Name: Silent Memory by Neural Dismay
Duration: 4 min 34 s
Description: Deathcore

Under My Boot

Under My Boot (ft. Stei Camel)

Crown of thorns on my tongue…
Wings made of smoke…
I bled for nothing  now I speak for silence.

They told me God is watching 
But I saw nothing in the fire.
I prayed into a void
And heard my own voice…
louder
than angels ever sang.

Zar’ven dral-ka, sha’neth kree,
Vel’zar eth-nul, graaz tel’thi,
Skaara zul-thoth, in’el gruln,
Kel vrok’raal… vrok’raal

So I carved a throne
out of bone and black ash,
And I whispered:
“If no god answers…
Then I must be god.”

I am GOD  not your savior, not your sin,
Born from filth, made of men.
I am GOD  not above, but within,
A crown of rot on sacred skin.

I walked through your cathedrals,
Empty hearts in gilded glass.
Your prayers sound like begging
to a mirror that never answers back.

I saw more truth
in the howl of a dying wolf
than in a thousand holy books
untouched by dirt.

You fear me…
Because I found power in my own ruin.
Because I forgave myself… when heaven wouldn’t.
Because I looked in the dark… and it blinked first.

I am GOD  not your savior, not your sin,
Born from filth, made of men.
I am GOD  not above, but within,
A crown of rot on sacred skin.


Let the churches burn in silence,
Let the skies forget my name,
For I am not a lie…
I am flame.

I… am… GOD.
I... am... NOOO! GOD!!!

NOOO... GOD!!!!

I Am (Not) God

EQUINOX OFFICIAL - My Dying Flower - Original Version
Lyrics

Verse 1
A beggar lost his hands and feet
In front of him a young man bleeds
And my dying flower fell
From the roof into the well
This story is as old as hell

Chorus
One
Two
Three
They died so we can see
They died so we can see

Verse
A mother lies upon her bed
A mother cradles her child who's dead
A creature crawls upon her back
It eats her head while she lies flat
She prays for it to stop but she knows that

Chorus
One
Two

They died so we can see
They died so we can see

Verse
And I saw him looking out at me
And I felt his pain
And he could see
I was nothing more than a wretched worm
Who knew the way but who wouldn't learn
Who was stuck on a ball in an endless turn

Chorus
One

They died so we can see
They died so we can see
Welcome to Helllll
They died so we can see
They died so we can see

Album Description: EQUINOX OFFICIAL - My Dying Flower (Original Version)

"My Dying Flower" is a profound and unsettling journey into the heart of human suffering and existential despair, presented by EQUINOX OFFICIAL.

This special edition release delves into a world where vulnerability, loss, and the cyclical nature of pain are inescapable truths.

Through vivid and dark symbolism, the lyrics paint a grim tableau: from the tragic figure of a dismembered beggar and the senseless sacrifice of a bleeding youth, to the profound grief of a mother consumed by an unseen, parasitic tormentor.

The central metaphor of a beautiful, yet withered flower, plummeting into oblivion, encapsulates the song's melancholic essence and the inevitability of decay.

The chilling refrain, "They died so we can see," serves as a stark commentary on enlightenment born from tragedy, urging a grim awareness.

This track is a powerful, unyielding exploration of the human condition, culminating in a stark 'Welcome to Hell' that resonates with unsettling truth and a desperate plea for understanding amidst inescapable darkness.

Experience the haunting narrative and visceral emotion of "My Dying Flower," a testament to the enduring struggle within a world caught in an endless, sorrowful turn.

We hope you guys enjoy!

Oct 01, 2025 · Mastered - EQUINØX ØFFICI∆L STUDIØS - AG - Switzerland - CHE-242.338.291 – Reg. Corp. © All Rights Reserved.

My Dying Flower (Original Version)

Mary's Wish

BPD·ID8

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Stand in the pouring rain
I could see my own grave
Find the one to blame
Say the shit that they won't say

Damn my back's in pain
From carrying the whole game
I could crash the plane
I could burn the whole place

And I'm not afraid
To swallow a live grenade
And blow you away
Blow you away

Cut through the static haze
I'm a spark that lights the flames
No one left to save
I'll erase what you can't face

Shadows crawl inside my brain
Nothing left but rust and chains
Tear it down, erase the name
Watch it all go up in flames

And I'm not afraid
To swallow a live grenade
And blow you away
Blow you away

And I'm not afraid
To swallow a live grenade
And throw you away
Throw you away

🔻 Lyrics

Verse 1:
Voodoo—it's all you do
No charm, no shame
Just a blacked-out truth
Your house of cards, now falling through
Afraid to catch your own eye
Denied, denied, denied
Corrupted mind—no patch in sight
Lost call, lost soul
It's all on you now

Chorus:
I sink down, don't speak up now
Judge this thought, it's all I got
Voices ring but none are loud
Drown this heart, it's turning rot
Sink down under—blame my name
This curse is all I've got
(Sink... sink... sink...)
(Echo: Sink down, sink down...)

Verse 2:
I tried—fuck it
I cried—fuck it
Was sad—fuck it
Was mad—fuck it
I'm glad it's not you I have
Dollars stacked, still not worth the cause
Loops play on, sick repeat
Deleting thoughts like files on heat
Drag and drop—deny and lie

Chorus:
I sink down, don't speak up now
Judge this thought, it's all I got
Voices ring but none are loud
Drown this heart, it's turning rot
Sink down under—blame my name
This curse is all I've got
(Sink... sink... sink...)
(Build: Voices fading, sink...)

Bridge 1:
Waited so long just to see this die
Mind on tour, no rest at night
Pounding chest, no breath left
Just echoes screaming, dreams collapse

Bridge 2:
I don't have our memories anymore
Self-made drip—did the trick
At-home kit, quick snip
Brain wiped, now I'm new—who are you?

Verse 3:
You saw me fall, and waved
Saw my pain, and moved on
Saw my hand, and let it fade
Alone, circling the sink
Begging this drain to drink me
Drugs and sex a way to release

Bridge 3:
People want to talk to fame
Cribs be crazy
Drenched in filth and rich—going once, going twice—your soul is sold, hope he's nice!
Pretend, depend, hang on him
Split spread and bread—was that the plan?
That's how you jam? That's your scam?

Breakdown:
Act layered, but you got nothin' to pull back
Your deep throat tricks: “Look what I can do” and filler tracks
Vocabulary locked on "Brova"— “I know… right”?
Your whole act? Get a mirror, reflect back
Silver spoons and elite waste
Entry-level lies in a plastic case
Sliding doors, fake grace—wide enough to hide a whole damn face
Another bad lay, he tried to pay
Packed nose, benzos—ask him, he knows

Verse 4:
No pact, no chain, no holy name
Just me, a beast, off-leash, untamed
You stitched a wound just to twist the thread
Smiled wide—while I bled in bed
Look at you—wrapped in plastic
Watch me rise while your life folds
My scars? They talk louder than yours
My pain? It kicks down closed doors

Final Chorus:
I sink down—no, I rise now
Carved from pain, I wear the crown
You thought I'd fold, thought I'd drown
But I built a throne from battlegrounds
Sink down? Not anymore
This war? I'm walking out the door
(Rise... rise... rise...)


Outro:
Sink down no more... rise and walk away


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