after a break of making music i finally felt some inspiration. hopefully this demo is a bit better than my previous ones, quality wise.

self-portrait of lies

another banger from your favorite emo/rock/punk/whateverthefuck musician-youtuber-extraordinaire. lyrics were mostly written during post-birthday summer depression, as you may be able to guess.

trebuchet me into your arms (baron of your love)

i wrote this over the last few days and i'm not exactly happy with it, however i think it works fine enough and i like a lot of parts. the production on this is a lot more lofi on this and i really love how i did the drums. enjoy!

i know you will hurt me (i want you to)

my cover of weezer's banger "put me back together" from their 2009 magnum opus "raditude"

put me back together (weezer cover)

made this a couple of days ago, hope you enjoy!

production, instrumentation, midi controls, written by, etc - nikkidevitz  

lyrics:
bright screens
caffeine 
all i knew when i’s fourteen
sad tune 
mid june
my life would be over soon
big four
massive score
driving straight into a war
(what was all this even for)
i still see you every time i close my eyes
your figure haunts me, i miss all the lies
your pale dark skin complimented your frown
every night i think about you and break down

these notes are more than just harmony
these words are more than just poetry
but today i found out i’m the greatest letdown
trying to plea for first degree

i went outside yesterday
hoping i’d get to see your face, your face, oh
but you’re gone, i was wrong
in seeking your embrace
but i, don’t wanna replace

you, from my life
i know my heart is strife
you want me to be deprived
of your love, hereof, your life
wipe these memories from my head
and help me forget
no matter what it takes
wash away all my mistakes
take away my regrets
and my stench of cigarettes
wasting my money on booze
pray ‘til both my knees are bruised
ripping off, shedding my skins
lord forgive, lord forgive my sins
please forgive my sins
good deeds
succeed
all i do all day is bleed
force-fed
misled
thermo-nuclear warhead
aftermath
sociopath
step onto a war path
(becoming a polymath)

these notes are more than just harmony
these words are more than just poetry
but today i found out i’m the greatest letdown
trying to plea for first degree

i went outside yesterday
hoping i’d get to see your face, your face, oh
but you’re gone, i was wrong
in seeking your embrace
but i, don’t wanna replace
i went outside yesterday
hoping i’d get to see your face, your face, oh
but you’re gone, i was wrong
in seeking your embrace
but i, don’t wanna replace

(more than just)harmony and poetry

I've been really into Edgar Allan Poe recently, so I decided to use his poem "Lenore" from The Raven. I really like it. I'm happy with how the song came out, despite being sick, which you may be able to tell from my voice. I hope you enjoy this track :) (p.s. thanks to jess for helping with the cover art)

I HURT MORE (E.A.P.)

probably the song im proudest of that i've released up to now. a lot more structured than my previous releases.

midi, lyrics, instruments - nikkidevitz

verse 1
I tried to write a love-song
I couldn’t find the words
It turned out all wrong
I guess I’ll never learn
But I swear that I’ve felt love before
I swear that I am not unlove-able

chorus
I try and find the sense behind why I’m still alive
I suspect it’s all a lie
So I look all over for the reason that I’ve
Made it this far, why have I made it this far

verse 2
I watch the sun move over the city
I watch flowers slowly wilt
I once thought the world was pretty
Now I only think about my guilt

chorus 

bridge
I look in the mirror and see my facial hair
Once there was nothing, it makes me feel despair
I use the razor blades for something new
As all of my plans fall through

chorus

nikki devitz