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I know who I am supposed to be but I don't know who I am. 
This isn't a cry for help or me cutting myself off from you in fact I'm at a music festival in Las Vegas right now and if you see me I'll be the same Jesus or gritty you've always known.
This is me offering you my gift, shall you choose to accept it is out of my control, but it is my gift and it's all I have to offer. 
It floated off the tongue so effortlessly "Pussy Ruined My Life" the perfect album title, I looked around hoping to be met with dropped jaws and was not disappointed. 
It's so relatable, I thought. "Pussy ruined my life bro!! That shit's crazy think about all the stupid shit you've done for some pussy dawg!" though I have no clue what trouble the next man had done in the name of lust, I only know what I had done. 
And maaan that shit's embarassing to say the least. But I found comfort in their nods of approval.
Those close to me have known I wanted to name this my album for quite some time now. In fact, I still remember sitting in Buje's car playing him a rough mix of "put it back" and explaining my whole vision. "yea, man. Think about the kids bro.” He said, “Who's gonna let their kids listen to an album titled PUSSY RUINED MY LIFE
maybe use the word passion instead. PASSION RUINED MY LIFE. see that still works". It does. And it is true.. "PRML just make it an acronym and have them figure it out". Genius. Conveniently enough, many things that started with the letter P were slowly ruining my life. I'm sure you can think of a few. Some things are too real to write. 
I struggled a lot with music. I've always told people that I was writing raps before I could write complete sentences. And it's true. This is all I know, my earliest form of expression. I don't have a cool story or memory tied to when I decided to be a "rapper" I just always have been and no matter what front I put on or how little attention I called to it, it was what I was known as. 
A cornerstone to my identity. I've never not known that I had this gift. I just never knew quite how to wrap it. Presentation is everything. The best gifts aren't the ones wrapped to perfection but rather wrapped for the ceremonial aspect. 

The element of surprise.

 If I already knew what you were gonna give me then why would you even put so much effort into wrapping it.
The best gifts come from the heart, it takes a sharp sense of awareness to give a gift that means something. No matter the cost. Including expensive shit. Just make it mean something. Those are the gifts that are cherished. I'm too old to be rapping for the hell of it. So I chose to dig deep. If I'm not going to change the game then I shouldn't be doing it. Especially with white skin. 
But to not be a rapper would mean I would not be myself. Every year without success feels like one step closer to my death. I don't know if I want to live in a world where I'm not rapping. It's a cornerstone to my identity. 
I dug deep and found my greatest vice. Lust. I've never been one to have addictive behaviors. Addiction runs in my family. The fact that I wasn't hooked on drugs gave me a false sense of security. I wasn't ready to face my flaws. Drugs are fine. Majority of the people you know have either tried drugs or use them recreationally. We shouldn't be afraid of drugs, what we should be afraid of is addiction.
And I am addicted to pussy. I laughed when I thought of the title "Pussy Ruined My Life" but it is so true. Every major situation that hurt my pockets, in some way, had to do with some pussy. Some things are too real to write. 
But the vision for my perfect album became a sort of curse. If I am going to make an album titled "Pussy Ruined My Life", then pussy really had to ruin my life or else I wasn't keeping it real. I thought. So I indulged, I let pussy ruin my life. I let my lust control me, every decision I made, pussy was a factor.

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Del The Funky Homosapien is a rapper and record producer as well as being part of the supergroup, Hieroglyphics. Follow NAST and Del as talk about what Del has been up to during this pandemic, video games and Hip-Hop Culture.

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