Finally found this music over years of remembering

Dissociate (Breakcore)

youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UColT1K6bP8iGDFbLszoZMFA

NoLoveWorld

EP: https://soundcloud.com/jaenyx/sets/eternally?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

CD's of album - https://svpacyberia.bandcamp.com/album/digital-self-harm

sample: i want to be dead - depression is forever
cover art by Vacum: https://www.instagram.com/_vacum11/

AMP (Astrokid Mini Pack) – Hyperwire Showdown Vol.1 (Cyber Arena Battles)