im ok

you came to my dream last night last night last night you were judging judging me judging me i felt so hurt i cannot explain you how if you just could leave me alone and get out of my head 

you came to my dream last night last night last night we talked and you were nice
i felt so lost i cannot explain you how what do you want from me oh just tell me what 
from me 

i still dont get and im really upset do you hate or love me if you come to me every night at least tell me why 
If you come to me every night at least tell me why at least tell me why


its been over 2 years and you are still here in my head am i just obssesed with you or are you obssesed with me so you come back to my dreams 
you already got somebody else so what do you want from me 

you came to my head last night last night last night you were judging judging me i felt so hurt i cannot explain you how if you just could leave me alone and get out of my head 


dreamz

I think about you all over the time
I imagine that we are together and having fun
I said that I will get you out of my head but I lied
But I guess its too late now
Its too late now 

I think about you all over the time
I imagine thst we are together and having fun
I said that I will get you out of my head but I lied
I said that I will get you out of mu head but I lied
But I guess its too late now
Its too late now 

You sometimes come to my dreams
You sometimes talk to me
and I already mentioned that in my last song
I dont know why am I even singing about you anymore
I should forget about you like you forgot about me
and find another love like you did
But its too late now 

I wonder if you still think about me
I wonder if you still remember me
I wonder I wonder I wonder 

I think about you all over the time
I imagine that we are together and having fun
I said that I will get you out of my head but I lied
But its too late now










just forget it

time passes like a wind
staring numb at a computer screen
cant see the differene between reality and a dream 

for how long will I be like this 

time passes like a wind
standind fried in front of a computer screen
everything is fucked up my feelings are messy
and nothing makes me happy 

for how long will I be like this  

reality and virtuality has become the same thing
this is either simulation or just a fever dream
we are all mindless slaves to the flashing screen
we are bunch of numbers coded in this cursed machine
machine called reality
we are forced to suffer in programmed brutality


Derealization (acoustic rehearsal)

violent tendencies (acoustic demo)

The punishment day will arrive 
Im coming for you with gun and a knife
and im so sick of my life
all of this was a lie
try to hide you are going to die 

I got blood all over my shirt
And I dont care
Touch me if you dare
ill kick you in the face
ill blow up your brains 
And burn all your remains
My life is done and I will die anyway 

When you call me it will be too late
I will be rotting drowned in the lake
Bitch how much does it take
to realize how you were fake
how much does it take
to realize how you were fake... 

When you call me it will be too late
I will be rotting drowned in the lake
Bitch now its too late
My car has no break
And im driving straight to the lake
how much does it take 
to realize you were fake
how much does it take 
to realize you were fake... 

The punishment day will arrive 
Im coming for you with gun and a knife
and im so sick of my life
all of this was a lie
try to hide you are going to die 

I got blood all over my shirt
And I dont care
Touch me if you dare
ill kick you in the face
ill blow up your brains 
And burn all your remains
My life is done and I will die anyway


Violent Tendencies (Rehearsal)

One of the first song I ever wrote 

Lyrics:

Laying on the ground together
Watching the sky
Now I regret and cry
Until my eyes are dry 

Look at the shiny star
Its falling down
Thrown out of the space
Looking for another one
To shine together
Like you and me supposed to be 

Laying ot the ground alone
Watching the sky
Starless sky
Its so empty
Like my heart
So long my beloved


January Sky

missing my fav person

not big fan of nirvana but I like this song
this version is kinda improved since the last version had very bad quality so uhh yea

cover art by zogpilled

territorial pissings (cover)

This song is dedicated to my old best friend. If she ever finds out about this song, I want her to know that I loved her the most and I apologize for everything.

Lyrics:
laying alone on my bed
so burnt out and dead
all I remember is what she said
and I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head

I feel so sad and im down bad
I loved and treated you the best
but now I regret
I think I should just blow my head instead
I think I should just blow my head instead

running through the hallways of my past
seeing memories of an old friend
and I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head
and I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head
and I cant get it out of my head

running through the hallways of my past
seeing memories of an old friend
its like a nightmare that drives me mad
and I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head
and I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head
I cant get it out of my head

laying alone on my bed
so burnt out and dead
All I can do is to remember 
the good old days
All I can do is to remember 
the good old days
All I can do is to remember 
the good old days
All I can do is to remember 
the good old days
All I can do is to remember 
the good old days
All I can do is to remember 
the good old days
All I can do is to remember 
the good old days

good old days

this literally sounds like my old recordings

better than ever

this is a second part of violent tendencies song
yea violent tendencies is split in two parts 

lyrics:
I sleep through the day and wake up in the night
my mind is rotting and everything is falling apart
nothing in my mind seems right
im full of hate and wrath 

I just wanna rage quit my life
I just wanna rage quit my life
Im gonna rage quit my life x5 

tortment of loneliness killing me inside
my mind is fucked and numb
and im so fucking done
no friends no wife no life
im ready to fucking die 

everyone drives me mad
I might blow my brains instead
then ill be finally dead 
and no one will care
no one will be there
to visit my fucing grave 

im gonna rage quit my life x8

Rage Quit My Life (rehearsal)

total breakdown

sun have risen
and summer has come
im alone on my bed
so down and sad
while everyones outside
they are having a good time
thet lives so happy yellow
and mines sad and blue
sad and blue 

nothing have changed in past two months
no friends and some new folks
I miss last summer when I had so many friends
now im in my bed
singing this song and being sad
so sad 

sun have risen
and summer has come
im alone on my bed
so down and sad
while everyones outside
they are having a good time
thet lives so happy yellow
and mines sad and blue
sad and blue

this summer sucks

do you know how it feels
when youre completely alone
in the cell of your own mind
in the dark halls of an endless insanity 

theres a huge pain in my chest 
coming right from my heart
rain of blood dripping from my arms
oh it will never stop 3x 

for decades ive been suffering alone
it cuts like a knife deep to the core
and I just cant take it anymore
no matter how much I cry
and no matter how much try
I just cant take it anymore 2x 

running through the halls 
dark environments and rusty walls
in the prison of my tortured mind
trying to escape the cell of mine
will I make it on time
will I make it on time
I am stuck in an isolated instanity 4x 

running through the halls 
dark environments and rusty walls
in the prison of my tortured mind
trying to escape the cell of mine
will I make it on time
will I make it on time
I am stuck in an isolated instanity 6x


isolation

lyrics video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1GBDLJqpMU

nostalgist

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