I hoped it wouldn’t either ❤️‍🩹

she does what you never did
you don't know how hard it is
to wake up alone
if it's over it's funny it still makes you cold
when you know

that you couldn't step away
in hopes that a memory
of something you need, would ignite from the first thing
that i thought was real but it's not

and i said i'd wait for you
in silence and in solitude
if it can't get better
there's darkness ahead
but it's safer together
i'm gone

shake at the thought of you
i still think a lot of you
of things that you said
feel at home with the worst things i keep for myself

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
so i don't trust a fucking thing
the nicest face could do the same
i think about it everyday
i wish i never let you in

make it quick i'm still here waiting
lost my mind way back in Salem 
all at once you've only been all i want

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
wait for the day that your body decays
just to hear that they love you
cause they never will

Snow Cabin

cedar street w/ evergarden

corbin cover
cover of "mask it to the casket" :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/16u5jqodaQ5oWqhoTxhJhe?si=CeaWjF9zSFumLTxvtCpsbg

I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like a scumbag, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on a string
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
I get too frustrated when I'm not sedated
Threw away all my passion, baby I'm paying for my actions
Why you gotta celebrate it? I think that the wall's 'bout to cave in
I'm a kraken, my feelings being drowned, yeah, I sank them
Pathetic, yeah, I'm so pathetic, I get it
I'm a menace, it's time for my penance
Confession, I've been known to cause infection
A weapon, lethally inject, no discretion, no
I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like scum, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on the screen
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
No emotion, I mask it to the casket
Can't control it, do you really want to see me relapse?
Overloaded, I think it's time I pack in
Any way you fold it, yeah, it's always gonna be a back then
No, no emotion, won't let them see
Nothing to show, no vanity
I think I've lost all sanity
I have become my worst enemy
My heart is breaking, it's more than what's fair (more than what's fair)
I'm non-existent, it's like I'm not here (like I'm not here)
Don't wanna sink again, I don't, I'm scared (I don't, I'm scared)
I'm getting tired of this

mask it (corbin)

lyrics 

she far away i told her kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for you
cuz baby ive been tryna lay low
and its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

she said im wrong and i dont care how u feel
with some of that shit u said girl truthfully idk how to feel
drank half the bottle last night i think i got guts of steel
substantial dilemma i forgot what is real
im sleeping in the back of the fucking car
i cant wait till u come home
i fell in love with who u are
but u said im someone you dont know
im finally happy ill seal this memory in a photo
id walk thru fire to get u a ring like i am frodo
i told her kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for u
cuz lately i been tryna lay low
its too late at night
and im not even drunk
i dont want to fight
this lifes not even fun
its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

kiss me thru the payphone
tell me at any point if this gets too much for you
cuz baby ive been tryna lay low
and its too cold tonight and im not even drunk im starting to think i shouldve stayed home

payphone (mackk)

You don’t pull my strings cause I swapped em out for keys 
You might be able to play accordingly 
I think I only did it for the dopamine 
Don’t overthink it don’t be mean 

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence 

I’ll sit back by the stream of flowing where we stacked the stones taller 
Think we even dropped a dollar so it could 
Find its own way like we wanted 
Now I’m only feeling haunted by the river gone solid so we trade 
Everything for ocean fodder 
Hoodies for the buttoned collar 
Made us something that we’re not I dream for better days 
We don’t have to share a word your thoughts is what I’ve always heard 
We’ve always been depraved

Just need some guidance 
Just a new instruction 
This infrastructure crumpled up it’s losing gumption
I’ll build this life in bits and pieces drawn in silence 
It’s drawn in silence 
it’s drawn in silence

play accordingly (michael harrison)

ty amo

lyrics
 
with those beautiful eyes i’m wondering how u see
with that shit u said on sunday wondering how u sleep
and the more i smoke i feel this kush push me in my seat
and the longer that we fight i feel the less we agree on
and u think that i’m a star
i got my hands in my pockets
u got your hands in ur hair
u know there’s no way u can stop this
i’m not rlly there
can’t tell if i’m even talking
but i rlly care
it’s been that way since i started

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

i hate when you look away
open up those sunny eyes when the skies are gray
get so lost when i take walks in your iris maze
just don't forget my microphone when you throw me away
there's so many roads
and where they go i don't know
i hope you dig a little hole for me inside of your soul
cupids nice with a bow
he hit my heart with arrows
and they all point right to you
they point right to you

n ur so pretty if only u knew that
felt my heart grow in size and then it split right in two halves
u pulled me back together baby how’d u do that?
ur my love n everybody knows
it’s my fault but who’s that on ur phone
u lay ur head on my jacket now makeups on my coat
give a monologue but it’s slurred words like i’m speaking in a code
i hit the road
anything she say goes
she say she worry bout me
think i’ll comatose
it’s all in moderation baby plus i’m a pro
hope u don’t fly away from me cuz i hate the crows
i hate how it goes

clementine w/ kiddamo (king theta)

lyrics

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think is for the best if you let this run its course
yea cuz everything has a purpose and im safe i swore
that id keep myself away from harm no matter what
even if its not what i want
told myself that id protect you from all pain
even if thats me sometimes
im stepping through mines
you dont like the person laying next to you right now
baby you dont gotta lie
but i love you id give up anything for you
that includes getting high
i could die right now in the place im in
with my head rested on your thigh
right here where i lie
im drowning trapped under ice
and her soft words become a foreign language
this time of night
and her butterflies turn to pure anguish
when i have to say goodbye
you really are my best friend
ill love you till i die
and ill love you till the very end
but im just happy you're here for the ride

cuz those lazy days dont feel so lazy at all
with you and my friends here i promise that i wont fall
turn the beer into a natural disaster make a tornado waterfall
but still you aint picking my calls up
cuz i aint been sober in a while
me and this drink like best friends
but he hates me im just in denial
remember back in the day
in the back of the car i was smoking on white owls
yea im a night owl
i just need a night out
think i just need a quick break so this cigarette feel like a timeout
maybe i just need to lie down
or maybe i just need to go outside
but this blunt knock me out like a takedown
you gotta crouch down just to see my eyes
she really want to know where i am now
maybe ill come see you if i got time
and i really wish i couldve been your lighthouse
maybe i did help you in different life
i really cant tell where i am now
but grey smoke covers up purple skies
and even when the studio close down
ill still love you till the day i
oh i cry blood
i cry tears of joy
i cry tears for you

wake up with my eyes still sore
i miss blowing smoke off the balcony on the fourth floor
i been tryna open up she said im a closed door
and she still tryna figure out what i been smoking for
bae i think its for the best if you let this run its course

my best friend (jacob vallen)

lyrics

just to let you know imma fuck this up again
i hope you dont change your mind
and all those times i ignored you, my love
its just cuz i was high
and as september comes to an end
im thankful now, more than ever
i look at this beautiful life that we have made with each other
i hope this never ends

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

build it up
break it down
its the end of the world in a few days
is this something we can fix in a few days
i had a little bit to drink and now i feel great
i had something on my mind but i think i forgot it
i hit up the plug and then i go and make a deposit
cuz lately i been fucked up everytime im writing these sonnets
i get high then i get drunk then i go and run it like sonic
the distrokid check came in im getting coins like im sonic
she love me more than i love myself think its kind of ironic
ive been burning bridges from the fires you started
and ive been making wishes everytime night is star-lit
theres secrets being shared between me and the  scarlett
its making money on the web kind of like charlotte
a white pill in the morning before its even started
but baby everything i do is for you-

beautiful soul
i will wait for you
sleep thru the night
im here next to you

i hope this never ends (miercoles)

lyrics ⬇️
let me in your heart once again
i never thought that i would make some sense of this
but broken promises will never change if they dont listen

gimme just another minute i dont really know what even going on

and i hate to see that you act like youre so conflicted i know that youre gona run

make me think that itll last so long
but it wont even last a week more
now im sleepin out on my wood floor

change out my other clothes for some new ones so that they dont know
i would rock anything you bought me
so that i could show
my love
but, now i wanna burn it on a stove
gave up
On us
everything turn to hatred 
turned to stone

(booj)

It’s like you placed me down below and I’ve got nothing left to show 
Well the thorns scratched deep but I couldn’t let you know 
The brightness in the air covered up all the soulless glare 
I know it when I see it now
I don’t think you would care 
I’m just your person for a moment yet somehow you grieved me 
My heart still beats and I know it’s not sweet anymore 
Just fingertips of stone and languish for a home 
And all that’s left, is to confide 
I’ll sit alone until I’m casted out that’s my kind 
And reconciliation like a curse you place upon me
Now my only thoughts I wish they could just be fondly thought of

(halfhearted)

world on my back, blood on my chin
hate it when the world meets my eyes
didnt mean to fold, it was too cold
told me be bold when i cried
im sorry that iv hardly been the man that you want
im falling and im burning 
like the urn of our love
they say im full of purpose 
but im worthless whwre im from
im sorry im burden,
i was perfect to you once
i wrote a laundry list of how i hate who iv become
im sick of clinching fists and hoping that ill be enough.

turn burgandy
match the color on my tee
cut my heart and let it bleed
watch it run right out of me 
guess ill try to get some sleep
because ppl talk and they percieve

turned to stone w/ lil booj & halfhearted (yunnygoldz)

day 1

lyrics

crashing out, ripping the petals
i'm lost but trust me theres levels
the script telling me to stay put
while my conscious struggling to settle

i wish that i could be better
but i blow seeds that fall on the gravel
i'm holding on to the iris
like its part of my vision but it do not matter

we do not matter
u touched my soul and my heart it splattered
i’m numb in the snow, gets worse in summer
one day i rose to try reach the summit

forgot the clock
i'm taking my time in my finding my lover
a drip starts the flow i’m doing a runner
coz i gotta go, i cant overgrow 
i will just drown and lie in soil

just drop off u making me boil
i cant go on like this, i’m loyal
my roots cant be touched 
the view here is lush 
i gave u my vines and u sat there and clapped like a royal

i feel a slight breeze from foyer
i let my guard down out in the lobby
i open the doors to crush all the dreams that i had set forth
to count up this money

i'm losing sleep to stay still in this hurry
this lifes a flash one blink and im hungry
but what’d i accomplish, what’d i achieve
i stare at the wall thinking how funny

hilarious even
i'm counting the steps to the gates and its never even
i'm holding the fruits in the garden of eden
i'm holding the key to the soul and its freedom

just let me rot
i'll be ok if you want to stop
i'll be the same
maybe I got it all messed up
don't be the same in this world, thats why they all left us

you can let go of that weapon now
I planted the seeds, controlling the ground
if I can give you a glimpse of what is going on

I'll have you know x 8
this world ain't always cold

garden of eden

garden of eden (jacob vallen)

prodvelvet
mix, master by me
(lyrics)
I really miss your touch
Why did I let this go
Save me, don't let me go
Gone crazy for what i know
Why I didn't hold you tight
Like when you'll be mine

What if you're really gone for good
In another state
I'm missing all your touch
I really miss that
I really thought we'd be a thing
Like gods plan really what has changed
What do I do

Why have you heard me now
Like what do I have around
I know what you're like
Nights I spent alone
Why did you leave me now
Nights oh what have we done
Fight, to where you'd be here
Right I knew it was clear

Distance

rock bottom

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