So Cold/Lost Soul (prod.Undaground)

v rare chill 93 blapper w no 808s i wrote this in a very pink hued kick ya feet up zone out into the melancholy overcast smog of the city n appreciate ur blessings type beat setting #showyamomchallenge lmk wht she thinks of it!! 


guitars/prod/mix/mast @93feetofsmoke

life loud cut the feedback! 
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that 

life loud cut the feedback
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that

lost my mind, left it vacant
chewing 2s on vacation
she got gucci on here fragrance
she got louie on her daybed
and i don't really mind it at all
I don't pick up when u call 
cuz u don’t hear when I talk
& I don’t care when ur gone 
they're never on what I’m on 
That’s why I’m always alone

take 2 steps back 
u don’t know me
take 4 shots down
and I’m ready
not sure where I’ll
be in the morning 
got 8 missed calls
on my home screen 

take 2 steps back 
u don’t know me
take 4 shots down
and I’m ready
not sure where I’ll
be in the morning 
got 8 missed calls
on my home screen 

life loud cut the feedback!
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that 

life loud cut the feedback
never learned how to relax
grass green no relapse
i got what u want
but u don't need that
x2

take 2 steps back 
u don’t know me
take 4 shots down
and I’m ready
not sure where I’ll
be in the morning 
got 8 missed calls
on my home screen 
x2

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iTried (Sadzilla x drugsta) (prod.y axis)

NoChangingYou (CHOKINGONDIRT x drugsta) (prod. Splashgvng)

Restraint (CHOKINGONDIRT x drugsta) (prod. Metlast)

JOJO (prod. PLURBS)

written, recorded, mixed, and mastered by desmo.

lyrics:
i feel like i should say something
open up my mouth but the words ain't coming
can't afford the meds no more so i take nothing
stuck indoors going crazy and i ain't bluffing

i've been pacing back and forth, stir crazy
contemplating suicide on the daily
i feel the pressure really coming down lately
so if i don't get out of bed how could you blame me

i can't sleep
and i can't wake up
i can't eat
and i'm starving now
bedsheets
just to keep me stuck
empty stomach
can i spill my guts

my brain is stuck in a box
and i've been trying all this time to get the key in the lock
but my hands are shaking and i can't make them stop
feels like i've given everything and now i'm stuck at a loss

don't you think i'm getting sick of feeling this way?
like existing every day is more than i can take
i've been trying to get these feelings just to go away
honestly i don't know how much longer i can wait

i feel them coming back
those unavoidable panic attacks

i can't sleep
and i can't wake up
i can't eat
and i'm starving now
bedsheets
just to keep me stuck
empty stomach
can i spill my guts

i feel them coming back
those unavoidable panic attacks
maybe some day i can be myself again
maybe some day i won't let down all my family and friends

but for now i lay and wait for the end
as i'm tangled in the sheets of my bed

bedsheets

Black Hawk (CHOKINGONDIRT x drugsta) (prod. TREETIME x MAXOKOOLIN)

forever(plug)

Pray For Summer, August 30th

This music project is my pride and joy; the last 5 months of determined effort. I hope to once use my platform to discuss spiritual energies.This is the sequel to Testaments, and some of the themes near the end of that album transfer over to here, however it features a lot more hope this time around.

There are two approaches to things that are scary or overwhelming. There is acceptance (gratitude) and there is avoidance (fear). Fear vs. gratitude is a spiritual battle that occurs for everyone, whether it's a newborn or the death of a loved one. We either learn to be bitter and angry (this can last until senior years), or we roll with the punches and remain grateful for what we still have.

Right now we exist in a fearful era, everyone is on edge, nervous and battling against the terrifying monster that is Covid-19. I began to think of names for this project in March. Summer was canceled, and the idea of "Praying for Summer" seemed to resonate and feel like everyone could understand.

I relate this fear of Covid to the fear of becoming a new father. I have to choose gratitude, fight the immense amount of fear that being a 22 year old dad entails, and cycle positive energy and gratitude in order to stay afloat.

Sonically the first 5 songs are pop punk, very upbeat high energy. The 2nd half, the other 5 songs, are more reflective and somber, featuring a slower paced atmospheric emo / alternative sound.

This project is genuinely an encapsulation of the running water that is my mind, the shifting pendulum that is my soul, and the complete and utterly exhausted but hopeful & grateful father that is my body

Talent Show (ft. Lvtesorrow, Mykel.) (prod. greafer)

love u guys. thank you for stickin with me.

photo by @cozyhighdemand

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