special thanks to Weej for the guitar and drums!!

lyrics:
You give me your hearts and confetti
Am I your favourite, really?
But even if you didn't mean it,
to me it's bounded, sealed, hid the key and

You got my arms so tired from reaching
Try'na sneak a peek behind the curtain and

You got me chained chained chained
to my screen
Only existing when it's you that I think

I’m at your disposal
Do what you will with me
Give me a call and I’ll make sure that you got what you need

But what you don't know is
I got some tricks up my sleeve
and every move you make is just what I knew it would be
What I knew it would be

Now when I’m on the marquee, you're the first in line
You're obsessed, almost just as much as I am
Told I should be treading lightly
but they don't really know where I’ve been

Jack of all trades, yet I’ll act like a fool
Watch this clock move, then want nothing but to

Be at my disposal
Hung up on every word I speak
Next thing you know, I’m in your cortex pulling on your strings

Just you wait babe then
You'll be the one anticipating
You had your magic wand, but I got smoke and mirrors
I’m the mastermind, baby
It’s what I knew it would be

At Your Disposal (live demo)

starving artists!

will i still love you in the spring?
cause my heart's got lots to give
or will you let it wilt away?
color my world, then leave it grey

will your picture stop my heart again
so bad i light a cigarette
then i summon my ancestors
who shame me for how down bad i am

will you be aching for my presence
the way you crane your neck for a kiss
from the summer sun to your skin

sorry for all this talk of seasons
i just fear for a future where you wont be familiar with my name

will you still like me in the spring?
does your heart have room to spare?
if/when you thirst for tenderness
know that my spring's for you to rest in
dive in

will you feel so unreal to me
i reach out for your hand
when you hold it back
feels like i'm finally running my fingers thru some grass

and it won't feel like the first time
ever again, but i'm fine with that
just as long as you want me for the next

cause you can bet that i'll still want you
but if my spring of love's a bit too big
for you to swim in

you can tell me, like we practiced
better to quit while we're ahead

but if i still love you in the spring
when my heart's got more to give
please don't let it wilt away
please don't let it wilt away

lovespring - Japanese Surplus

di na namamansin c idol😱

you were my whole fucking world
for one second
granted, i didn’t let you know
not directly

but you couldn’t read the signs
you had so many chances
i had so many chances
but we never crossed the line
yeah and now i regret it
oh i so regret it

and how can you act like
i’m nobody?
still think about you sometimes
so save me the shame and think about me too

kinda sad, i still search for you in pictures
feels like i'll point u out in crowds for forever

and we're not competing
but if we were
i'd be an olympian
you'd be caught dead slacking off

maybe you could try catching up
but it’s not like u want to
pathetic, i still want you to

c’mon man, spare me a thought
you know that i still exist, right?
love to know if i still cross your mind

you had so many chances
i had so many chances
is it delusion
if you said you loved me too?

you know i still that exist right?
love to know if i’m still on your mind
even though, i'd do nothing
knowing the insanity was mutual would satisfy

and how can you act like
i’m nobody? 
still think about you sometimes

would it be so insane?
no way it was just me
so save me the shame

 and think about me... too

save me the shame - Japanese Surplus

song for upcoming panjia project



picture from Mr. Francisco Domingo Angeles (ig: @_francoangeles)

are you too? (demo)

nahihibang

Bones

album art by yosef

watching the window, my hand holding the railings
leaning on my arm pretending that it's you
if you could see me now youd probably hate me
theres only so much pretending you can do

i swore id never come back to this city
but what the hell would you know about keeping a promise
when you held me you whispered that you missed me
7 fuckin years and you still cant be honest

would i be selfish if i said i wished it hurt?
picking at the scabs will only make it worse

you told me that baker hall is full of ghosts
the long lost souls of POWs
who could never leave, you could never leave
i bet they don't even like it, it's just somewhere to be

how many times have we stumbled through these streets holding each other trying not to vomit
i wonder if you heard what i mumbled before the
security guard shined his flashlight on us

"would things be different if i held you closer?"
does that question even matter anymore?
i know it doesn't matter but i'm still picking petals
a waste of life just lying on the floor

would i be selfish if i said i wished it hurt?
picking at the scabs will only make it worse

you can only walk around f park so many times before you start to run out of shit to say
im a broken record, guess you already knew
but what the hell do i write about if it isn't you?

scabs

just like the flowers
that grow from the cracks in the concrete
love fights its way to the 
surface for ants and bees

plucked by the wind ending 
up in the dirt as a seed
wherever you take me i know 
it will be lovely

warm, warm sun, oh
meteors fly by

i think i was put here to love! ^_^

24k
all of em gold
told you to stay 
baby whats wrong
breathing in things 
never been told

scabs

nerve

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