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This song is raw and true to the place I was in mentally when I recorded it. A few months ago I left my long-term relationship as well as my home and first attempt at a better life for myself. I returned to New York and lost myself in substances and self-medication. This song came from an evening of blackout substance abuse which was part of an even longer span of time that I do not recollect. When I found this song in my macbook I felt it would be too personal to ever share publicly but as i've grown and overcame these obstacles I decided it would be a necessary part in the process of healing and moving on. This one is self-produced and I don't remember making any of it. Thanks for sharing this with me.

jumpedtoosoon

dont p. sheepy

s/o cl6udy <3
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Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: cl6udy x wh1tespace
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
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LYRICS:

[Chorus]
ion wanna go but i kno im not wanted
if i go home i wont be where your heart is
i been on my own i bet you know how that shit be
this will all suck when you finally decide to leave me

i been thinkin bout shit n i know i fucked up
i think time to quit n fix all my fuck ups
i know you prolly wont but id like you to forgive me
you dont even have to just let me know your listening

[verse]
just let me know if you heard this
i can promise im not perfect

yeah but ill try to make it worth it
i could be the one girl
ill take you on my tours babe
yeah theres no one that id want more babe
tell me if youd want it
tell me that you want me

ill try to make up for lost time
times when you werent mine
times you werent by my side
thats why i need you tonight

[Chorus]
ion wanna go but i kno im not wanted
if i go home i wont be where your heart is
i been on my own i bet you know how that shit be
this will all suck when you finally decide to leave me

i been thinkin bout shit n i know i fucked up
i think time to quit n fix all my fuck ups
i know you prolly wont but id like you to forgive me
you dont even have to just let me know your listening

where your heart is <3 [Prod. cl6udy x wh1tespace]

lyrics

omg omg 
its a lot
say im fine
swear im fine
but im not
tie my hands
close the door
engage the locks
ik u love me cuz u keep me in ur closet
this the knife
that u put
in my lung
this the time
u had kept me 
on my own
keep my close
leave me chained to ur bed
luv the way
u had messed
w my head

closed doors get knocked down theres no one there
problems i got em but i wont share
deep down im damaged but you wont care
somehow i manage it isnt fair
omg omg can you hear me
i get lost in my own fucking feelings
omg omg can you feel me
im the ghost in your walls hear me breathing

omg omg 
its a lot
say im fine
swear im fine
but im not
tie my hands
close the door
engage the locks
ik u love me cuz u keep me in ur closet
this the knife
that u put
in my lung
this the time
u had kept me 
on my own
keep my close
leave me chained to ur bed
luv the way
u had messed
w my head

stockholm syndrome ft 20ofive

beat prod by: FOS Music
written and performed by: reject x epitome x teddy

out da br41n! + epitomeoffailure x teddyboi (p. FOS Music)

a song about two people in love wanting to grow closer

what does it take to get closer? feat. scorpio (prod. Kire)

back again (prod. slaying ibis)

made ts off the shrooms ngl

Lyrics:

Voices inside of my head tell me I’m doomed
Feel like I’m already dead, that’s prolly true
Bitch, I’m the highest when you walk into the room
You tryna curse me you could go to hell too
Hold up
Were you just talking to me?
I did not hear what you sayin’
Conversations with my demons, sorry if I seem distracted
That’s okay, imma float away & leave that in the past tense
I can’t lie, clinging to my bad habits
Know it’s been awhile
Since i’ve really found
Someone I can trust & someone I can love
My heart’s prolly rusty been awhile since I’ve felt it work
Looking back, what did I do to deserve all this fuckin’ hurt?
Swear this shit feel crazy all the time, when I’m fuckin’ her
She ain’t really love me, she just kicked me out her crib
Then she text me that we breaking up, I’m like “what a bitch!”
That’s okay, I found out I don’t need you anyways

I’m ridin’ this high, feel like I’m surfin’ a tidal wave
I won’t sink, swimmin’ to the surface imma be okay
I’m too scared of love, don’t think I can give you all of me
But this girl too fine, I might have to fuck around & see
Honestly, I fuck with how you love to get high too
Cause you don’t judge me about that substance abuse
Everybody always talking ‘bout me, kills my mood
Know that I made some mistakes, why you still cryin’ bout it like “boo-hoo”
Ex bitch hit my phone, she said “I hate that I used you”
Why you only hit me up when you be sad & lonely?
Manipulative tendencies, this lil bitch is so phony
She only really hit me up when she is horny
This is not the girl that I fell in love with
(hell no)
This is just another fuckin’ hoe
The person that you pretended to be
She was my whole world
Honestly, this shit is startin’ to make sense
I don’t think the love of my life exists
Is this shit a dream? Cannot find the exit
I don’t want you no more, did you get the message?
All these lessons that I learned in the time that I spent
With her
Just for her to tell me that I’m such a jerk
What the fuck you talkin’ bout? I know I treated you the best
But she be tellin’ lies, it depends on who you ask

Voices inside of my head tell me I’m doomed
Feel like I’m already dead, that’s prolly true
Bitch, I’m the highest when you walk into the room
You tryna curse me you could go to hell too
Hold up
Were you just talking to me?
I did not hear what you sayin’
Conversations with my demons, sorry if I seem distracted
That’s okay, imma float away & leave that in the past tense
I can’t lie, clinging to my bad habits
Know it’s been awhile
Since i’ve really found
Someone I can trust & someone I can love
My heart’s prolly rusty been awhile since I’ve felt it work
Looking back, what did I do to deserve all this fuckin’ hurt?
Swear this shit feel crazy all the time, when I’m fuckin’ her
She ain’t really love me, she just kicked me out her crib
Then she text me that we breaking up, I’m like “what a bitch!”
That’s okay, I found out I don’t need you anyways

I’m ridin’ this high, feel like I’m surfin’ a tidal wave
I’m floatin’ away, yeah i’m floatin’ away
Don’t care what they say, nah don’t care what they say
I’m floatin’ away, yeah i’m floatin’ away
(yeah)

DOOM (prod. vyzio)

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