big papi [prod. taylor morgan]

goodbyes

vox @hammy
vox/prod/mix/art @youngburial

been here half a decade and I barely made a friend
it's bittersweet to leave this place but I guess that I never fit
make a lot of enemies and best believe i hold a grudge
ya'll fake as fuck, y'all climbing over others while we watch and judge

very cool, very cool, very, very, very cool
when you lie right to my face, don't have the passion, you're a fool
very cool, Very cool, very, vеry, very cool
ur considerеd a disgrace by everyone who knows the truth
and I feel like there's no one else that knows me
no i can't be your friend, i can't trust nobody
heartbeat pounding out my chest, out my body
off these drugs, my life a fucking mess, need some clarity

need some room to breathe with urgency, it's an emergency
the things you said to me, they cut me deep just like surgery
been poppin' two or threes just to sleep, something's wrong with me
you don't love me like you say you do, it ain't hard to see

very cool w/ hamilton

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

right now (feat. 9tails)

got em running quick and by the morning in the mountains

9tails - honor roll (prod. guillermo)

and it’s cold, i got snow on my coat 
backstrap stars, i don’t wanna go home 
phone screen blinds me when u call 
im jus too fucked up, beg you leave me alone 

bape bag i got ash on my clothes 
smokin on runtz, don’t put shit up my nose
accuse me everytime that we talk 
but when we link ur the one that covers your phone 

i promise i don’t care 
i promise i don’t give a fuck 
i’m chillin smokin w my friends 
i don’t need you to show me love 
and when you see me out in town
or even on the bus
don’t ever try to chat to me
you made your bed 
so lay there, stuck 

and they said bro did you see the shit she put on insta
she’s got a new boy, he’s literally in the picture with her 
i walk these streets with double blades like i’m a fuckin witcher 
while ur all scrolling on the gram i’m w my team we gettin richer

witcher

crashout w/ smrtdeath

lyrics ⬇️
when autumns around the corner i feel much worse
cuz i like the birds
and you held my worth
i think that the time against me holds up a curse
where i can’t discern 
what did i learn

dont let me back in
i wont get anything done
cuz
up in my head i been doing enough
youre making me lust when i really want love
and your breaking my trust when im off of the drugs

so i dont wanna do this
oh i hate to shove
but just gotta do it
i gotta give it up

how could i be losing my touch
i dont wanna prove that life been rough
but everything ends when it blows into dust
and i tried to find a friend just to gimme what i want

(Casperrr)

u cursed on me a spell
or sumthing like that 
just like icarus fell
im falling with no catch
ño one hold me tight 
or keep me sight 
at least when im at the verge
of~ commiting suicide 

im sorry u rotted me to the core
just something i can't ignore 
the visual display was nasty 
and all i can see is  gore 
if u'd see it thanr u'd be bored 
i wish dat u'd change but u can't anymopre

tragic
slicing all my arteries 
bleeding out
spilling, fallin of the kitchen sink
coping now 
with what u wanted me to be 
wanted me for urself
that's why u tried to kill me 

\

goodbyes

NICKISGONENOW

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