DESCRIPTION EDIT ON 210718: 
this is for a person who doesn't talk to me anymore. thank you for still listening to this even after seven years. my guitar was badly tuned then. hopefully soon, i'll be able to release a better version. i appreciate all the plays and likes and reposts.
_______________________________________________
Hi, so I made this song on Feb 26, and it's about a special person. :)

Today when I recorded it, I have colds so sorry for the bad voice or somewhat. She wanted to hear it so I had to do it :) And I was in the brink of crying soo.. :)

—♡ she calls herself worthless (original)

You don't know me Elizabeth Gillies

This is a song about SURVIVING child abuse and rising above and beyond. When my parents divorced, I was 3, I think my dad hated my mom and he took that anger out on me. I dealt with it by writing songs and poetry... My songwriting saved me! 

I was made to stand in a suitcase all night, beaten, burned, bruised & more. YES...even that....People seen it and were too scared to report it. When I was 12 an Angel saved me! This song is for all those abused children...YOU CAN RISE!  YOU CAN BE BETTER! YOU are a SURVIVOR! <3  and most importantly... someone out there LOVES YOU and prays for YOU ... every night!

If you suspect someone is being abused, they probably are... take the steps to report it, you could be wrong, but most gut instincts are right and you could be the Angel that saved a life!!!

Daddy's Hands- A Child Abuse Survivor-THIS is MY story.

We stopped talkin’ over nothin’ big
Just dumb words, pride too thick
I said I needed space to breathe
Didn’t know space could bury me

Your last “I love you” felt routine
Like we had forever in between
If I’d known that was the last goodbye
I’d still be holdin’ you tonight

Pre-Chorus
Now every silence screams your name
Every memory burns with blame

Chorus
If I knew you were that close to fallin’ apart
I never would’ve walked away from your heart
I would’ve stayed, I would’ve fought, I would’ve tried
If I knew goodbye meant goodbye for your life
Now I’m stuck with the words I never said
And the weight of the ones that’s left in my head
You didn’t lose the war, you lost the pain
But I lost you, and that don’t feel the same

Verse 2
Your pictures still breathe on my wall
Like you ain’t really gone at all
Your laugh lives inside my phone
But I can’t call it anymore

They say you’re “at peace,” but I’m at war
With every choice I made before
I rewind us a thousand ways
Try to save you with yesterday

Pre-Chorus
I’d trade every breath I got left
Just to hear you say my name again

Chorus
If I knew you were that close to fallin’ apart
I never would’ve walked away from your heart
I would’ve stayed, I would’ve fought, I would’ve tried
If I knew goodbye meant goodbye for your life
Now I’m stuck with the words I never said
And the weight of the ones that’s left in my head
You didn’t lose the war, you lost the pain
But I lost you, and that don’t feel the same

Bridge (Soft, Broken)
They say it wasn’t my fault
But the mirror won’t agree
‘Cause I was the last one you loved
And you were the last one who needed me

I hope wherever you are now
You finally feel safe somehow
But I still scream your name at God
Like He might bring you back around

Final Chorus (Stripped)
If I knew you were that close to breakin’ inside
I never would’ve let you face it alone that night
I would’ve held you through the dark and the doubt
Instead of bein’ the one you shut out
Now every day is a question mark
Did I push too hard or not enough at all?
You didn’t lose the fight, you just couldn’t stay
But I lose you again every single day

Outro
I don’t blame you…
I just miss you…
And I wish love had been louder than your pain…but I had to put the gun to my head then pull the trigger because I couldn’t go threw pain anyone

eMastered_ifiknew 2_HD.wav

ALEC

Saving Sawyer ((from the story Saving Sawyer)

Young Dumb  Broke By Khalid (Aaron Doh Cover)

Sleep Thru Ur Alarms Nightcore

Alec Benjamin - Just Like You ( pure slowed )

Alec Benjamin - Symptoms (of your love) 
I think Alec played this on live on Instagram few years ago... It's an unreleased song.

Alec Benjamin-Symptoms (old song)

Heather (Conan Gray) Cover - Ashley Jackson

disclaimer: i own nothing and all credits goes to the orginal artist.

Saving Sawyer ((from the story Saving Sawyer)

NanddoSanches

Recent comments

𝚂𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚎

Cierra Houtz

Related tracks