never here like you said 
is this wat u still wanted??

ay

i dont wanna feel like thiss
ay
every time you turn away i still miss you </3
there's nothing else to say
but i think it's true
i'm the one to blame cuz i hate you too ://

nothing really matter anymore!!
im stuck,
barely standing on the fuckin floor
my pain, will it fade? ya im alone...
my heart gonna break, i think all along

i cant stand this
barely breathing 🤫🧏🏻‍♂️ 
my heart jagged 🖤
interweaving
i dont doubt it
cant you see me?
my heart jagged 🖤
now it's bleeding 💉

#swag

endlss pain 4 #eternal lovee // jolst

@counterxo 🖤 
@methboiswag 🖤 
@prod-roxa🖤
@team_taka🖤 


mui
----
i dont care a bit about it
thinkin nothin bout the past tense
cuz i dont want the habit
i'm smokin loud until im gaspin'
for the love that you cancelled
your wrote with every caption

you compare to a legend
where love is all compassion
surrounded by your darkness
nothing mattered,
nothing happened
ya, you told all your stories
but u ended up in fictionn

i dont wanna help with ur love no more
shawty i keep drownin in ur love, so far
you gotta keep me close
so i dont go far
ridin 125s w da bros for suree

counterr
---------

I don’t really care about it
I used to think you really cared, now I doubt it
Have to hold back my emotions, wanna shout it out, I just really need some space my mind’s clouded
tell me if theres someone else
I’ll go rot back on the shelf
Smoke this whole thing by myself
Ran away from what I felt

I’ve been deep inside my head tryna stop this madness
deep inside a bottle tryna source this sadness
Tryna find the light to get out this blackness
Seen your new posts, broken hearts in the captions
A time where we heal is a time I imagine
Growing so apart even though I thought we had it
Let’s restart, make it work like some magic
Even though I said that

mui
----
and every time u tell me that we're done
girl
im tieing all these feelins in a knot
so...
i can't take this feelin anymore
bro
idrc anymooore

i dont care a bit about it
thinkin nothin bout the past tense
cuz i dont want the habit
i'm smokin loud until im gaspin'
for the love that you cancelled
your wrote with every caption

you compare to a legend
where love is all compassion
surrounded by your darkness
nothing mattered,
nothing happened
ya, you told all your stories
but u ended up in fictionn

i dont wanna help with ur love no more
shawty i keep drownin in ur love, so far
you gotta keep me close
so i dont go far
ridin 125s w da bros for suree

##pasttense</3 w/ counterr // methboiswag x roxa

@prodarisu
@xternalz

mui:

ohhh no
i jus wanna be all on my own
standing by ur side but im still alone
nothing feels the same since the day you let me go
i feel so cold
i been distasteful

u hate me when i liee to ya
our feelings, they collide for good
i wonder if you'd hide from it
can i feel at all?
is this real or not...

xternalz:

it’s wearing me down til i cant breathe
i’ll think I’ll drown, you’re staring at me
i can’t think
it’s making me bleed
it’s making me bleed til I can’t anymore
yeah you’re crushing my reality
it’s such an abnormality
guess now we’ll see the lethality
the lethality 

mui:

i cant choose
is this really safety? 
is this really love???
i dont wanna take this on my own...
you're telling me we're meant to be in this world
amongst all the faces
i still feel alone

i talk about my feelings
but dont feel a thing at all
write down all the pages 
paint the pictures in the bold
im falling into fading, this shits getting ever cold
there's nothing in the painting,
i dont wanna feel at all

reality w/ xternalz (arisu)

@tores
@ripwarheart
@t57thetank


just like u promised
u said u wanted
to make things better
you go on ahead...
leave me in timelapse
i feel the weather
my heart its frozen
my fate has ended

just like u wanted
fall in love, lose touch, we faded
i know your love, it was for him
my mistake, took my attention
for ur benefit
for ur benefit
for ur benefit
for ur benefit
all ur benefit

#ay
alright
okay
i dont feel myself today
shawty tryina turn dis round 
all ur words, make them twist round on me
i cant tell from right or wronggg
u put me thru da miseryyy
i aint ever gonna fix this pain

benefit // tores + warheart + t57

i had enough 
this life, it suckks
wont fall in loveeee
fall out of touchh

i dont give a fuck
you broke my trust
it never wasss
wounds open uppp
ay


all of the times that u made me feel like i need to fade away
shawty used to say that i made u mine, gonna take some time, everythings gonna be okay

touch (prod. muieternal)

@akasukii
@m2monroe

[mui]

u said it wasn't life
i dont wanna live tonight
and i promise when i die
that i loved you more than life

i swear i trusted all of you
you broke my heart, it smashed in twoo~
you cut my breath so short
right thruuu
it was only me and you

[akasuki]

how am i supposed to heal 
when i dont even know how i feel
every breath callin out ur name 
ur still in my veins

ive carried the weight of ur words for too long
oh i wish i could just be strong
i know whats best for me but i cling along 
ur love is like a drug idk where i belong

[mui]

if this is day or night...
who i am, wont decide
do i belong here, right??
forgive this painful sight

these pages black and white
my faith it fall behind
dont care whats wrong and right
ill leave this world behind~~

##eternallyfe w/ akasuki (monroe + kyoa)

when i was eighteen
smokin up all da time,
it was jading
i was chronically online
contemplating
i aint eighteen anymore

why u gotta make these things complicated
i hate myself and all the reasons u gave me
ya,
i was eighteen
all my time is fading,
i aint eighteen
but i hate the same things
 
my time, it's flowing away
white wine i comiserate,
i miss the times i would wait
write songs i loved and would pay

my soul its for uuuu
i know girl, cuz its truu
my fault i know, it's youuu
eternal love is truuu

18 // shinju

its been a minute

@xternalz
@rewind214


i can't stress enough, that
i can't cope
cry
over againnn
im all on my own
why?
"its all in my head"
i said i knoww...
i try 
to hold on again
you're letting go...

im so tired of this waiting around
i falling of the phase with my sound
like there's no other place for me now
im half of the way 
between lost and what's found...

as i get older..
i feel my scars cut
now nothing matters
i know my trust sucks
im not getting better at all

i fall over again, 
i lose hope
i wanna be with you badly
alone
my heart broken, it shatted in four
i fell love with you madly i know


why // (prod. xternalz + rewind)

in the past,
what its worth...
stupify my brain, lift me from the curse
feel the pain, 
i know it hurt...
she said that it's different every time we touch, yea
why you speaking fiction, entertaining worse, yea
i aint ever even listen, no i never learn, nah

ridin so fast on da m60
high up off these drugs, turned ur back on me
shawty said she wanted transparancy
i know they see me comin w da glock 18
nothin rlly matter, i jus wanna be freeee...

black shirt
i roll da sleeve
u aint talking scars with nobody but me
i was young..
18
tried to hit you up
but you left me on read

she check my soundcloud like she think i cant see
smokin ice cold with the ajp
money in the bag, no talk no fee
i keep my head low, i jus focus on mee


mui

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