Original Freestyle Recording of Nicholas Mercier Coulombe's poem" Self-Examination" in his car over the Chillhop song "It's Ok" by Yuutsu off of the Album Transience.
https://open.spotify.com/track/3creDlbqQbgQ6PEcS5xhSB?si=ncmAxwSrTdO0ROt8coRTSw


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Album Art by Rush Brown
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Updated Poem Below
as of: 9/21/18
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Self examination 
Check your vitals

Snap the Nitrile
Up to the elbow

we're gonna stretch and 
pull the protector down.

Play an Avant-garde film 
no sound, but

I noticed
you spoke it

credits were rolling'
down your cheek

nothing certain but death and taxes
left handed laughing' laxatives
In the coffee of mothers
Who pump out politicians.

This year You scavenged for Christmas
a life worth living
by killing intuition

stash it
in an Easter basket
in silicone lashes

push the ashes together
then burn the mattress
That's the sand.

through fingers, you make a fist
3rd grade principal

pulled you from detention 
In a stretcher

white royal flush in the trenches
You fought to be human
all you needed was 
a breath of attention

who said you could end it 
win it, prescription of tribulations

from whatever God you'd scavenge for Christmas 
he put you through it

all the abuses
habits

black and white canvas
silent obscuring angles

You're more than mannequin

who prayed for this madness
who pays for the therapist
If you even have it
who kept you out of church
And into church basements
writes the book of curses 
force fed sedative

Says he went to college.
His Suit is stained in coffee
Yet you're the burden with the vices?

The film is over
the light flickers darkness
we sit in the coffin

smoking' and screaming'
blood is flowing, but there's

no fire
we're just speaking'

what happens after 3AM
witching hour that one scene

when the camera angle was 
blurry.

it spoke to me
said self examination can't be

latex
you gotta s
nitrile

they're cut resistant
cover five fingers

not just one appendage.
Blue hands protect you

more than a stranger
so button your blanket

take down the black curtains
sun was always shining,

closed it 
to blurry our focus

could take our Macguyver theater
wallpaper canvas stretching

hit us in the temple
like a parshah

finished another session
the blessing of human language

the messenger 
malakh, without expectation

we fumble to understand
Scalpel in hand,

ventricle in tact
we're just holding' a feather pen
stick our hands in the past

take a look in the mirror
And write it all down.


https://hellopoetry.com/poem/2723426/self-examination/

Self Examination

https://indigoet.com/bleatblog/2018/10/10/aeschines

Nicholas Coulombe