me n u

I'll send you a letter
When the weather gets better
The smell of your perfume
Is still on my sweater 
but believe me when I say this
You'll always be a part of me

I'll Send You A Letter

Death2u


This current moon resting on myself
tensions rising up
This Weight is strangling
And Screaming to untie onesself
The Sea of tranquility 
A dive into ourselves
Listen to your words 
When you know that you need help
You know I love you so 
I know what it means
Just please tell me that 
you'll take care of yourself
And I hope that it will bring
The compass rose embodies profit 
And then im sure we will sing
Wealth and fortune
Embodies The sidlaws
The purple Heather 
Surrounds The land
And dictates our laws 
Superstitious 
were cautious
The green lady approaches
now you've lost it


Even if its not what you are 
We Question our own bodies
And though we're galaxies apart
It's just a thought
Acknowledge who you were
As real as we are
You're key to my ignition
Baby I've felt this from the start
Even if its not what you were
Though we're galaxies apart 

Bound to the moon 
On this current
Day
Tensions rise
Tensions sway
Who knows what 
Will stay
Empathise with those
Who are always in pain
How does one let go
Without feeling the same
It comes and goes
It comes in waves
Intense as they seem 
I dont feel ashamed
I feel what you feel
I know that its real
I feel it all
Been Plagued by the deal
Ignite
In spite
In tangent 
With time
The curse of living 
Comes with a heavy price
So baby when I say
Imma hold you tight
We'll get through this
On this lonesome night


compass rose 🌹 { prod. dnd x wnna }

Looking at the bare trees
Bones against the grey
Round here nothing changes
And everything looks the same

Breathing in the cold air 
No feeling in hands
Pocket full of loose change
Cause I wanna go somewhere

Somewhere far away
Somewhere over there
Somewhere far away
A million miles from here

13 months ive stood still
Rotting in my room
Feel like time is slipping by
 a flower that won't bloom
Wiping down the damp glass
Lining up the jars
Everything's in perfect order
So why do I feel so numb?

Somewhere far away
Somewhere over there
Somewhere far away
A million miles from here

permo frost demo ft tamiku (prod. Oh Winona)

Why Are We Like This? (prod. Dnd)

Wake up at sunset      (vocals mixed by winona)
A violent orange silhouette 
Illuminates my bathroom
Captivated by the colourway
I think I'd rather stay awake
And reflect on the ways I've conducted myself
These past few months have been so bright
And vivid I can see all of the details
In all of my mental pictures 
From smells the candle flickers
Flames dances, dances in time
With the way that my blood trickles
The knife in my hand 
As the scales sway
As I stand there with my mouth agape
My head titled back as I raise the blade
Plunge it into my chest
Watch my old self decay 

According to the text 
I must do as she sings away, sings away
Fixated on her beauty , she guides me along
Caught in a trance by jenny wrens special song
She beckons change
She orchestrates growth
She is you

space heater (prod. winona x dnd)

Getting drunk on my own is fun without friends        (vocals mixed by winona)
As I lay in bed want my days to end
Biting my nails brittle like the dead
I smile with pain with the ways that I spend
My money on drugs 
And My money of love
On these so called friendships that I've lost
And My money on drugs 
And My money on lust
 these so called friendships they come with a cost

And the price is high
And this feeling is heavy
This gun that I hold i keep it steady
Finger on the trigger and you that im ready
Blow my brains out let's get real messy
You'll find a thing or two
That im Far from That im stable
Got a death wish baby this aint no fable
Can't put me in a box you can't label
Cant put me in a box you can't label

And All my imperfections they all add up to the picture
Something tells me that im going to be like this all winter
constantly i seem to drag
Everyday it feels so bad
How i do say im so mad
Can never change not one to brag

How can you love me? when I cant love myself.
Perscribe me with all those meds you give me
But I dont think they help

I dont think they help
I dont think they help
I'm turning into a monster and I cant control myself
I dont need your help 
I dont need your help
LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND I HATE THE CARDS THAT IVE BEEN DEALT!!

And the price is high
And this feeling is heavy
This gun that I hold i keep it steady
Finger on the trigger and you that im ready
Blow my brains out let's get real messy
You'll find a thing or two
That im Far from That im stable
Got a death wish baby this aint no fable
Can't put me in a box you can't label
Cant put me in a box you can't label

pendencies (prod dnd x winona)

frankenstein.mp3

How do I get by
How do I pass Time
Ive been smoking my weed
I've been trying to get high
Mirtazapine diazapam
 just seems like my only friends
They hold me when I cant
I dont talk they understand


Get these letters they through my door
They keep coming in and piling up all on the floor
I'm not really committed 
Im dont even think im living
I guess I'll admit it
So tired of this
doing anything im just self absorbed
In my fantasies im everything and so much more
Don't really know what im doing I guess I'm just existing 
this hollow body of mine
That im constantly fixing

vocals mixed by winona

how do I get by (prod dnd x winona)

itchy skin
guess its time to win
is it a sin?
that i just want a trim
all this excess
yeah it's making me itch
all this excess guess it's time to ditch
the liars the haters the fakes and the snakes
like move out of my way im trying to take this plate

dnd - self (winona).mp3

This Might Be Our Last Ride

dnd - he heard a voice prod. dnd x winona

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZynLfB70qs

I dont really know which place to go
Got a pocket full of loose change 
Where ever she knows
Tryna stay out the cold
Tryna keep the white out from my nose
Living from my rucksack wear the same old clothes
Got a fucking bone to pick with these goofies
Keep on playing it and saying that I wont make it
But little do they know is that I'm going super saiyen
With these words I'm slaying
Got a man on his knees and he's repenting
Coming up with new flows press record and send it
I'm an optimist at heart but I'm pessimistic
With the way i think if you blink then you'll miss it 
Or you'll regret it
Imma die trying i wear a lucky pendant
I'm awake for all of this but really it depends if
I'm in the mood or not
Sometimes I'm observant
Now I got the heart of a lion
And the skill of learning 
The years are turning 
Years are turning, years are turning

dnd - lucky pendant prod. (winona)  MV IN DESCRIPTION

Its been a hot minute
Since i started feeling it
Arsonist making flames 
when im spitting it
Flames that be sizzling
The Flames that be hot
I could never be something that im not
Say it with my chest 
You can see it my swag
I'm a confident young boy
Gunna make a bag
 when comes to that 
Imma share it with my bros
Gunna tag them all before I get old


Truth be told
The same stories just get old
Hearing the same old news
I feel like I've been sold
An idea that I don't sit with
Rub me the wrong way
Then face the law bitch
And when it comes to that
I'll always be me
But ill be honest im constantly changing
With the weather it be polarising 
Sweet like a cake with icing 
Got the police spray and I spray it on me
Walking around smelling like some candy
with a leather jacket and the boots to match
walking around sharp im like a hatchet

dnd - something that im not ( prod winona)

just wait, let take my time 
Let me show you what's mine 
Just wait, let me take my time
just wait let show you I'll shine

Everywhere I go
I show up fashionably late
Let me fit you in
 my calendar got 
way too many dates
Way too many dates im checking for
Busy all the time aint no metaphor
Cause I dont
know what im heading for
The future it be murky, sludgy but bright
Better wear some shades for the blinding light
All time, all this light, rays Beacons it be guiding my life
All this time 
All this light
trying to do things tryna  make it things right

And I still got cuts all up on wrist
Decided I had enough of this 
A stark reminder of myself 
When I had no confidence
All I wanted to be 
Now im the embodiment of it
Now I love my body 
And everythin that comes with

just wait, let take my time 
Let me show you what's mine 
Just wait, let me take my time
just wait let show you I'll shine

Im as pale as it comes
I aint from the land 
Of the sun
Driving around its 
We do for fun 
Got confidence but
I aint got no gun
Just my two fists
8 fingers two thumbs
Trying mess me 
You dumb
Punch you in the face
Aint that fun?
Tryna see if you got luck
I turned myself self around
But I see your still a schmuck
Walk around with confidence 
I am the young buck
When we driving 
Past you
you Better duck 
When we driving past you
Better show some love

just wait, let take my time 
Let me show you what's mine 
Just wait, let me take my time
just wait let show you I'll shine

Dnd - Just Wait prod. Winona

It's a late night better wrap up warm
I wear my bomber jacket just for the storm
When it rains it does seem to pour
Umbrella for the rain thats the core
Umbrella for the rain  that's the word
Yeah I'm with my bros don't know what heard
When it rains it does seem to pour
Umbrella for the rain that's the code

Heverlee on my tongue
Taste of the glorious sun
Got confidence 
I dont need not need no gun
When I pull up it's do or die
Watch me rise up to the sky
Dnd forever you know I tell no lies

What you said to me you knew that shit would last
Chips on my shoulder from a bumpy past
I know that you loved me once
Felt from a glance
I knew that you loved me once
Didn't take the chance
I was on my grind 
Moving on from last
Struggling with an ego
Stuck in the past
Scared of everything 
From first glance
Never gave the thought
Never gave the chance
Then  you asked if I wanted to dance
I left right up I never thought you'd ask
Tango underneath the stars 
We balling like some allstars
I know about you
But I think we gunna go far
 think we gunna go far
Balling underneath the stars
I felt it right from the start
It's just the everlasting part

dnd - bomber jacket prod (winona)

Wide awake be 6am
I aint talking no weekend
Let me take this call
I found the key to the deep end
it's been a whole time coming
chat shit about me
then act like you wasn't

I know you miss me 
cause I got issues
Guess I'm deep in my issues
Fizzled up burnt out overwhelmed dried out
but some how
Awake till dawn god already I tapped out
When we sipping on the drink we sip it slow
I aint got time for this anymore
reset thats a bet 
when I go off I make that bread
Like it's bake off hop in the jet
we take off like it's nothing

land in the foreign when the bass drops
Run from the 5 0 hide from the cops
Keep my stash hidden 
Yeah keep it in my sock
Keep a g on me cause I heard it's good luck
Yeah im with my twins and we counting it up
Keep a stack on the dashboard for fun
Shawty sweet like a cinnamon bun
Getting the paper doing the runs
If you want ammo you better run
Aint playing around yeah boy you dumb

what you gone say yeah what you gunna do
walking around can you smell the perfume
Smoking on a zoot yeah gas out the room
Sing a sad song the 12 bar blues
Do you really have a clue
Smoking on gorilla glue
Me and my boys we like some goons
Sit in my room yeah making tunes

dnd - issues p. winona x phoneyst0nem

lyrics - 

where do we go from here?
where do we go from here? 
where do we go from here?
where do we go from here?

And I've been looking for a sign
what is it I seek, what will I find?
And I've been looking for a sign
what is it I seek, what will I find?

And the days go by 
And the days go by
And the days go by
And the days go by

Where Do We Go From Here?

lyrics --

 And lately I've been drinking again
I just need someone to call my friend 
and lately I've been drinking again
I just need someone to call my friend

And as the leaves settle
And as I take my time 
I do not feel okay
I do not feel right
I feel thin and pasty
On these cold nights
Got a in one hand
And I kiss the world goodbye
Good riddance to all you people
This is the last time
That I show my face
And no I do not feel fine
how do I say im a mess
I feel like this all the time
caught up in my headspace
I swear I feel like im going blind

I'VE BEEN DRINKING AGAIN

and i gotta stay focused
i'm not even joking
i'm tryna live clean
but i swear to god that im broken
cause i need those compounds 
break it up yeah break it down
cause i need those chemicals
turn my frown upside down

i'm going through the motions
got cold sweats im hoping 
that it all goes away 
cause i dont want to see the day
 i dont wanna be like this forever 
but i swear to god im tied to it like a tether 
im an addict at heart
till death to us part
take me right back to the start 
where i was clean
where i was clean
now im popping olanzapine
and im taking all these beans
i dont know where im going now

Olanzapine

cover art and mixing done by winona 🖤

wait right here when the red light shows
guess we know we got time to go
got the popo tailing us and we know 
they gone pull us over cause we got the smoke
when the Green light comes they gone bite the dust
Blowing rubber in their face they can't hang with us
gorilla glue on our breath it's cloud 9 cuz 
speed away on the clock again midnight 
rush

midnight rush were in the club again 
this is the end here shlohmo said
when I go out it'll be on my own terms
feel like id be better off dead
who the fuk would say a thing
you know bitch I bring the bling
get the coke out get wasted again
mitrazpine on my tongue again 
3am yeah bring your friend 
we'll smoke a blunt play pretend 
it's fake love we know a thing 
play with your thong bright red 
bright red 
bright red ...

Mirtazapine prod. Winona

vocals, thumbnail all produce by my good and talented friend 95aké <3

lyrics (Dnd) - Look into the distance tell me what do you see
                       Visions of the future when you're dreaming
                        I can feel it now the warm embrace
                        Turbulent times the progressions we face
                         Of old becomes new what can you do
                          When you've got everything to give and everything to prove
                          But nothing seems to go your way
                          But if you stay a little longer then things will change
                          So please give it some time, I know you'll figure it out
                          Though you're shaking and trembling you're filled with doubt
Lyrics (95aké)- Faded back to nothingness 
                          The price I paid was effortless 
                          I can see it in the future 
                          But I reminisce 
                          Cold nights, heart aches
                          Demons in the distance 
                          Can you witness
                          When I'm claiming victim
                          Truth be told, I'm feeling bold
                          But nothing stops these feelings
                          Flooded gates, these heavy weights
                          I'm staring at my ceiling 
                         Time is passing, everlasting 
                          Feel it in the empty
                          Take apart and mold a new 
                          With darkness I am shielding.

95aké - Shielding ft dnd  (Prod. Back2Earth!!)

I don't wanna conform to any1s standards 
Everytime I fall asleep I fall backwards 
I be Geeking all over my mattress 
see you in my dreams girl you're my magnet 

So don't tell me otherwise
That I'm no good for you
Youre Etangled in my  bed whenever I'm with you
Tongues intertwine 
Kisses are see through
Is this love or am I fake to you

I cannot decipher
But im filled with stress 
My hands are on my head 
I'm on the floor a mess

Will I make it to bed 
Destinations are dreary 
At best you're all that I know 
You're all that I know 
You're all that I know 
You're that I know 

conform

Beneath the trees 
Where the roots grow
This feeling is same and old 
Where will we be 
Amongst the landscape 
Time will only tell 
Time will only tell
Beneath our feet 
Walking along the concrete 
Man has shaped it all 
And chained to their ways
But tell me this 
Keep it close 
I'll love you forever 
And more 
As ive gotten older 
I've noticed that friends seem to change
But please tell me this
I promise that we won't be the same 
I know the distance seems a little hard 
But I promise you 
That it'll be worth it in the end

roots.mp3

i'll stay inside forever

Lay your head to rest 
I know you're tired
You've done your best
But not expired
I know what it's like
To be on the other side
Of happiness 

Close your eyes
You've done your best 
Let the waves take you home 
Let it do the rest
Get that feeling off your chest
Play the song 
Let's move on
Pick up your things
It's time to go
And make a new with the things you have left 
Start over something fresh
New kicks new dog with tricks
Could you teach us this 
I wanna go back and change it all

Lay your head to rest 
I know you're tired
You've done your best
But not expired
I know what it's like
To be on the other side
Of happiness 





lay your head.mp3

lyrics 

take your time
and waste away
these days go by
but I remain the same 

take your time 
and waste away 
these days go by
but I remain the same 

I've been smoking my weed 
Been Staring at the stars 
I know about you
But I think gone far
I try and reach for happiness 
But it's really hard 
I try and reach for contentment 
But it's so long 
The days grow dark 
And the nights grow cold
I wonder where I'll be 
When I'm really old 
Maybe I'll be chilling 
With my bros 
I long for the moment 
The glory and the gold 
I got high hopes 
But I feel the lows
I feel it in my bones
The more I grow 
Uncertainty of the grounds 
That I walk on 
I wanna be the man 
You can lean on 
I wanna be the man
Who can dream on
Crystal clear visions 
Of the birds song
Sparrows fly around me 
the rays of the sun 
Call upon thee 
Of memories gone 

take your time 
and waste away
these days go by
but I remain the same 

take your time 
and waste away 
these days go by 
but I remain the same 

take your time

lyrics: 

Grey clouds in the sky
I feel like summer has passed us by
I don't want to make you cry
I cannot let what we have die
You're hard to be with, but so am I
Maybe I just need to get a grip
Before we start to slip away
Cause I look back from yesterday

Isn't tragic isn't it sad, I just wanna go back to that x4

Why is this so hard 
Maybe we weren't from the start
I don't wish for the worst
But sometimes I know that the truth hurts

Isn't tragic isn't it sad, I want to go back to that x4

Isn't it tragic

I feel out of a tree
And hit my head
I thought it was a  dream
And I woke up dead
And nothing seems real
There's monsters under my bed
Clawing their way to get me
And it fills me with dread

Emotional stress, I disconnect
The thoughts of you, I resurrect
And comes to life
And takes me back
The days we had
We lived, we laughed
It's hard to think
The love had left
When things went well
Time well spent
Nothing went wrong
You could say perfect
Every second was worth it
Can't take it back now

(big thank you to findlay for helping me mix this!)


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