The Upload

Lyrics

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

I'm so cold, I don't think I feel a thing
I just wanna get a pole, put a bullet in my brain
I know you ain't wanna know about the shit that I can say
When I'm in my room alone, letting out all of this pain

But I gotta let it out, yeah I gotta let it fly
I don't wanna see you pout, I don't wanna see you cry
When you see I'm out of time in the moment that I die
Cause when I was still alive you ain't pull me to to the side

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

alone. | Produced by sketchmyname

I don’t wanna do this anymore 
leave me dead here on the floor 
I don’t wanna sleep in bed 
Since you left me all alone 
I feel your presence everywhere 
your voice is in the air 
I wish you didn’t think that I just never fucking cared 

I’m falling apart again 
I get no rest at night 
heart beating, I’m alive, I’m never getting high 
cause I’m broken from the feeling that you left inside 
my heart, cause It was hard for me to stop feeding you all those lies 

there’s no excuse for my shitty behavior 
maybe you just fuckin did yourself a favor 
I’m a fuck up and I don’t deserve you 
5 years of every memory I’ll never forget you 

I don’t blame you for leaving me alone 
Cause I know, you’re better off without me 

I’m going days without eating again 
I’m broke and I’m barely getting out of my bed 
I’m getting fucked up every chance that I get 
cause I never want to feel this feeling of regret pounding my chest 
In my head it’s always gonna be my fault 
I’m closed off and I bottle up everything I should talk about 
it’s so hard for me to say it out loud 
But I am not okay and I don’t see a way out

i don't wanna do this anymore... (prod. Afterlife x Pekarot)

i dont wanna die but Imma say goodbye
im just tryna forget im fucking sick of these bad dreams
ya its so hard to cry so i wont even try
ill jus keep it inside and hope some day it will just leave
i always say im fine but I dont wanna lie
ya i been wasting my time and I dont think you can help me
im empty regretting
losing track of the days and the nights as they pass me by
i dont wanna die but tonight i might
lying all alone In the candlelight
searching for a friend but theyre hard to find
ya im barely breathing but ill be alright
tryna find my way but i feel so lost
I still cant seem to find a reason that i should even carry on
maybe im just better off alone yeah maybe im just better on my own

pass me by (prod.5head)

Pretend again like you love it
Pretend again like you love it
Pretend again like you love it
Lay me down let me rest I deserve it 
Let me guess you just saw me as a person 
Under stress easy next then a burden 
Maybe let's let it scar let worsen 

Go ahead and tell yourself what you need to 
Know the weekend it's the only time I see you 
Wouldn't wanna get in the way or go and say too much 
Know if I let it fade then we'll just lose touch 
I think I'm a pessimist 
Tell me lies tell me lies let me make a list 
Put on you disguise so I never get 
Any solid part of you don't let me in 
            
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately 
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately

You say you'll make adjustments one day 
Say you don't want this okay  
Pack all your things and just wait 

Lay me down let me rest I deserve it 
Let me guess you just saw me as a person 
Under stress easy next then a burden 
Maybe let's let it scar let worsen 
Lay me down let me rest I deserve it 
Let me guess you just saw me as a person 
Under stress easy next then a burden 
Maybe let's let it scar let worsen 
Pretend again like you love it 
Late nights fake highs no fun when
Hears split like this cuz nothing
Other than we had it coming
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately 
I don't know how to say this 
I think we're overplayed when
Have you check the temperature baby 
It's 32 where we at lately

32° (prod. splashgvng & ayoleybeats)

deadboy (prod.thersx)

Lyrics:
ion really care what your boyfriend say
runnin thru my mind its like every single day
anything you want cause i just got paid
you dont want it now so ill be on my way

i just had to block you i been done
lock up on my heart cause i been stung
smoke up in the room now its in my lungs
if im gonna die ima make it fun

why you always lookin, to start some trouble cookin
up schemes for words you snook in, you break my heart you took it

why cant you just leave me alone

IDCWYBS

mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you.
autumn: https://soundcloud.com/skullergamez
v v v
[emptychest]
talk talk 
thats all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending every day getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dream steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning 
have u reached the ceiling yet?
spoke ur feelings yet?
gonna be okay, or are you gonna end up dead baby..?
lemme know if u simply need some rest baby
ill be the shelter when the hails pouring real heavy
but im boutta go to war and ion know if imma come back
hug me while im here so if i die you wont get flashbacks
keep that pretty lil face posted up beside my nightstand
rewind to the days when u were cradled in my right hand
now im stationed up, boutta ship off
my hands are shaking and im scared but ion got no option
you can always text me if your awake and u miss me
mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you..

[autumndropsdead]
yeah i’m anxious to hit a wall
hoping you carry on
do you care at all?
you don’t care at all

oh to be a little taller
look a little better
ally once said to die whenever; 
it’s the weather 
self encouragement is something 
i need to endeavor
girl i never meant the bond between us 
to be severed 

now fuck i’m sitting here alone
i ain’t got a message at the tone
the light in my heart that once shone
is dimmer than i’ve ever known 

swearing that i know 
i’ve been a bitch baby 
ion wanna talk abt shit i wanna live maybe whatever i’m feeling got caught up in a wind is he all you ever wanted could you count it as a win baby yeah yeah yeah

[emptychest & autumn]
yuh!
talk talk
its all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot 
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear 
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending everyday getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dreams steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning.

im stationed up
boutta ship off
my hands are shaking 
and im scared
but ion got no option
you can always text me 
if your awake and you miss me
mommas boutta go to war
if ion come back,
i love you..

war w/ autumndropsdead (jabarionthebeat x deephartt)

left here stranded and torn 
break me down again 
pour me another four 
looking for all these answers 
in all the wrong places 

Handful of pills yeah,
I drink just for the thrill 
Yeah, I’m going to the bar like every fucking night 
I always feel alone and I just wanna die 
Lying in our old bed 
with all these different women 
You’re still running through my head 
just wish things weren’t different 
I don’t really know what it fuckin means 
When we still talk and you got me down on my knees 
just watch me cut my throat, and bleed 
just popped another xan, can’t see 
I’m drowning in your Hennessy 
remember, you were my Tennessee? 
give me pills and alcohol, and sex and drugs we do them all 
I’m always waiting on you call when you leave him, drop him, let him fall 

JeffreyAlexander.
I never  really knew you until I met you 

Pour another shot of that shit when I fucking see you 
I’ve never felt like this until you turned me into dark blue 
Now I’m losing everything inside my mind that’s the truth 

I just wanted to be okay 
I stay inside my pills that are laced 
I’m on my way six feet under my grave 
Is where I my dues are paid 
Is where you’ll see my face

left here, stranded & torn (feat. jeffreyalexander.)(prod. Afterlife X Jolst)

But its okay
pulling out the 9, i don't know what to say
i was in a bad place, moving in to bad days
i was feelin like a looser, you could see it in my face

its a waste just to say
that im feelin okay
but i know that time is healing me, each second of the day
feelin lost and astray, and i cant stay awake
ill be makin lots uh noise, till im stuck inside my grave

it gets cold in October
the air reminds me every year, the day that we got closer,
don't try to loose my mind
I been manic here at times
but the way the shit was goin, couldn't see me a surprise

thought that I would die
ima man in a disguise
i been hiding all my feelings, same to u, you didn't try
couldn't see the signs
you said i should die
sad to say i think i loved more each time you would disguise
you hated me at times

its a waste just to say
that im feelin okay
but i know that time is healing me, each second of the day
feelin lost and astray, and i cant stay awake
and ill be makin lots uh noise, till I'm stuck inside my grave

i got demons in my head, and they makin me feel dead
i don't wanna be upset, you could see it in my head
if you tried a little harder, youd be next to me in bed
i was feelin pretty led, led into distress

yeah this time you wanted me to leave you lone, but no one said
i was cheating in my head, i was finding ways to spread
cause ive known that you have hated me for years, with that said
ima leave you in the dirt, and think that we have never met.

GRAVE (prod. nvki)

burning like a star, doomed to die alone

lyrics: 

dont know how to make this right
always feelin' so dead inside
its all i can do not to end this life
yall just fuck me up and leave me here to die
god knows im so sick of cryin
fuck this shit i feel like dyin
dont believe anything they say now
ima light up to relieve this pain now...

dont know why 
i cant face this world
im always starin thru the blinds 
dont hmu im just a waste of time 

dont hmu im just setback
id rather be alone and hit this gas pac
pls dont get to close to me
everyone who does becomes the enemy...

dont talk to me...
if you do youll just want to leave
im backin down i dont want this 
nothing that i do could ever, ever stop this
burning like a star, im doomed to die alone
everybody leaves ive never had a home
just go away, i dont wanna talk now
im perfectly fine being a shadow in the background

oooo a shadow in the background
oooo the sun comes out
i dont make a sound...
i dont make a sound....

shadow in the background [+taurs & jolst]

vvv

movin at light speed ive been glowing honestly
think i couldnt be doing better pain is hard to see
taking red n blue up inside my odyssey 
dont hit me up im out of reach
im in my own world
im in my own zone
conspired this all inside my dome
now its all right here and i finally found my home
its you 
its me 
im starting to believe and talk to my inner child  and not ignore her
im so sorry i know that i treated u like shit for months
youre still my baby angel and i never meant to hurt u, love
it wasnt my intentions it was the man with the red hair
if im bein honest w u i dont think he ever cared
id tell you it was a facade but u prolly do not know that word
i know how he hurt you and i hate em bout much as you loved him
but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.
I been 
Blowin toxins
in my  room
i been doin fine
w out u 
yeah i loved him but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.

inner_child (jabarionthebeat x jelly x dreamboyy)

prod. moneo


seasons change, the fall of the dead leaves
walk outside, im feeling a cold breeze
deep inside, i know you dont miss me
but imma lie and say you wont forget me

i saw your mom as we crossed ways
then we went to talk and she said that your doing great
asked me how i was and i lied to her face
cause i dont wanna seem like im just a disgrace

and all of these days they crash
2 years has come to pass
and im still missing u
AND IM STILL MISSING YOU

my friends always ask
why im stuck in the past
and maybe im a fool
ill try and forget that

i wont change for you
and youll always know that
so while i play cool
theres a lot i would take back

seasons change, the fall of the dead leaves
walk outside, im feeling a cold breeze
deep inside, i know you dont miss me
but imma lie and say you wont forget me

i saw your mom as we crossed ways
then we went to talk and she said that your doing great
asked me how i was and i lied to her face
cause i dont wanna seem like im just a disgrace

i'm glad you're doing okay

blics (dxni + jtrn)

bluetooth.

I Don't Need It (transposed)

@naive_things on everything

www.linktr.ee/naive_things

contact: aceambient@gmail.com

32° (prod. splashgvng & ayoleybeats)

Naïve🥀

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