The Foundation

Chicken Fried

Rocxanns Macerate is a dark pop confession steeped in lust decay and southern gothic soul. A Slow cinematic burn of starberries , sin, and obsession here pleasure drips into poison. Perfect for a sexy halloween night, candlelight confession, or love that feels like a spell you can't escape

Macerate

every thing I did want for christmas” is a letter to the past self who kept asking for the wrong gifts.
Not presents—patterns.
The high instead of the healing.
The almost-love instead of the real thing.
The chaos that felt like attention, instead of the quiet that felt like safety.
In the world of Black Ice Ballads, this track lands after the impact—when the glass has already shattered, the hospital lights have already burned your retinas, and all that’s left is a brutally honest inventory:
every drink you wished would erase a memory
every body you used to dodge a feeling
every argument you secretly started just to feel alive
The title breaks “everything” into “every thing” because each choice mattered. Each little “thing” you wished for stacked into a Christmas you barely survived.
The song turns that realization into a confessional carol: soft, punchy, and quietly ruthless with itself. It’s not begging for a miracle; it’s promising that if it gets another December, the wish list is going to look very different.

Everything I didn’t Want For Christmas

MurmrX Records

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