Lyrics:

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

nauseous (apc)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

cedar street w/ evergarden

from my soul
featuring: @greenwood2000
produced by: @trplgmni
art by: @tamagotchu

lyrics:
can you blame me for the reply?
couple months had to get by
now instead of waiting outside
i found a way to live a new life
another lens, check the replay
look at all the shit thats been changed
always tough in the deep grey
but i made it out unscathed
if i don’t even remember
its because i’m doing better
wooden necklace & a keen eye
gotta feeling that i’m

blinded by the downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

greenwood: 
killing time before the door
more than life, more than you know
thought it's different, i was told

lost touch the way it is
further from the places that we've been
despite the mess i'm in
over and over
the state i'm waking in
the bed's been feeling colder
i'm ashamed to say it doesn't fit anyone without you
never did

i'd wait for you in Spring
i'm changing in the worst way
i'm holding out again this time

(gotta feeling that i’m blinded by the)
downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

tether (ft. greenwood) [triple gemini]

spotify & apple <3

prod me

mind of damage
fall back each time
hesitate if i see anger
caused in every crime
wrap it up and then turn us in 
light flashing, was i meant to win
call him up just to let him sin 
nights replay, autumn to spring

i got poison in my veins
drinking soot to ease to pain
heavy water keeps it in 
where to start, where to begin
yeah i can’t control whats here 
body freezing below fear
there’s no point if there’s no damage
to see is proof it happened

somebody show me the score
gotta keep it up, need to keep him wanting more
dont do well under pressure
way too tough to show him affection
i dont wanna hear you out
all you ever seem to do is shout
i don’t wanna hear you if you’re loud
never seem to listen, just freak out
you’re so crazy


i don’t know myself anymore
rotten to the core
they own the demons next door
drag me to the floor
i see the red, is that yours 
spread all on my porch from last night
tell me that i’m right
no way for you to win every fight
pick at the wounds i healed and
battle with my own mind
i will repress every feeling i’ve felt
no way to win if i’m calling for help

damage

prod. sorrow bringer <3

Lyrics:

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

you're dodging my messages fuck you i'll erase it
back to the board ye we back to the basics
you lost me your value and i lost my patience >:(
love are you deaf can you hear what i'm saying
fuck it you win i'm so done with the chases
was so codependent i'm embarassed to say it
but now i feel like i'm a god in the making
so watch from her arms while i exit my caging.

watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

paragraph guy (sorrowbringer)

Lyrics:

could we just restart.
could we try again
maybe meet in august
and forget our past
i construct my coffin
i construct my bed
and even used as an object
i think i'd do it again
these curses burn on my arms
these sigils blaze on my hands
as my memory fades
and i lose you again
i can finally be honest
with myself again
while you eat my heart
i embrace my end

i construct my coffin
i construct my bed
and even used as an object
i think i'd do it again
these curses burn on my arms
these sigils blaze on my hands
as my memory fades
and i lose you again
i can finally be honest
with myself again
while you eat my heart
i embrace my end

we're just strangers again
we're just strangers again
we're just strangers again
we're just strangers again

leanan sídhe (whiteshinobi x hélix)

lyrics

[maesk]
this state I'm in concerning
the story’s say i’m learning
but the double fire in my chest says otherwise while burning

hidden leaf is purging
these questions got me turning
but the truth is i can change the way u see it with my right use of my wording

love i don’t deserve it
a different shaded person
how am i supposed to think with foreign substances, i'm hurting

but this pressure, i keep working
i keep pushing for a purpose
wish someone could just understand and close the fucking curtains

[decks]

lately i don’t think i feel quite like me anymore
open up a door
close another three or four
i’ve been pushing to be better but its hard to cure
both my eyes are sore
you’re the one i can’t ignore
hard to cement my status as a graduate
i told you once i’d heard of it
i won’t be unlearning it
spar with the gray light painting you a pacifist
if its how it is
say it like you’re meaning it

if you’d embrace it like i know you could
we’d have a chance, maybe we aren’t the only ones
i need a break, love, odds are only ten to one
i know its all but done, but you’re the setting sun
if you’d embrace it like i know you could
we’d have a chance, maybe we aren’t the only ones
i need a break, love, odds are only ten to one
i know its all but done, but you’re the setting sun

[maesk]

wrapped around my wounds but i am heartless
healed in your view theres not a scar left
baby if the clouds had lightened up i would've parted
just trust you'll remain inside my heart

nothing left to lose now for me 
but dear this is the last time you see
i can't do this anymore ok
baby would you please just look away

setting sun

setting sun ft decks (jolst x pekarot)

Huge thanks to notahero for killing this. Like, Repost, and Comment if yall rocking with this one <3
Produced by The Sound Clown (a haze collective producer btw) and tiedforsilver!

**lyrics**

(You only hit my phone when you don’t feel alright, 
I’m at your beck & call, but I’m still some other guy)

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks 

You just wanna break my bones and that’s fine, 
Were those tears even real I saw when you cried?
It was already hard to trust now it’s worse by 10 times 
You left me with no choice, I’m leaving tonight

I’ve been in this race and it’s making me exhausted
shawty filled with hate, and we losing all our progress
Ain’t got the time to waste but you’ll bury me in August, yuh, in August, yuh, in August

Saw it in her eyes, she like messing with my conscience
Wishing I could change, I don’t know if I can solve it
Moving to the day that I’ll be inside a coffin
A coffin, yuh, a coffin

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks

(notahero)
i’m starting to feel like i’m a junkie but i’m not ready to be done yet
i fear i’m falling into the void come grab my outstretched hand
so high i’m seeing into the future, but i don’t know where imma land

we got the whole weekend, baby what’s the point in getting mad?
tommy jacket on me, cuz it’s way too cold for july
got something special in my cup i think my brain might get fried

and would u cry baby if tonight’s the night that i died?
but i could never let u go baby ur way too special
a new shirt after i smoke to be respectful
a new number i’ve never seen on top the dashboard

i might just pack my things and go, i don’t want to stop when i’m home
cuz this winter rain outside so wet and cold

and i’m too fucking drunk to see straight, baby i feel nauseous
a different type of dumb in your head to say i ain’t popping
it’s blue it’s not a green thumb cuz i’m counting hundreds
i shake it into a tornado like a fucking mosh pit

Girl I’m loving you cuz everything you do is flawless,
You could stop it but i don’t wanna stop it
(No I don’t wanna)

sevenfeet & notahero - bury me in august (Prod. The Sound Clown & tiedforsilver)

(notahero)
your lips provide a memory
made it out of seventeen
save me from this hole that i’ve dug
or treat me like i’m supposed to be
impromptus and parking fees
maybe one day we can finally
get that sleep we always talk about
i’m exhausted from running all around

it don’t pleasure me to tell
i’m scared of growing older
tears surround my face
right now i wish that i was sober
i wish time could freeze in place
i need some time to think this over
cause i’m scared of everything
but she says that i just need closure

breakfast
on 9nth
but i fell in love
on independence drive

reminisce
on 9nth
but i fell in love
on independence drive

i’ll be with you till i’m dead
i know i don’t talk when i’m mad
but i don’t equate it to love lost
i turn it into a folk song

(greenwood)
if im nothing to me
who could i be for you
i just want to be here
i know that you don't want to

sorry about the fog
its the wine and the street pens
i just need to stop
we don't talk about the reasons
think i fell apart 
hear you talk when you're sleeping
everything is good and it's safe and it's easy

there's colour in your face and water on your skin
and thoughts inside my head to ruin your life again
disconnected from the body that i'm living in
i dont remember much of anything
to give me peace in Copeland
its not been easy coping
love you the more i'm told it
i know you'd never know it

just stay another night
i'm sick of sleeping on my side
and waking up alone and faking it 
scared of death like why we play with it



(notahero)

your lips provide a memory
made it out of seventeen
save me from this hole that i’ve dug
or treat me like i’m supposed to be
impromptus and parking fees
maybe one day we can finally
get that sleep we always talk about
i’m exhausted from running all around

parking fees w/ greenwood (nathanp)

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song every 1-2 weeks
beat every week

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nauseous (apc)

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