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Produced by Forlorn.
FREE DOWNLOAD: https://shinobutherapper.bandcamp.com/track/second-guessing

LYRICS:
I feel insane, or maybe same as I've just always felt
My brain's deranged, detached membrane but failed to ever tell
Maybe today I'll end up dazed or something never dealt
I'll never say what flows throughout my brain and causes hell
Always unchained, my life just burns as all my joy just melts
Always in pain, I have no mouth but I wish I could belt
Out words in blaze, never contained within my awkward gaze
But life's a haze and I just wish that I could simply phase

Up on out of this realm of existence
Phased by nothing but I still feel like rubbish
Whipped by my passing thoughts, it's nothing but torture
Gripped by my lasting thoughts, I can't settle no score
My soul is fading away, I don't know what I could say
To make it last one more day, cause I just don't wanna pay
I thought I found myself but I'm still a lost soul
Tryna find me some purpose with no real large goal

Anticipation killed my ambitions beyond belief
Expectations ruined everything that I ever achieved
And it's a hard pill to swallow
Just move forward is my motto
Because ain't no use getting stuck in my own shell
When all it's done is created my own personal hell
That I wish to escape any time, any date
Let me out to see the sun and what I have done

Second guessing first impressions
Lacking blessing and I'm stressing
Overworking, overthinking
I was floating, now I'm sinking
Where has my mind gone lately?
It's felt like a gun pointed toward me, off safety
Convinced everyone I know hate me
Times slowly ticking as depression's constant kicking
Leaves a mark and doesn't stop till it's finished
Or leaves me feeling diminished
Bleeding out every positive feeling that I've ever kept
Instead of using these emotions, I just gave up and wept

Tears run across as my face as I put the pen to the paper
Put my heart and soul towards all of it but I still gotta cater
To those who'll never care what I deal with, or what's in my favor
To them this life is but a game and I'm simply a player
Playing into they hand, or simply playing myself
Constant reminders of time passed, I think I need some help
But I can't find the energy to ask for assistance with what I done dealt
Or simply speak the words to what I done felt

So instead, I'm just folding like some origami
Cause in the end, I'll just probably
Never find the answers, hardly
Ever expected more, only expected folly
But where should I even go now?
Where do I continue without a how?
Drowning at every moment of overwhelm
So, how could I ascend?
As I'm progressing through life, I feel more like an inkless pen
Moving forward without any real path or passion like I ain't actually

Worth anyone's time or a even moment of talking to
Used to feel bruised and purple, now I feel more and more blue
Used to feel bruised and purple, now I feel more and more blue

Second Guessing [prod. Forlorn]

this album would be nothing without my friends

xux is about collabing and making better music with other people than alone. im very proud of what ive made but im more proud of everyone else that came through and made something with me.

thank you.

credits in order of appearance:
Perdedor Solace: twitter.com/SenorStruts
Kaj Strife: twitter.com/kajstrife
BORNAGAINBASTARD: twitter.com/RebornABastard
Kimba Kaleidoscope: twitter.com/KimbaScope
pulp: twitter.com/giveuppulp
ッ: twitter.com/clqud__
reece: reecefuller8.bandcamp.com
otm.: twitter.com/otm_makes_noise
SATURNULTRA: twitter.com/saturnultra
riotgrrl: twitter.com/riotgrrlriotsx
amy bestevez: twitter.com/AmyBestevez
Zen Dash: twitter.com/ZenDash
ivy graves: twitter.com/ivyxgraves
brezy: twitter.com/notbrezy

run the track (feat. otm.)

im so obsessed ._.
i put a bitch on sight
tiptoe invest right?
like, im still on test drive
cant savor no moment if it
aint my best height !
aight...
6 hours a night (at most)
still good for the kid and a leech for a host !
kill, death, respawn, no risk reward :((
no wards, no flame, for a shit support >:_)
still , , ,
im malding daily
cast like phreak, shit plays amaze me !
still get hyped when i make small steps
ye a bitch my type
if she likes my specs

yuh !!!!!!

im low grade, outdated,
and i tend to run slow when i get too faded >.>
yeah im sorry if things get complicated..
cause i need new parts but its best i waited :3
yu-

walk around at night,

lack an appetite,

void my stress,

cause at best,

ill analyze.

i dont know the next move
im s'posed to make.

slow to grow
im not used to solar rays.

im obsessed .-.
so im overly cautious.

im not upset
im just totally offset.

i only smoke for my own peace of mind,
if i die a bit quicker; theres less im denied.

over images, it aint easy.
fuck forgiving him !!! he aint sleepy ..zz.z.
i aint over my line, i shoulder my past,
my closure takes time, i hopes its my last.
no wards, no flame, for a shit support.
kill, death, respawn, no risk reward.
no motto,
cant one tap,
spray clips full auto,
to a bitch no cap,
on my limit !

to criticize every minute,
im living inside a mimick,
communicate through a snippet
of music :D

all my bitching ,
and sitting inside to listen
to all of my inner critics
is part of my shit decision
im choosing !!!

x3
im still so scared
of my own wants
cant get letdown
with controls on
so static so stuck
so cold in the past
but i think i can last if
i hold on

USB Mic Gains

im over it x7

im soooo tsundere (｀▽´)
i talk shit to my fans
im an irl neet that wants to live in japan (=‘ｘ‘=)
theres no patch
or code that could fix my heart ♡´･ᴗ･`♡
my stats are so low
you can tear me apart (꒪ȏ꒪;)
i mean i mean immean
to myself its so funny （＞ｙ＜）
i could make a good song and take it away from me
i could make a heat beat
and seat myself down
man hes so humble
nah hes too proud 凸(｀⌒´メ)凸
i cant make up my mind
if i had too （　･`ー･´） +
i still feel bad when i look at my tattoos
i still feel... wait that sucks
cant help but lie when i dont give fucks
im health deprived
i dont sleep enough （´＿｀;）
im too sheltered guys
i aint deep enough
i got tired eyes
from my past
dont how know how long ill last
how much has the time passed (_　_|||)
since

x2
i talked so much shit
and had ego
im still having trouble tryna admit
im bad,
people i got
give me the benefit
of the doubt
i shout for help
this whole im over my image shit
got me out of bounds
i hate the way i repeat the same old same old
i hate the way i concede my own hold im cold
i miss the simpler times when fake touch
was good enough
im stuck inside my mind and i cant wake up
im giving up

i talked so much shit
and had ego
im still having trouble tryna admit
im bad,
people i got
give me the benefit
of the doubt
i shout for help
this whole im over my image shit
got me out of bounds

over !t

havent talked in vc 3 weeks
i miss all that neetspeak
backed up up in my dms
i see em but it aint easy

used to wake up in the pm's
and struggle to get my calories
switchin my moods like ena
cant focus on my reality

oh nononono no no no

misfire misfire im out of ammo
so tired of the bullshit
pussy gon waste a full clip
tryin to start some drama
who the fuck gon be the culprit
im ghost
ilysm leech to host :3
we making money money money
making peaches and toast
im so fancy
and bitch i like everything about me
kitty grew his claws
now who the fuck is gonna doubt me
bitch i fought back
talk back to my image
he aint know jack shit
mixing beats like he finished
take 2 steps foward but now i dont slip
fuck a nudge what i think i really needed was a kick

never had a clue of what to do
always told the boy its up 2 you
always put my money in the stu
i got nowhere else to go
they want the boy to entertain well then lets put on a show
i mean i

never had a clue of what to do
always told the boy its up 2 you
always put my money in the stu
i got nowhere else to go
they want the boy to entertain well then lets put on a show
i mean

i found my home in free vst's cracks , and vc's
came from eating rations to coming straight out the pc
screaming fuck my image not making my own decisions
but lately i know that loving those pixels is part the vision
and babe i think maybe ill say that i been over it
maybe i dont have to complain now that im sober and
maybe i can finally be what i fantasized
but no matter what i just know ill never be satisfied

hardly trying !!!

(☍﹏⁰)｡

(☍﹏⁰)｡ (tell a lie)

PRODUCTION BY CONLEE
MIXED BY NICKG & D’HAELO
MASTERED BY D’HAELO

ECHO CREEK (PROD. CONLEE)

I made her cry

art by @kuuuuba !

featuring @sor-uh

produced by @phansyphish & @kunoui

cortez:

hearing deftones, i’m filled with adrenaline
had a lot of shit to talk so i’m penning it
almost retired but i’m on my shit again
like my bitches head i’m always scoring 10/10
fuck a ex bitch on igor shit like are we still friends?
bitch i’d put you in the dirt first chance that i get
tryna act like you was down but you finding dory
swimming round them messages
make me sick to my stomach
spitting intestines

living melancholic, haruhi suzumiya
drop a bag with my bitch at a fucking pizzeria
rappers talking shit but i never seem to hear it 
catch em in public like a sample bitch you better fucking clear it
don’t have my license but i’m tryna steer
clear of all the fuckery
i just need my bag and my bitch to come fuck with me
like my bitches thighs in the summer she gon be stuck wit me
no three 6 boy you never touching me


sor uh:

boy i talk my shit
got alot, 

gotta light my spliff,

hittin heavy like my shots,

aiming at some pussy bitch !!

typin online,
think he really on time
to clear?

boy u aint fine
got my ily
aiming sights
in here !

u been on some bitchmade getup
aim to flick,
need some wristaid
when i twitch they 
switch they setups,

on that glitch trademark talk,
biting at my heels 
yall need to bitedown
on some sidewalk !!

curbin all yo shit demos,

servin only day 1's,

throwback to them days 
when we were swervin
in suburbans
hitting ollies at the station c:

loading up on hi chews
while they tried to take my image
but my talent dont apply
to all these 
these pussies at they limit

its a mimic stance
u takin
boy and i aint even phased !
got the same kick snare
impaired and loopin all yo plays !

its so funny watching 
everybody try to hmu :0
boy u too worried
bout connections
thats ur money divvied up :/ shiittt


cortez:

i need you right beside me
now more than ever
it took so long to find me
i traveled stormy weather 
nows the perfect timing
i never wanted to settle
never seen the silver lining
every chance it fell through 
my bitch pretty like michiko
puffy hair like hatchin
throw bills stripped with indigo
we can get it popping
she don’t like it slow
like in a strelitzia proceed with caution
pistil position hitting all the targets
i don’t care what you charging
as long as she want it
this bitch worth more than a couple hundreds
bound 2 thousand bitches ain’t nothing
feel like igor chasing her no time i’m running
out of fucking ways to verbally express myself
fuck a couple bills when you’re my true wealth
get a farm in belgium
couple fucking animals 
on the field till we’re old

farm in belgium feat. sor uh (produced by phansyphish/kunoui)

MASTERCLASSERS

He Was My Home

spinach and andy capps hot fries - 9_6_25, 7.43 PM

throwaway for yall, hope u guys enjoy!!!!

prod me n vox from me 2 !!

art from @ amiasarts on ig!!! THE MAN HIMSELF !!

LYRICS : soon i gotta find em lul

REMEMBER U

fairy fountain o clock

mf zeph:

ive fallen in love with a fairy!
its apparent she dont really care for me
305 ride or die
konata by my side
but she dont wanna slide
on a heart so wide
so im just sitting and questioning
beckoning
got the millennium key
baby wont you just let me in
we keep fucking
i know you is stressed again

cortez: 

i’ve fallen in love with a fairy
more like a demon
the way she keep eating my soul
only 16 but you make me feel so old
sakoku, always alone
nine inch nails stabbed in my dome
no friends to talk to
no home to walk to
i hate your voice 
i just wanna smash up my phone
i need you to leave me alone

mf zeph:

ive fallen in love yet again
i keep pursuing dreams even though
we'd be better as friends
this super mario sunshine is beautiful
joe it be viewtiful
cuticle shawty
the love an illusion
a simp irrefutable
rattle my chains, baby
fool on my tarot
reload and then smack with the ammo
pea shooter shawty come out from the bramble

cortez:

i’ve fallen again
i keep calling and calling
i get left on read
i’m not a friend
i’m not a trend
i’m not an iron lung or the bends
feel like sirenhead
scream at the void
can’t get out of bed
unless i’m making some noise
i got no choice
cut this bitch off
shinya banba
cut that bitch off
bumping mantra

mf zeph:

big thick holo tips hit!
straight through the heart like a dragoon
ain't in a bad mood
i was just hotaro in the classroom
death card, chalice
she came to the function
malicious intent
light my fire
no need to get all your cards bent
might be heaven sent
ive seen hell twice
and its quite nice
kinda like your face in the moonlight

cortez:

my bitch michiko 
i’m feeling like hatchin
talking that shit
my bitch gets to popping 
feeling so pretty
but i’m walking with caution
weapons like death the kid
i got 2 options
just like scarface whip
i need my bitch topless
i pan you out the picture
with the cropping
just like yandhi
you wish you could drop me

mf zeph:

time stops, it's just the two of us
dj screw with us
but ion care bout who with us
doin shit behind the scenes
it's about the cream
butterflies whiz by, baby
as you set sail
leaving my mind
and i wake up in a cold sweat
i just wanna forget

fairy! (feat. cortez) [prod. sor uh]

prod @iluvyousomuch

from march -> october sessions [#1]

art by amias

---

LYRICS :

[sor uh]
man pussies getting killed over contra
say u hardcore but u a sheep in a conga
payload mantras ,, full stop ,,,
man i feel like cloud
and yall be Sephiroth
so lost cuz ur stuck in ya head
while my mind stays clear of fears but still red
still PISSED OF & HATE SHIT !! (louis in the basement)
no more chains gotta wonder when the cage went
*inhale*
yall aint learning shit yall aint ready
same kick snare, hi hats aint deadlyyyyy
yall stuck in a loop but aint Fruity
im a femboy queen im mean with my beauty !!! :3
uh (uh uh uh)
stay mad lil boy
yaint ridin my wave ,, i pave mad lil boy
aint chadscapes we makin, its INCEL traps
yall as bad as those pixels that Click (2006) still pass 
yeoo

[ilysm]
new kaworu , imma end up DEADDDD !!!
so i know my fate . 
like fuck what u bitches said
so STOP thinkin bout me when u sleepin in ur bed
dont get capped . in my real estate . inside of ya head 
( thats rent free ! )
stay strapped pussy BITCH ! ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)=ε/̵͇̿̿/'̿̿ ̿ ̿ ̿ ̿ ̿
this rap shit ??? thats my get $$$ (mony) quick
im countin 21 , 21 , 21 a LOT !!
the benz cost 9 + 10k im pullin out the lot-
ohhhhhhghgghggghhh
(im bussin out the lotto) DAMN !
greasy bitch lookin like ur watto
i NEVER slip , yall trip and fall down potholes
GIVE UP WHILE UR AHEAD MAN THATS THE FUCKIN MOTTO !!!
plothole, no bars, essence within this
10 frags, bhop, man thats a fucking scrimmage
turning street fighter into Deathmatch Classic
but when i tell u 2 toxx u forget what ur askinggg

TOXX

PRODUCED AND MIXED BY ILYSM
ART BY AMIASARTS

Lyrics:

I’m so gone I’m Casper
wonder which bones I have shattered
right now to me it don’t matter
I’m more than a hazard
can’t show no bitch who is badder
I know that you ain’t got no answer
I know you’re a capper
you got no revolver you poser
I skate now so I can wear Thrasher
I sound like a rapper
I’m sweet like some honey, no badger
I’m mad as that hatter, wait fuck um
gone with the wind call me Vivien Leigh
I’m the prettiest, fuck what you idiots say
yall are hideous bitches so I look away 
yall are chicken shits, ain’t brown eggs in the hay
ain’t no fair play when you’re crossin’ the line
you should be afraid, you got nowhere to hide
there’s a lot to unwind when someone’s finna die 

IM SICK OF THESE BITCHES, SICK OF THESE BITCHES
GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY SIGHT
NOWHERE TO HIDE, NOWHERE TO HIDE
I’LL MAKE YOU PAY WITH YOUR LIFE
I MAKE EM RUN FOR THEIR LIVES

FUCK 

BITCH RUN BITCH RUN
GO BREAK YOUR ANKLES BITCH
BITCH RUN BITCH RUN
YOU KNOW I’M DANGEROUS

bitch i don’t pop no molly, i be poppin’ ollies
stackin’ trash you can call me Wall-E
skinny, pretty no ASAP Rocky
zero gloves still catchin’ bodies
zero fucks like I still got my virginity 
get off my mini me, get off my dick
i pull up toting a blade and they say i’m insane
i’m no pussy i don’t need a stick
motherfucker you got a oedipus complex
“real hiphop i am totally concious”
not everything has to be so symbolic 
i can spit fax i can also word vomit
get off my nuts, bitch
wake the fuck up bitch
no one likes your damn opinion it’s fuckshit

I keep talkin’ all my shit so you keep talkin’ yours
I am not some fuckin’ hypocrite, I like to settle scores, man
I keep talkin’ all my shit so you keep talkin’ yours
but if you talk down on my name bitch, I’ll rip out your vocal cords

bAnGkOk DaNgErOuS rEmIx !!! (prod. ilysm)

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