Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
My garden is dead
And so is my plan
That I made up in my head
When you were my man
Of a life we could build and till and tend
had it not been pretend
 
My trust is broken
And so is my heart
Like a wilting flower
Left to die in the dark
You took me by the hand for a walk in the park  
But I was misled
 
[Chorus]
I thought you would catch me
Or I wouldn’t have let myself fall
We fit so perfectly
Thought we were in it for the long haul
Damn, we really had it all
Damn, we really had, we had it all
 
[Verse 2]
My ego is hurt
And so is my pride
Lower than the dirt
In the ground outside
Bury my body in a box beside
The hopes I held too high 
 
[Chorus]
I thought you would catch me
Or I wouldn’t have let myself fall
We fit so perfectly
Thought we were in it for the long haul
Damn, we really had it all
Damn, we really had, we had it all
  
[Bridge]
Our lives are so intertwined I don’t know how to move on
And not think of your face when I play that Bob Marley song
You should've known what you had before you let it go wrong
Go wrong, go wrong
 
And what am I supposed to do with all this hate in my head?
If you hadn’t f***ed up so bad it would still be love instead
And who's gonna fill your spot on the side of the bed
When you’re gone, you’re gone?
 
And what the h*** do I tell our friends and family?
Wish I could make up a lie just like you did to me
Cause it’s humiliating to tell the true story
Of it all, it all
 
We had it all
Ooooh
We had it all
Ooooh 
We had it all
Oooh ooh
We had it all 
We had it all
We had it all 

(My garden is dead
And so is my plan
That I made up in my head
When you were my man
Of a life we could build and till and tend
had it not been) 

[Chorus]
I thought you would catch me
Or I wouldn’t have let myself fall
You’ll never find another like me
So down and willing for the long haul
Damn, you really had it all
Damn, you really had, you had it all

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

Garden (Clean)

Lyrics:

[Chorus]				
I let everyone silence me and take away my power
Capture lightning in a bottle, lock the princess in a tower
All these cosmic connections I thought were true love turned tragic
All I needed was within cause I am, I am the magic 

[Verse 1]
A wise man once told me I always compromise
Never seeing my worth, the first to sacrifice my vision
To minimize my intuition 

[Pre-Chorus]
I can't put off who I need to become 

[Chorus]
I let everyone silence me and take away my power
Capture lightning in a bottle, lock the princess in a tower
All these cosmic connections I thought were true love turned tragic
All I needed was within cause I am, I am the magic 

[Verse 2]
The psychic said I was
Electrified
White light shining out 
Of my third eye 
Guarded by a bear 
My inner child waiting there 

[Pre-Chorus]
Showing me who I need to become 

[Chorus]
I let everyone silence me and take away my power
Capture lightning in a bottle, lock the princess in a tower
All these cosmic connections I thought were true love turned tragic
All I needed was within cause I am, I am the magic 

I am, I am the magic
I am, I am the magic 
I am, I am the magic

[Affirmation Outro]
I am safe
I am loved
I am healing
I am light 

I am safe
I am loved
I am healing
Cause I am, I am the magic

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

Magic

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
For that one night we were infinite
Couldn't let ourselves get too intimate
Cause she's waiting for you on the other line
 
But I wish you could just admit it
Cause I'm can’t keep incurring karmic debt
I need to get myself off this ride
 
[Chorus]
I got nothing to show for it
But at least one night we were infinite
Nothing to show for it
 
[Verse 2]
These days I'm on the Internet
Looking up soulmates, twin flames and shit
Cause I need to make sense of it in my mind
 
So down on my knees I get
To pray to a god that I reject
Cause maybe he has the answer this time
 
[Chorus]
I got nothing to show for it
But at least one night we were infinite
Nothing to show for it
 
[Verse 3]
What’s the point in collecting souls
If they sit forgotten in glass bowls
Displayed on a shelf with nothing to show for?
 
I'm afraid I'll never find the one,
That it’s a myth created by someone
And love is just a revolving door
 
[Chorus]
I got nothing to show for it
But at least one night we were infinite
Nothing to show for it

[Instrumental Break]

[Chorus]
Nothing to show for it
But at least one night we were infinite
Nothing to show for it

We were infinite
We were infinite

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

Infinite

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I didn't ask for any of this 
But I just keep thinking ‘bout your kiss 
That you left on my cheek that warm summer night 
When we were hotter than the heat wave outside  

I didn't ask for any of this 
But you read my mind like it's effortless 
And you draw on my pages unapologetically 
Like you enjoy interrupting my story 

[Chorus]
I'm scared to admit what I feel
Cause all of it is too damn real
The most dangerous thing I've known is you 
Is you

[Verse 2]
You didn't ask for any of this
For me to show up and just wreck your life like this
It's like history repeating itself 
But I don't wanna make the same mistakes 
I made a promise to myself

[Chorus]
I'm scared to admit what I feel
Cause all of it is too damn real
The most dangerous thing I've known is you 
Cause all you do is look my way
I'm ready to throw it all away
The most dangerous thing I've known is you 

[Bridge]
I can't stop what I'm trying to prevent
Cause you made a mark on me that's permanent 
I can't stop what I'm trying to prevent
Cause you made a mark on me that's permanent 

[Verse 3]
Maybe I asked for a little of this
And quite frankly if I'm being honest 
I want more than just your kiss 

[Chorus]
I'm scared to admit what I feel
Cause all of it is too damn real
The most dangerous thing I've known is you 
Cause all you do is look my way
I'm ready to throw it all away
The most dangerous thing I've known is you
Is you

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

Dangerous

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
My therapist is telling me all this crazy shit
It's impossible to win with a narcissist 
All this time thought I was outta my mind but I was just gaslit 
I'll end up the same if I don't get away from it 

[Chorus]
You don’t heal the trauma if you don’t face it
You carry it on to the next generation
You gotta end the cycle, you gotta break it
Yeah, I gotta break it 

[Verse 2]
Every Sunday in church I would hear them preach
Screaming from the pulpit, “Jesus saved me!”
Then where the fuck was he when I was just a kid?
Letting my innocence be stolen by hypocrites   

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know that what you did to me is what was done to you before 
Part of my fate was predetermined before I was even born 
I can feel it my bloodline, that's what I was put here for 

[Chorus]
You don’t heal the trauma if you don’t face it
You carry it on to the next generation
You gotta end the cycle, you gotta break it
Yeah, I gotta break it 

[Verse 3]
I’m nowhere near perfect, no I’m not trying to claim it
Just doing this self work to heal my broken brain and  
Tryin’ to find my peace, get sleep, breathe, stay hydrated
Remind myself I’m strong enough, enough to face it 

[Chorus]
I won't heal the trauma if I don’t face it
I'll carry it on to the next generation
I gotta end the cycle, I gotta break it

You don’t heal the trauma if you don’t face it
You carry it on to the next generation
You gotta end the cycle, you gotta break it
Yeah, I gotta break it 

I gotta break it, I gotta break it
I gotta break it yeah, I gotta break it

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

Cycle

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
My garden is dead
And so is my plan
That I made up in my head
When you were my man
Of a life we could build and till and tend
had it not been pretend
 
My trust is broken
And so is my heart
Like a wilting flower
Left to die in the dark
You took me by the hand for a walk in the park  
But I was misled
 
[Chorus]
I thought you would catch me
Or I wouldn’t have let myself fall
We fit so perfectly
Thought we were in it for the long haul
Damn, we really had it all
Damn, we really had, we had it all
 
[Verse 2]
My ego is hurt
And so is my pride
Lower than the dirt
In the ground outside
Bury my body in a box beside
The hopes I held too high 
 
[Chorus]
I thought you would catch me
Or I wouldn’t have let myself fall
We fit so perfectly
Thought we were in it for the long haul
Damn, we really had it all
Damn, we really had, we had it all
  
[Bridge]
Our lives are so intertwined I don’t know how to move
And not think of your face when I play that Bob Marley song
You should've known what you had before you let it go wrong
Go wrong, go wrong
 
And what am I supposed to do with all this hate in my head?
If you hadn’t fucked up so bad it would still be love instead
And who's gonna fill your spot on the side of the bed
When you’re gone, you’re gone?
 
And what the hell do I tell our friends and family?
Wish I could make up a lie just like you did to me
Cause it’s humiliating to tell the true story
Of it all, it all
 
We had it all
Ooooh
We had it all
Ooooh 
We had it all
Oooh ooh
We had it all 
We had it all
We had it all 

(My garden is dead
And so is my plan
That I made up in my head
When you were my man
Of a life we could build and till and tend
had it not been) 

[Chorus]
I thought you would catch me
Or I wouldn’t have let myself fall
You’ll never find another like me
So down and willing for the long haul
Damn, you really had it all
Damn, you really had, you had it all

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

Garden

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I remember watching it kill him 
No return after going all in 
And I vowed to never make the same mistake

I'd evaluate my position
Around the age of 27 
Now it's time for me to fold, to bend and break 

See I have spent way too long living
Under other people's opinion 
Asleep to my own magic, but now awake 

So I'll go back to the beginning
Where I left my younger self waiting 
For permission that was always mine to take 

[Chorus]
Going back won't be easy 
To face the girl I used to be
Going back won't be easy
But I gotta find her to find me 

[Verse 2]
Yeah the industry it's a killer
It'll make you cynical and bitter 
When you chase fame and fortune
You have nothing in the end 

And society’s getting sicker
Our entirety reduced to filter
If I just get one more like, one more mention 
Maybe it could make me like myself again 
Oh I just want to like myself again 

[Chorus]
Going back won't be easy 
To face the girl I used to be
Going back won't be easy
But I gotta find her to find me 

[Bridge]
7 years already 
Holding it all in
Cause I believed what somebody   
Told me then
Don't speak, just look pretty 
Take advice from men
Make it when you're twenty
Don't be a has-been  

[Chorus]
Going back won't be easy 
To face the girl I used to be
Going back won't be easy
But I gotta find her to find me 

[Outro]
7 years already 
Holding it all in
Cause I believed what somebody   
Told me then
7 years already
Holding it all in 
But you better get ready
Cause now I'm back again

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

7 Years

Lyrics:

If it scares you, run towards it every time . . . 

You're asleep, you're asleep to your own magic
You're asleep, you're asleep to your own magic
You're asleep, you're asleep to your own magic
Your own magic, your own magic 

All that happened this past week, I had to go through in order for my throat chakra to be open so that I could sing these songs the way they needed to be sung. Like, so that my voice could actually be heard . . . 

You're asleep, you're asleep to your own magic
You're asleep, you're asleep to your own magic
You're asleep, you're asleep to your own magic
Your own magic, your own magic 

I just feel lighter . . .

Singer-Songwriter Nicole Zell has finally found her voice on debut album, Asleep To My Own Magic, undoubtedly her most mature, enlightened work yet. After achieving minor success throughout her twenties such as touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, co-billing with acts such as KT Tunstall and Vanessa Carlton, and being featured on numerous press outlets such as Billboard, Fuse TV, and TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, Nicole took a step back to "evaluate my position around the age of 27" as she sings in "7 Years" - a song penned as an apology for not believing in her younger self. For an artist who was timid to release solo music for years, Nicole holds nothing back on this album. In "Garden", Nicole reclaims her self-worth from a toxic relationship. In "Cycle", Zell dares to confront generational cycles, childhood abuse, her religious upbringing, and even god himself. In songs like "Dangerous" and "Infinite", Nicole investigates romantic patterns, karmic ties, and more. As the story reaches an end, it becomes apparent that Zell has tapped into the ability to turn darkness into light, struggle into success, trauma into triumph, and mayhem into magic. In "Magic", the closing song on the album, Nicole can be heard joyfully singing a healing affirmation alongside a celestial choir, "I am safe, I am loved, I am healing, I am light . . . because I am the magic." 

To everyone who generously donated to the album fund, thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this possible. This album is ours. 

-Nicole

Released November 11, 2022

Credits:

Nicole Zell: 
Composer, Primary Artist, Co-Producer, Vocals, Guitar 

Rod Pires: 
Composer, Recording Engineer, Producer, Programming, Mixing Engineer, Vocals, Bass, Guitar (Electric), Drums, Percussion, Electric Piano, Keyboards 

Marcus Fogle: 
Studio Assistant 

Tom Conran: 
Co-Recording Engineer, Co-Mixing Engineer 

Tim Ferguson: 
Group Vocals Recording Engineer 

Alexandra March, Lauren Kuhne, Nikki DiGiorgio, & Rob Perna: 
Group Vocals 

Randy Merrill: 
Mastering

Asleep

In celebration of releasing my debut single and music video "7 Years" exactly one year ago, here's an acoustic live version recorded in the countryside of Pennsylvania.

[Verse 1]
I remember watching it kill him
No return after going all in
And I vowed to never make the same mistake

I'd evaluate my position
Around the age of 27
Now it's time for me to fold, to bend and break

See I have spent way too long living
Under other people's opinion
Asleep to my own magic, but now awake

So I'll go back to the beginning
Where I left my younger self waiting
For permission that was always mine to take

[Chorus]
Going back won't be easy
To face the girl I used to bе
Going back won't be easy
But I gotta find her to find mе

[Verse 2]
Yeah the industry it's a killer
It'll make you cynical and bitter
When you chase fame and fortune
You have nothing in the end

And society’s getting sicker
Our entirety reduced to filter
If I just get one more like, one more mention
Maybe it could make me like myself again
Oh I just want to like myself again

[Chorus]
Going back won't be easy
To face the girl I used to be
Going back won't be easy
But I gotta find her to find me

[Bridge]
7 years already
Holding it all in
Cause I believed what somebody
Told me then
Don't speak, just look pretty
Take advice from men
Make it when you're twenty
Don't be a has-been

[Chorus]
Going back won't be easy
To face the girl I used to be
Going back won't be easy
But I gotta find her to find me

[Outro]
7 years already
Holding it all in
Cause I believed what somebody
Told me then
7 years already
Holding it all in
But you better get ready
Cause now I'm back again

Nicole Zell:
Composer, Vocals, Guitar

Tim Ferguson:
Recording Engineer

Rod Pires:
Mixing & Mastering Engineer

7 Years (Acoustic Live)

[Verse 1]
My therapist is telling me all this crazy shit
It's impossible to win with a narcissist
All this time thought I was outta my mind but I was just gaslit
I'll end up the same if I don't get away from it

[Chorus]
You don’t heal the trauma if you don’t face it
You carry it on to the next generation
You gotta end the cycle, you gotta break it
I gotta break it

[Verse 2]
Every Sunday in church I would hear them preach
Screaming from the pulpit, "Jesus saved me!"
Then where the hell was he when I was just a kid?
Letting my innocence be stolen by hypocrites

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know that what you did to me is what was done to you before
Part of my fate was predetermined before I was even born
I can feel it my bloodline, that's what I was put here for

[Chorus]
You don’t heal the trauma if you don’t face it
You carry it on to the next generation
You gotta end the cycle, you gotta break it
I gotta break it

[Verse 3]
I’m nowhere near perfect, no I’m not trying to claim it
Just doing this self work to heal my broken brain and
Trying to find my peace, get sleep, breathe, stay hydrated
Remind myself I’m strong enough, enough to face it

[Chorus]
I won't heal the trauma if I don’t face it
I'll carry it on to the next generation
I gotta end the cycle, I gotta break it
I gotta break it

You don’t heal the trauma if you don’t face it
You carry it on to the next generation
You gotta end the cycle, you gotta break it
Yeah, I gotta break it

I gotta break it, I gotta break it
I gotta break it, gotta break it

Nicole Zell:
Composer, Vocals, Guitar

Tim Ferguson:
Recording Engineer

Rod Pires:
Mixing & Mastering Engineer

Cycle (Acoustic Live)

Born to a musical family in rural Pennsylvania, Nicole Zell grew up writing songs, teaching herself instruments, and performing live from an early age. After touring nationally with American Wolves, fronting THRILLCHASER, and receiving notoriety from Billboard, Fuse TV, TODAY with Hoda and Jenna, and more, Nicole found her voice again on empowering debut solo album, Asleep To My Own Magic.

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