looking in your eyes i see the malice
i knew it was forbidden, what i'm sipping from this chalice
getting poisoned by my lover, pick me up, i'm getting damaged
how i'm getting really dizzy, throwing up in my own palace

tell me how i'm getting murdered by a princess
forever enraged, but still in love with your incense
threw me in a prison yeah you left me to die
i'm trapped in your religion for the rest of my life

send me to the edge yeah, i'm sleep deprived
i thought we could be friends but i'm saying goodbye
i'm never staying sober, i really hate my life

where'd my mind go? i lost it
in a fighter jet, who put me in the cockpit?
it's a sea of demons and a moshpit
in a sea of feelings, can i stop this?
i'm going down, i'm gonna crash, i cannot stop it

i'm going down
if you know a way to help me, tell me now
the most important person to me let me down
i'm getting tortured, can you help me 'fore i drown?

it's like i'm lost in a labrynth
i slumped myself against the wall with a bottle of absinthe
i find it really hard to cope with your absence
tell me are you feeling blessed by my absence?

a harrowing experience

a harrowing experience (prod. ninewaters)

i could try put up a fight but i know i couldn't take it
you know what i like, crate of beers in my basement
never living right, i'm not sober i can face it
and i hate this, dressed in all white like a racist

i can't afford new clothes, can't even pick up hoes
i'm kind of rank, i sit alone and i pick my nose
you know i don't try though, cigarettes i buy those
need a way to cope, maybe pillies i would try those

two shots to the head, blow my brains out
i know i'm gonna end up dead by my ways now
kind of tired of this planet, everything is sour
i cried for help but they won't listen so i sing it louder

i can't blame life for the way it goes
but the way it goes got me feeling low
but i can't help but feel like i'm the star of the show
where'd the crowd go? nobody knows

there's something in my life i would live for
i like love, i like drugs, what i'd give for
i've tried too many gateways, i'm knocking at the fifth door
i wonder what is in store

ways

ways (prod. yooshi palace)

lyrics:

as the days grow short yeah my love grows shorter
can you call the medic, someone's getting slaughtered
i should've let her get away when i caught her
but they will never know the pain that i caused her
rest in peace my ex, i tell myself she dead to me
rest in peace my will to live, there's not much left of me
rest in peace to love, i killed it it's a felony
but i still miss her so i'm writing all these melodies uh

i don't wanna die a hero
and you don't wanna die a hero
i just wanna watch the world burn when my sanity is zero
i wanna end it all, but you don't care shapiro
you're a weirdo, get up out my earlobe
you wanna start an altercation with no fear doe
i have no fear doe, it's been a tough year
i tried to numb the pain by sippin' on this beer
if you see me at the brink of death you have to interfere
my soul's a freezer so why you coming near?
let jesus take the wheel on my life and my career
if i was breaking down and needed help then would you volunteer?
my soul's a freezer
fuck that! it's a threat to humanity!
you're a prat, why you pickin' at my sanity?
the shit you're sayin' got me questioning reality
it's not your fault that we live in mortality
grind to a halt, let me question my morality
i'm rubbing salt in your wounds, it's a casualty
i send my prayers to yourself and all your family uh

dead to me (prod. cush)

(lyrics):
ryuuji and taiga from toradora chatting wet shit

i spend my life wishing life was like an anime
i'm fuckin bored, i'll rot in bed until another day
i've given up on love, i'm something i don't wanna be
i drown my liver, i still miss her, if she stayed then we'd live happily

i'd waste my life to find an end to this insanity
i'd kill myself but hate to disappoint my family
i'm not gonna die yeah, just have to keep myself away from all the cider
i'm too sorry for myself to see the agony inside her

i smoke all day, i kill my lungs with all these fags i'm always buyin
i do it for enjoyment, not to brag i'm gonna die
if i'm drunk and tell you that i'm always sad then i'm not lyin
i keep it all inside so hell is trapped inside my mind yuh

tell me are you gonna cry if i was gonna die tonight
'cause all these suicidal thoughts inside my mind have all been here like half my life
all i ever wanted was to live a life of splendour
the way you're acting makes me wanna lose my temper

why you gonna act like i just killed your family
this is a different kind of tragedy
and my anatomy is froze now
why don't you tell me how i'm feeling 'cause i know you think you know now

imma go now
call up my mother 'cause you make me miss my home now
i miss my lover yea it makes me feel so down
i'm living fast, my mother tells me i should slow down

(outro)
i really hurt you and i knew that
i made the situation worse and i didn't have to do that
i knew we wasn't gonna work but i shouldn't put you through that

anime

anime (prod. greg beats)

part 1: https://soundcloud.com/ninewaters/exhausted?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics:
take flight, i could never, i'm too lazy for the cockpit
so if i tell you that i'm busy then it's bullshit

i feel fatigued, if i'm not careful i'll be falling on my knees
i really miss my lover, that's the only thing i need
i need some cover from the feeling of defeat
i'm waking up and getting drunk, then back to sleep and then repeat
where's my will to live? oh i lost it
and my heart's locked up, need a locksmith
take flight, i could never, i'm too lazy for the cockpit
i'm never doing nothing, if i say i'm busy then it's bullshit

what's the point in living if i'm always feeling bored?
my feeling's missing and i blame it on you, stupid whore
could be forgiving since you were the one that i adored
you could forgive me if you just pretend it's not a chore
i'm in a rut, in a rut!
i could try and change my ways but i know it's not enough
i could try and change my fate 'cause i really miss my love
if you still hate my face then it's tough, i've been feeling really rough since you're gone
and if you think that i'm the best we know you're wrong
i always yearn but i never find the one
and i could turn my life around but that's not fun
turn that phone of it's bullshit
and you could try and give me help but it's pointless
and i could try and wish you well but it's pointless
and i could try and sleep well but it's pointless
and i made one or two bad choices

i feel fatigued, i really need to sleep
i tried my best but i guess we were never meant to be
i need some cover from the feeling of defeat
i'm waking up and getting drunk, then back to sleep and then repeat
where's my will to live? oh i lost it
and my heart's locked up, need a locksmith
take flight, i could never, i'm too lazy for the cockpit
i'm never doing nothing, if i say i'm busy then it's bullshit

yah! yea i'm sorry, yah!
don't even bother calling 'cause you know i'll never pick it up
you can tell me all your problems, i don't really give a fuck
i don't give a fuck, i don't give a fuck
i've nearly given up, 'cause i ran out of luck
i ran out of luck, i ran out of luck, lalalalala

exhausted 2

exhausted 2 (prod. ninewaters)

@ 9inewaters on insta

lyrics:
designer on my clothes but i'm still broke tho
money over hoes tho, they hate me and it shows
they tried to get inside, i said "i'm sorry but we're closed"
they asked me when i'm opening, i'm sorry i don't know
i'm so lit like a torch tho
give me some time and i'll be posted in a porsche tho
i need some time cuz i'm still hurting in the torso
i'm gonna glow, get your tickets for the show

i'm going up
i'm done with wasting time, i'm going up
i'ma need some new rhymes and a little bit of luck
i still got time, i don't gotta pull the plug
yuh, shoutout lukas, yea you know we goin' krazy (l-l-lukas goin' crazy <3)
she said she love me but deep down i know she hates me
never again i'll find a girl who wanna date me
i don't really care but i'm still open for debating

broke

broke (prod. lukas)

a love letter to emo rap <3

lyrics:
your scene is dry and we're all grey
i don't wanna make it seem like i'm dancing on your grave
like i'm dancing on your grave
'cause i'm not dancing on your grave

yeah! your scene is dry and we're all grey
i don't wanna make it seem like i'm dancing on your grave
through the sunshine and the rain, i'm beside you at your wake
and i know that i ditched you a couple times but i'm not fake
we will all be great, catch that shit on tape
we've been down for way too long and we thought there's no escape
we've been clowned for all our songs, now we're laughing in their face
my mind is like a treasure trove, take in what i make

we don't want you to die, i'll single-handedly revive you
i wanna make it right 'cause lately i haven't tried to
if you heard we wouldn't make it together then you've been lied to
it's probably 'cause i'm catching way more feelings than i'd like to
in my mind, in my made up kingdom, yeah i like you
over time, know we gonna make it if i try to
all the time, if we're gonna make it, need to strive to
to the grind, i will see you later if i find you
yeah i hope i can excite you
i'm still emo, i accept that and if i change my ways would you respect that?
'cause all this music stays the same and on the inside i will change and i'll regret that

we have a future, i wish i chased it sooner
but i feel my image being ruined by my humour
i'm nearly 20 years old, late bloomer
i feel like a loser, i'm stuck in your computer
i've got another girl to write about but i never abused her
i'm feeling like i walked into her life but i intrude her
it never felt like it was right, i'll tell the truth yeah
so i'm turning to the mic as a tutor

[hook again]

it's farewell yeah, i don't need no help yeah
this time i'm not feeling i'm trapped inside a cell yeah
not back in hell yeah, no longer i'm a shell
this time i really mean it when i say i wish you well
let me know your secrets 'cause you know i'll never tell
don't worry 'bout my wellbeing, the microphone will help
it's emo rap forever, i know we'll stick together
i'm swerving on you never, on the pain we'll never dwell

life has beat me down, give me motherfucking' stitch (oh fuck!)
you're gonna make me rich
shoutout to my bitches and my bros, yeah we're going for a smoke

dear emo rap, love ninewaters

Dear Emo Rap, Love ninewaters (prod. @ninewaterss)

lyrics:
i wanna count sterling
no time to feel a certain way or to be hurting
cigarettes and flames dance together like they're flirting
the flames inside our souls are burning out and that shit hurts
it really feels the worst
you don't need a gun when we're feeling suicidal
put me in a hearse
the way that i've been feeling got me thinking that i'm cursed
we're always catching feelings but nobody ever learns
this shit is just the worst

in a pit of bad decisions, going first
life is shit and just for meaning we all search
this shit is really wank, tryna buy myself a house
it's easier to party when our lives are going south
tell me you won't leave me, take the lies up out your mouth
you don't know what i'm about
i wanna scream and shout
your voice is getting hoarse and it's bullshit that you spout
i'm tryna beat a dead horse, i already have my doubts
already have my doubts, i really can't believe it!
the time is coming where you tell me that you're leaving
but i don't blame you
you best believe it though that i could never save you

that's a job for yourself
i tried but really couldn't help
cigarettes and beer in my room, i hate the smell
i was tryna get my balance in life and then i fell
i feel ok
and we're both lucky that we like each other's face
but i'm unlucky that i felt a certain way about you
you know that i really couldn't save the day

sterling

Sterling (prod. @ninewaterss)

lyrics:

yeah! i could never trust a soul
if you love me, you don't need to let me know
if you love me then you need to let me go
i'm all alone, guess i'm reaping what i sow

i'm nearly done, i be staying burning out
i'm staying silent but inside my soul is loud
nobody's listening, i'm gonna shut my mouth
you don't know me, you don't know what i'm about

i've just been kicked out of the club but i don't really give a fuck
i guess i shouldn't smuggle drugs so i should really smuggle love
i poured a quad inside my cup so i can fucking drink it up
this shitty music got me rough, i'm going home i've had enough

let me tell you 'bout a story, don't ask questions balamory
sipping magnum got me naughty, give a fuck about the tories
only care about my money, touching cash it make me horny
to the bank i'm fucking running, i be coughing think i'm poorly

i think this music's fucking boring but i don't know nothing else
all alone nobody's calling, bet some love would make me melt
sipping piss i hate the smell, but when i'm drinking don't need help
i don't want none of your company, i'd rather go to hell

i think i'd rather go to hell
and i know i'm sounding stupid but you know i wish you well
think i'm done with wishing wells
now i'm gonna stay inside
yeah my skin is fucking pale

i'm burning out

I'm Burning Out (prod. @ninewaterss)

lyrics:
what's the cost?
i've been looking everywhere for everything i've lost
i went and burnt the bridges i was tryna get across
looking back at all the memories that i think i forgot
it's been happening a lot

what's the cost?
i've been looking everywhere but i keep getting lost
i've been tryna save myself but it's just not enough
i might need a helping hand but there's just no one i can trust
this mission is a bust

i been down bad as of late
i'm all alone i guess i'll leave it up to fate
but i've been so lazy lately
if i'm stuck in bed then i can't be one of the greats

foot on the gas too fast i'ma pass
i can't help you, i'm not sorry for your ass
i have no other concerns when i'm just focused on the cash
attracted to money, i put my penis in a bag

but i can't lie i've been down bad lately
i know i need some therapy but i just turn to rap
it's gonna take a lot for us to seal over the gaps
fuck the uk, i'll put myself on the map

fuck the uk, i'll put myself on the map
fuck the other rappers, put myself on the amp
fuck living for music, i'm just living in my camp
fuck the uk yeah this place is full of trash

and my mind is full of trash
you been smoking gas while i'm smoking on that cancer
i'm drinking, fuck my liver
i'm tryna die faster
night give us shivers
have no pity on you bastards

yeah i'm leaning til my back hurt
you know i'm leaving, won't come back yuh
i'm on the move like a tractor
you gotta stay careful, these demons will attack you
it's not a funeral but i'm dressed in all black yuh

what's the cost?

What's the Cost? (prod. @ninewaterss)

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anime (prod. greg beats)

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