[31 january 2023 1am]
barely functioning, friendship issues and underlying feeling for friends.

girl what you feeling?
like am i still dreaming?
like tell me what's real end
oh no.. i cannot pretend
no i cannot feel it
tell me what's the reason
all i feel has been sealed in
if you don't wanna talk then i'm leaving
just feel like ill collapse like a building
a million reasons i can't fuck with you
i can't keep pushing if you don't.. like we won't make it through
it's not my fault that you can't make no proof
i'll sit beside you and i'll tell you all the shit you do
make it make sense
how you not gon like me then you hang with my friends
you would do the same if i had all the bands
no i can't maintain this shit.. really i can't
i wonder how deep this shit get
and i wonder how you do this all again
and i thought that you and me.. we were the man
thought you had a plan.. but it ain't work out either way
all the shit you been doing wrong.. i can't say to your face
i know i won't say nothing wrong cause you get mad everyday
and if i talk to you like that... nothing gon change
i swear to god you switched up.. i can't keep up with your pace
i understand you got an image.. but ain't nothing a race
you burden my shoulders a lot.. so i want u erased
i can't even listen to you now.. that's a medicine of your taste
nowadays talking to you.. swear to god feels like a waste..

feeling (yuna)

:3

ig:
@mykamabandos
@xanstro

prod. by wander
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEX4_OHj5rg

[verse 1: myka]
everyday feels like another dollar that i just wasted
got a dream, but i don't know if i have the guts to face it
i got friends who tell me, "aye you and i, we're gonna make it"
but despite all the encouragement, i don't wanna trace it back
i'm not ready for the failures that ima endure
got me 1, 2 stepping my way out through the door
if you got me, then i got you
if you make it, ima argue
nobody deserves it more than me

[chorus: myka & xanstro]
pull up, hop out 
can’t feel unseen
bitch you know we hot as fuck
we light it up like kerosene
and i bring the mood up
yo bitch happy, call me sertraline
yeah you know we fresh as fuck
we shine it up like mr. clean
(x2)

[verse 2: xanstro]
off the rip you know i’m smoking off the zip
you can call me takumi
cuz i’m whipping that 86
fuck up off my shoulder
i just call that shit a chip
i aint changing anything
i’m just flipping the script
when i’m whipping in that shit call that tokyo drift
feel like uzumaki the way that im making it twist
call me zabuza because i’m coming from the mist
i’m bringing the pain
bitch you will cease to exist

[chorus: myka & xanstro]
pull up, hop out 
can’t feel unseen
bitch you know we hot as fuck
we light it up like kerosene
and i bring the mood up
yo bitch happy, call me sertraline
yeah you know we fresh as fuck
we shine it up like mr. clean
(x2)

[outro: myka & xanstro]
yeah, i know im the best
you can't fuck with me, the wicked gets no fucking rest
bet i make her kitty purr
she a flo rida
got the boots on with the fur
im a fast riser
she gon let me hit cuz i just be a little guy
ima hit it so good, she gon feel like she flying
i won't ever say im worthless
that's a fucking lie
cuz ima do what i want
don't need no reason why

lyrics & melody written by myka & xanstro

colon three (ft. xanstro) [prod. by wander]

featuring @mental + @1giib

tysm to the prods who put in so much work and effort into this for me <3 this song would not be what it is without them. pls go follow them and show them infinite amount of luv 
@attachxd
@m2monroe

                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───
𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚕:
don't know why i feel like this
don't know why i feel like shit
i just need a kiss
why's it gotta be like this
i think now it feels like bliss
i'm glad that you exist
even though i feel like that
you will never be like that
now i feel so sad 
everything it makes me crack
you can never take it back
take it back
take it back, everything you said to me
i don't care i need bliss and ecstasy
i need help but nobody rescue me
i need help but nobody care for me
i don't think that you ever cared for me
everything we had, you were playing me
but i can't tell on my way to see
you're pretending, it's just make believe

                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───
𝚐𝚒𝚒𝚋:
i don't know why you made me feel like this
you said you love me last night
i put up with your lies
didn't know you're playing tricks
why do you keep on doing this to me
why don't you just go set me free
i know you don't want to be 
my love
why can't you just talking to me 
cause i cant take it honestly
when you keep making me put in
my all (my all)

                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───
𝚊𝚔𝚊𝚜𝚞𝚔𝚒:
if you keep making me put in my all 
i might drown into a pitfall
i don't think i'll recover from you
you took everything i had too 
it's all we had just you and me
i tried so hard but you weren't listening 
i'm free but i still feel locked inside
with your arms around me there's no place to hide 
don't know why i feel like this 
don't know why i feel like shit 
i might jump off a bridge
thinking about you
and all the crazy things you put me through
it's the time of my life 
that i wish i could change 
and i don't know what is left of me 
writhing in pain
                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

recover

♡ 𝕤𝕡𝕠𝕥𝕚𝕗𝕪

recover w/mental + giib (attachxd x monroe)

@kuriyai443
@ihateUkidu
@ckwduke

fucked up all my senses, i ain't feeling right
girl where tf u go, u aint in my sight
ik i made mistakes, but i do them all out of spite
and if i had another wish, i'd want u by my side
and now it's over
i think that i owe her
i gave you all i had
but then you brushed me off ur shoulder
and now im older
wishing we were closer
but now you're just inside my head
and trapped in my enclosure

@ckwduke
and i was right by ur side in the night
u tellin me those days are over
all i wanna do is take my life
girl u just lookin for closure
but for tonight
ill only take about 4 lines
all i ever wanted was to make u feel alright
swear that im happier when im online
all we need is time

wish +duke (kuriyai + ihateUkidu)

soundcloud.com/akasukii x soundcloud.com/clay0127 x soundcloud.com/yekomhs
soundcloud.com/heroz2299 x soundcloud.com/rewind214

0:00 - w/ akura
1:49 - w/ akura
3:12 - w/ decago and akura
6:01 - w/ akura
7:00 w/ yashio

valentines24 bleedout clips + akura, decago, yashio

3 stories

Not my proudest work, but work that is important to me.

Border of cover by @ 100x100x6

Lanterns:
When it's right in front of you
But the barricade is too strong
Nothing's like the way you are in my arms
One day is forever with you
One way for us but it's not an issue
When you start to break I'll be there
No matter what know I'll be right here
Right here beside you
And when the night's clear
You make it light up
Let's run away from this place no one could find us
Rain in the moonlight
Keep it all behind us

Beauty & Nature:
Wind blowing across our sheets
Your skin covered in sun
And everything I saw was perfect for once
Never thought someone could be so beautiful
Naked laying alone
With your lips right by my bones
No one but you makes me feel safe here
No one had the claws to pick me up
You took my hand as we walked that path the thousandth time
And our last words were "I love you"
Wind blowing across our sheets
Your skin covered in sun
But the moon started to fall soon as I was happy for once
I regret leaving you alone or hanging up the phone at night
Now the park we talked about dying at is going with us too

Fairies Dawn:
Wake up in a field, you're dreaming again
With someone's hands around my head
Fairies and butterflies will lead me somewhere
Somewhere where I can breathe and see the purity and honey leaves
And the trails of betrayal gone
The thought of us in heaven
Delicate so we'll be spending time we didn't get to see
Now I see what you really thought of me
So drown my plans and let them sink
They were never ours
Heaven's gates closed way too soon
I never thought I'd be losing you
Cross the line of death and absence

Lanterns / Beauty & Nature / Fairies Dawn (Love's Last Words)

prod me
graphic design/mixed media by @1pollin
illustration by me

lyrics:

Don't remind me how we’ve changed for almost the 15th other time
I can’t be the person that you met, I’m sorry that you mind
Can’t keep breaking me to pieces and reshaping what you like
Almost killed myself from failed rebirth to try to be your type

I’ll try 
To fully heal from all of this
But i’ve lost my faith in trust
I really thought this was it

It’ll pass
Like the seasons, start again
How much of that year was fake?
And how much was it just pretend?

I still wish the best for you
Cause no matter where we go, i'll be a fool
Withered away, all into different pieces
Now I’m stranded with your broken pedestal

When spring comes, I hope that I'll have too much
To bury me under
Out of sight doesn't mean you’re out of mind

Don't take that part of me, I gave you
A part of me now hates you
I've lost all this time  

Don't remind me how we’ve changed for almost the 15th other time
I can’t be the person that you met, I’m sorry that you mind
Can’t keep breaking me to pieces and reshaping what you like
Almost killed myself from failed rebirth to try to be your type

I still wish the best for you
Cause no matter where we go, I'll be a fool
Withered away, all into different pieces
Now I’m stranded with your broken pedestal

(I still wish the best for you
Cause no matter where we go, I'll be a fool
Withered away, all into different pieces
Now I’m stranded with your broken pedestal)

reprieval

prod. iroha 

lyrics:
( how do u expect 
tell me how do u expect 
expect it all when i am just 1 person ) 
just tell me how do u expect 
expect all this when i am jus 1 person 
im calling the play how it looks fuck the ref 
and best believe we r coming 4 ur neck 
im taking off no need to comment 
my head rly needs an alignment 
come in perfect timing no i cant stop em 
run off wit my style keep on jocking 
uh like what u on 
like what u rocking ( vocal chop ) 
u got that shit from me boi jus stop it 
i done too much im exhausted 
and i will be sure to make u suffer if we bump heads 
yea if we ever bump heads 
i fuck around n give ya ass a halo 
yea we pulling sticks uh out the window 
im moving way too fast all yall going slow 
but ill play that part 
ay dumb slut cant even get my dick hard 
im on my king shit haaann pull that card
ill beat u every time do u want to restart again 
im sorry homie i am jus not ya friend 
i been cutting people off left n right i dont give a damn 
and they gone think that ima lose sleep over it 
i wake up im on some new shit 
put bezels on my wrist 
dont think ill ever quit 
i empty out the clip 
yuh shawty done like my fit 
prolli care bout the fame yall can keep it 
fuck this music shit and what it comes with 
*slowed verse 

#emo #plugnb #lovelasts #whyhaze #kiryano #violet

HOW U EXPECT ( iroha )

feat @plec0
prod @prodalumi
back from deployment enjoy:3

lyrics-

me

yeah im tryna do it better write your name on my letter
do it for the better give it up feelin tender
girl yeah you got me fucked up got me on the run up
try to call your phone but you hung up
smoke up in my chest fuck my lungs up
we aint been the best fuck my life up
blood up in my hands think my times up
yeah i think my times up yeah my times up
drivin in your city i can think of you
feelin like youre kidding think ill see you soon (see you soon)

no lyrics for this dumbass

me-

yeah im tryna do it better write your name on my letter
do it for the better give it up feelin tender
girl yeah you got me fucked up got me on the run up
try to call your phone but you hung up
smoke up in my chest fuck my lungs up
we aint been the best fuck my life up
blood up in my hands think my times up
yeah i think my times up yeah my times up

Do it for the better w/plec0 (Prod. Alumi)

caught in a time

trying this again for fun
twt: https://twitter.com/gutt3rb0y
ig: https://instagram.com/mykamabandos

colon three (ft. xanstro) [prod. by wander]

myka

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fasfasfas!

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