deku

imisstalkingtou:(

dbd is ruining my life!!

domo

elytra

prod nixxiu ♡

> lyrics <

tell me what u want
tell me everything about me
idek myself
it's all just a bad dream
wake up feeling tired
why's it 7 in the morning?
feeling like i'm dead
need to down all of my caffeine

said i'm feelin' sleepy
look into my eyes and tell me that i'm looking dreamy
i don't feel like talking so i lie and say i'm busy
wonder when i'm gone if u even think about me
wonder if u miss me
said i'm feelin' sleepy
look into my eyes and tell me that i'm looking dreamy
i don't feel like talking so i lie and say i'm busy
wonder when i'm gone if u even think about me
wonder if u miss me

wonder if u miss all the nights when u can't sleep
always hit my phone, always pick up on the first ring
need someone to tell me when to stop overthinking
sorry that ur gone, i'll just leave my message at the beep
she's in a taxi, in the backseat
i'm driving down backroads going 60
she don't even give one god damn about me
i would risk my life for her safety
i can feel ur blood it's rushing
thru my veins but god i love it
she don't wanna keep me breathing
something that we can relate in
(i can feel ur blood it's rushing
thru my veins but god i love it
she don't wanna keep me breathing
something that we can relate in)

said i'm feelin' sleepy
look into my eyes and tell me that i'm looking dreamy
i don't feel like talking so i lie and say i'm busy
wonder when i'm gone if u even think about me
wonder if u miss me

sleepy

prod nixxiu ♡ x michael harrison

> lyrics <

as i lay my head on the floor
i remember u said u wanted more
never had any hope for me
he's the only thing u see
u still haunt my skin
fill my void i can't resist
grip ur hands around my neck
hold on tight until it cracks
and i've lost my mind
i'll smile then i'll cry
i'm crystalised from the look in ur eyes

can't help but hate u
and i hope u know i do
lay down on empty streets
write ur name with blood from my shoes
vision stuck in grayscale
lost ur touch idk how to feel
idk, idk, idc
should've know u never cared to know

don't wanna sit around being silent
break down, go to bed, close my eyelids
fighting dreams in my head and i can't sleep
u only love him cause he's not me
want me to break down, wanna see my cry
good for u, it happens all the time
pull my strings while u waste my time
u did this to me and i hate my life

i love u
i hate u

DON'T WANNA SIT AROUND BEING SILENT
BREAK DOWN, GO TO BED, CLOSE MY EYELIDS
FIGHTING DREAMS IN MY HEAD AND I CAN'T SLEEP
U ONLY LOVE HIM CAUSE HE'S NOT ME
WANT ME TO BREAK DOWN, WANNA SEE MY CRY
GOOD FOR U, IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
PULL MY STRINGS WHILE U WASTE MY TIME
U DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE MY LIFE

chao

prod. nixx ♡ x michael harrison

> lyrics <

the weight on my back
i grit thru my teeth
i can't find my home until ur next to me
the words that i write and that u say to me
they're stuck in my head, i project to release

u found me
when i was stuck in hiding
i didn't want nobody else
cus my <3 had fell
and i question if i'll make it
cus ik my feelings not worth saving
i need a casket
i'm feeling broken
and i forgot how to control my emotions

before u go i need to know
if i'm taken as a joke
musics all that helps me cope
from this pain i hold so close
i sit here impatiently
waiting for my chance to breathe
don't let go just take my hand and walk me thru this lucid dream

sick of only talking when u want to
when i would give up every single thing to see u
now i isolate away inside my bedroom
thinking bout what we used to do
NOW I STAY AWAKE PAST 2
CLEANING BLOOD FROM MY SHOES
HE WAS JUST A PREVIEW
NOW IK UR SEE-THRU
WISH I MET THE REAL U
NOT THE ONE U USED TO
PLAY WITH MY EMOTIONS
LEFT ME FEELING BROKEN

wish i met the real u not the one u used to
play with my emotions
wish i could go back to when we never spoken

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

ivis

prod. nixx ♡

> lyrics <

i can't breathe
i'm losing sleep over u
i grit my teeth
i can't help but dream of u
and i messed up from the way i looked in ur eyes
u left me here and now i'm scared of goodbyes
pin me down
tear me piece by piece in two
i can't forget
ur in everything that i do
stuck in my head all the nights where u cried
soft to the touch bringing joy in for once in my life
and i messed up from the way i looked in ur eyes
the sun comes up i don't wanna go outside
lost in sleep from morning to night
u left me here and now i'm scared of goodbyes

goner

prod. nixx ♡

> lyrics <

cuts on my back and now i'm just vacant
showed u to all my friends
now they're gone and i wanna be dead
getting out of bed past 7
park my car under the stairwell
chillin in the backseat listening to 9tails
dunno what i did last night
got scars on my arm all i know how to do is cry
and i'm blinded
eyes are bloodshot and beaten
from crying
moving too fast at a dead-end

i wonder if u miss me
told u we would talk but i don't owe u a damn thing
i recall the night so clearly
i guess that this doesn't surprise me
i  wonder if u miss me
told u we would talk but i don't owe u a damn thing
i recall the night so clearly
i guess that this doesn't surprise me
pulled up in my white tee
know that u don't like me
blood is swirling down the drain
i know this isn't healthy
staring in grain thru my window
if i left this earth, wonder where i'd go

can't sleep at night with u in my head
lie awake in my bed
going thru memories of the places we've been
and the things that u said
wide awake and ur on my mind
i can't go cus i'm wasting time again
losing sleep, cleaning shirts with bleach
cause i painted them red

i wonder if u miss me
told u we would talk but i don't owe u a damn thing
i recall the night so clearly
i guess that this doesn't surprise me
i wonder if u miss me
told u we would talk but i don't owe u a damn thing
i recall the night so clearly
i guess that this doesn't surprise me
pulled up in my white tee
know that u don't like me
blood is swirling down the drain
i know this isn't healthy
staring in grain thru my window
if i left this earth, wonder where i'd go

tearing me down like again and again
and i contemplate if i'd be better off dead
walking thru pages this smile i'm masking
the years that go by wonder if i'll be asking
WHERE ARE U NOW?
WHERE ARE U NOW?
I MISS THE TASTE OF UR LIPS AND UR SOUND
I CAN'T STOP MY HEART FROM BEATING SO LOUD
U TOLD ME U LOVED ME THEN U TORE ME DOWN
u tore me down in the back of the deep end
pull my head under it's where i will keep it
don't regret all our time and our secrets
retreating alone in my daybed

scars

prod. nixx <3 x michael harrison

> lyrics <

there's smoke in the air it's my breath i'm inhaling
i walk on this earth while i'm broken and bleeding
if u don't see my face just know that i'm leaving
i look at the moon but can't shake off the feeling
of being alone i just stare at my ceiling
got bags on my eyes cus i know i'm not sleeping
can't look at myself idk if i'm healing
see us in my memories now i'm deleting
i told u i wanted to take myself
u said i was selfish didn't offer no help
and now i'm stuck writing these songs about u
it's the only thing keeping me here and i know
i'm wasting my time
i'm wasting my life
got no friends to call and i lay back and cry
was told that it's temporary i'll be fine
but i can't remember the last time that my smile was wide

i'm losing my track of the days
i wonder if i'll be okay
i'm staying alone and i'll turn off my phone
cus no one talks to me anyway
ROTTING AWAY BEARING PAIN
I HOLD IT SO CLOSE TO ME
CAN'T HELP BUT ALWAYS MAKE MISTAKES
SLOWLY DYING FORGETTING TO BREATH
I THINK SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH MY BRAIN
I'VE BECOME THE ENEMY
ENGRAVING UR NAME WITH MY BLADE
NOW THERE'S SCARS FOR ETERNITY
always thinking of going away
no one talks to me anyway
i'm losing my track of the days
i wonder if i'll be okay

engrave

prod. myss

> lyrics <

feel ur touch on my skin it burns
going numb from the things i've learned
repressing ur thoughts but ur so far gone
ur more than i thought u were

i feel u in my skin
ur clawing ur way in
reflecting so bright like the moon in the night
i close my eyes and cry
fall to the floor and i'll lay here
i'll hold u close my dear
i want to be with u silently

feel ur touch on my skin it burns
going numb from the things i've learned
repressing ur thoughts but ur so far gone
ur more than i thought u were

vain

prod. nixx ♡ x michael harrison

> lyrics <

wanted u to stay but u don't wanna talk
all this damage on my brain its really getting off
bloody bruises on my face covered in makeup
cutting pieces off my skin its time i rip it off
fucked up, feeling dead
now i'm stuck on all these meds
put a bullet in my head
its not like you'd pay attention
god i'm so upset
crying all over my bed
rip my heart out of my chest
u wouldn't care for a second

i don't wanna talk i don't wanna fucking say it
bruises on my face and blood is dripping off my bracelet
never be alone thoughts in my head never quiet
maybe i should go to sleep hoping i don't make it
feeling like i'm depressed
feeling like i'm repressed
always getting obsessed
mind is never suppressed
holding onto secrets
swimming in the deep end
blood all over my hands
clothing splattered in red

hate it when i'm fighting
i'm so sick of trying
tallies on my arm that signify when i'm reminded
i cant take this distance
everything is different
i don't wanna talk and frankly u don't wanna listen

wanted u to stay but u don't wanna talk
all this damage on my brain its really getting off
bloody bruises on my face covered in makeup
cutting pieces off my skin its time i rip it off
fucked up, feeling dead
now i'm stuck on all these meds
put a bullet in my head
its not like you'd pay attention
god i'm so upset
crying all over my bed
rip my heart out of my chest
u wouldn't care for a second

bruises

prod. tattidar, wixxy, nixx ♡

> lyrics <

and i'm so confused
i'm not as bad as i used to be with u
deep inside my room
with blood stained on my shoes
in the skin that i abuse
tryna find something brand new
in this game i'm meant to lose

and ur sticking like a tattoo
but i don't wanna stay around u
walking on the site and now i'll defuse
all alone cus no one understanding what i been thru
maybe i should stay down like a recluse
tryna talk me out of myself but it's not true
i don't wanna say it right now i'm not meant to
all i know to do is shut down and forget u

feeling like i can't breathe
i'm too used to feeling sadness and anxiety
lay down but i can't sleep
phone glow on my face and feel that tears are falling down my cheek
lately i'm not like me
don't know who controls me
don't know where my heart went
think that shit just left me
feeling empty
broken bones inside of me
don't know who i am because i threw out all my memories

underscore

prod. idly blare

> lyrics <

i miss ur touch
and everything
u brought to us
and gave to me

and i can't escape my thoughts
i know now ur right and i'm not
can't help to see u go away
i wanna put shots in my brain

i see u standing in my room
but it's just my head missing the sight of u
laying in my bed
hold u close like we're glued

remember the nights u told me it'll be okay?
now at night my tears fall down my face i lie awake
look at me tell me what u see
i look at u and see the person of my dreams

help me get through this pain
darling i am not okay
i always ruin everything
saving u before it's too late


linktree.com/nixxiu

darling

prod. taymxru x nixx ♡

> lyrics <

u said u wouldn't leave me astray
i tried so hard but u weren't the same
i watched u change

(u said u would wait [for me])

i watched u fade - fade away
u took my name out ur brain
i didn't want anything
u made me want everything just for u not to stay

u told me you'd wait
u told me you'd wait for me

u said u wouldn't leave me astray
i tried so hard but u weren't the same
i watched u change

u said u would wait
u said u would wait
u said u would wait for me
u said u would wait
u said u would wait
u said u would wait for me

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

everythinghurts

prod. rick hardy x nixx ♡

> lyrics <

i let u clip my wings
and u just left me to bleed
would u stay with me
if he never tried something?

would u think its ur fault if i
took my last breath tonight?
with angels by my side
i think i'm ready to die
do u feel me in ur skin again?
cus all i know how to do is pretend
and i would give up everything
just to be with who u were again

cuts on my body
cus she's dismissing everything
u were made for me
but all u gave me was deceit
(why couldn't u see?)

u wouldn't call me if u wanted to
now i don't even care if u do
i tried to make it work out with u
but ur love for me was gone so soon
was it even true?

would u think its ur fault if i
took my last breath tonight?
with angels by my side
i think i'm ready to die
and i would give up everything
just to be with who u were again

linktree.com/nixxiu

angel

prod. whylonyy + nihil2free

> lyrics <

stay away from me
i still see u in my dreams
ur face
u want me to change
but you've taken away from me

( too scared to sleep
cause i know that i'll see u again in my dreams )

what do you think
we're meant to be?
when i forgave u for all those things that u did to me
what more do u want
to take from me?
when u tore in and let me bleed

( too scared to sleep
too scared to sleep )

stay away from me
i still see u in my dreams
ur face
u want me to change
but you've taken away from me

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

maim

prod. noah birch x nixx ♡

> lyrics <

u didn't care

the way u lied
u didn't care
when u left
u stopped and stared
u didn't care

u didn't care
about how i felt when everything went shit
u ran away
u didn't want to try and make a fix
crying 'til i'm pissed
and i reminisce
about what could've been
i just wish i cared a little less

the way u lied
u didn't care
(u didn't care, u didn't care)
when u left
(and when u lied)
u stopped and stared
(u didn't care, u didn't care, u didn't care)
i feel lost inside my own skin
(u left again, am i in ur head?)
won't forget everything u did
(i won't forget, u didn't care)
u didn't care

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

udidntcare:/

prod. softscars

> lyrics <

i knew u would
break out
from my arms
i didn't want
to let u in
my heart
tell me what you saw
when u looked at me
was i everything u wanted me to be?
lost every piece
of what once was me
trying so hard to be just what u need

we didn't work out
guess ur happier now
beating my eyelids as my tears fall down
our love is up in the clouds
the silence speaks so loud
need to escape the thought of u somehow
when u start to walk away from me
i can't breathe
i only see u with me
send me down and i will fall

i knew u would
cause i knew u
u pushed and pushed
when u asked me
if i loved u
remember when
u didn't wanna leave my bed
i won't forget
all the pain u nailed inside my head

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

i'll die before i see u again

prod. injury

> lyrics <

blood on my face
you've taken away from
everything i gave
u want me to change
while u still are the same and
i can't explain how
i fell for who u were

i fell into
this world again
now i'm stuck in solitude
everything i have i rip apart in two
miss myself and who i was before you
excluding myself
from u

blood on my face
you've taken away from
everything i gave
u want me to change
while u still are the same and
i can't explain how
i fell for who u were

wither

w/ @eternalrin

prod. injury

> lyrics <

take me away to where i lost u
tears are falling down my face
don't know where to begin
i just miss ur touch on my skin
say my name, and i'll come to u
crying out for u once more
i can't find u, my dear
feel lonely without u here

i slipped away
without u everything feels grey
and u tried to make me stay
to stay

u jumped in me, ur escaping dreams
and i hate that u needed to leave
everything was only anything you'd need

maybe we, we could be
something more than memories
pull me in too deep
press ur hand on my cheek
girl, ur so pretty cutting into me

take me away to where i lost u
tears are falling down my face
don't know where to begin
i just miss ur touch on my skin
say my name, and i'll come to u
crying out for u once more
i can't find u, my dear
feel lonely without u here

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu
https://linktr.ee/eternallyrin

without u here

prod. gusuck

> lyrics <

you are everything i hate
i'm not anything u say
u tried to bury me six feet
now i'm who i wanted to be
(who i wanted to be)

do u think u were right to
leave me to bleed?
and u know, that ur to blame
blood on ur teeth
cuts on ur sleeves
bruises on ur knees
making sure i can't see

you are everything i hate
i'm not anything u say
u tried to bury me six feet
now i'm who i wanted to be

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

bleed

prod. cristalbeach

> lyrics <

u are there so far
bite into me
craving ur touch on my face
ur hand on my cheek

take my hand and tell me that ur mine
while i bite ur skin
ur eyes, ur touch, and how our lips collide
girl, come take my hand
need u here, i'm done wasting my time
ur mine until the end
cut u deep, i'm holding u tight
there's only u and i

come show me how much u miss me
girl, i feel empty without u here
ur eyes are so deadly
sitting on ur knees
looking up and smiling at me
i'm sitting on wasted time
without u in my life
hold u close and mark u below ur chin
tearing me apart while u kiss the scars on my skin

take my hand and tell me that ur mine
while i bite ur skin
ur eyes, ur touch, and how our lips collide
girl, come take my hand
need u here, i'm done wasting my time
ur mine until the end
cut u deep, i'm holding u tight
there's only u and i

while i bite ur skin
girl, ur mine all mine

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

bite ur skin

prod. vampireisthatyou

> lyrics <

and i hate me
all my worries too
i know what u said
how u wanted me dead (u said)
tell me why cus what else is new?
bury u away, and the old me too

and i hate that u know why
i would cry
when no one else is in sight
made me hate living in my skin (i hate my skin)
as if i ever didn't to begin

does this feel like the end?
and i love how u move
when u tear right into my skin
no more playing pretend
i can tell that u think
that u got rid of me
think again

and u tried to hide within
tore myself down again

and i hate me
all my worries too
i know what u said
how u wanted me dead (u said)
tell me why cus what else is new?
bury u away, and the old me too (bury u with me)

and i hate that u know why
i would cry
when no one else is in sight

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

worries

prod. cristalbeach x nixx ♡

> lyrics <

(where did u go?)
i'm alone, tell me where did u go?
and i'm lost without u
tell me everything i need to know
to be by u

do u wanna take
do u wanna take my heart?
cus i'll give it to u
for u i give, u take
for me, it's nothing new
but i do it all for u

if it was russian roulette
i'd take every shot for u
if u drove ur knife through my chest
i'd drive it deeper to be closer to u

why do u care if i die?
when it's u that made me cry
i can't divide the truth from lies
cus i'm always victimised
u tell me that ur fine, baby i know it's a lie
girl i held u close and gave it my all
now bring me back to life
told u all my secrets, wonder if you'll keep them
tell me where did u go?
(ur all that i know)

(ur all that i know)
(where did u go?)

do u wanna take
do u wanna take my heart?
cus i'll give it to u
for u i give, u take
for me, it's nothing new
but i do it all for u

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

nixxiu

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