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HIDEOUT/VESSELS

Child - Child EP

Hydrogen - Child EP

I felt like shit today when I woke up
But it’s happened enough times that I’ve learnt to get by
I go outside to feel the sun on my face
And if the suns not there
Well now we gotta pull out all the tricks

All of the tricks like
I’m here for a reason
And I’m gonna learn from the pain that I’m feeling
I could be happy if only I tried a little harder

All of the tricks like
Taking a deep breathe
Telling myself stop being so complex
I could be happy if only I stopped looking for the answer

I managed it today though I woke up
Thinking everything was scary everybody out to get me nooo  
Ooh brought up to chase heaven
I always came second 
And if God’s not there 
Well now we gotta pull out all the tricks

All of the tricks like
I’m here for a reason
And I’m gonna learn from the pain that I’m feeling
I could be happy if only I tried a little harder

All of the tricks like
Taking a deep breathe
Telling myself stop being so complex
I could be happy if only I stopped looking for the answer

It’s like cradling a baby screaming louder screaming louder
Come and save me from myself
Tired of scratching pennies on my mind 
‘Cos hey today could be the day I win
Crawling up a mountain like when I get up 
The view is gonna say it loves me back
But every day’s a new hack
Am I on the right track
What even is the right track 
Tell me what I’m supposed to do to fight back

Tricks

Set my wheels spinning on the runway
10 years ago
Never really had a destination
I just let it grow

No body that was someone
Told me it would take off
So I wrote another song hell maybe this is the one
I’ve been flyin’ low
Trying to breathe slow

(Ooh)
     
Lost track of how many times I was choking
But my breath never stopped
Then when I thought we might be lifting
The wind fuckin’ dropped

No body that was someone
Told me I would go far
I could see them judge another girl and guitar
You believe you know
But not a soul knows

Maybe it’s lucky that I landed
I could walk anywhere I wanted
No one would stop me
Take pictures of me
I’m sorry the world thinks that that’s OK

Maybe it’s lucky that I landed
I could walk anywhere I wanted
No one would stop me
Take pictures of me
I’m sorry the world thinks that that’s OK

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

After all this
Do I want fame
Not with my name
Have you seen what it brings
Are we insane
After all this it’s ironic 
Putting pain onto pages to make our wages

Yeah I’ve complained
I’ve been euphoric
I gave and they took
A category five hurricane
But my wings only shook

Been waiting for a big break
Peering out for the end
But I think my singing soul 
Is here to soften and bend
I wanna let go
Enjoy your control

Lucky I Landed

All I Ask - Over & Out EP

The second single of Natalie's upcoming second album 'Opposite Day'.

Opposite Day - Second Mixes

Jack in a Box

Cacophony

Every Which Way

Bird Song

Lose My Friends

Opposite Day Mix 5

To Be A Woman

Bitesize Love

OFFICIAL VIDEO: https://youtu.be/X9W8zLnW2m8

I want more alone time
But when I get it I get bored 
When you’re gone I have to stop myself 
From buying a ticket out
When you’re here I’m distant
Can’t sleep all weekend

I’m making soup like there’s no tomorrow
Mending a dress like I know how to sew 
Trying to have my Saturday like all the rest
And savour this time at home

I could be out on the road and singing 
My big heart out every night 
Is it healthy to only have one thing
That makes my heart feel alive
 
Apart from you
I’m sorry I don’t sleep and you gotta deal with tears
You
I know that you love me but often I’m not me I disappear
Who
Knows how I’ll wake up 
How much space I’ll take up
I’m sorry I don’t sleep honey
And you gotta deal with me and my muddy mind

I want the best of both worlds
Can I borrow bits of you
And keep the pieces of me too
We’re almost how I tasted us
Easy as apple pie
A windfall myriad
Of what we nearly had

Am I allowed to say it’s painful
When I’ve got love and I’ve got a dream
Talking to positivity to strike a deal
It never quite makes the team

I could be out on a great adventure
People would stop and say you’re glowing dear
But I need to find light in my own home
And feel what it feels like
Without you

I try to stop myself from
Leaving me on the shelf
Like I’m a doll
Or a stuffed toy

And it’s a beautiful thing
Being an animal  
I’m a lion on it’s best and worst nights
But I still don’t know if I’ve got fight

But I’ve got you
I’m sorry I don’t sleep and you gotta deal with tears
You
I know that you love me but often I’m not me I disappear
Who
Knows how I’ll wake up 
How much space I’ll take up
I’m sorry I don’t sleep honey
And you gotta deal with me and my muddy mind

Alone Time

Thought I'd have a creative day and put my own spin on this beautiful song :)

The District Sleeps Alone Tonight (The Postal Service cover)

This is a song I wrote after hearing a friend tell me something that made me very, very sad, and I wish so much I could've been there more for them when it happened. Keeping friends close is so, so important and I encourage you all to reach out more often to them. We seem to have developed a habit for bottling things in, thinking that sharing our problems is selfish and no one wants to hear about them, but your friends do! If there's something on your mind today, maybe consider telling someone, or ask a friend how they're doing (demand an answer other than 'fine thanks'!) <3

Baby I'll Be There (Demo)

'Calm Places' will be out on April 28th alongside 3 other brand new tracks on the Calm Places EP! I can't wait for you to hear it in it's entirety. 

This song grew from a time in my life where I felt completely and utterly knocked down. I wanted to write something to encourage others to see the importance of stopping, chilling, loving, accepting, being - WITHOUT having to go through something awful to realise it. What is the point of life if not to find and create joy in every moment?

The OFFICIAL VIDEO is available to watch on YouTube now: http://bit.ly/calmplacesvideo

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It's been a long time coming    
I'm far more loving than I was the other day
I've had to let the dust build up
This wasn't how I pictured the change to happen
I blamed everything 
Now I'm figuring it out

It's been a long time coming
It's been a long time coming 

Yeah I'm starting to notice the spaces
I found the calm places
Shut out the noise, and be with my soul 
Learning control of my body
I never saw the poison ivy grow
Pull up the roots and make it let go

I thought that everything had to be done now
Then an arrow shot me down
Now I'm feeling my way round
Heaven looked strange 
I never knew I could appreciate what it means to die 
Hello angel in disguise 

You've been a long time coming 
You've been a long time coming 

I’m a slave to my body
But I keep it alive
If only that care was taken with my mind

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Produced by ortoPilot - http://www.ortopilot.com/
Artwork by Chessa Williams - http://www.chessawilliams.com
Official video by Rob Potter - http://www.robpotterfilm.com

Calm Places - EP

Calm Places

I'm a huge HAIM fan and it when I was listening to this song in the car last week that I realised how relevant the lyrics were to me right now, and just had to cover it. 

This audio is taken from my live YouTube session: https://youtu.be/oikouo4lzQo

Days Are Gone (HAIM Cover)

I wrote Hideout when I had a sudden realisation that a relationship I was in finally felt totally right, after consciously ‘trying’ for a long time. It’s about leaving behind all the things you thought you needed, and discovering a new level of contentment with only them and the endless space around you.

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Lyrics:


I've been young, i've been innocent, 
I’ve been brave, I've been different, 
I've had ties and I've had severence. 

You've got a face that softens every muscle in my body, 
I've got a cupboard full of clothes I don't need,
Building a place so I can shut the world outside.

(And now) I’ve got an empty hideout cause I don't need to hide now,
The wind can blow out the candle, cause I'm certain I can't fall.
You've got a face that softens
All of the glass I’ve trodden, 
Now I’ve got an empty hideout.

Under the stars, out in the elements, 
If there's no room, there are no elephants,
When you speak the waves are radiant.

You've got a face that softens every muscle in my body, 
I’ve never needed all these things to feel whole,
Something familiar in the love that you provide.

(And now) I’ve got an empty hideout cause I don't need to hide now,
The wind can blow out the candle, cause I'm certain I can't fall.
You've got a face that softens
All of the glass I’ve trodden, 
Now I’ve got an empty hideout.

I don’t need to hide now I don’t need to,
Something in your love makes everything light up.
We don’t say a word although we want to,
Your heart was on the line now suddenly it’s mine.
There’s something in your love,
Something in your love,
Something in your love, in you love.
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Produced by Matt Cotterill - http://matthewcotterill.co.uk/ 
Artwork by Reuben Gaines & Natalie Holmes - http://www.reubengaines.com/
Mastered by Jp Braddock - http://mastering.ninja/

Hideout & Vessels

Hideout

Vessels

V1
For once in my life I feel like going hungry
So I can fill the empty space with love
For all of my life I’ve tried to find a purpose
Can I just sit and feel euphoria

Yes I love to sing and play on the piano
I use my hands to cook and learn to dance
But when I was born I held a beaming smile
All that I knew was that I had a heart

CHORUS
If we could clear our heads at night
Imagine the arms that rocked us side to side
We’re up and down like sailors stuck in a storm
But we can be vessels
All on our own

V2
For once in my life I’m staggeringly lonely
I know that can’t be an excuse to talk
In up to my neck at risk of being selfish
Yours are the only arms I can recall

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Oh when we're rocking to and fro
And we're lifting heave and ho
And we need a heavy drink
So we pour until we sink
When you smile I feel so safe
But I know that's not the case
I just need to lift the lid 
And fill every space with

Vessels

Strangers (Sigrid Cover)

Written & Produced by Natalie Holmes

Lyrics: 

Was it when you were taking deep breaths on the step outside the school?
Feeling ornamental like you’d crack right down the middle
Your raincoat is yellow and all of the water got through
Hard to feel normal when you’re wet but the sky is blue

The sky is so blue
But something’s blowing all the seeds out of your head
Dandelion in a hurricane and nobody gets it 
Stretch your trembling fingers out from side to side,
And glide
Ooh 

Taking up space yeah you’re out of control like a garden of weeds
Feeling inconvenient might as well make yourself little 
Soak up the soil its always been loyal to you
Hard to feel normal when normal just tears you in two


The sky is so blue
But something’s blowing all the seeds out of your hand
Dandelion in a hurricane does anybody understand?
Stretch your trembling fingers out from side to side
And glide 
Ooh

Down low you see every detail 
Up close see the scars on blades of grass
Magnified

Dandelion

Known for her haunting yet uplifting alt-pop, Natalie Holmes is a songwriter whose music will resonate deeply with all identifying as a cerebral wanderer. Over the past decade, she’s carved a path as an independent artist who consistently pushes the boundaries of songwriting and self-production, forever balancing on the edge of the box to establish a sound that’s evocative yet remains comforting; and questioning everything along the way.
Natalie’s journey began in 2010, when she uploaded grainy YouTube videos of her songs, quickly gaining a following for her raw, poetic lyricism and honey-toned vocals. She has since released numerous EPs, singles, and her debut album, Vitamin Be (2022), all of which reflect her unwavering commitment to honesty and vulnerability. Vitamin Be explored themes of mental health, self-reflection, and the profound effects of nature, with the album’s self-produced soundscape capturing the complex and contradictory nature of modern life. It received glowing praise from BBC Radio 2, BBC 6, Clash, and EARMILK, with Tom Robinson calling it “fresh, adventurous, really assured."
With her second full length record, Opposite Day, due for release later in 2025, Natalie expands on the experimental approach she began in Vitamin Be. The new album shifts between alt-pop dreamy soundscapes and analog wormholes, to convey the dizzying emotional highs and lows of today's world. Inspired by artists like Caroline Polachek, Bon Iver, The Japanese House and Aurora, Opposite Day is a kaleidoscopic journey that delves into the spaces between love and loss, focusing less on what’s good or bad and more on the search for silver linings in an ever-shifting, chaotic landscape. “I want Opposite Day to be both grounding and uprooting for people,” she says. “It’s about sometimes falling victim to the uncertainty, picking yourself back up again, and finding beauty in the madness of it all.”
Natalie’s creative trajectory is marked by her ability to innovate both as a producer and performer. After years of honing her production skills through self-released demos and her Patreon community, she produced Vitamin Be entirely on her own, blending live instruments with edgy synths, glitchy marimbas, and nature samples to create a dreamlike, immersive atmosphere. Her music has made its way onto platforms like Calm, where she composed sleep songs for children, and had her instrumental album ‘Piano Places’ licensed for sleep and meditation.
As a live performer, Natalie has toured extensively, headlining shows, playing festivals like Isle of Wight, Live at Leeds, Barn on the Farm and Between the Trees, and supporting artists such as Gabrielle Aplin, Ásgeir, and Sam Brookes. In 2016, she joined Above & Beyond on their Acoustic World Tour as one of their lead vocalists, performing at iconic venues like the Hollywood Bowl and Royal Albert Hall. Her voice has also graced the world of electronic music, with collaborations like “Zero” with Oliver Smith on Anjunabeats, which reached #1 on the iTunes Dance charts in over 15 countries, and “Doubt You,” a melodic future bass anthem that has garnered nearly 5 million streams.
Natalie’s path is one of constant growth and discovery, both personally and artistically. As an independent artist, she’s proven that the DIY route is more than just possible—it’s a thriving, dynamic journey. With Opposite Day on the horizon and a relentless drive to evolve, Natalie Holmes continues to inspire listeners to reflect, question, and embrace the challenges of life with grace, humour, and curiosity.

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