My debut single Roses!
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Written by Abigail Tehusijarana
Produced by Joel Gani, Abigail Tehusijarana
Artwork by Natania Sulistijo
Visuals by Noah Tehusijarana
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LYRICS

You've got lavenders, asters
And daisies, and lilies
And carnations, and orchids
Sunflowers and her

I'm just here with my thoughts
And I'm here with the hurt
But I guess it's nice knowing that when you walked
Away from my rainclouds
You found a field of flowers in bloom

And hundreds of roses
Waiting for you

I was only a storm
A grey Sunday at best
Didn't know how to grow and begin to fill
Your world with color
The way she's lighting up for you now

With hundreds of roses
Waiting for you

So gather your rosebuds
And jasmines to hold while you may
As I watch from a distance
I hope you know I'll be okay

If you're even still worried
But how could you still be worried?

When hundreds of roses
Are waiting for you

Roses

This kinda sounds like Vienna by Billy Joel I know I'm sorry
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V1
Somebody told me
You’ve been singing new love songs
I wonder what she’s like
I bet she’s pretty
I bet she lets you touch her hair

V2
Somebody told me
You’ve been walking with a smile on
Your face, wider than when
I was the reason behind it

CHORUS
Doesn’t take much to see
I’m going crazy
Take a look at the scars on my skin
Did you think that I’d have it easy?

And Lord knows that
I’m trying to be happy for you
But I do wanna know who she is
I’ll come get her 
And I’ll tell her a thing or two
I’d say “Don’t let him go
No matter what you do”

V3
And I’ll be right here
Fighting off the regrets that I have
I wonder what it’s like
To have her love you
The way you always wanted someone to

V4
And I’ll be right here
Walking round in the cloud that I made
It appeared on the 
Night that I left you
To follow my own pride

BRIDGE
Know I fucked it all up
When I told you I couldn’t stay
And I know I left but
I still want you anyway

And it’s you I’d still call when the nights get rough
Though I know that you hate when I do
The truth is
I don’t think I will ever be over you

But I’ll tell her “Don’t let him go
No matter what you do
Believe me, I let him go
Cause I’m the biggest fool.”

No Matter What You Do (draft)

This Is How You Fall In Love (cover) - Jeremy Zucker, Chelsea Cutler

word vomited onto the notes app and put chords over it, as per.

after you

Listen with earphones / headphones pls cos i really cba to mix it properly oops it's a draft ok deal with it
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VERSE
I know we’ve only just met
And I’m sorry that I went and left
But I’m writing this postcard
To say that I’m glad our paths crossed

I live a traveler’s life
And sometimes it becomes its own knife
So I’m writing this postcard
To show you I’ll try to keep in touch

CHORUS
Oh imagine if you
Hadn’t guessed my years right
I’d be singing a different kind of tune

But you said 28
And I swear on my grave it gave
Living a life here more sense

So I’m singing this song
Let the winds of Hanoi
Bring it all the way back home to you

VERSE
I know we’ve only just met
And I’m sorry that I went and left
But I’m writing this postcard
To tell you I’m glad you came out

I didn’t know that you couldn’t have coffee
Or beer, for that matter, but I can’t remember
The last time I felt any sort of surrender
To something that might keep me in place

OUTRO
I know we’ve only just met
And I’m sorry that I went and left
But I’m writing this postcard
And it might be my last
Cos i’m coming back for you

Postcard From Hanoi (draft)

Happy 60th Birthday to Ibu and Happy 29th Anniversary to Ibu & Bapak. 

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"Doa Terima Kasih" originally performed by Nosstress

Guitar: Noah Tehusijarana
Vocals: Abigail Tehusijarana, Noah Tehusijarana
Mixing and mastering: Ipank Yuniar

Doa Terima Kasih - Nosstress (cover)

I know I was the one who let you go
I shouldn’t be feeling like I’ve still got a desperate hold
On you, but this is bringing up some messed up shit
About the way I can’t see others happy and just live with it 

I was just trying to protect myself
Cos what you don’t see can’t hurt you and ignorance is virtue 
I’ll admit that I lose sorely and I deal with heartbreak poorly
I guess that what I’m trying to say is for the last time, sorry

Cause you’re no stranger to the way I put up walls
And you’re familiar with the chaos of it all
Strung you along for years
But I’m glad you learned to drive and took the exit out of here

You deserve to tell the world about it all
I shouldn’t be factored into any of your calls
Oh I know this in my head, but it leaves bruises on my ego
I can’t lie that it still hurts and that I’m petty cause I can’t let go, cause

What if no one gets it and I’m left alone,
Fighting through my battles like a soldier missing home?
Tried it once with someone else who couldn’t handle all the gore
That doesn’t mean I’m free to hold you back from whatever’s in store, I’m sorry

For all the ways my pain would blow up in your face
Disguised as anger when it really is my total lack of grace
I’m dumb and immature
I’m everything you never were
 
I never realised I was holding on too strong
White-knuckled grip on something safe that I had thrown out long ago 
But lovers have limits too 
So I’ll accept you learned to drive and took the exit and chose you 

It may not seem like it, but I swear I’m happy for you
It’s just gonna take a while to feel the same about me too 
Can’t extend the same maturity you exhibited back then 
But I’ll try to work it out and hope that you will understand

You have always had a lot of love to give
I’m glad that you’ve found someone who has no trouble receiving
I hope to God she doesn’t take it all for granted like I did 
I hope to God that she’s rose without a thorn 

learned to drive (draft)

Pardon the shitty vocals I am incredibly sick and bored so I'm playing around with the vocoder

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I let my demons win 
I let them breathe down my neck
And now i breathe them in
The cold rush out of the tank

I let my demons take me
I let them sing me to sleep
And now i breathe them in
And now i breathe in too deep

I have the words on my skin
I hug them close to my chest
It’s beating out of rhythm
I cross the gaping chasm

Don’t wake me up
Don’t wake me up
Don’t wanna see you lie

Don’t wake me up
Don’t wake me up
Don’t wanna see July

Demons (Don't Wake Me Up) (draft)

One of the first original songs that I actually finished writing. Basically it's about having the courage to walk out of an unhealthy friendship. Also, apologies for bad quality audio.

Lyrics:

VERSE1
White flag waving
War cry fading
Front line giving in

Walls are falling
Whistles blowing 
A fall-out is at hand

CHORUS
But I am done
It's not that I'm not strong
I raise my flag
After all that has gone wrong
Hands in the air
I declare
Enough is enough
Head held high
I take my stride 
And walk away with pride

VERSE2
In the fray you
Took away the
Strength I needed so

Wore me out and 
Saved me just to
Do it all tomorrow

-CHORUS-

BRIDGE
Now the war will finally cease
And the fighters will come clean
Though you won't sign armistice
I just need you to know this

I am done
It's not that I'm not strong
I raise my flag
After all that has gone wrong

-CHORUS-

CODA
Head held high
I take my stride
No regrets
I will be fine
Leave you behind
I take my stride
And walk away
With pride


My White Flag

"Charlie" originally performed by Mallrat
Written by Grace Shaw, Leroy Clampitt
Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd. 2019

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