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I’m just dead weight at the function
I can’t even put up a front, if I tried
Struggle to fill the dead air
And I can’t help but feel that I’m wasting away, all my time

And these cardboard cutout omens
Must be in the thousands
Spectator to the moment
Willpower just spent doubting
Play the role of the jester just to not bare my soul
It’s been so hard to focus, white knuckling my thoughts and self control

So caught up in how I didn't think of where
Where should I be headed ? (i get sore)
This is what I dreaded
Changes in the scenery are nearly enough
Just don't pull me away from whеre I started from

So caught up in wherе I didn't think of why
But I can't regret it (i get sore)
I should just forget it
Changes in the scenery are nearly enough
Just don't pull me away from where I started from

Cause If you walk my walk can you catch with my stride
Cause If you talk my talk can you untangle my thoughts
Taking everything for me just to swallow my pride
And I think id be lying if i told you I tried

And I just cant control how I see it
Haven't found my footing and its all my fault, I know
Tossed the key and I closed the vault
And I’ll Lick my wounds, can’t rub in the salt
Now I just fill the dead air with static and noise, as I know

So caught up in how I didn't think of where
Where should I be headed ? (i get sore)
This is what I dreaded
Changes in the scenery are nearly enough
Just don't pull me away from whеre I started from

So caught up in wherе I didn't think of why
But I can't regret it (i get sore)
I should just forget it
Changes in the scenery are nearly enough
Just don't pull me away from where I started from

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inlet (Chalbért Remix)

ineffable (bad narrator remix)

disphing - ineffable (bad narrator remix)

Drive link to writing accompanying the pieces :
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Artwork & additional vocals by @flagrastama

Bandcamp release includes bonus tracks & artworks! 

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“ofania” is an album inspired by a very hard period in my life. During 2021-2022 I struggled with an intense case of body dysmorphia. Hours spent in front of the mirror compulsively checking my appearance every single day, completely rewired, obsessive thought patterns, compulsions that partially stayed with me until now - and so on. It even got so bad I almost broke a part of my face while trying to “fix” a self-perceived flaw. It felt like my brain turned into a puddle. I couldn’t think of anything else, the compulsions felt like worshipping a god that gets off on watching you decay.

I made ofania throughout 2023, as soon as I started getting out of that shit. Of course it’s still not perfect and some days can be hard, but I am in such a healthier & happier place now - and I'm really proud of that. I learned to deal with intrusive thoughts better and not let them bleed into my identity anymore.

Making the album was really therapeutic for me. It tells my personal experiences through a grandiose, kinda gaudy fictional narrative. I’m an overdramatic bitch sometimes. Building a grand fantasy setting around a very intimate experience was an intuitive way for me to let my emotions out & express myself.

It tells the story of Veels - proud creatures brought to their knees by an infection breaking their minds into a submissive, drone-like state and submerging them in black tar. It tells that story from two perspectives - a protagonist named Finn trying their best to not give in to the virus - and an environmental view of the valley in which it’s taking place.
It ends with Finn and the rest of their kind fully giving into the corruption. Thick black slime spewing out of their mouths, empty stares and quiet moans is all that’s left. Story-wise, it felt fun to end the album on a dark note, but on a personal level it serves as a bit of a warning. The twisted view you had of yourself was never real and you needed to separate yourself from this parasitic symbiote if you didn’t want to end up like this.

The project obviously has a very kinky undertone. The hypno/drone elements have been implemented consciously - I noticed that the way I think about dysmorphia somewhat crosses with what entices me about those. I tried to lean into it and explore the line between the two. Can I make something therapeutic by expressing those heavy topics through a kinky fantasy lens? How do these two mesh in my brain and can I explore the connection safely & carefully for myself? It’s a really interesting dynamic - I find the album as dark as I find it hot lol

Sonically, I wanted to represent the corruption settling in the valley. Initially it’s rejected - the noise is brutally polluting the instrumentation around it, which sounds erratic & anxious in response. As the infection settles in, so does the instrumentation which starts to harmonize with the noise the more it lets it in.
Structurally, it’s definitely program music. I tried to represent the story events in the actual audio very methodically - to the point of me knowing which sounds are diegetic vs non diegetic to the universe inside.

With the release of ofania, I'm closing a chapter in my art and I am ready to enter a new one. I’m really fucking proud of this piece and my journey to get here. It’s honestly what I wished I could create when I started making music - and then some! I hope you can find something in it too.

-Raz


Special thanks to Mom, Flagrastama, Shevvy, Vidvana, Fen, Nadpher and Mei for supporting the project thru-out the process <3

ofania

ofania (full album)

remix of porter made in one night, if i work on this more ill replace the file
if i wake up and i hear this and i think "god this sucks" ill private it

musician

above the skies also lies hell is an expression of hopelessness.

It takes roots in a depressing, nostalgic but warm bag of emotions that one can feel when love and dreams meets the harsh reality of life. In a sense, this song screams so much emotionnal pain that it wants to become breathtaking - as your entire universe shatters in front of your eyes, and there's too much to feel for your helpless, innocent soul.

I just wanted to love, to feel, to dream, to live.

*°.


/!\ There is a MUSIC VIDEO of that song up on my youtube, I highly recommend watching it (it took me very long to complete)

Once again I need to thank @lightshard and @sab3rmusic for helping me with the mixdown.

PS : I wrote this song in January 2024... I got better in the mean time. There is hope for you. You will live again, and you will not be alone anymore.

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