this very moment

until next time

Cover: Fallen Angels 1995
Sample: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rgH5SqEEDqY

honestly peace's cover is better than anything i could do, please support them
https://linktr.ee/peacesmuse

a new kind of love

main sample: https://soundcloud.com/willixbeats/iloveu @willixbeats
vocals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnKQuwzC2tY @poopea
@distantmemoryy

mine to miss

sitting on some songs that are coming.. not anything i REALLY love, but it feels right to share again.

https://soundcloud.com/imogenheap/froufrou-sane-again

sane again

take control

@lilhappylilsad

Art by: @neversince

Lyrics:

ye i love you, and i want u to smile
get the drugs boo, ye lets smoke and get high
drippin blood tho, i got death on my mind
got this urge hoe, wanna cut till die

and i dont want to, but i fuck it all up
i feel so damn low, cant control it at times
and it hurts you, i dont want u to cry
cause i love u, and i want u to smile

lil happy lil sad - smile (prod. nciku)

Sample: Casey - Passion Flowers

w/ @d_nnis

Uploaded by Violent Music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9TLjROZ7Sds

painted over w/ dennis

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4dblpzCGLcl6GOjnLmZ9P8
Sample: Sea oleena - Island cottage

picture by @pissboss

Uploaded by WAVY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzZVViH3wWU

bring me my love

Original song: Haven - you should know

Uploaded by SadVibe 美しい
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=74Ix_3LY29A

thank you for 100k plays

always with you (you should know)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/5CfEB52pySDOdXEVg3yeMy?si=8WLoOVSEQwKLOTod8BGkZg

Sample: Zola Jesus - Ixode

@malithmusic @malithmusic

Uploaded by SadVibe 美しい
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcuCGo8hOv8

picture credit: @pissboss (ig)

Spotify

I know it hurts (w/ malith)

sample: alcest - into the waves

thank you for 700 followers

picture credit: @loveless.nightmare (instagram)

June 22, 2018

we held hands through it all

Uploaded by SadVibe 美しい
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76yKpdc7QMY

follow my second account where I will post more tracks @digitalseirei

now that I'm gone

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4w7fvVPWOewNYK5mTQS8Yr
Sample: brighton - forest fire

<3

endless love

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0J77p7QsBH2r1OnMtHp9SB
Sample: Young And Dramatic - Never

Uploaded by OtherMindSenses

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z49GKOHnYiw

the mess is what we've found

Sample: The Silence Of A Whisper - Gothenburg

@butterflyblade @butterflyblade @butterflyblade

Uploaded by Vision Sounds
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfwJiZJ6FGc

leaving this behind (w/ buttxrfly)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/051tOW2TwH6ztRJTaIz7m0
Sample: God Is An Astronaut - Frozen Twilight

Uploaded by S L E E P W A V E
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxpXraCybFE

a light in the dark

killstation - glass

Uploaded by SadVibe 美しい
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jcpHy5pl8EQ

cover art - @goodnightdevil (instagram)

lost hope in my dreams

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0HShouEWnioVUeq6DVP0Hg?si=yTqeYbFSS5GODW-IRjwr3g

It's been an amazing 4 years on here, and I'm excited for many more to come. I'm extremely grateful that I have an outlet for my feelings, I can't imagine what my life would be like without music in it :)) 2019 will be amazing ♥♥

Uploaded b: 悲しいSadotaku
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53qAviXTB40

since I met you

Vocals: @4ever-falling
Prod: @nciku , @malithmusic

Lyrics:
leave me alone I'm so done with all these feelings 
you're saying words but they don't really have a meaning 
you're saying things like you're truly believing 
that things will get better but i feel like that's deceiving 

baby save me from myself 
do you believe me when I say i I'm in need of help 
my thoughts run in 100 miles an hour 
and i swear they just keep on getting louder

so save me 
please save me 

i know u say I'm not alone 
but that's not how i feel 
everyone here seems so cold
even if it isn't real 

i cant shake the feeling 
I'm feeling worthless 
you say u know my value 
but i feel like that's just bullshit 

everytime i leave my house 
i feel em judging me 
like no matter what i do
it's always haunting me 

i know i'm insecure 
i shouldn't care what people think 
but i hate my appearance 
wanna cover it with Inc

baby save me from myself 
do you believe me when I say i I'm in need of help 
my thoughts run in 100 miles an hour 
and i swear they just keep on getting louder

so save me
please save me

4ever Falling - Save Me (Prod. Nciku & Malith)

sample: https://soundcloud.com/frickedanielle/enough

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0DIpdHHE6uAxfj5JejOOnY

just the two of us <3

uploaded by: SadTrapVibe 美しい
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUbXBL1MssA

I could never forget

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6UGbA7b9dtLlt195ssw9Kg?si=tYqvCed2SGCEVhgy15WKQw

peace of mind

Spotify:  https://open.spotify.com/album/2kN8AnsnjRLj2glj7tJ1Fe

cold nights

losing time (w/ amertume)

Decided to post this on my main because I liked it <3

Sample 1 : https://soundcloud.com/xxvan1sh/samplechallenge

resistance

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/60D5VD6RfpxvuJRMzqiKXg
Sample: Capstan - Closing Cost

Cover Art: @neversince

Lyrics:
I can't stand this unrest

Filled with emptiness. I’m penniless. Over-drafted trying to impress. 
I guess I’ll just always stay second best.
You took my breath away and I don’t ever want it back again.
I’ve always had a cheap heart your bank account could always spend.

They say a picture’s worth a thousand words. I scream at yours and still stay unheard.
Maybe I’m just blind and your just deaf.
Or this is all just wasted breath.

wasted breath

just posting this because it's the first song that I've really worked on after taking a break for the past few months. 

Hopefully i can get back into making music like I used to so I can continue improving <3

Guitar Credit - Nothing,Nowhere

September

lost without you (w/ kaori ღ)

Sample: https://soundcloud.com/lucydaydream/red-stripped

follow buttxrfly: @butterflyblade @butterflyblade

Cover Art: @sammysoju (instagram)

Supported By SadTrapVibe 美しい:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LN_yVfALd5w

without a thought (w/ buttxrfly)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7Bej5YJOSfBf5gCmZxcuiY
Downloads enabled <3
no samples
Picture: https://www.instagram.com/connikoscina/

not goodbye

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/24tDspSl6apmMw0PrCiIEh

@desolence @desolence @desolence

Sample: Daughter - A Hole In The Earth

you were my everything, but now you're gone (w/ desolent)

No samples. Guitar by @nciku + @windheartxx
Cover art - @dotamm (instagram)

Daybreak (w/ Windheart)

No samples.
Cover art: @evphie
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6tz2p01TrnY6OWaX76N6dN

Hard to believe that another year has passed... If you care enough to be reading this and if you still follow my music I can't thank you enough <3

Nciku

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