a lot that i can't stomach,
so it makes me feel disgusted.
you haven't had one of the things that i've had in hundreds.

i thought i've taken it all,
guess i don't know what enough is.
might as well stay where i'm at,
since i already know what i'm stuck with.

sat back and watched the years add up,
now i guess that i just don't matter.
after the friendships that i fractured
not many see me with compassion...

and yeah i fully understand it.
i am the worst,
i'm the baddest.
where ever i walk i bring panic,
but you already knew i was branded.

attack a beat with everything i've felt all week.
i keep falling to my knees, but can't nobody hear me grieve.
you should see me when i bleed, when i'm not knowin' how to think.
how should i really try to be?
seems like i only wanna leave.

i hold my pain under the surface,
though it never seems to drown.
reminds me of the things that i'll never figure out.

i wanna let it go, but i just don't know how.
i wanna let it go, but i just don't know how.

i made myself the weakest 'cause i wanna sink down deeper.
there are heights i'll never be reachin', but that wasn't a secret.

with how it is and how it got, 
still don't know what i want.
ima bite i don't bark,
it's so hard for me to stop.

ain't no more point,
i can't feel joy,
there's only me staring back at the void.

ain't no more point,
i can't feel joy,
there's only me staring back at the void.

and i can't,
i just can't.
i just can't, i just cant.
i just cant,
i just cant, i just cant, i just cant.

i just cant,
i just cant.







i just don't wanna be here like that.











rough

i take these shots to the heart, i ain't bulletproof.
i'm 25, but my lungs say i'm 62.
would tell a lie if i said i wasn't missing you.
said i'd tell a lie if i said i wasn't missing you.

we used to talk all the time, but now we never do.
i'm peeling off in the night, whatcha' tryna get into? 
i'm always wondering why and really i wish i knew.
what's worse, the things that did or things i didn't do?

this life i just couldn't stand it, so i stopped being romantic.
i stopped thinking id manage and I gave into my sadness.
it seems it's just never passin' no wonder i get so rampant.
i mean i'm trapped in these habits that i formed from what was tragic.

many things i think often and ways i should've responded.
it never went as i wanted and so i never forgot it.
darken til i'm the darkest, even though i always have fought it.
just lay me off in a coffin, no more do i wish for talkin'.

it keeps on feeding while i've had enough of it.
i hit the ground way too hard when i plummeted.
why did i lie to the ones that i trusted in?
now they all left to the place where the others went.

always in pain there's no way i'm recoverin'.
i slipped away from the days that were sunniest.
in me is hate i'm aware of how much it is, 
but really deep down i know i'm in love with it.

i can't stop it when it comes,
i'm a monster when i'm numb
why think of all the things i've done,
when it only boils up my blood?

i've grown to like it when it's tough, 
almost excited when i'm crushed.
i won't deny i've given up, 
but i never tried... not even once.

i guess what's scaring me the most is that i'm not afraid, because it doesn't matter what i'd lose or could accumulate.
and i've been bent out of shape, there's just no getting straight.
so i'm stay hoping for my end, 'til then i count the days.

shaped from the choices that i made at an age where i didn't know what would stay.
what i break are the things you cant replace, so the price is never paid in a bed of flame is where i lay.

can't forget.

linkerz ft. DAMIAN

Therapy Session 1 ++Snapp beats 2x ++

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