This is my 36th Commission who I made for: SMIKKELBEER


I Am Abel

I Tried So Much

(Verse 1)
You always look at me so tenderly,
As if I were the rarest gem beneath the sea.
You hold me so tight, like I could break anytime,
It makes me wonder, am I worthy of your love, babe?
But in your eyes I catch a trace,
A shadow of doubt I can’t erase.

(Pre-Chorus)
She has a name that rhymes with yours,
Her beauty opens every door.
She’s never caught with a broken face,
And I can tell you still crave her embrace.

(Chorus)
Once in a blue moon, you make me think our love is unstoppable,
But when you hear her name, the moon turns red.
Here we go again, lost in the haze of your soul,
Will you find your way to me, or run back to her and act fool

(Verse 2)
Your gaze grows darker, colder than the snow,
Like winter nights where no flame dares to glow.
Is it the falling leaves that drag you down,
Or the ghost of her still hanging around?
’Cause in your stare I see it plain—
You’re here from need, not love, just pain.

(Pre-Chorus)
She has a name that rhymes with yours,
Her beauty opens every door.
She’s never caught with a broken face,
And I can tell you still crave her embrace.

(Chorus)
Once in a blue moon, you make me think our love is unstoppable,
But when you hear her name, the moon turns red.
Here we go again, lost in the haze of your soul,
Will you find your way to me, or run back to her and act fool
Once in a blue moon, our love feels unstoppable (was it ever true?).
But when her name is spoken, the whole sky turns red (so red).
Here we go again, lost in the haze of your soul,
Will you ever choose me, or let her take control?

(Bridge)
I know I’ll never be enough for you (never, never).
I can’t fill the void she carved into you (into you, into you).
But tell me straight, don’t hide, don’t blur (tell me, babe, tell me).
You can’t love me the way you love her (you caaan’t).
Oh, baby no, baby no!
What if I changed, became your type—
Would I still lose you to her every night?
Your mom says I’m better, your hands say I’m true,
So why does your heart still belong to her too?

(Chorus – outro)
Once in a blue moon, our love feels unstoppable (was it ever true?).
But when her name is spoken, the whole sky turns red (so red).
Here we go again, lost in the haze of your soul,
Will you ever choose me, or let her take control?

Once in a blue moon

Glass Throne

He’ll Know When It’s Gone

The truth

in the dark

Train Tracks of Truth

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Wallk away in the rain

I've been staring at our picture for hours,
Asking myself if it's wrong over and over.
We did something we said we would never,
Confused why everything feels so much easier.

How did we end up with this closure?
We went the wrong way; neither of us could endure.
We promised to hold hands forever,
But now we find ourselves saying, "We're over."

It's funny how I shouldn't be okay at all,
But why do I feel like I just broke a prison wall?
I became complacent, content through it all.

I want to stay, but I can't get myself to fight for it.
I want to be with you, but how come I'm fine with it?
Standing on the edge at the end of you and me,
But why does it feel like alone is where I want to be?

At the end of us, but I can't wait to be just me.
So many good memories, a future we longed to see,
But all of it was cast aside by us hurting every day.
Whoa oh oh ohhh.

I've been awake, wondering if what we decided
Was the right way to say our love has died.
It's not like we didn't try at all you know we did,
But the more we tried to fix it, the more we bled.

We asked ourselves, "When did we stop?
When did we fall this hard from the top?"
We forgot the rules of love; we fell for the trap,
Forgot to put us first, and in the end, we dropped.

It's funny how I shouldn't be okay at all,
But why do I feel like I just broke a prison wall?
I became complacent, content through it all.
Ohhh ohhh, whoa oh...

I want to stay, but I can't get myself to fight for it.
I want to be with you, but how come I'm fine with it?
Standing on the edge at the end of you and me,
But why does it feel like alone is where I want to be?
At the end of us, but I can't wait to be just me.
So many good memories, a future we longed to see,
But all of it was cast aside by us hurting every day.
Whoa oh oh ohhh.

We held on so tightly, afraid to let go,
But love shouldn't feel like a battle we owe.
Tried to rewrite the story, but the ink wouldn't flow,
Two hearts lost, and now it's starting to show.
We both know the truth we've had our fill,
Yet here we are, pretending against our will.

I want to stay, but I can't get myself to fight for it.
I want to be with you, but how come I'm fine with it?
Standing on the edge at the end of you and me,
But why does it feel like alone is where we want to be?
At the end of us, but we can't wait to be just free.
So many good memories,‐ a future we longed to see,
But all of it was cast aside by us hurting every day.
Whoa oh oh ohhh.

At the end of you and me, we find our breath.
In the silence, I hear what's left.
No more promises, no more regret
Just the calm of a sunrise we won’t forget.
[Female]
I’ll always love who we were before,
But we can't keep knocking on a broken door.
So we both walk away, finally free,
At the end of us, you found  you and I’ve found me.

At The End Of Us (Live)

Unexpected-Migwave

I'm a genre-blending songwriter, worship leader, and spiritual storyteller. My sound doesn’t fit inside a typical Christian or Gospel box—it’s rooted in clarity, truth, and lived experience. I write music that’s raw, educational, and anchored in Scripture, often shaped by the emotional highs and lows of walking through this world with Jesus by my side.
Yes, I’ve written songs as I'm learning to surrendering fully to Him—and no, I’m not perfect now. I’m human, growing in His ways daily. But I won’t write anything that opens doors to darkness. Every lyric is intentional. Every track is a reflection of the healing, insight, and truth I’ve found—and want others to find too.
I'm a nurse by day, and helping people has always been at my core. Music is simply another way I do that now—through truth, through grace, through sound.

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