The classic internal monologue of 'what if's, second guessing behaviour, and self doubt

COGNITIVE

EITHER WAY

Woke up in a crisis
I can't swallow my pain
Given in to my vices over and over and over again
I'm running in circles
Trying to pull myself out
Of this hole I cling on to

Been needing handfuls of serotonin
To try and shake this ache
Cause I don't feel the same
But I know I'll wake up tomorrow morning
And still be in pain
Saying your name
Cause you were my medicine

You think this is funny
Tripping over my brain
Getting lost in a fantasy
So stop asking me questions
There can be no doubt
You're the one that I need now

To give me handfuls of serotonin
To try and shake this ache
Cause I don't feel the same
Please don't make me wake up tomorrow morning
When nothing has changed
Cause you were my medicine

Been needing handfuls of serotonin
Handfuls and still feel nothing
Been needing handfuls of serotonin
To try and shake this ache
Handfuls and still feel nothing
Cause nothing has changed
Cause you were my medicine

MEDICINE

What's it like for you to deny all the proof you left behind?
Ripped my heart in two we ended up all bruised and blind

Now my walls up, walls up around me
I gave up, all that you left me
I'm tired now, that's my personality

Why's it so hard for you to see right through my happy
Why would you wait for all of this to crumble down
I would have thought that through it all you would be happy
For me, for you, but it don't matter now

No it don't matter
No it don't matter
Don't matter now

How'd I get so love drunk on your lies
And how was I the only one surprised?

Now my walls are up, walls up around me
I gave up, all that you left
I'm F*** tired, its gonna be the death of me

Why's it so hard for you to see right through my happy
Why would you wait for all of this to crumble down
I would have thought that through it all you would be happy
For me, for you, but it don't matter now

No it don't matter
No it don't matter
Don't matter now

DONT MATTER

Hi everyone, thanks for listening to my cover of Wicked Game originally by Chris Isaak. All harmonies are done by myself on the SMULE app. 
I hope to be uploading other songs very soon, and eventually will be posting some originals - R

Wicked Game (Cover)

Today I decided to see if recording straight to iPhone voice memos, with no prior practice, was a good idea. Literally sitting on my bed, facing the window, with my phone laying next to me. I think I'm going to do this more often. 

Backing track is from the AcoustiClub channel on Youtube - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p5vpgP1239A

Hard Times (Cover)

This song is for anyone who has ever felt like their whole world is caving in. Everyone feels down sometimes, but if you dont try to move on youll be stuck. So start saying ALRIGHT to things. Things will get better! <3

Alright

Strangers

Bex is a singer/songwriter & session vocalist based in London. Melancholic, Haunting and Sorrowful. "Cognitive" EP coming 01/11/21

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