lyrics:

i often feel disposable, quite frankly unremarkable, like no one alive would notice if i died

picasso might have gone mad, but you see the talent he had: when i am gone, will no one remember what i've done?


and here i cry, i'm screaming at the sky

its felt like this forever, can't get my brain together


i am dust

return from where i came from


and i spiral at least once a week, just a burden to my family; for weeks, i feel numb, then the tears come all at once

beethoven might've been deaf, but perfect symphonies he left: when i'm gone, i'll be forgotten


and here i cry, i'm screaming at the sky

its felt like this forever, can't get my brain together


i am dust

return from where i came from

oh, i am dust

return from where i came from

i am numb

i want to feel again

i want to feel important

i want to heal

i need you to help me

i'm screaming at the sky


it's okay to cry, it's okay to scream at the sky

just know it will get better, won't feel this way forever

doldrums

lyrics:
sunsets and pretty eyes and midnight conversations
rainbows and holding hands and forest exploration
a masterpiece of green and blue
i want to share the world with you
won't you take my hand? we'll see everything
we'll sing and laugh and dance in the rain
and after we're done and through
i want to do it again with you

cat whiskers, shiny jewels, and summer thunderstorms
broken guitars strings, dusty books, and college dorms
discovery of something new, there's nothing that i would undo
won't you take my hand? we'll see everything
we'll sing and laugh and dance in the rain
and after we're done and through,
i want to do it again with you

and every once in a while
i think about your smile
i don't know how i used live without it
and every single night i
thank god for the people in my life
and mostly i'm just talking about you
i hope you know when i die
i loved you with all of my might
and i know you'd say the same

white wedding gowns, turtle doves, and diamond rings
black dresses, little tears, and solemn suffering
the good times and the bad times too,
i want to do it all with you

wedding vows

lyrics: 

eyes the color of the midnight sky
soft bones which have been fossilized
and i could write a thousand books about how your laugh made me smile
brown hair like french pressed coffee
your voice reminded me of royal milk tea and i could write a thousand books about how your soul felt quite right
the ghost of you haunts me every night
and i wish i could bring you back to life
i wish i could be back at your side
my heart is a dark ghost town without you
and in your absence i feel so empty
because you left a vacancy
i still sing the songs you wrote about me
and read the notes you always left for me to read
i'll bet you wrote a thousand books with all the words that you gave to me
the ghost of you haunts me every night
and i wish i could take back all the times
i didn't say i loved you and your silly little smile
my heart is a dark ghost town without you
and in your absence i feel so empty
because you left a vacancy
you were my other half and i
can't bear to live without my other side
and everyday i die a thousand times but still survive, i don't know why
the ghost of you tempts me to die
but you'd tell me to keep myself alive
so i'll see you again on the other side

death of a soulmate

these are all rough drafts that i intend to produce once i can afford the equipment

elle