I feel like inspiration comes at the weirdest times in my life.
 
There’s a popular notion that art comes from dark places, but I honestly have no idea where this song comes from. I’m in one of the best mental states I’ve ever been in. It took a lot of time and healing to start thinking this positively.

Naturally, I still do experience seemingly random bouts of fear, anxiety, and loneliness. Feelings that can sometimes make me feel hopeless. It’s possible that they affect me more deeply than I realize.

Hollowing is about the process of becoming a ghost—a human being with feelings and aspirations that, for no clear reason, starts to slowly wear down to a husk, doomed to wander aimlessly, searching for purpose. It’s not a pleasant journey.

This might be one of the saddest songs I’ve ever written. It’s agonizingly visceral, unrelentingly aching, and far from pretty. Sit back and close your eyes. This story has a tragic ending.

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LYRICS:

And so, I fear
I’m alone again
Trapped with things I left for dead

My mind’s moving
faster than I can talk
my heart’s beating
tearing me apart

I’m trapped in glass for everyone to see my life 
take too long
until I’m gone

Cloudy eyes that pierce this quiet home
Shrouded figures waltz in monochrome
Passing by without a single tone, I feel
every part of me 
every part of me 
hollowing to the bone

I’m sorry
you have to see me like this
with heaviness in my vines
I know it kills you too
but time isn’t on our side
keep moving  
I’m almost gone
I’m almost gone
I am lost

Cloudy eyes that pierce this quiet home (I am lost)
Shrouded figures waltz in monochrome (torn asunder)
Passing by without a single tone, I feel 
every part of me (follow down)
every part of me
hollowing to the bone

Hollowing

“Gliders” is a special song for me; it carries a lot of personal weight.

Graduating college and going from seeing my friends nearly every day in my apartment to working full time out of my parents’ house has been a very strange change for me to make. During my final year of college, I made so many lasting memories and had such a great time doing all of it. I was blessed to be in the position I was in, with the friends I had made. I knew, though, that all of this wouldn’t last and that at some point, I was going to have to leave all of it behind. Building my company from scratch was going to take a while, and I would likely have to spend a lot of time without financial stability.

I started work on this song about 3 weeks before I left Miami, as I started dealing with the grief of leaving. Gliders is a song about the end-of-good-times—the day before school starts, the Uber home from a night out, saying goodbye to someone you likely won’t see again for a long while. In it, there’s also themes of not getting to say the right things to people at the right time; things left unsaid to people you may never see again. Despite this though, there’s still some hope in it—a realization that there will be more good times to come.

I didn’t really care too much about marketing this one heavily—it’s one of the few songs I’ve written that I really don’t care if anyone listens to. I like it, and I wrote it primarily for me to keep, as a way to remind myself that those nostalgic moments that are ever a part of me will keep coming.

Thank you very much for listening, regardless. I hope it transports you to happier times.

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LYRICS:

I’ve seen you here before

I’ve seen you here before
In a different place, a different time,
Our souls intertwined, everlasting
but doomed to change

The lines in my face
are slowly becoming yours
It’s too late now
but it’s okay

Gliders

A melodic drumstep piece, featuring Jenny Lelek. This song took an immense amount of careful thinking to make, and I think it paid off. Enjoy <3

Candidate and I have been very good friends throughout our years of high school together. We've shared many memories together. From touring with our high school band, to collaborating on an EP, to having talks about our lives late at night, we've supported eachother through challenges and hardships. With the school year starting, and Candidate beginning his freshman year of college, we decided to put together some songs to represent our friendship. This small EP is an homage to 3 years of camaraderie. We hope you enjoy it!

LYRICS:

All around, all around me
Tidal waves crashing down into the sea
I see the walls surrounding
Can’t see what lies underneath
I see you standing there
Suddenly it all becomes so clear
My shadows disappear
Oh, all I need is

Your light, bright as the blue sky
True as the reason why it’s so hard to let go of you
Blinded by my reflection,
Cold as the nighttime
Freezing, I shivered and realized that  
I had hurt you and killed you inside
You gave me your heartbeat,
Said it was mine and now you’ve
Left and you’ve saved yourself from my knife, oh 
Your love will haunt me for life 

I know you’re gone, and you can’t see
All of the things that you meant to me
I know I’m broke, down to the core
Waiting for hope to come and meet me at the door
But I’ll be here, I’ll never leave
I’ll try to understand that what I need
The remedy, what my heart needs was
locked inside of you.
I don’t care, I still love you
And I still need you.

Your light, bright as the sunrise
Guides me through dark times
Shields me from all of my demons your
Fortress, made of emotions
Keeps me away and
Stops me from breaking your heart, now I’m
outside, trapped for the rest of my life
They say I’ll move on but they
Know that I’ll die now that you’ve
Left and you’ve saved yourself from my knife, oh 
Your love will haunt me for life 

I know you’re gone, and you can’t see
All of the things that you meant to me
I know I’m broke, down to the core
Waiting for hope to come and meet me at the door
But I’ll be here, I’ll never leave
I hope you’ll understand that what I need
The remedy, what my heart needs is
locked inside of you.
No matter what they say, I still love you
And I still need you.

Shattered (feat. Jenny Lelek)

Departures

Wanderer

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Lyrics:

Sunshine phase through my bones
Future bright, young blood
Tame the fears in my gut
and let the lights guide me home

Feel this drop, melatonin
A drag into the fray
the things you want, you wish for
even when you know
that no one's here to stay

Will I see you where I was

So I'll let the lights go out
and sleep through the sound
'Cause that's how it has to be
Before I find you again
and drown in your eyes
Eyes

The things you want, you wish for
The things you leave, you call for
Then you'll know
That no one's here to stay
Stay

Will I see you where I was
Will I see you where I was
Will I see you where I was
Will I see you where I

Love (Where I Was)

I'm an electronic music producer. My music is unique. 

There are so many musicians in the world who seemingly create music using formulas that are designed to cater to the tastes of their audience. I strive to stay away from the beaten path that many producers take and employ a more introspective approach. I want my music to be a representation of who I am as a person, not the product of what others want me to be.

I became a producer in June 2014.

Nihar Mandapaty

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