Tirful Complete Discography

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NOT_JOINED

The lyrics are about the experience of how overwhelming life as a neurodivergent working class person can be – and about taking stock of what's good in life and little accomplishments when facing overwhelming odds or generally bleak prospects. It's something I really have to remind myself of to stay sane as there are plenty of times where I've felt like the world was against me. The odds are stacked against me in a very real way and it's dangerously easy to let that get under my skin and tempt me to give up hope that I will ever be able to make a better life for myself. But if I don't give it everything I've got to do so, there will be no chance at all, so failure isn't an option.

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Vocals and Lyrics by Fay Bay & Tirful
Prod. by Fay Bay

Tirful's socials ~ https://linktr.ee/tirful

Lyrics:

I've been in this place before
I dream of an open door
I've looked out of it before
Don't wanna see any more

It's erasing 
The life I knew 
Always searching for ways 
To violate my brain 
You're still there in 
My field of view 
Like a film burn 
Some light will take away

Razor blades out slit my wrists
There's no gettin' over this
Bite the bullet and seal my lips
Cuz you know i'll feel better when I don't exist, yeah
Can't handle all the pain
These wounds too slow to heal
Confirm the exit plan
Cuz at least I can't hurt if i can't feel, yeah
Can't love if it's not real
Convince my otherwise
Got one in the chamber, carry and conceal
Stop tryna feed me convenient lies, yeah
Just leave me in darkness, I don't wanna see the light
Don't care bout your intentions boi, this is my life
No second opinions I've made up my mind
Now this is goodbye

It's erasing 
The life I knew 
Always searching for ways 
To violate my brain 
You're still there in 
My field of view 
Like a film burn 
Some light will take away

RazorbladeZ (feat. Tirful)

BAD_ENVIRONMENT

2 Days Away, Pt. 2

2 Days Away, Pt. 1

LYRICS: 
Looking at the me not so long ago
I was so over life already
Never heard the voice I needed to say
It’s ok – you’re enough already

I see light emanate from your face and it
Means the world to know you feel the same
All I ever believed in was pain – now my hope
Rises every time I hear your name

Buried in dark couldn’t even move
How could I even start learning to?
Didn’t wanna play but my life’s a game
To them

I could cry to think we were the same
It’s a crime twisting light into flame

I see light emanate from your face and it
Means the world to know you feel the same
All I ever believed in was pain – now my hope
Rises every time I hear your name

If I had a way to go back and say
Even though everything seems hopeless
Even though it’s hard to disown their shame
Gradually you’ll be vindicated

I see light emanate from your face and it
Means the world to know you feel the same
All I ever believed in was pain – now my hope
Rises every time I hear your name

Twisting Light

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A summer EP inspired by 00s nostalgia and Myspace era bedroom emo pop

pretending it's my fault

i thought it was me

it's your world

nobody even noticed

LYRICS: 
advantage burdens me no more 
and now it never did 
suddenly find myself absolved
of their projected sins 

somebody else deciding who i get to be
fantasy shared so you decree by committee 
construction lines building inside of my mind 
partition walls divide and alter my thoughts 
i never knew 
what hoop to jump through 
to be approved 
for living here too 

tracing fractures for a place to dig in
pry the mask apart and grasp inner skin 
social virus injecting leverage 
cast aspersions by casting privilege 

why is it different in their eyes 
if they think i'm alright 
to bring me down with all their might? 
an open license crime 

Projected Sins

LYRICS: 
you “help” for you 
don’t tell yourself that I need you 
cause I’m not your truth 
I’m not a vehicle to be used  

it’s not hard to 
listen to me like I did to you
or so I thought 
all your attention has been bought 

and I can’t get through 
and it’s not my fault 
there’s no space to move
inside a world where  
all you want to 
hear is that I’ll bend backwards
I should make it clear –

I don't owe you 
a single thing but you still take for
granted from me 
you push so hard when you're used to 
getting it for free 
no wonder I had to 
fight for agency

and I can’t get through 
and it’s not my fault 
there’s no space to move
inside a world where  
all you want to 
hear is that I’ll bend backwards
I should make it clear –

I’m not your pain 
craving conformity’s your game 
who gave you a say? 
what right do you have over me? 

human empathy 
so clearly lacking 
you preach one-sidedly 
to keep a world where 
all you want to 
hear is that I’ll bend 
I see you transparently

All You Want To Hear

LYRICS: 
suddenly one more day’s in the gutter 
flush away in the toilet that’s rotting my brain 
hit the feed with the sludge and it’s over 
overstimulated 
bleeding eyes from the livestream I just left 
pretty sure I just wasted an hour or more 
seeing someone I don’t even care for  spew
verbal sewage 
hyper-stimulate my poor little brain 
guess that's it for today 
I feel such a waste
tear my eyes to the time growing shorter 
pretty sure I just wasted an hour or more 
hearing strangers I don’t even care for talk
about more strangers 
that they don’t care for 

attention divides and splits
scrambled and unravelled thread 
everything’s unrelated
can’t process it 
are you angry or afraid?
hello primordial brain 
shifting us out of our lane 
we can’t stop it 

suddenly one more day’s in the gutter 
flush away in the toilet that’s rotting my brain 
hit the feed with the sludge and it’s over 
overstimulated 
bleeding eyes from the livestream I just left 
pretty sure I just wasted an hour or more 
seeing someone I don’t even care for  spew
verbal sewage 
hyper-stimulate my poor little brain 
guess that's it for today 
I feel such a waste
tear my eyes to the time growing shorter 
pretty sure I just wasted an hour or more 
hearing strangers I don’t even care for talk
about more strangers 
that they don’t care for 

Primordial Sludge

LYRICS: 
I’m sorry my bro 
I’ve been in monk mode 
I’m levelling solo 

I miss hanging out 
When time seemed to flow 
but crunch efficiency must be honed 

Identity seeping out of me through my fingertips 
Like a thousand times a night 
This is what it means to be alive if I wanna shine 
Chronically online

The latest research 
Debunks inherent worth 
This is just like Gorbino’s Quest 

Lock in – CEO 
Grindset all i know 
So hungry and hollow 

Identity seeping out of me through my fingertips 
Like a thousand times a night 
This is what it means to be alive if I wanna shine 
Chronically online

The passions I fold
Into financial goals 
Turn heavy and cold – Midas gold 

I got to go home 
To upload a post 
Can’t lose the momentum 

Identity seeping out of me through my fingertips 
Like a thousand times a night 
This is what it means to be alive if I wanna shine 
Chronically online

Gorbino's Quest

Straight From The Can

Feel the
Call of
The fall
Where's your
Brighter future?

I have weathered
Letdowns
Forever

Where do we turn?
Hedonism
Money to burn
I can’t afford

Anything else
I’ve never seen
Somewhere for me
Security

Where do we turn?
On anyone
How’d it become
Feudalism?

Hate is the fuel
Divide and rule
Blaming the weak
Makes it easy

Where do we turn?
Home isn’t home
It never was
When will we learn?
To get a turn
They gotta burn

Wolves aren’t at the door they’re inside
They own the house and they play with lives
They built a cave around our eyes
Our screens a conduit for their lies

Faces of success you worship
Create your hate but you still punch down
Alt-right evolved into mainstream
Progress abandoned with empathy

Your dreams are a crushed by the hour
Flexible contracts and no power
Our rights a funeral pyre
They’ll come for you

Where do we turn?
Home isn’t home
It never was
When will we learn?
To get a turn
They gotta burn

Tirful Complete Discography

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