Rap song is about someone who used to be very much loved by his adopted parents, but was subsequently disregarded when they gave birth to their own blood child.

Lyrics:

This is not a rant, 
but I was once heir to my family multi-billion business.
This is not a vent,
Yet now I wander, adrift, estranged from the wealth that once defined me.

Let me give you a history, a backstory.
Used to be the joy and hope to my adopted parent,
The special bond, love, and dream shared between us.
Those times seem like it would last forever.

Then came the day, my younger brother’s birth,
A moment of anticipation and celebration, yet mark my descent from worth,
Altering the family dynamic, attention shifted, focus turned,
The arrival transformed my existence into nothingness.

Diminishing importance in the family,
Meal at home felt strange, we only talked about my younger sibling.
Groom to be the inherit heir, but abandoned in my late years.
Felt the sting of betrayal, a knife in my heart,

Obeyed my parent* decision since young,
Yet now, without them, I have no guiding hand.
In a world that suddenly feels unfamiliar and unwelcoming.
Despite my effort, I’m not cared about.
Send away for education, but in reality, 
They just wanna fucking drop me nowhere.

Had the chance to impress, but not a damn is given
Being told I’m unneeded, 
Wrestling with emotional and inadequacy feelings,
No matter how hard you try, an ordinary person will always be an ordinary person
So, how do I recover from this? 
	How do I fucking recovered from this!?

I know it’s ain’t my sibling fault,
I care about him so much,
I gave him the best care I was never given.
I know I will always be the outsider,
I know it sounds unreasonable, illogical.
But that’s my reality.

Adopted Child - Ft. Luca Zhang

Protagonist wants to be a baddie but keeps doing good deeds 

Lyrics:

I wanna be a villain, villain, villain
Yet I find myself achieving, reaching
Thrillin', thrillin', thrillin'
Yeah I got a heart of gold
I'm a villain, villain, villain
Questioning, sense of identity
I'm feelin', feelin', feelin'
At the center of this core

Villain, villain, villain,
But somehow end up chillin', chillin', chillin'
I wanna be a villain, villain, villain
Yet find myself fulfillin', fillin', fillin'

Got big ambitions, thinking I'm gonna rule the world
Still, on a mission but kindness always gets unfurled
I am the bad guy, or at least that's what they say
But I'm picking up the litter, brightening the day just like a bird

Ungrateful, they keep calling me
As if I ever disagree
Pointless fights & sleepless nights, steal your soul babe
Childhood scars, I still can see
But I keep dancing carefree
No more kneeling, no more appealing, baddest feeling

I wanna be a villain, villain, villain
Yet I find myself achieving, reaching
Thrillin', thrillin', thrillin'
Yeah I got a heart of gold
I'm a villain, villain, villain
Questioning, sense of identity
I'm feelin', feelin', feelin'
At the center of this core

Villain, villain, villain,
But somehow end up chillin', chillin', chillin'
I wanna be a villain, villain, villain
Yet find myself fulfillin', fillin', fillin'

Trynna look threatening, always a cigarette in my hand
Cuz that commitment to being the baddest of the bad
I am that stubborn, hoarding these goods and evils
But from where I'm standing, it's a pretty half-ass attempt

Ungrateful, they keep calling me
As if I ever disagree
Pointless fights & sleepless nights, steal your soul babe
Childhood scars, I still can see
But I keep dancing carefree
No more kneeling, no more appealing, baddest feeling

I wanna be a villain, villain, villain
Yet I find myself achieving, reaching
Thrillin', thrillin', thrillin'
Yeah I got a heart of gold
I'm a villain, villain, villain
Questioning, sense of identity
I'm feelin', feelin', feelin'
At the center of this core

Villain, villain, villain,
But somehow end up chillin', chillin', chillin'
I wanna be a villain, villain, villain
Yet find myself fulfillin', fillin', fillin'

Wanna be a Villain - Ft. TOKI

A  song about deep regret and emotional pain.

Lyrics:

嘆き声は誰の耳にも届かなかった。それが伝えたかった全て。
誰が悪いのかを指摘しても、いつになれば満足できる？
かつての若さ、分かち合った喜び、そして耐えた痛み。

傷つけるつもりはなかった。
振り返ると、嘘はつけないと分かっていた。
自分を無力にする欲を求めている。
ただそれを求めたから。

君の影、その影に手を伸ばそうとした。
波の霞の中で、
影は崩れ落ちていく。

叫びたかった
怒鳴りたかった
声を上げたかった
でもただ囁いただけ
「大丈夫」と。

アルコールで脳を溺れさせ、
耳鳴りを塞ぐ。
この毒に蝕まれる脆さが私にはある。

朝が来ないことを願う。
君が好きだった音楽は28日後に聴かなくなった。
自分の犯したすべての過ちを正そうとしたけれど、
君は許してくれなかった。

痛みを感じなくなるまで愛を吸い込み続ける。
こんな歌詞しか残らないなら、
それが孤独のサウンドトラックとなり、
憂鬱のメロディーとなるように。

「ごめん」

The cries that are unheard, are all I tried to convey.
Pointing fingers to who's at fault, when will it ever be enough?
The youth we once had, the joy we once shared, the pain we had endured.

I didn't mean to hurt you, 
Looking back, I knew I couldn't lie, 
Clinging onto the greed that leaves me helpless,
just because I asked for it.

Your shadow, shadow I tried to reach out,
In the haze of the waves,
it crumbles and falls away.

I wanted to scream,
I wanted to yell,
I wanted to shout about it,
But all I could do was whisper,
"I'm fine"

Drowning my brain with alcohol 
like plugging up ringing in my ears,
The fragility of this venom devouring me.

I hope morning never comes.
The music you used to love has stopped after 28 days.
I tried to amend all the mistakes I made, 
but you wouldn't forgive me.

I'll inhale love until I'm too numb to feel the pain.
If I'm left with nothing but lyrics like this,
then let them be the soundtrack to my solitude, 
the melody of my melancholy. 
"Sorry"

嘆き声は誰の耳にも届かなかった。- THE CRIES THAT ARE UNHEARD - Ft. NOWA

Sup~~ Just wanted to talk about some stuff tht have been lingering over my head and also what has been happening.

Lyrics:

Sleeping pills at home, painkillers by the bed
1 down, 2 slick, 3 click, we’re all tripping out instead
So what’s your occupation? Exorcist, you mop the floors?
I bite on your thigh, no beans, just styrofoam, no more

Visiting my doc tomorrow, should I be candid?
Lying and pretending won’t help, just a pat, prescription handed
At a higher BMI, I feel like a fraud, I hate this game
People pleaser? Not acceptable, I’m not the same

Stay away from the poison clout culture. It’s not my scene.
I know it’s just a dollar or two, but I’m staying on the free plan
I am not in the same boat as you, get the hell away from me.
Feigned ignorance all the time, it’s my silent plea

No smoking, no alcohol, no sugar, a gov initiative
Half-heartedly won a radio quiz, just a moment's give
Swim! My legs hurt. Climb! My legs hurt. Jump! My legs hurt, can’t you see?
Tryna keep pace in a world that’s outrunning me

See, this is just a testament of my perseverance,
I’m like the old wise young master with my gray hair,
Just remember the “3 cheese blend” technique,
And let you be you and no one else.


So what’s your occupation? Exorcist, you mop the floors?

Just wanted to make a lyrics, and vent on a particular stuff I'm starting to hate

Lyrics:

Hey, fuck you, if you don’t wanna hang out, just say it
I’m tired of always being the one to initiate it
Are you just not interested, don’t wanna feel the guilt?
I see your posts, you’re out with friends, my patience is built

Are we friends, or are our ties just broken?
I shut my door, scream, cry, words unspoken
Things ain’t complicated, we both know the drill
Maybe it’s not you, it’s me, a missing piece to fill

Tattoos and dancing, distractions ain’t working
Maybe more therapy, this feeling keeps lurking
Apologies don’t change, they don’t mean a thing
Take a seat, let’s talk, what’s been happening?

What will our next exchange be like, any chance of mending?
I need someone to help, but I gotta keep pretending
Just tell me the truth, truth, truth, sounds like a lie
If you’re here, that’s what matters, but I just wanna cry

All I get is lies, all I see is false kindness
Trying to figure out, what’s behind this blindness
Truth, truth, truth, it’s all that I need
But all I see is deceit, it’s making my heart bleed

Tattoos and dancing, distractions ain’t working
Maybe more therapy, this feeling keeps lurking
Apologies don’t change, they don’t mean a thing
Take a seat, let’s talk, what’s been happening?

Hey, fuck you, if you don’t wanna hang out, just say it

I've tried transitioning to drinking alcohol, but the taste is just too nasty for me. I gag and can't keep it down. So please order a coffee for me, I'll be fine with that.

Lyrics:

Eyelid swelling, sleepless night,
Dozing off in the morning light.
Drank alcohol, threw that nasty shit away, 
Not impressed, I’m done with your charade.

Everywhere is closed, can't buy anything.
In a heartbeat, I commit the darkest sins.
Hate nature, the smell, the bugs, the grime, 
But a man-made garden suits me just fine.

Buy clothes to dress up, but no one to hang out with.
Pay you to strip, so turn me on by taking it off.
Overwhelmed burden on my shoulder, 
Just wanna escape from this responsibility.

99 tabs open, filled with dark themes,
Gore, suicide, self-harm, forbidden taboo.
I’m so sick with your alarm,
Can’t you fucking wake up to the chime?

Work 6 hours, lunch break is tight.
Life’s a grind, no time for comfort.
Countless interviews, multiple rejection,
Throw me down a bridge, I’m tired of this shit.

Eyelid swelling, sleepless night,
Dozing off in the morning light.
Drank alcohol, threw that nasty shit away, 
Not impressed, I’m done with your charade.

In this dark pop dream, I’m the last in line,
Dealt with leftovers, this might be the final straw,	
Haunting my mind in endless stream,
Shoot me with a silver bullet and let me die in peace.

Shoot Me With A Silver Bullet And Let Me Die In Peace 銀の弾丸で俺を撃って、安らかに死なせてくれ。

If I could get away with murder, you would be dead.

Lyrics:

Kinda wanna leave, just ghost everyone,
Kinda wanna rot under blankets, come undone.
Kinda wanna feel loved, craving to be wanted,
Just need to be someone's favorite, but,
You won’t miss me, she won’t know me.

Your tone changed, your tone changed, 
Your tone changed, your tone changed,
Your tone changed, your tone changed,
Spitting venom, like a knife, it’s so deranged, 
Just tell me you hate me.

I don’t need to preach, I spit it succinctly,
Cut through the noise, they feel it distinctly.
Chaos in my mind, I drop it relentlessly,
Scream through the void, they hear me persistently.
I am not your second, your third, your fourth, 
your fifth, your sixth, your seventh, your eighth,
your ninth, NOT your tenth, I should be your fucking FIRST.

I won’t be afraid of the tragedy that will come,
Back to the vows, promises shattered,
You left me alone, fed me lies, what mattered?
Tryna cut me loose, 
the connection we built was rotting the fuck.

Kind and gentle, you describe me, was that a cruel joke?
Mocking my loyalty, gave you my heart,
On dates with me, you’re just thinking of fucking others?
What the shitshow I’m in, the pinnacle of a fake love.

Going insane, yeah, I’m drained, my shirt stained,
Stabbing pain, every heartbeat feels like I’m slain.
All that just to gain nothing, yeah, nothing in return,
FUCKING NOTHING IN RETURN!

Your tone changed, your tone changed, 
Your tone changed, your tone changed,
Your tone changed, your tone changed,
Spitting venom, like a knife, it’s so deranged, 
Just tell me you hate me.



How do I erase these memories in my head?
Your sweet talks looping, filling me with dread.
Needles and pins, this torment won’t cease,
forcing me to just want to shoot myself in the head!

What the shitshow I’m in, the pinnacle of a fake love.

"Swearing the oath, while corrupting from within"

Black Sheep

"Waiting for a change, though I know you're long gone."

You wanna travel, and I wanna die

The crap we are fed about loving ourself.


Love Yourself - Ft. Xozxls (ENG Ver)

But I’ll outwit you, you psychopath. Resurrect the demon king if I must.

Lyrics:

Needy but rejecting help,
I’ll dismantle this machine, tear it apart,
The one keeping you alive, giving you power,
A life of zero responsibility, always someone to kneel,
Awaiting your orders with no will of their own.

You want, I want—but this isn’t a trade off,
Knife at my throat, destined to fade.
But I’ll outwit you, you psychopath,
Resurrect the demon king if I must,
With every ounce of strength, I’ll spill blood in this war.

Even the unseen future won’t break my stride,
I’ll pedal hard through the uneven ride.
Madness devours what’s left of my sanity—
Am I becoming the monster I swore to defeat?

I won’t let the darkness twist my core,
I won’t let your voice stain my soul anymore.
I’ll spit you out, your venom will fade,
And stab you down with the blade I’ve made.

Needy but rejecting help

My dad says, "Don’t you dare try smoking,"
But curiosity’s got me dragged in.
It’s not about looking cool, unless I vape,
That chic smoke cloud, trickshot 10 out of 10.

But every breath, it's killing me slow,
Cells in my body, working hard, I know.
The urge grows strong when my mind’s a mess,
A cigarette burns through my deep distress.

Studies say this, and studies say that,
Some smoke a lifetime and stay intact.
The lucky ones survive, but at what cost?
The unfortunate group dies, to whom does it matter?

The industry knows, yet they feed the flame,
Addiction pull in to those without a name,
Mental illness makes the fight so tough,
This vicious cycle, it will never be enough.

But every breath, it's killing me slow,
Cells in my body, working hard, I know.
The urge grows strong when my mind’s a mess,
A cigarette burns through my deep distress.

Can’t seem to quit, a never ending battle,
Sober’s a dream that feel so far,
Maybe tomorrow, not today…

It’s not about looking cool, unless I vape

Last song for the year. It consists of two parts and two different lyrics. Had a tough time writing it, but thanks my collaborators, this song came out really well and I am elated of the finished result. I left a special note at the end, please do read it, and I hope you enjoy the song!

Lyrics / 3D Graphics / Movie: NOSUNLIGHT
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Music / Melody: Catoo And Jay S
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Illustration / Animation: Salga77
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Vocal / Tuning / Mix & Master: Jaji
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Asst Mix & Master: Corvus

Lyrics:

P̷A̷R̷T̷ ̷1̷

[Verse]
Let them grow up on Earth before sending them to Mars,
We’re all trying to find our way beneath these scars.
“It’s not that bad, I’ve done it before,” they say,
But this is the real world, and it’s not okay.
We’re just kids, trying to be grown, pretending to be fine,

Lost in chaos, you and me,
Fighting battles we’ve never known.
Caught in loops I can’t unwind
The anxious generation, you and me,

[pre-chorus]
“Just overcome it”, fuck your pep talk,
Anxiety isn’t fear, can’t just brave through it.
Them feeling bounded, and we’re sinking fast,
In a world where nothing seems to last.

[chorus]
We’re all depressed, nothing makes sense,
Lost in a metaverse, looking through a lens.
Quotes of “friends come easily”,
that what they say,
But I'm just fleeting away, an outsider.

[verse]
Constantly monitored, every move we make,
Like we’re begging for predators, for someone to devour us.
Parents feel powerless, can’t break through,
They don’t know what the hell we’re going through.
We’re caught in the middle, can’t find the way,
Between childhood dreams and the price we pay.
Let us grow before sending us far,
We’re barely surviving, not built for Mars.

[pre-chorus]
“Just overcome it”, fuck your pep talk,
Anxiety isn’t fear, can’t just brave through it.
Them feeling bounded, and we’re sinking fast,
In a world where nothing seems to last.

[chorus]
We’re all depressed, nothing makes sense,
Lost in a metaverse, looking through a lens.
Quotes of “friends come easily”,
that what they say,
But I'm an outsider, fleeting away in the distance.
An outsider.


P̷A̷R̷T̷ ̷2̷

[verse]
Making a foothold, tuning in to the stars lost in the glow,
The best we ever had was a dream we outgrew.
I can’t make decisions, my mind’s a mess,
Endlessly swiping, it’s all just a mess.

Virtually exposed, yet overly protected somehow,
Do I operate in an exploration or defensive mode?
I’m stuck on the sidelines, waiting for a sign,
Can’t shake off this feeling that it’ll never be answered 

[chorus]
I wanna risk it all, fall and crash,
Break some bones, land in the hospital.
But I can’t even make it on the leaderboard,
Always chasing, throwing chances to dust.

[post-chorus]
Where have you gone? Where did you go?

[verse]
I’m starstruck by strangers I’ll never face,
If you care about your mind, turn it off,
But I said it so much, did you even catch my drifts?
We’re the new gen, online all the time,
Fame can’t buy you happiness,
Said by some self-righteous dude,
“Well, can I do my own research on that?”

[chorus]
I wanna risk it all, fall and crash,
Break some bones, land in the hospital.
But I can’t even make it on the leaderboard,
Always chasing, throwing chances to dust.

[post-chorus]
Where have you gone? Where did you go?

[outro]
If you value your mental health, (you should)
If you’re caught in this cycle, (breaking you)
Maybe you’re afraid to lose it all,
Don’t worry, we will find the strength to take it all back.

Let them grow up on Earth before sending them to Mars. FT. Jaji

A poem/essay to convey my struggles with life.

Lyrics:

I’m not a survivor.
There’s no strength in me, no resilience in my veins,
the inherent qualities needed to endure hardship
Just hollow bones and a body too tired to try.

Blood drips from my arms, soaking my shirt—
I watch it scatter, pooling like my thoughts.
It doesn’t terrify me.
Nothing terrifies me anymore.

Up the highest level of the multi-storey carpark,
I stand on the edge, my blank stare meeting the ground.
The wind whispers, “Jump,”
And for a moment, I think I might listen.
But then I see it—a cat, small and curious,
Its eyes wide, staring right through me.
I thought, What if I ruin this creature?
What if my fall becomes its nightmare?
Tears blur my vision,
And as if sensing the storm in me,
It presses against my legs, purring softly.
It doesn’t say a word,
But somehow, it tells me to hold on.
I turn back, the attempt canceled,
Hailed a cab home,
And watched the streetlights smear into the night.

The circus is in town— 
Bright tents rise like promises,
But laughter dies before it reaches the moon.
They say the star of the show collapsed,
A cardiac arrest took him mid-performance,
Even the spotlight couldn’t save him.

On the speeding road, 
I imagine stepping out. 
Cars flying at 100km/hr—would it hurt? 
Could I do it before the light turns green? 
Or would I hesitate, just like I always do?

I crumble quietly, like paper torn at the edges. 
This world demands too much. 
It screams for perfection, 
But I’m just fragile enough to care what it thinks. 
I tell myself I don’t give a damn, 
But I do—I care too much, 
And it’s eating me alive.
I thought I’d recognize the truth when it arrived, 
But now that it’s here, I don’t even know how to feel.
It seems like a natural state of affairs.

They tell me I’m improving. 
The therapist, the psychiatrist, the counselor, the social worker— They all say the same thing: “You’re doing better. You’ve made progress.” 
But their words feel like smoke, 
And I can’t help but think they’re lying. 
Am I really better? Or just better at pretending?
Seriously…
What did others do that I didn't?
What should I have done, what am I lacking?
God passed out somewhere warm and dark,
Still sleeping off his whole world, seven day binge,
While it’s just me, purging out every meal I ate.
No one wants to look at my disaster,
It has become a construction site.

Meeting my relatives,
They’ll lecture me on taking better care of my mom.
No one knows how exhausting it's been,
They assume I’m not trying just because I’m the younger son.

I take so many medications, 
Antidepressant, Benzo, Sedative, Anticonvulsant... 
Reflecting on my past, did I not do enough? 
I'm so sick of being like this, yet I'm so attached to it. 
I can’t see the future, but I already know how this story ends. 
Is it that hard, just to pretend you care?

Born in the void, and I’ll die in the void.
Three overdoses—25 pills, 30, 40.
Each one a question, a test.
Will my body finally give in?
Will my liver shut down,
Or will I wake up, as I always do,
Denied even the mercy of escape?


虚無から生まれ、虚無の中で死ぬ  -  Born in the void, and I’ll die in the void

"𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘫𝘶𝘥𝘨𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴."

Lyrics:

今、島で暮らしています。
子どもたちが砂で遊び、蟹を捕っています。 
大人たちは海を眺め、釣りを楽しんでいます。 

Coming here, you could forget the noise of the city. 
Find a calm life, take it slow, and simply be at ease. 
This is a place to learn the value of taking one step at a time. 

都会の生活は、心に重荷を背負わせました。 
すべてを捨てて、新しい道を選びました。 
波に癒されるこの島が、今では本当の家です。

This part of the island where we live in

Ditch your girlfriend, You're better off with me instead.

Lyrics:

Too rich, too cute to land in jail,
Look the other way if I make you pale.
Envy and jealousy, they turn me on,
You can’t please everyone, just move on.

Black skirt, sling bag, rings on my fingers,
Everywhere I go, their gaze lingers,
No one dares touch, but their eyes burn, (eyes burn)
Longing feeds the fire, it’s my turn.

In a trance, you’re semi-aware,
Show your affection, follow if you dare.
Ditch your girlfriend, she’s not good enough,
With me, life won’t be so tough. (so tough)

Flawless makeup, divine and bright,
Money’s my comfort, never a slight.
It gives relief, can’t betray my trust,
In a world where everything’s a must. (you should know) 

Black skirt, sling bag, rings on my fingers,
Everywhere I go, their gaze lingers,
No one dares touch, but their eyes burn,
Longing feeds the fire, it’s my turn.

Under the spotlight, my reflection shines,
Perfectly poised, walking the fine lines.

So watch as I dance, watch as I play,
I own the night, and I’ll make you stay.
When the lights dim, and the night’s through,
I’m the one thing you can’t undo.

In a trance, you’re semi-aware,
Show your affection, follow if you dare.
Ditch your girlfriend, she’s not good enough,
With me, life won’t be so tough. (so tough)

In a trance, you’re semi-aware,
Show your affection, follow if you dare.
Ditch your girlfriend, she’s not good enough,
With me, life won’t be so tough. (so tough)


Flawless makeup, divine and bright,
Money’s my comfort, never a slight.

Under the spotlight, my reflection shines,
Perfectly poised, walking the fine lines.

So watch as I dance, watch as I play,
I own the night, and I’ll make you stay.
When the lights dim, and the night’s through,
I’m the one thing you can’t undo.

Too Rich Too Cute To Land In Jail

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┗ Songwriter
┗ Producer
► Open to Collab
┓ Having Passive SI, hope you be kind to me.

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