[Chorus]
Yeah, I’m a fuckboy, I admit it, I don’t fake that
Tryna play it cool, but my heart can’t take that
Text from my ex, I don’t ever wanna face that
Scrollin’ through the pain, fade away on Snapchat

[Verse 1]
Love hurts, I been bleedin in my denim
Cold world, but I got these pills to bless it
Every time I’m up, I fall right back down
Every time I trust, they just let me drown

My phone light up, I don’t pick it up no more
You said forever, then you walked out that door
If you’re doin fine, that’s all I need to know
But I’m stuck inside the past, I can’t let it go

[Chorus]
Yeah, I’m a fuckboy, I admit it, I don’t fake that
Tryna play it cool, but my heart can’t take that
Text from my ex, I don’t ever wanna face that
Scrollin’ through the pain, fade away on Snapchat

[Post-Chorus]
Hope you find peace when the sun don’t shine
I’m still lost in a past life of mine
I hate myself, but I act like I’m fine
Yeah, I hate myself, but I act like I’m fine

[Verse 2]
I been drownin in my vices, but you pull me back
theres this new girl, I can feel it when she laughs
Every song I write got her name in the track
Every night I dream just to have her like me back

They told me “change,” but I’m too far gone
Bleedin in the mirror with my headphones on
I don’t need college, I just need a reason
To keep breathin, even when I’m barely feelin

[Bridge]
All my friends say I should slow down
But they don’t know what I hold down
Every smile got pain in disguise
I’m just prayin’ I make it through the night

[Chorus]
Yeah, I’m a fuckboy, I admit it, I don’t fake that
Tryna play it cool, but my heart can’t take that
Text from my ex, I don’t ever wanna face that
Scrollin’ through the pain, fade away on Snapchat

[Outro]
Yeah, I’m a fuckboy, I admit it, I don’t fake that
Tryna love you back, but my heart won’t take that
Every little scar got a story behind that
Every little scar got a story behind that


fuckboy

[Chorus]
Too many faces I hurt in my past life
Still they text me, say they hope that i'm alright
I just ride, straight  ghosting in the city lights
Feelin’ dead inside, counting down the days till i die

[Verse 1]
You said you love me, but you lied to my face
Now I’m sittin in the dark, can’t erase your taste
I seen the texts, yeah, I know his name
Now I’m drownin in smoke tryna numb that pain
You said “I’m sorry,” but it’s way too late
I was holdin on tight while you dug my grave
And I gave you my soul, but you let that fade
Now I’m stuck in this loop I can’t escape

[Chorus]
Too many faces I hurt in my past life
Still they text me, say they hope that i'm alright
I just ride, straight  ghosting in the city lights
Feelin’ dead inside, counting down the days till i die

[Verse 2]
I fell apart when I found that text
Now I sleep on the floor, can’t clear my head
Scrollin through your pics like a ghost I fed
All the memories burn, all the tears I bled
You took me to hell with a kiss so sweet
Said I’m all that you need, now I see that’s cheap
You got his hoodie on while I’m losin sleep
Now I pray that the pain runs deep

[Bridge]
No promises, no more trust
You broke my heart, now it’s turned to dust
I’m goin’ to hell, you goin’ to him
Guess I’m the fool for believin’ in sin

[Part II]
Left home, yeah, I’m messed up
Realized love ain’t ever enough
Whole damn life I was showin up
Now I’m just tryna keep from blowin up
All the pain hit when I saw that post
Said you moved on, yeah, I felt that most
Now I’m six feet deep in my own regret
And I hate that I still can’t forget

[Outro]
Yeah, I’m gone but my heart still bleeds
Another night in a dream I can’t leave
You said I’d change, and maybe I did
I lost myself when I let that kid die

past life

[Verse 1]
Got my issues, don’t talk bout it
Smoke clouds drift when I walk round it
You say you want love, I doubt it
Cause I don’t know how to feel no more
Heart broke cheap in a motel
Scared of heaven, scared of hell
Every time I try to love again, I fail
Still you make me wanna try once more

[Chorus]
I like you but I don’t trust myself to love
Every time I get close, I fuck it up
I been runnin from the past, can’t get enough
Of all the pain that I made my drug
You could be the one, I swear you could
But I’m scared you’ll see the things I’ve done
I like you but I don’t trust myself to love
No, I don’t trust myself to love

[Verse 2]
Late night texts that I never send
Half of me wants you, half wants the end
Losin’ sleep, tryna make amends
But I don’t think I know how yet
You shine bright on the boulevard
I’m stuck with pieces of a broken heart
You say I’m fine but I fall apart
Every time you speak, it hits my heart

[Chorus]
I like you but I don’t trust myself to love
Every time I get close, I fuck it up
I been runnin from the past, can’t get enough
Of all the pain that I made my drug
You could be the one, I swear you could
But I’m scared you’ll see the things I’ve done
I like you but I don’t trust myself to love
No, I don’t trust myself to love

[Bridge]
And I hate how it feels when I care too much
All my friends say “bro, that’s just love”
But it’s more than that, yeah, it’s more than us
I’m just scared I’ll break your trust
You say “baby, it’s fine,” I say “I know”
But I lie through my teeth cause I can’t let go
You deserve more than a half dead soul
I’m just tryna find my home

[Outro]
Yeah, I like you, girl, I really do
But my heart got holes that I can’t undo
If I open up, it might bleed through
And I don’t wanna ruin you
Maybe one day I’ll learn to stay
Not run when I feel that way
But until I can face my love
I can’t trust myself to love

love

[Verse 1]
Saw my face in an old photograph
You were smilin like you never knew the wrath
Now I’m stuck between the future and the past
Tryna talk to you but the words don’t last
You were dreamin ‘bout stages and lights
Now I’m drownin in the same cold nights
All the hope you had, I let it fade
I’ve been runnin from the price I paid

[Pre-Chorus]
Dear baby me, I’m sorry for the way you turned out
All the nights you cried, I hope you figured it out
I was lost too, and I know it hurt somehow
But I’ll hold you close, even if we’re broken now


[Chorus]
It won’t be heaven when I see you
But I’ll say sorry while I try
You didn’t know the world would break you
Didn’t know how much you’d cry
I’ve been searchin for that feelin
That you had back when you were nine
And if my eyes start spillin over
That’s just you inside my mind

[Verse 2]
You were the type to believe in fate
Used to smile through the rain, never too late
I took your heart, turned it cold and gray
Now I’m tryna find the light in the mess I made
You said “one day, I’ll make it right”
But the dream got lost in the neon lights
And I still talk to you at night
Through these songs that never feel quite right

[Bridge]
Yeah, I’ve been waitin to let you know that I
Still wear your hoodie when I close my eyes
You were stronger than I realized
Before the world got inside my mind
And I see you in the mirror’s haze
Every scar just spells your name

[Verse 3]
Oh, I was dead wrong, left you broken
Traded peace for pain unspoken
You had faith, I had doubt wide open
Now I’m here with the words unchosen
If you could see what I became
Would you smile or turn away?
I still hear you call my name
When I fade out, it sounds the same

[Pre-Chorus]
Dear baby me, I’m sorry for the way you turned out
All the nights you cried, I hope you figured it out
I was lost too, and I know it hurt somehow
But I’ll hold you close, even if we’re broken now

[Chorus]
It won’t be heaven when I meet you
But I’ll still look you in the eyes
Tell you “sorry I forgot you”
When the world turned to lies
You were everything I needed
In a world that passed me by
If my eyes start spillin’ over
It’s ‘cause I miss that guy

i'm sorry

[Verse 1]
Girl, you tryna buy me, but my love’s already gone
Stackin cash on Grailed, but my heart been sold too long
I would never hurt you, but I probably would though
If I was your husband, I’d turn you to a widow
Triple 6 vibes, yeah, I’m walkin through the flames
I gave my soul away, now I’m just callin my own name

[Pre-Chorus]
she a demon, but i like it though
i know shes bad for me, but i cant stop it though

[Chorus]
I keep fallin, yeah, I fall too fast
Always chasin toxic girls that never last
Toxic love, yeah, I can’t resist
Every kiss just drags me into the abyss
I keep fallin, can’t escape my curse
Wantin’ toxic girls who only make it worse

[verse 2]
Late nights, off drugs, yeah, you’ve been all over me
Your lips on mine, but I’m chained to my misery
I could fall for you, yeah, but I’m scared of the sting
Who said forever? We might never be a thing
I hide my pain behind a cloud of smoke and neon lights
Tryna feel alive, but I’m lost in empty nights

[bridge]
You’re so pretty, flying high
Wish you’d stay and never say goodbye
Toxic love, I can’t let go
Falling fast, but I love it though

[verse 3]
Is it toxic if I’m honest, baby, I can’t pretend?
If I wasn’t cute, you’d probably just call me a friend
I know I’m obnoxious, but I see it in my eyes
You drain my pockets, I don’t care, money don’t feel alive
All these scars I wear, they don’t heal, they just remind
I keep fallin for the toxic girls, leavin peace behind

[Pre-Chorus]
she a demon, but i like it though
i know shes bad for me, but i cant stop it though

[Chorus]
I keep fallin, yeah, I fall too fast
Always chasin toxic girls that never last
Toxic love, yeah, I can’t resist
Every kiss just drags me into the abyss
I keep fallin, can’t escape my curse
Wantin’ toxic girls who only make it worse

toxic girls

[Chorus]
Girl, you don’t understand,
I gave it all up just to hold your hand,
Spent all my serotonin on you,
Now I’m broken where I stand,
You were never in the plan,
And I can’t believe the shit you put me through

[Verse 1]
Say what you want, I heard it before,
You were mine, but your heart was a war,
I burned my lungs just to feel your breath,
Now I’m choking on the words I kept,
I lost my friends, my mind, my peace,
All for a girl who left me in pieces

[Chorus]
Girl, you don’t understand,
I gave it all up just to hold your hand,
Spent all my serotonin on you,
Now I’m broken where I stand,
You were never in the plan,
And I can’t believe the shit you put me through

[Verse 2]
Late nights, you were texting him,
I saw the lies in your half cut grin,
Said you loved me, guess that changed,
Now I’m numb and you’re to blame,
Every dream feels black and blue,
Every song bleeds back to you

[Bridge]
I can’t believe I let you in my head,
Traded my heart for a chance instead,
Now I’m faded, wishing I was dead,
You were my life, now it’s painted red

[Chorus]
Girl, you don’t understand,
I gave it all up just to hold your hand,
Spent all my serotonin on you,
Now I’m broken where I stand,
You were never in the plan,
And I can’t believe the shit you put me through

serotonin

(Intro)
Yea
Dead inside, still smilin for the photos
Eyes red like kaneki in Tokyo


[Verse]
Dead man on the inside,
Still got both my wrists tied 
Halo on my head, but she mistook it for a bullseye
I’m Goku with the rage inside,
Veins glow when the pain ignite
She want all her wrists iced,
I’m tryna freeze time like I’m Trunks, right?

Meet me at the bottom,
Right there where the light fades
Moscato in her hand,
Talkin’ sweet till the night breaks
Said she wanna feel alive,
But she only feels when her heart aches
Told me, “You’re my Light,”
But I don’t write no names  I just part ways.

[Chorus]
Dead man on the inside,
Still got both my wrists tied
Angel on my shoulder said,
“Boy, you can’t rewind.”
She want all her wrists iced,
Heart froze past the frost line
Do me like Touka did kaneki
Red eyes shine where love died

[Verse]
yeah, red eyes while i pull her hair
Ghost type aura in the autumn air
Life’s a test, and I’m hardly there,
Like Light with a pen  don’t you dare compare.

Death Note scribbles on my past life,
kaneki eyes when I half cry
Mask off when the moon rise,
Heart dark  Tokyo skyline.

She taste sin, snake bite,
Bleedin lips in the late night
She say, “You look different"
Under the same light.”
Maybe cause I’m fallin through a Saiyan fight,
Halo cracked, but I still might fly.

[Bridge]
Nowhere to hide 
I’m a ghoul in disguise
Sun City shade where the lost ones lie
Fantasy turned real,
Ain’t no respawn sign
Told the angels, “Hold on,
I just need one line”

[Verse]
shawty look like Misa, but she bite like Touka 
she in my dreams, my hands on her neck, shes shaky
Choke her like she need me, i like her crazy
Pull me close like kaneki, babygirl  go on flaunt it
Whisper Death Note names while I run my hands
She trembles like Misa, follow all my commands
Tie her up in my world, no escaping tonight
Hands on her neck, but she loves the fright
Ghoul in the sheets, she trembling at my touch
Whispers in the dark, she can’t get enough

[Outro]
Dead man on the inside,
Still got both my wrists tied
She want all her wrists iced,
Said she love the pain in my eyes.
Mask on when I lose my fight,
Ghoul heart can’t feel what’s right
Touka's kiss cut through the night,
Love me once, then say goodbye.

ghoul

[Verse 1]
Wake up feelin hollow again,
Wish I could crawl from my skin, disappear in the wind.
Chest gettin heavy like it’s tied to a sink,
Every thought that I’m thinkin is pushing me to the brink

And I keep fallin for girls who don’t want me,
the ones who leave me on read while I’m losin it softly.
She got my heart in her hands like a hobby,
Chasin her shadow while she walks right past me calmly.

And I hate myself more every time,
Tellin myself I’m worthless for wantin what ain’t ever mine.
Try to smile but I’m dyin inside,
Try to breathe but it feels like I’m drownin under the tide.

[Pre-Chorus]
Anxiety’s a ghost in my room,
Sittin on the bed whisperin “soon.”
Fake a laugh then I hide in the gloom,
Scared of life but death comes too soon.

[Chorus]
I been breakin again,
Holdin onto nothin but the weight in my chest.
I been wastin my breath,
Wishin’ somebody heard when I said I’m a mess.

And I’m scared of myself,
Every night hopin I don’t fall off the shelf.
I keep runnin from help,
Guess I’m only good at hurtin myself.

[Verse 2]
Keep a note in my phone sayin’ “sorry,”
Wrote it last month when the world felt foggy.
Stare at the screen ’til the words start throbbin,
Say I won’t send it, but I’m never stoppin.

I get hooked on the girls that remind me I’m broken,
Dress me up in desire then leave me unspoken.
She my drug and she knows it,
Still chase love even though I'll never deserve it.

And the pills don’t fix what I am,
They just soften all the edges till I’m losin the man.
Wish I somehow could restart the plan,
But the boy in the mirror don’t feel like a man.

[Chorus]
I been breakin again,
Holdin onto nothin but the weight in my chest.
I been wastin my breath,
Wishin somebody heard when I said I’m a mess.

And I’m scared of myself,
Every night hopin I don’t fall off the shelf.
I keep runnin from help,
Guess I’m only good at hurtin myself.

[Outro]
I don’t know who I’m tryin’ to be,
Feels like the world might be better without me.
But I write these songs hopin someone will see
That I’m dyin inside while I fake bein’ at peace.

hurting myself

[Verse 1]
You light a spark just to see through the pain
World’s been heavy, and it’s breakin again
I’m by your side when it all turns cold
Yeah, life gets hard, but you’re not alone
Walls fall down, and it’s hard to breathe
You say you’re fine, but I know what you mean
If you fall down, I’ll fall too
Hold on tight, I’m here with you

The quiet’s loud, it cuts like glass
You’re fightin ghosts, but this will pass
See the hurt that hides behind your eyes
But we still live, yeah, we still survive

[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t forget about me when you’re slippin away
I know it’s hard, I’ve been feelin’ the same
If it gets rough, I’ll stay

[Chorus]
When it all falls down, put your head on me
Don’t cry, it’s another bad dream
You’ll wake up when the pain runs clean
When the weight gets deep, I’ll pull you close
If you fade, I fade, that’s how it goes
I’ll never let you fall (let you fall)

[Verse 2]
If your skies go gray, then mine do too
Your smile’s gone, but your heart shines through
Found my peace in your broken soul
That’s the only place that feels like home
Your hands shake, and it burns my skin
But I don’t mind, I’ll let you in
We’ll run from hell, don’t look back yet
I’ll bury my heart where your pain’s been kept

[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t forget about me when you’re slippin away
I know it’s hard, I’ve been feelin’ the same
If it gets rough, I’ll stay

[Chorus]
When it all falls down, put your head on me
Don’t cry, it’s another bad dream
You’ll wake up when the pain runs clean
When the weight gets deep, I’ll pull you close
If you fade, I fade, that’s how it goes
I’ll never let you fall
You don’t have to cry alone
I’ll hold the sky above your bones
If you slip, I’m fallin’ too
And I’ll never let you fall

fall

[Verse 1]
I’m tired.
Tired of breaking just to keep you whole again.
My mind’s
Been fading tryna talk myself off ledges.
I don’t wanna wait another
Day pretending this is love when it’s
Deadly every time I rise, you drag me under.
But sunrise is on the horizon,
Feels foreign but I see a spark  yeah, I’m
Shaking, but I’m stepping out, I’ve had enough.

[Pre Chorus]
I’m done running from you,
Spent my whole life in your shadow, scared
Of who I’d be if I
Said goodbye and learned to breathe without you there.

[Chorus]

I wish you peace, but I
Can’t keep breaking just to try
And save what’s already
Falling apart.
I loved you, but loving you
Feels like losing who I am, and I
Won’t stay in shadows 
I’m done with the dark.

[Post Chorus]
I’m done.

[Verse 2]
I hope you find peace, but I’m finished bleeding
For someone who uses my heart as a weapon while calling it healing.
I don’t wanna hate you, I don’t wanna save you,
But every time I fall, you twist the blame like I made you
Act how you act  tellin me I’m the problem.
You know that’s not honest. You know I’d be stronger without you.
Been where you’re standin, don’t try to guilt-trip me into
Believing I’m broken when you’re the one breaking the truth.
I love you but not
Enough to let you keep drowning us both just to feel in control.
You drag me back, you pull me down, you make me doubt myself, and I
Hate to walk out, but staying here is killing who I am inside.
I won’t let you twist me up, convince me I’m unworthy of love no.
I’m done watching you take, take, take until there’s nothing left but my ghost.
You’ve had more of me than anyone should.
And yeah, it hurts to go but I know leaving’s the only way I grow.

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m done running from you,
Spent my whole life in your shadow, scared
Of who I’d be if I
Said goodbye and walked out with my heart repaired.

[Chorus]

I wish you peace, but I
Can’t keep breaking just to try
And save what’s already
Falling apart.
I loved you, but loving you
Feels like losing who I am, and I
Won’t stay in shadows 
I’m done with the dark.

[Post Chorus]
I’m done.

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