In the day time
livin in a dreamland
Nights are full of mischief and games

I've spent this life in pain
Tortured by humanizing agony
Drowning in seas of anxiety 

Thought patterns keep me in bondage 
Just let me leave this body
And heal

Disciplined
 society's wreckage 
I followed your rules for far too long
My body crumbles beneath me
It's a game I never agreed to play 
With every move I make, you win
I'm left standing with nothing but pain
Why can't I heal

This is a nightmare
 A world on fire
Time takes its toll on me
Depraved
of what you call free
I'm lost inside this place
It was never built for me
Now your talking back the promise 
That I could be anything 
I'm livin in the devils garden
Don't need no sunshine
You broke me, you broke me
But that's my burden to bare

Handed over the last drop of life
I can not heal

Freak On The Inside

Wreck It

Its the year 2020
The world is under attack, a virus is spreading quickly from county to county, city to city. Its currently unknown the cause for this pandemic.
Symptoms include Belligerence, misinformation, deceit, betrayal and fear. 
No one is safe

I want to be left alone, tell the people I'm not home. 
Can't you see you're tearing me apaaaaaaaaaaaaart
In dissolution it's absolution, you're killing me and I'm killing you. 

 Time is taken
This is Devastation 
Spreading lies
Drowning words
  
Betrayal running through these veins

 Time is taken
This is Devastation 
Spreading lies
Drowning words

I'll end you with the push of a button. 

 I want to hurt you, 
you want to hurt me
 This is an online civil war 
 You never see me, 
you can't deceive me, 
I've got my memes to prove you wrong.
 The heart of the matter, is all lies  
 Drowning you out because 
I don't want to hear the truth 



Time is taken
This is Devastation 
Spreading lies
Drowning words

 Betrayal running through these veins



 This is a war, between you and me
 I have every right to be free. 
 I'll shut you down , I'll take you out
 You'll never take the time to hear me out. 
We can't be friends when this war ends
 I've invested too much into ___fake news

Time is taken
This is Devastation 
Spreading lies
Drowning words

 Betrayal running through these veins

The war has ended.  Everyone started unplugging from the system, only to find that they were being deceived and manipulated. The control system has been shut down. New leaders have taken over to repair the damage. We don't know what's next, but what we do know is... Nothing will ever be the same.

Viral Attack

Freak On The Inside is both a musical endeavor I've been wanting to do for 33 years, the stories of my life experience and issues I feel strongly about. From the depression, addiction, love and heartbreak, to disgust with male chauvinists and the human virus that plagues this world. Everything I had went into this album, and still it is only the beginning.

 I've learned so much about myself and creating different music styles during this process. I have no intention of stopping here. I have so much more music to give back to the artists who inspired me for many years and the fans of my music and art.

 The album title is personal, based on my medical condition called Primary Ciliary Dyskinesia (PCD) and Dextrocardia. I truly am a freak on the inside."

*NIGHT TERROR appears courtesy of Tigersqwak Records

Maxxed Out

Go Now

Addiction is about my journey from living an unmanageable life as an alcoholic and drug addict, to sobriety and recovery.  If you're struggling with addiction or alcoholism and need help let me know. I am happy to help or at least set you in the right direction. 

Lyrics:
Find the places where my soul lights, guiding me to serenity, oh this eternity

Oh my god I've lost this purity, Lift this tragic disease from me

I can not hold on. Lost grip on reality

One deep breath then I exhale   Hoping for a more purposeful life
Can I find an escape or path  Looking for a firm bedrock to
Build a life, set it right, get back to the dream I had
Build a life, set it right, get back to the dream I had

Failure
Failure
Failure
Failure
I keep trying to succeed
My will seems to have no meaning
Every day it's a struggle 
In the places you have no trouble
I can See your life has meaning
Mine is only disorder

One last time I try to escape
I loose sight__Can't win this fight
I'm trying, I'm fighting, I'm dying, I cant hold on. 

Find a way to rid this disease
I turn to methods that don't appeal to me. 
Finding my self turning over 
A higher power gets me sober 
Finding
Serenity
Humility
Absence of this ego

I 
Do 
The work to get my life back
Taking nothing for granted 

Finding change in life
I never knew existed 
Today, I live on life's terms. 

Today I live on life's terms

Today I live on life's terms
Today I live on life's terms

Addiction

Hey this is night terror, I'm a DJ and musician. you can find some of my music and many of my DJ sets are in my public playlists.

Night Terror