Superhuman [2020]

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This is a collection of songs I wrote for someone who ended up being not worth the effort. Sleepyhead is a personal favourite - a song so honest and so real in the moment, only to now serve as a reminder that you should never really trust anyone in this life! Read the lyrics to that song and realise the outcome of it was not that she was asleep for days, but sleeping with another dude while I worried my ass off thinking something was wrong! LOVE IT!!

My Alien Life - cancelled album demos!

Imaginary Friends [2022]

as the world falls apart (2025)

Will we ever see the bright side again?
You told me, you told me
Rolling on and on and on you said
“You sold me, you sold me out“

No surprise
We met a quick demise
How time flies when you're living in denial
No surprise, a quick demise, time flies
When you're living in denial

Robot huskies
Just so you know the song is for you
You took me for a ride
I had no clue
You'll never know the impact you had on me

Will we ever see the bright side again?
You told me, you told me
Hanging on and on by a thread
You sold me, you sold me a bag of lies
Hidden behind that avatar
Hidden behind that avatar, I can't imagine how you felt when I fell apart around you
Right over you
I fell apart right over you

There's no bad blood here
But you wanna be alone
The only bad blood I've known is coursing through my veins
You cut so deep
Making incisions inside me
You cut so deep
Making incisions inside me

Will we ever see the bright side again?
You told me, you told me
Hanging on and on by a thread
You sold me, you sold me a bag of lies
Hidden behind that avatar
Hidden behind that avatar, I can't imagine how you felt when I fell apart around you

“mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun”
“mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun”
“mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun”
“mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun”

I Fell Apart Around You (Remastered)

She’s a voodoo kid
Playing around with things that she ain’t fully wrapped her head around yet
They’ll say she’s crazy
Yeah, I would too
I would too if I hadn’t seen blood gushing out from the walls
The veil slipped
Knots tying again
The truth
Eyeing it up
As if time ain’t shit
It all lines up, maybe legit
So I run
And I hide
While red star comes to light
Painted black, I can see how real it is
A star burns inside my soul
So I confronted it, and it waved right back
Now it’s too late, cause I can’t take it back

So hold on for dear life
Get a star

He’s a voodoo kid
Playing around and he’s gone so deep he’s right in the thick of it
He know’s it’s crazy so he refused to pay his dues
Should I clue you in?
You won’t like the answers
He’s pulling all the strings
You know it’s real now
So make it count

It’s gonna come quick and when it does you bet your ass you’re gonna know
Ya best bet is to just move slow
Straight up where the roots won’t grow
Count backwards from 10 and count 6 three times
Step into the light and see that I’m not playing games this time
It’s you or him, so take a life, get a star, take a life, get a star

So hold on for dear life
Get a star

No go
No
Go

So you think you got it all figured out?
The holy spirit can’t help you now
Bet you don’t know the half of it
Kinda serious
Bet you couldn’t handle the truth
You’d be delirious
Skip along
We’re summoning all of the beasts that you thought were fairytales and make belief
Can you handle it?
Cause Lucifer speaks through me
And I’m fucking loving it
Yeah - I’m loving it
Nothing can save me now

So hold on for dear life
Get a star

Voodoo Kid

turn back the clock
forget everything that i've been shown
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you'll never feel home again
you'll never feel whole again
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you'll never feel whole again

sidestep the sun
turn focus to the moon
and glow
you'll never feel whole again

if i never see home again
if i never see home again

i've been the mirror dimension and seen colourblind entities
i got pictures for proof
the only thing?
what i saw.. it looked just like me

i've been to the mirror dimension
i've been to the mirror dimension

oh we are so set inside our ways
as if we've no control
a hidden source of energy conceals our fate
and oh you are so blind to your mistakes
as if you had no control
but you know but you know
what you did and you did it

and stop paying attention to the signs
this game will drive you insane if you let them in
you can't let them win
so submit to the eye now
no escape when they live within
this bloods too thick to swim
i'm drowning
from highs to hell lows to
you've been overthrown
'na na na na na'
covers blown
she's frowning
dream of a better day and he'll come out to play
like scenes from the guillotine
don't bow your head and pray

head games
red flames

oh we are so set inside our ways
as if we've no control
a hidden source of energy conceals our fate
and oh you are so blind to your mistakes
as if you had no control
but you know but you know
what you did and you did it

i've seen the demon inside
he stared into my eyes and through my soul
he said hello

i've been to the mirror dimension
i spoke to the devil inside
when i awoke i had new perception
a new view on this mirage we call life

he stared into my eyes and through my soul and he screamed
"hello, I'm here to take you for a ride"
"welcome to your new home"
"welcome to your new life"
"welcome to your new unspoken role"
"welcome to your broken mind"

The Mirror Dimension

Red haired doll comes knocking at the door
It's a brand new day and I've been looking hard for a new host
I should be running for the hills
She's just a picture on a page
But I'm convinced that she's the devil
Yeah I'm convinced, I'm sure, she's the devil
hahahahaha
She's the devil
And she's come to take my soul

It's dreampool
A new alias - the same girl
Here's dreampool
A haunted doll coming after me with nothing but a play
It goes deeper than that
She's not a girl
She's a force to be reckoned with
She's dreampool
Thought she was out but she's still right there
Watching everything

Catie likes to play games with split personalities
A real basket case
I was hooked but now I'm able to see through it
Cause Catie said goodbye
Sometime in the past I ruined the vibe like only I can
Unable to quit while ahead
Disable the alarm and break in
I'll grab a bag and put her inside and I'll put her stupid ass into the back of my van and I'll drive us both into the ocean

HAHAHAHA

It's dreampool
A new alias - the same girl
Here's dreampool
A haunted doll coming after me with nothing but a play
It goes deeper than that
She's not a girl
She's a force to be reckoned with
She's dreampool
Thought she was out but she's still right there
Watching everything

Catie's in the wrong neck of the woods and she doesn't even know it
I've got a hex prepared and if she gets too close I'm gonna show it
I KNOW WHERE YOU ARE CATIE
Catie's in the wrong neck of the woods and she doesn't even know it
I've got a hex prepared and if she gets too close I'm gonna show it
I'VE GOT FINGERS FOR MAGIC CATIE
YOU'RE IN THE WRONG NECK OF THE WOODS AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW IT
I GOT A HEX PREPARED AND WHEN YOU GET TOO CLOSE I'M GONNA SHOW IT CATIE

She Might Be The Devil

Anti-christ ascends
It's time to meet my friends
Surface reality ain't all that its shaped up to be
Just a drop of blood is all it takes to manifest your destiny

Roll on
Soul off
Eyes closed
Mouth shut

Get out while you can
Possessed and shaken
Bodies aching
Poltergeists don't give you much say in how they'll take you down
Surrender yourself
Your bodies ready to be taken
So welcome to hell on Earth
You've taken your sweet time
Covered in blood, those broken bones won't give you peace of mind
For hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
As we become unborn your time has come

Be sure to repent
The fates our brothers met
Sin intertwined, determined
Make haste with cast cuts and vermin
Can you feel the fire rise inside?
Do you realise your soul is burning?

Roll on as if theres nothing there [and in the last days we just felt nothing]
Just roll on as if theres nothing there [and in the last days we just felt nothing]

Get out while you can
Possessed and shaken
Bodies aching
Poltergeists don't give you much say in how they'll take you down
Surrender yourself
Your bodies ready to be taken
So welcome to hell on Earth
You've taken your sweet time
Covered in blood, those broken bones won't give you peace of mind
You wanted all the answers and you've got them now
So leave them all behind
Your mind is mine

"A snake with honey-coloured eyes survived and told what had happened:

In our burning fields, Yesterday drew me with the spittle of its mouth on a charred wall, like a blackboard in front of frightened pupils. Thus you saw in me the image of my father, throwing my last pennies into the fountain of death, then sewing the buttons of his oil-green coat in the furrows of mud where you had planted seeds, arranged in the form of words, and they grew and blossomed when light rained down warm as remorse, and again blood was made to flow on the palms of the earth. Canes grew high as poplars and we broke them to roof our refuge, and we jumped over our vein-streams to swim in our first sky. We fertilised our language with our debris. Mountains had become ripe heads for the fists of the sky and the slopes cheeks we ran down like melted ice, and at every point where the disappeared had fallen an unattainable flower sprang up, or a burning matchstick flickered before a schoolboy could close his mouth over it to put out the flame – all as he hurries to do his homework on forgetting fear.

We will remember for a long time how we were before this harvest. Each of us will visit his own grave, carrying a whip on his shoulder, or behind his back a sickle or a knife. Time was a game. We bade farewell to our beds that had been smashed by our dreams. Gamblers offered us a moon that crumbled to dust at the touch of our fingers. Rats offered us their eyes as stars. Hunger blazed its suns behind our foreheads. Books we hadn’t read flittered down and landed on our ulcers. Great silences seeped through our bandages. No one uttered a word. The dots and signs with which we ended our lines leapt towards the words scattered about them, and all meanings changed."

"I have set my feet in the South, and have looked about me, saying: Are not the thunders of increase those which reign in the second angle?
Under whom I have placed those whom none hath yet numbered, but One; in whom the second beginnings of things are and wax strong, successively adding the numbers of time, and their powers doth stand as the first of the nine!
Arise!, you sons of pleasure, and visit the Earth; for I am the Lord, your God, which is and liveth forever!
In the name of Satan, Move!, and show yourselves as pleasant deliverers, that you may praise Him among the sons of men!”

Hell On Earth

"If I were the Prince of Darkness, I’d want to engulf the whole world in darkness. And I’d have a third of its real estate, and four-fifths of its population, but I wouldn’t be happy until I had seized the ripest apple on the tree — Thee.  So I’d set about however necessary to take over the United States. I’d subvert the churches first — I’d begin with a campaign of whispers. With the wisdom of a serpent, I would whisper to you as I whispered to Eve: ‘Do as you please.’

To the young, I would whisper that ‘The Bible is a myth.’ I would convince them that man created God instead of the other way around. I would confide that what’s bad is good, and what’s good is ‘square.’ And the old, I would teach to pray, after me, ‘Our Father, which art in Washington…’

And then I’d get organised. I’d educate authors in how to make lurid literature exciting, so that anything else would appear dull and uninteresting. I’d threaten TV with dirtier movies and vice versa. I’d pedal narcotics to whom I could. I’d sell alcohol to ladies and gentlemen of distinction. I’d tranquillise the rest with pills.

“If I were the devil I’d soon have families that war with themselves, churches at war with themselves, and nations at war with themselves; until each in its turn was consumed. And with promises of higher ratings I’d have mesmerising media fanning the flames. If I were the devil I would encourage schools to refine young intellects, but neglect to discipline emotions — just let those run wild, until before you knew it, you’d have to have drug sniffing dogs and metal detectors at every schoolhouse door.

“Within a decade I’d have prisons overflowing, I’d have judges promoting pornography — soon I could evict God from the courthouse, then from the schoolhouse, and then from the houses of Congress. And in His own churches I would substitute psychology for religion, and deify science. I would lure priests and pastors into misusing boys and girls, and church money. If I were the devil I’d make the symbols of Easter an egg and the symbol of Christmas a bottle.

“If I were the devil I’d take from those who have, and give to those who want until I had killed the incentive of the ambitious.

And what do you bet I could get whole states to promote gambling as the way to get rich? I would caution against extremes and hard work in Patriotism, in moral conduct. I would convince the young that marriage is old-fashioned, that swinging is more fun, that what you see on the TV is the way to be. And thus, I could undress you in public, and I could lure you into bed with diseases for which there is no cure. In other words, if I were the devil I’d just keep right on doing what he’s doing."


Samples

Paul Harveys 'If I Were The Devil' - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4LWPcEo2gV0

The Eerie Sounds of Saturn - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sh2-P8hG5-E&t

Door Knocking Angry Sound Effect - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rboTM-rwtpE

Tapping on glass window - sound effects - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCwVAmFyPMA

Audio Of The Possession Of The REAL Emily Rose - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LfC0AV8DNAY

Indian Love Call by Slim Whitman - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBuk1HXcz1k

The Sound Of Saturn (Intro)

what would you do if i told you that my brain is on the outside?
what would you do?
what would you do if i told you that my brain is on the outside?
what would you do?

truth or dare
with just a stare she says "i'm never going there again"
she's a 10 but she's sick sick sick

what would she do if i told her that i've thought about her insides?
what would she do?
what would she do if i told her that i've thought about her insides?
what would she do?

truth or dare
with just a stare she says "i'm never going there again"
she's a 10 but she's sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick

she's fuckin sick in the head
she got a nasty sense of fun and she's got me tied down to the bed
so rotten so heavy
gotta get outta here but shes sick sick sick and got me tracked in the mirror
cause shes fuckin sick
shes sick sick sick
gotta get outta here
gotta get outta here
gotta get outta here
gotta get outta here
shes a 10 but shes sick sick sick
shes a 10 but shes sick sick sick
shes a 10 but shes sick sick sick
shes a 10 but shes sick sick sick

She's A 10, But..

If I could turn back time
I'd turn it back six years and I'd say hello
I could have saved you my alien girl

If I could turn back time
I'd have walked to you by now
We'd see pretty things and every little bug would show us around
The universe would be our spaceship

My alien girl got a head thats shaped like mine
And its terrifying

I wanna save you
But I know you don't need to be rescued
Cause you're a star that needs to shine
And I'm sure you're mine
But all I really know for a fact is I'm yours
And thats enough to get me by
At least until I can find a way to turn back time
At least until I can find a way to turn back time

My Alien Girl

Would you catch me like I'd catch you?
My alien girl - we're living in a strange world, my dear
You know my every fear and my every thought
Regurgitate, then swallow it up - my love!
It just keeps leaking out
Without you - I fear the end edges ever so near

So if I am to fall down here
Then would you dig me out?
Cause I can feel your heart but I'm yet to hear your heart beat
And its becoming ever so clear that we're just two kids that were meant for each other

Regurgitate, My Love! [demo]

If you fall over 
It's no trip cause I'll be there with arms open
Yeah - we can fall over
Cause I got a plan to start the world over
Soon enough I'll find a way to make the world stop spinning
Then the dizziness will fade away and you can breathe and find a way to take the world on by my side and we can both enjoy the ride

But until then all I got is
Pictures of cats for the girl with the dizzy spells
Hope to release her from feeling those dizzy spells
But all that I got is pictures of cats for her dizzy spells - for now

And if star signs are all we are then.. what the hell are you if you're heaven sent?

If it's gravity bringing you down and space is where we have to be
Then I will master rocketry and find a way to get us there
We'll find our way, and be one mind

Rocket Science [initial idea]

It's a long walk home
A single tear drips from the right socket
But head held high
Burning through the eyes
I try to hide my smile as the cars drive by
They see the glow from my inside
But they don't know the feeling cause they're all running from the world
So with my eyes set in the distance
I ask myself

What's one night away?
When just around the corner looms forever
What's one night away?

Hill Road [demo]

In the East I saw them hovering above the clouds
In my dreams I saw them shovelling dirt right into my mouth

Please don't take me home to them
I'm begging you, I'm begging you
Please don't take us home to them
Anywhere but Earth will do

Alien Abduction [rough demo]

[I found my old recordings and cringey and first attempts as they were.... yeah]

The nights spent stuck with you make this summer go so long
And I'm telling you I do these things cause theres nothing to do
Take this note and take it home
I wrote it straight from my heart
And it'll tell you exactly how I feel about your bad news and how I feel
What could we do?
We never knew what we should do
We knew that our time was running out

This never felt so good
I never had the guts to tell you
I really needed space
I never had a friend to talk to
I left her all alone
I messed things up but I don't need you

We hung out in the backyard
On my own looking back now
We made these mistakes before
More than a few times
You laid against my chest and you listened to my heartbeat
Irregular, you said it skipped in the heat
I'll never forget the nights we spent here all alone
I feel it
Do you feel it

Pacing (2011)

They float above all the noise and expectations with chill gaze
They won't descend till we give them realisations of our fate

How could I have been so dumb?
Time slipped by and left without a trace
Seven years, green cloud following me around
Now I sit here astounded at what my life's become
The pain is as real as the hair that leaves my pale forehead

They float above all the noise and expectations with chill gaze
They won't descend till we give them realisations of our fate

They Float

My Alien Life (Intro) [demo]

I'm looking into every word and adding all the letters up
It could be god
It could be signs
It could be shattered mental health
With nothing to stop me I'll forge my own path
I'm but a shadow now of what's become my former self
Seventeen years of wasted potential but now it's all adding up
Antennae's online and I'm just trying to find the right energy
A destiny concealed and hidden in numerology

So go ahead and call me insane
Yeah, call me crazy but I know what the universe is trying to tell me cause

Signs are everywhere
If you find them, they'll lend you a hand
You just gotta look close enough and try to understand
What they're trying to tell you
Signs are everywhere
If you find them, they'll lend you a hand
You just gotta look close enough and try to understand
What they're trying to tell you
What they trying to tell you?
What they trying to tell you?

Led by gut feelings and intuition alone
A moth flies by and its enough to put me back in the danger zone
With no place to call home
I'll take reality by the throat and make it my own
I'll make it my own using witchcraft and sorcery

If I follow the signs to the end of the road then blood will spill
If I follow the signs to the end of the road then blood will spill
I could never do it... but, what if Satan takes the wheel?
If I follow the signs to the end of the road then blood will spill
If I follow the signs to the end of the road then blood will spill

Imaginary Friends

Blood Will Spill v2

Are we all doomed to take part in what's become of society
They take and break our souls to take part in what's become a mockery of our sanity
Our twisted vanity will be the end of everything
Put trust in vampires and they'll twist your neck into vices
(Spiritual warfare - it's what we do best)

Tear the flesh right off my face and wear it as your own, my angel
This will be the final stand I ever make for you, my angel

She took my place, so I dug her a shallow grave
Six feet was too much to hold her
A ritual that's paved in blood and covered in gold and guts
A compromise thats hers to offer
My fucked up sense of depravity is my way of escaping gravity
Just a coping mechanism to no fault
I heard them running for the hills
With a shotgun loaded I revealed my feet would outrun shoes you've got

Tear the flesh right off my face and wear it as your own, my angel
This will be the final stand I ever make for you, my angel

Tear The Flesh [wip demo]

Superhuman

Superhuman v2

Shocked to find a, like.. something or another of other
I'm looking for something that I can't find
Something to grind these tea leaves into a fine green pile

I'm still looking for something that I can't find
That I can't find

Shuffle from the back to the middle
Keep pushing for the light
Scuffle with a word in the riddle
Keep looking for the right answers for my little brain
I need a potion for this constant inner chest pain

I'm still looking for something that I can't find
That I can't find
That I can't find

Watch as it condense and fits neatly into the sleeve
And keeps me nailed to the chair
Spirit bomb lurking in the walls
Demons waiting around just in case I call home
I call home

If I can find my back home then tomorrow will be a better day
If I can find my back home then tomorrow will be a better day
If I can find my back home then tomorrow will be a better day
If I can find my back home then tomorrow will be a better day

Blue Lotus Leaf

The Dark Road Ahead

If anyone would like the Reason 5/Cubase 5 files for this dm me. I'll likely redo the mix on this sometime this year

The Cure - Just Like Heaven (The S¡mple! Remix)

Mozzarella sticks
They're my favourite treat
Every single bite a cheesy feat
Crunchy, gooey, can't get enough mozzarella sticks
My crispy love

In the corner booth under neon lights 
Mozzarella sticks - crunchy cheesy bites
GOLDEN FRIED PERFECTION
Always on my mind
LATE NIGHT CRAVINGS
Satisfaction I find

When the hunger hits I know just what to do
Mozzarella sticks - nothing else will do
Pull apart the cheese and feel the vibe
In every bite I come alive

Mozzarella sticks
They're my favourite treat
Every single bite a cheesy feat
Crunchy, gooey, can't get enough mozzarella sticks
My crispy love

From the kitchen to the table, hot and fresh
Mozzarella sticks they all beat the rest
Dipping sauces on the side but I don't care
It's the cheesy core that keeps me there

When the hunger hits I know just what to do
Mozzarella sticks - nothing else will do
Pull apart the cheese and feel the vibe
In every bite I come alive

Mozzarella sticks
They're my favourite treat
Every single bite a cheesy feat
Crunchy, gooey, can't get enough mozzarella sticks
My crispy love

Mozzarella sticks they make me whole

Mozzarella Sticks

With work pretty much eating up all of my time I can't see myself being able to make the stuff I want to make so this is me throwing a tantrum and saying "I quit"

In reality a part of me really does like the idea of saving up, quitting my job and spending a few months unemployed and making music full time again, but until that happens .. yeah. G'bye

I Quit

The Systems Intact

You are about the size of a lemon
Performing flips and twists and turns
All at the age of 15 weeks old

Wrapped tight in your cocoon
I will not fail you
Wrapped tight in your cocoon
I will not fail you
Wrapped tight in your cocoon
I will not fail you
Wrapped tight in your cocoon
I will not fail you

15 Weeks

She throws words out like they don't mean anything
Is she evil?
You see, I have tried just about everything
But she's evil

Evil
She's evil

Never really mattered what I said
Never really mattered what I did
Never really mattered what I said
Never really mattered what I did
Never really mattered what I said
Never really mattered what I did
Never really mattered what I said
Never really mattered what I did
Never really mattered what I said
Never really mattered what I did

She'll take everything you love and keep it locked inside of her ego
Throw accusations in your face
Make out you're this big disgrace and then lie
Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie
She lies
She lies
She lies

Never matters what I say
Never matters what I do
Never matters what I say
Never matters what I do
Never matters what I say
Never matters what I do
Never matters what I say
Never matters what I do

Is She Evil?

(Bit rough around the edges, this one.. that second verse though with the piano - yum)

I'll fight anything you wanna throw at me when he's stuck in the middle
I'll fight anything you wanna throw at me when he's stuck in the middle

When he's stuck in the middle
[stuck in the middle, stuck in the middle]
When he's stuck in the middle
[stuck in the middle, stuck in the middle]
When he's stuck in the middle
[stuck in the middle, stuck in the middle, stuck in the middle, stuck in the middle]

If you tried then maybe everything would work out fine
If we tried, then why is everything so black and white?
If its goodbye, I'm not changing your mind tonight

She says that I don't care
But how is that fair when loves thrown out for doubt
I'm always there
So don't have another breakdown..
Please don't have another breakdown tonight..

You wanted everything that you already had
And everyone knows that so why don't you get mad

Is this what you wanted?
Is this what you wanted?

He's Stuck in the Middle [wip demo]

I'd like to hold you forever and thereafter and just a little bit more
And when we're ghosts, we'll do it again for eternity
Until we become bugs
And then I'll come and find you again
Come and find you again and we could be bugs together
And then I'll come and find you again
Come and find you again and we could be bugs together

I'll be the lion and you'll be the striped one
Yeah, you're the zebra eating the lion
You've got me forgetting what it is that I'm doing here because I'm so lost in you

We could be bugs together
We could be bugs forever

We Could Be Bugs [demo]

All about you in a fucked up world
It's all about you, the narcissistic girl
Said everything that there was to say
But you just went off and abused me anyway
Cause you're a narcissist

She's going off the rails and blaming everything but herself
These hormones and changes don't give you the right to take it out on me
You can't take it out on me

Please see, my darling see
Please see, my darling see

As The World Falls Apart [demo]

Just another guy stuck on you
I bet that you’ve accrued quite a few
Hearts are piling up in a big mess
But you want that don’t you
I’m coming unglued
And I’m trying to subdue
My feelings for you
But you want that don’t you

Chasing a feeling is so appealing
When it’s for you and you don’t want me to
When you don’t want me to

I spy with my third eye
A girl who hates a guy
Am I wasting my time like you’re wasting yours?
I spy with my third eye
A girl who hates a guy 
I keep wasting your time
So could you waste mine?

I’m not forgetting about you anytime soon 

And I promise you 
We could have it all
If you promise me
You’ll take my call

With you wasting all of my time

I swear on my brown eyes
When you find another guy
He’ll never love you as much as I might
Had you let me try
I swear on your green eyes
That grey silk dress of yours
Will always be engrained in my mind
So let me try

I Spy, With My Third Eye

Jimmy Eat World - The Middle (The S¡mple! Remix)

From the album “Superhuman” (working title, anyway), coming... hopefully by the end of September/early October??

Contemplating what you said, I sit alone in the shed
Heavy weight on heart and both hands on my head
Why you gotta play so hard to get?
I'm trying not to worry but I can't help but fret
Why we gotta play around and just be friends?
I think you'd rather see me dead

So you'll hide away and play pretend
Carry on as if I don't exist
And it’s okay - cause it's exactly what you want

I'm happy on my own
It won't be long until you're forgotten
I guess it doesn't really matter cause you never said much anyway

Is anybody looking for love in these dire times?
Throwing everything on the line over open fires
Feeling the burn and the sting of your cold smile
You've got a dark heart and a tendency to live in denial
Back and forth, leaving me behind
Ignore all the signs that I leave you, playing on my mind
If you look close enough you might find
A piece of me that resonates
A piece of you that feels the same
A piece of us left in the cold
A simple truth that's to behold
Rinse and repeat
Give in to defeat
Ignored once again
They call me “block button clickbait“

I'm happy on my own
It won’t be long until you're forgotten
I guess it doesn't really matter cause you never said much anyway

Block Button Clickbait

Slow coach motion sickness, it’s alright
Just as long as you are fine
Bug poke picture blur there’s a witness
Is he too scared to confide?
Sterile needle, sell us ya business
Unfit to be assigned
Let us in, we’ll pick your enigma
A space to be confined

Sharing bags of dirt, we all collide
A star split into two
Staring blankly into empty space
A far reach into you
Longing for a girl who’s far away
A girl who’s not used to being in a new world
I offer my shaking hand to you
She’s all masked up and crooked
Offering a quick glance at me too

We’ll share the view
Go go gadget strong thumbs

Step into a new place
Familiarity fades into the past
Wonder why this new face is so torn up
A concept I can’t grasp
Land on concrete face first
With broken teeth, I’ll make damn sure this pain will last
Licking wounds is for gentle souls and I’m sharp edged broken glass
Sharp edged broken glass
Cut, bleed, broken glass
Bleed into me
Bleed into me

Sharing bags of dirt, we all collide
A star split into two
Staring blankly into empty space
A far reach into you
Longing for a girl who’s far away
A girl who’s not used to being in a new world
I offer my shaking hand to you
She’s all masked up and crooked
Offering a quick glance at me too

Go Go Gadget Strong Thumbs

They're all gone but nothings forgotten here
They're all wrong
A mistake leads us into where I come from
A memory like a scene from all my worst dreams
We're all strong until the walls come crashing down

Forget me if you start to notice
The simple truth of it all is that I haven't got a clue
Believe me, if I had the slightest idea I wouldn't give it a second thought
Cause I'm brain-dead

I woke up
This never meant a thing at all
We're all wrong
Unpredictable and nervous so we pretend that nothing's happening
While circumstances boil us from the inside
A bittersweet surprise
A glimpse of life through their eyes

Forget me if you start to notice
The simple truth of it all is that I haven't got a clue
Believe me, if I had the slightest idea I wouldn't give it a second thought
Cause I'm brain-dead
I'm brain-dead
I'm brain-dead

Forget me if you start to notice
The simple truth of it all is that I haven't got a clue
Believe me, if I had the slightest idea I wouldn't give it a second thought
Cause I'm braindead

It's almost too easy
It's almost too easy
To think - it took three years to get to this point

Brain Dead

Carry Me, Bumblebee

I Fell Apart Around You

Joanne - you love playing these games, I know
All on your handheld telephone
Joanne - I love playing these games, don't go
We're living in our own virtual world

Joanne - I hear you really wanna play
Hey, Joanne - it might be your lucky day
Yeah come play with me
It goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on

Anxieties are lingering
While she attempts a rekindling
These lonely days are wearing thin
I'm open, but I can't help but think
I'm open, but I can't help but think
Holding phone - I'm in the zone
I'm open, but I can't help but think
Open app - surprise attack
I'm open, but I can't help but think
Quick dm - shot down again
I'm open, but I can't help but think
Sliding into you again
I'm open, but I can't help but think

Joanne - I heard you really wanna play
Hey, Joanne - it might be your lucky day
Are you enjoying these head games?
Do you get off on your strange ways?
Joanne, all I ever wanted to say
Is you're kind of beautiful to me

It goes on and on
We go on and on
It goes on and on
This goes on and on and on and on and on and on
It goes on and on
We go on and on
On on and on and on on and on and on

Joanne - you really love playing these games, I know
Exploring these pixelated caves
Joanne - I love playing these games, don't go
We're living in our own virtual world
Surrounded by circular faces
Angular, these headshot traces
Do they mean something to you?
Cause they mean nothing to me
Nothing to me

They mean nothing to me

Joanne Is In A Virtual World

In my head
Images of a girl who makes me feel such dread
Feels so good I won't let it go
She could be the only one who ever came close to seeing
My true self - the only one who I never got to tell

She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know
She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know

In my bed
I talk as if she's laying there next to me
But instead
There's an empty space where she should be
I could see my true self looking in the mirror back at me
..Is that what she could see?

She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know
She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know

That dread I know will kill me
I'm scared she won't believe me
Should I try again?

When I said I didn't think she was right for me
What I meant - I knew that she was wrong for me
But I still can't escape images in my head
It fills me up with dread

She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know
She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know
She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know
She's gone
I need to find out where it went wrong
Perhaps I'll never know

Written/produced by @MyFriendIce and @Snaps1

Mixed/mastered by @Snaps1

She's Gone

as the world falls apart - the sixth album, coming soon .. it's been too long

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