I find myself living in the past more then the present. https://open.spotify.com/track/0kmuixmTHYOhlSrBpr90Wf?si=c955712092f64576
Chorus
Just follow me here 
And I’ll be right there
The taste of your lips 
Feel something like bliss 
I’m lost in your head 
Ion wanna feel this 
tired of loving 
Cause I’ll just forget 
No I won’t 
I’ll keep holdin on to 
memories 
And you know you got the 
best of me 
Got me captive
To my enemies 
What am I searching for 

Verses
Your my depression
My deception 
The only girl I want 
My lethal weapon 
Hope you know 
That I try 
But I’m a servant 
You are my heaven 
Yes you my heaven 
Fall into my arms 
Don’t let me go 
Don’t tell me you love me 
Cause I know you don’t 
Been falling out of touch 
Of your lips I’m a full 
I know your gonna hurt me 
When it’s wonderful 

Chorus
Just follow me here 
And I’ll be right there
The taste of your lips 
Feel something like bliss 
I’m lost in your head 
Ion wanna feel this 
tired of loving 
Cause I’ll just forget 
No I won’t 
I’ll keep holdin on to 
memories 
And you know you got the 
best of me 
Got me captive
To my enemies 
What am I searching for

memories

pack it up (prod by Prod.byCian)

stitches

stay awake

absent

im scrollin on my phone, no wait i wanna be yours
as soon as possible ensured
who am i to talk? the panels crack when u walk on em
i know Im not a boss, but everytime im ;lost i need your help
come save me, ik its not ur job but come save me baby
I need your help and your lifestyle
All the bad things i've seen, think im gouging my eyes out

Im lighting me up one, Im lining me up one
its nothing new, i think im running in cycles
I hate that u like me, i hope its a white lie tho
and she got cuts on her wrists, but why am i not suprised tho?

If I could love like myself again
runnin circles and laps in my head
guess u didnt want it all, after all?
had to watch the rain fall off the wall
how do i know who you are(well i guess i dont)
makin assumptions babe(made this for u)
my life goes on after u leave me
left me hangin babe
callin you out for ur stupid jokes
but it dont mean nothin babe

my luv was in ya hands, i might never luv again
take a gander into ya eyes, u seem real accomplished
but ima let my mind set up, watch,
ima let my time go off
I dont even feel like pondering, just thinkin bout it make me ponder off
dozing off in my head
i dont get alot, its well said
i dont really feel like pretending for u
if i show my true colors ima peacock spreadin its wings fo--
i dont really luv u Madelyn, im jus singing for u


im scrollin on my phone, no wait i wanna be yours
as soon as possible ensured
who am i to talk? the panels crack when u walk on em
i know Im not a boss, but everytime im ;lost i need your help
come save me, ik its not ur job but come save me baby
I need your help and your lifestyle
All the bad things i've seen, think im gouging my eyes out

Im lighting me up one, Im lining me up one
its nothing new, i think im running in cycles
I hate that u like me, i hope its a white lie tho
and she got cuts on her wrists, but why am i not suprised tho?

If I could love like myself again
runnin circles and laps in my head
guess u didnt want it all, after all?
had to watch the rain fall off the wall
how do i know who you are(well i guess i dont)
makin assumptions babe(made this for u)
my life goes on after u leave me
left me hangin babe
callin you out for ur stupid jokes
but it dont mean nothin babe

MADELYN BLUSH!

possibilities ft d4vd

home is where the heart is 
but its just not the same
cuz i been trying my hardest
but you couldnt relate

you could see the cracks up in my walls
feel the roof abouta crumble up and fall
right here's where you belong dont run too far
cuz without you this whole house will fall apart

and as the earth
moves underneath my feet
make a plea to high olympus 
that you might come and rescue me

home is where the heart is 
but its just not the same
cuz i been trying my hardest
but you couldnt relate

hestia (unreleased)

prod me 
i know were meant
 were meant to be
 cause girl your made for me
 made
don't want to put everything at stake
you always find some way to complain
maybe we could meet at our favorite place
its getting kinda dark outside
i wish i knew it was too late
don't know how much longer
 i can stay and wait.

favorite place

prod safe in the rain
hey mom i can hear you in the background when I'm recording this 
your laughing and i can just see that big smile on your face 
you don't you don't have to lie 
and i don't want you to feel like you need to lie 
its just I've been trying to talk to you
 i just cant
 I've been trying to express myself through music 
i just don't want you to feel the same way i did 
so please just talk to me
 so please don't blame yourself
 i know its been hard since she passed away
 you'll see her face
 soon enough 
i don't know if i do enough
 i know you been waiting 
been waiting
 i know you been waiting

dear, mom

prod panuco
you used to sing me lullabies
 i fall asleep at night
 you always tell me ill be alright
you push me away and everything starts to change
you threw it all in my face
so just incase you try it and keep on denying
 ill be there for you. you used to sing me lullabies
i fall asleep at night
you always tell me ill be alright
 do you mean it? 
lullabies, lullabies

pack it up (prod by Prod.byCian)

NGEVAN*

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