I became the man that you wanted, but now you’re gone and I don’t know who I am anymore.

Unreleased

Nightmare (feat. Jades)

sorry for being gone so long im gonna try to be more 
active.

i cant see a way to stop this

moving out the ways an option

i cant seem to brace the nonsense

im not here im barely conscious 

make me feel alive im honest-

ly just terrified of losses 

i cant feel the way i wanted

im just building blue up on it

bleedin out

i cant see for now

its all going down but then u come around

gonna drown feel like im gonna drown

but then you pull me out u pull me out

im not going alone

id rather smash up my phone

the only contact i know

is just sitting at home

if you’re not feeling to go

baby then we just wont go

the real feeling of home

its us together alone

blue (mila moon)

bones. w/ jelex (f. jades)

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

produced by michael harrison

lyrics:

there’s nobody home tonight 
they won’t hear me if I scream
if I put one in my head
they won’t find me til I reach 
rigor mortis

until my hands are stiff and cold
and the lead’s pierced through my bones
this is everything I’ll leave

I hope that you don’t weep 
good thing I’m a coward
I’ll be here for a while
don’t worry about me

still save a seat for you / don't worry about me

don't worry about me

raw vocals
guitar by michael harrison

I’m so afraid right now
feel like I’m close to the end somehow
thought I was just getting started
and now I’m stuck in my tracks

I’m scared that it’s all for nothing
I’ll lose it all in a blink of an eye
I devoted my life for this and I’d die for it

and I’d die for it
I’d die for it
would you die for it?

it feels like it’s all coming after me
they got my life on a stopwatch
feels like my own brain is after me
who even needs enemies
when you got urself straight torturing
put myself in a minefield
can’t even win when it’s my field
I’m losing a home game
how am I losing a home game?

home game

look! i’m having fun - riovaz

riovaz- across the universe (cover)

throwaway

I’ve turned through every page in the book
still don’t know if I shouldn’t or I should
cuz you taste so bittersweet 
it’s like it shouldn’t have been me
but I can’t lie to you, it feels so good

feel like I should’ve known better
is this everything I wanted?
cuz I got it but I wish that i could-

take a u-turn, let it crumble
watch it burn down into rubble 
hoping that you go and find another one of me 

bitch I wish you would
but you prolly could
(oh why?)

wish u would

https://open.spotify.com/track/7eSXQBktrNjw4qeAyydsEg?si=248a1bb2b8914afb

Riovaz - Chippy the dog

https://open.spotify.com/track/5xQTm271ULaLykPDnAflj6?si=c00aa5fd505c4620

Riovaz - you've made my world

https://open.spotify.com/track/13Bx1Kp2sGRZPInOHVjUhp?si=d14373b9ed924ef9

Card Dealer

Riovaz, Nimstarr - Card Dealer (Unreleased)

last 2 minutes of anything & everything installment of the year. thanks for the big 10K followers on here, this platform is where i started, and i plan to continue doing these little one off uploads for my fellow soundcloud users. love u always and keep holding on cuz we're almost there

1. polished
2. dilemma
3. journal (worm)
4. chrome
5. trunk
6. euphoria (this should've been on one of these a long time ago)
7. probably a jo song
8. parasite (a worm outtake)

hold on, we're almost there.

reupload. someone took it upon themselves to upload "eyelids" to all platforms as their own song and in turn, my upload of my own original song was copyright striked and taken down automatically. this is the same song just slightly pitched down. if it stays up without issue, enjoy.

produced by never forever


lyrics:

i know that i'm clouded
hope the sun shines someday upon me
I’ll open my eyelids
and see what I was missing 
cause my mind was so weak
crack open a smile for all the times I couldn’t speak
my mind

it don’t even matter, never lost faith in it
now I make a little pape with it
fuck around make a name with it
this a cold brew with some pain in it
now the boy got some age in em
same book but the page different
set a bookmark but it kept flipping on me
I’m running outta time

eyelids (reupload)

fools day. warm up
all plats now

produced by narxi 

lyrics:

the devils in my room tonight
hoping that I take the bite
pray my wrongs could all be right
that all my work would just suffice
extinguish hope and all the lights
the tables set for you and I 
I care bout your joy more than mine
if I walk out, am I justified?  

tell me when it all blows over
this rooms filled with paranoia
I admit I shoulda told ya
that I’m not ur strongest solider

and I never been, I know
I’m just frail flesh and bone
I hate the way you’ve changed ur tone

the devils in the room tonight 
the devils in the room tonight

you’re getting the best of me
I’ll take all the time I need
go and keep yourself alive for me
live your life then die for me

the devils in my room tonight
hoping that I take the bite
pray my wrongs could all be right
that all my work would just suffice
extinguish hope and all the lights
the tables set for you and I 
I care bout your joy more than mine
if I walk out, am I justified?  

am I justified?
cuz the devils in the room tonight
hoping that I take the bite
oh
cuz the devils in the room tonight
the tables set for you and I

suffice

Lyrics:
I have wear and tear well beyond my years
It's just as I've always feared
Don't know how to love myself or treat myself fair
Eviscerate what looks back at me in the mirror
I'm living fast and dying slow
Toxic coping, just more ammo
To fire back at me when I'm feeling weak
Force of habit, oh how it can wreak

And something's gotta give 
I'm running myself into the ground 
Don't know what healthy living is
I'm running myself into the ground
And when the ball drops
No one's gunna care about my intent
And when the ball drops
No one will care about nuance in it
And when the ball drops
I'll be forced to go
To a place where there's no any such thing as hope
And I will fit right in
And the sun won't rise, and it never will again
Again
Again
Again











wish u would

worm

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