DESAHOGO (REMIX)
WRITTEN BY: MENDEZ

ORIGINAL SONG: DESAHOGO BY NICKY JAM

ALL TIGHTS GO TO THE ORIGINAL ARTIST AND PRODUCERS.

LYRICS:


[CHORUS:]
Me complace amarte
Disfruto acariciarte y ponerte a dormir
Es escalofriante
Tenerte de frente, hacerte sonreí-í-í-ír


[VERSE 1:]
I feel the demons in my head
Roaming freely
This is the real me
You think you could dissect my heart
And get the root of my feelings
But once you cut me open
You’ll notice the baggage I carry
I don’t recognize myself
This shit is truly getting scary
Have I found my truth
Or fallen from God’s grace
Kiss people who hate me
And spit on my loved ones face
I can’t erase all the mistakes
I’ve done, that’s why I
Fucking live with regret
And want to hold a gun
And kill the image of me
I mean the one
That’s hurt so many people
That only wanted to see me grow
My lack of comprehension 
Is what blocked me from letting em know
Close the curtains
And cut my veins
At the end of each show
Try to stay away from these drugs
That are offered
When I’m feeling low
I love you but I hate myself
So many reasons
Standing out
The brokenness of each season
See people leaving
Another lonely evening
Where I see death dance with my soul
Inject my veins with pain
And try to drink to warm myself
Whenever I feel cold

[CHORUS:]
Me complace amarte
Disfruto acariciarte y ponerte a dormir
Es escalofriante
Tenerte de frente, hacerte sonreí-í-í-ír

[VERSE 2:]
I’m fucking trying 
But honestly I feel like dying
Lonely nights
My voices are louder
When it is fucking silent
I look around me 
And all I see is pain and this violence 
See my friends overdose
And suffer in the quiet
I carry their burdens
But I got some weight on my shoulders
See my fathers broken pieces
As I am growing older
I feel colder
They say to fuck myself up
And never remain sober
I push people away
The moment
That we start getting closer
Cause I’m scared of being betrayed
Never flipping the page
If I express my feelings
They’ll hold me up in a cage
“Men don’t cry”
That’s a lie that I was told 
In the first grade
Well, I’ll go against everything my father told me
And pen up my rage
I’m trying to reparent my inner kid
Trying to right (write) the mistakes
That I ever fucking did
I’m sorry if I ever hurt you
Or cause you up any harm
There’s no excuse
I send my best regards
I love you from afar and...

[CHORUS:]
Me complace amarte
Disfruto acariciarte y ponerte a dormir
Es escalofriante
Tenerte de frente, hacerte sonreí-í-í-ír

DESAHOGO (REMIX)

"UNGODLY - EP"
AN EXTENDED PLAY BY: MENDEZ
RERELEASE OF HOUSES OF THE UNGODLY 2018.
SONDER. 2020
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED TO ARTIST & PRODUCER.

Houses of the Ungodly

hide.

sick.

the outsiders.

REBELS

This track was the opening for an album that I was working on. The concept of LONG LIVE MENDEZ was about the situation I was in. My depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts were worsening. I spent my days thinking what would happen if I ended up killing myself, so I came up with this album. It became too personal so I never released it. I guess the whole purpose was for me to heal through the making of it. 

Remember that whenever you feel lost, that there is hope. I love you and I am here for you whenever you need someone to talk to. You are worth more than anything in this world and you are not a burden. Even though it feels like depression doesn’t have a finish, I could promise that you will have better days. Nothing in this life lasts forever. Surround yourself with love and take the time to heal. Seek the truth. Free your mind, free your soul.

Much love.

MENDEZ

MENDEZ

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