La civilisation de la graine

Enquête Païenne

You build yourself up while the world breaks you down 
Feeling untouchable till the walls are crashing down 
All the strength you gather be gone in a second 
Everything forgotten can come back and fucking wreck it

One day you're standing tall
The next day you’re going to fall 
Everything’s going, going away
Everything's going, going away 

One day you’re standing tall
The next you’re on the floor
Contemplating how the fuck you can take anymore
Your resolve will be tested by the limits of your soul
You dissolve every method it begins to take its toll

So many white walls that need a big hole from my fist 
So much of this fighting is over all of this shit 
I conquer conquer conquer but the fight still rages on 
I wonder wonder wonder if I can go on at all

But my mind is there to save me and to gather up my will 
My mind is there to save me and repeat I fucking will 
The torment will keep rising but the dog in me bites back 
The universe is winning until I am fighting back 
My heart is beating loudly but my chest gathers the air
The start was so profound but the enemies still there
My energy is binding and its blinding to the hurt
I will not be defeated this was needed for me to learn 
This was needed for me to learn
This was needed for me to learn

Fall

Many thanks to Vincent @event49 for offering a stunning electronic track to collaborate on.
[Wind ensemble: soprano saxes / flute drones / tenor sax, flute, oboe interludes.]

Standing Light (Blue Mix) - Event 49 + WBE

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Regrets

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Arriving to a music festival, the vibes grow on you. People as excited as you are. Feels so good to dance, sing and party collectively.

Where and when?

George Gurdjieff profoundly impacted the mystical world through his development of the Fourth Way, a spiritual teaching that sought to integrate aspects of Eastern and Western traditions. Gurdjieff taught that people are not conscious of themselves and thus live their lives in a state of hypnotic "waking sleep", but that it is possible to awaken to a higher state of consciousness and serve our purpose as human beings. 

Emerging in the early 20th century, Gurdjieff introduced a unique approach to self-realization that emphasized the need for simultaneous development of the intellectual, emotional, and physical aspects of the self. His teachings, characterized by complex exercises, rhythmic movements, and a distinctive blend of Eastern mysticism and Western psychology, challenged conventional spiritual practices and invited a more holistic pursuit of personal growth.

 Gurdjieff's emphasis on self-observation and inner work, along with his influential writings such as "Beelzebub's Tales to His Grandson," left a lasting legacy that continues to inspire and provoke thought among seekers and scholars in the mystical and spiritual domains.

Fragments of the Absolute

Fragments Of The Absolute

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually as part of my Foul Weather Friends album)

Greetings to the music community. I’m glad you stopped by. Today, I have the privilege of sharing another collaboration (#8 in fact) with our ever inspiring friend, Carlos Vivanco (https://soundcloud.com/carlosvivanco-1, https://carlosvivanco1.bandcamp.com). I always get stunning results, working with this fellow. :)

But first, the haiku that inspired the title:

O snail,
climb Mount Fuji,
but slowly, slowly
- Kobayashi Issa

I literally discovered ‘O snail’ as Carlos was sending me his guitar elements. The timing was too coincidental (thus the title).

As you may well imagine, the haiku of the Snail climbing Mount Fuji implies patience, perseverance, and remembering to enjoy the journey. But we never understand the trials of the snail; only his speed limitations. I feel like it’s good to face some truths about ourselves that might be interfering with our journey; and hearing someone else share their challenges has often helped me not feel so overwhelmed by mine.

For example, I have a strangely persistent ‘low self-esteem’ issue that has been with me for as long as I can remember. There are numerous childhood experiences keeping that thinking alive. But if I’m being completely honest with myself, they are all just part of my story… and the majority of them are not even happening to me any more. Yet despite 55 year old Justin’s accomplishments, that dark little fellow shows up from time to time, to… I don’t know… put me back in my place? Or something?

And here’s the annoying thing. There is an abundance of evidence indicating I’m a good person, living a worthwhile life, doing good things. I’m a highly logical person; and the math on this is pretty solid. This should be a breeze to overcome.

Surprisingly, it’s not. 

So clearly, there are certain perspectives that simply defy logic. And I suspect many of us carry similar thoughts and feelings deep inside; those annoying little clingers-on that defy reason, and fight to keep us down. That part of us that always wanted to be accepted by and fit into something that never really matched our shape to begin with. 

This is ultimately about us realizing that we are ridiculously amazing beings. Higher minded Justin truly believes every one of us is fundamentally perfect (and perfectly capable), because we are here right now… living this. I believe we are all in a very advanced class (or at the very least, approaching finals on a very rigorous curriculum), and we wouldn’t be here if we hadn’t met the prerequisites. We stand here right now (although I'm sitting as I type), with purpose and opportunity coming at us full steam. It’s going to be an amazing, sometimes horrifying, sometimes beautiful beyond words experience. And we all get to do it together. Wild ride, right?

The bottom line is… it’s time we gave ourselves a break, and loved and accepted ourselves… as is. That is so key to the rest of it working out for us, and it’s truly worth prioritizing. 

Also, what if we try our hardest to honor and respect each other’s paths. Every path is sacred… even if some seem harder to understand. And they all combine to make up this story, which would not be so poignant (or easy to learn from) if not for the extreme light and extreme dark elements giving us such wide angle perspective.

Carlos and I hope you enjoy ‘Climbing Mount Fuji With My Snail.” :)

F.W. Friends

Climbing Mount Fuji With My Snail | Carlos Vivanco & GrevusAnjl

The Texas Tea duo is back for another genre bending collaboration!

@texmex-shaman and I have been making tunes together for going on a couple of years now - check out our full playlist to date: https://soundcloud.com/texmex-shaman/sets/texas-tea-sea

On this one, I made the electro beat and sent to Stephen. He added all the guitar parts as well as some really cool sound effects during the outro. Always a blast to put these together.

Overflow (a Texas Tea production) - w/ TexMex Shaman

JUST BE

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