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prod by marlon & jacob vallen

its hard to feel proud
wonder when i fell behind
i cant find a reason now
between the lines

need something i can lean on
just something for myself
people change, it seems im the only one that cant move on at all

sleep away my days, its got me feeling useless
theres alot to say, when i dont i feel like a nuisance 

sleep away i lay awake
don't follow me, my dream is fake
my blood still flows it circulates
clown on stage 

not everything revolves around you, its a hard truth to tell, all this circus has to end
i've been barely proud of myself, this is where i dwell, no more masks we used to lend
from now on it's only no repent, i just do my thing, then i got no one to blame
but in the end i did resent, think i didn't think, enough to see flames

proud w/ marlon

Vocals, Mix & Master by @alex-thomas-fox
Produced by @everythingmackk
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Amy Rose / safehaven.
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CqJG0Qzo-E

lyrics:
It doesn’t matter what I said to you
I didn’t mean it, I just didn’t think it through
Now I regret it, and all these words I can’t undo
Echo in my head like a ghost in the room

Late nights, replayin’ all the damage I made
Cut too deep, but I swear I never meant it that way
Tried to stitch it up, but the scars still stay
I keep losing love in the games I play

I hate the silence, it’s louder than the fight
Wish I could rewind and make it all right
But every broken promise is stuck in your eyes
And I can’t hide the truth behind all my lies

It doesn’t matter what I said to you
I didn’t mean it, I just didn’t think it through
Now I regret it, and all these words I can’t undo
Echo in my head like a ghost in the room

I never wanted to hurt you
I just didn’t know what words do
Now I’m drowning in the fallout
Praying you won’t shut me out
I’d give anything to change this
Erase the pain, rearrange it
But I’m stuck inside the mess I made
And I know I might have lost you

vails - lost you (everythingmackk)

I'M BACK BABY
I've been cooking up a ton of songs, so regular posts are in order. 
This time for real (:


cool feats coming too, keep an eye out
loved making this with my boy wraith <3

amv made my itai/itoshi: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AerAym1RlfQ
lyrics:

(2x)
oh timing never even really mattered to me
that’s how I keep my balance
I get by on my feet
oh separate me limb by limb 
and sell me for scraps
then you tear apart my packaging
and kill me out back

Oh girl I know
sense that I should go
I should run for cover
try and make it past the oaks

brush up on the trunks
I got resin on my clothes 
as seasons change
I hide my face like
leaves under the snow

fuck I create
the weight
that sits on my back
so many days
to waste
just cut me some slack

fuck I create 
the weight 
that sits on my back
can’t win the chase
this place
it follows my tracks

[wraith]

Stuck below the water
I’m for sure a goner
I know I could cry for help
But I don’t wanna bother

So fucking sick of this
Barely improving
I’m feigning my ignorance
Blowing my smoke
And you barely believe it
Tryna cope
But I’m thinking of leaving

I’m burning the candle from both ends
I watch it igniting my canvas
The pictures I’m trying to paint and
I don’t know how long I can take this

Watch you go
Right out that door
I give it up cause
I’m all out of arguments
I lose control
Just like before
I’m spiraling cause
I think I’ve had enough of this

resin w/ wraith (wraithontheporch)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

ty mistral for the guitar <3

original song <3 : https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic/inside

Lyrics

I bet you like the way that I
Sit inside on a Friday night
Doing nothing with my life
While you're out partying with other guys
But I'm not wise and these aren't lies
According to you it's all in my mind
But I see the things that they post online
And it makes me sick to my fucking spine
I worry a lot about the day you leave
'Cause the day you leave is the day I leave
And I think too much about suicide
About killing time, about time I try
Something new
'Cause this shit gets old
But I love the way that she says "I love you"
And I tried many times to rewind to the days you were mine
And I tried many times to erase what we made, what have I done?
'Cause a part of me died when you left in November that night
I think he's right, beside you telling you what to say to me, why?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?
Do I think what I think 'cause I think I'm in love with a lie?

inside (guardin cover)

"i can't go on like this..."
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Tired (ft. Drowzyyy)

4u (ft. Dippers)

Vails x Mackk - not so special
Prod. By Mackk
Vocals from vails 
Lyrics below:

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

Yeah yeah I break down when the world gets loud
Yeah yeah Smile on my face but I’m not proud
Yeah yeah I’m just a ghost in a fragile shell
Yeah yeah Been through heaven, but I stayed in hell

I been runnin’ from the pain I feel inside,
Smile on my face but it’s all a disguise,
Bottle it up, yeah, I keep it in tight,
Pray for the day that I’ll finally feel right

You see hope where I see my flaws,
I see cracks where you see no walls,
I keep falling no hands to hold,
Heart too numb, it’s already cold

It’s already cold it’s already cold
And now I’m freezing, now you’re leaving
Now I’m grieving baby why you leaving me 

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

#rap #melodic #vails

Not so special

P. nomansland 

Support my friend enyu!

https://on.soundcloud.com/qUpx1yH6fYpXyzuuwE


Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

spotify version:
https://open.spotify.com/track/6UZk8amMQGkHHd9mtfwwZr

lyrics:
@mis4ortune
it's been 20 days since you left
i've been try to find you out, but you're not there
try my best to hold you close like before
find these memories' are locked in the upstairs
i can't help myself for now
i'm hiding myself in the crowd
kllin myself for you now
my heartbeat so low and it can kill me
i finally can set me free.

@victxrw
and every single day its not enough
for you
so tell me what the fuck do you want
or do
anything that makes it all fine
i think im losing my mind again
i think im wasting my time again
can we make it up maybe we can be friends
just tell me that its over, tell me its the end
is it the end?

(face of an angel i cant explain
shes got the devil inside of her brain
so its do or die
heaven or hell)

@mis4ortune
it's been 20 days since you left
i've been try to find you out, but you're not there
try my best to hold you close like before
find these memories' are locked in the upstairs
i can't help myself for now
i'm hiding myself in the crowd
kllin myself for you now
my heartbeat so low and it can kill me
i finally can set me free.

@victxrw (w/ @mis4ortune vocal)
wow im finding myself in the ground
digging a grave for myself
i tried to scream but nobody helped
im trynna find anything.

SPOTIFY

kyozaku & cli - twenty days (ft. mis4ortune & victxrw)

lyrics:

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

Another story of a boy who never grew old
How’d that truck taste
That shit was aiming for him
He said in the worst way
I will see you on road
Tell that fuck face
That im waiting for him
Play the tape back
Look at me im love struck 
I just want that back
Look what we had
Waves touch gaff
Just look at me im sea sick
I dont have sea legs
I cant swim back
Just look at my hands
The ropes burned holes in
The legs of my pants
With the force of cannon
I am no man
I was tucked down
In the bowels of the ship
In a selfish abandoned
As the weights laid
I will stay back
Sure my worst fate remains in my head
For Next birthday
I will eat cake
Sure my ship mates ive hurt are all dead
I cant believe my luck
If u could call it that but really ur just war shy
Next time I sober up
Ill face a battle that gets harder every next time

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

hudson bay floater (xlhc x fantasy camp)

lyrics ⬇️  

 I made this song on October 14th

its 2 am and you wont talk back
so how should i feel if you off of the map
tell me its real but see that its cap
i wanna walk with you 
for life you wanna take a nap
i got a solid scoop
you wanna lie and you wanna love
so i can’t rock wit you
even if its all that i got left
i tried to hike and it was a trek so it wasn’t worth the move
if its an emergency dial the number an ima put on my shoes
im gonna be there real soon
when i get there i hope ur not upset
i wanna share it with you no bunkbed
said youll be there but you want me to function
dont give a heads up act like its nothin
you couldn’t expect me to sit here breath girl cuz ima choke
you gon see you got ropes around my throat

no no dont remind me what you said
id rather take one to the chest
not a word of it made sense
maybe wed be better- better off as frie-

i couldnt even finish what i was gonna say
cuz it hurt my head too much i wish i could explain
ima keep on trying as long as i see a flame
i jus hate the option you wanna wash it down the drain
what could i say
i know its late
lemme explain
i dont wanna leave you but if u wanna go
lemme tell you everything you wanna know 
but you bolted on a heart of steel

when you touch me ill be colder than November feels
and i know that its been harder than you wanted
when we started i knew you were never honest
now were off it every night and every time i tty i feel like ima fold and die
maybe this all i wanted - its not
you said you were so exhausted 
i should drop
i would rather be alone than ever wanna hear you talk
if u jus gon give me all of that trash i would rather stop
i cannot rock wit no litter bug id rather date a rock. 🪨

litter bug (sk8miles)

Resting..

I don't wanna do no texting..

Today I feel like resting 
I don’t wanna do no texting, 
I just really need to slow down 
Think that I should find some hope now.

Think that I should really get going 
Think that I should really start showing 
Try to help but I fall down 
In my brain, it don’t stop till I fall down 

If I talk would you listen? 
If I stop would you miss it?
If I talk would you listen? 
If I stop would you miss it?

Today I feel like resting 
I don’t wanna do no texting 
I just really need to slow down 
Think that I should find some hope now.
Think that I should really get going 
Think that I should really start showing 
Try to help but I fall down 
In my brain, it don’t stop till I fall down 

If I talk would you listen? 
If I stop would you miss it?
If I talk would you listen? 
If I stop would you miss it?
If I talk would you listen? 
If I stop would you miss it?
If I talk would you listen? 
If I stop would you miss it?

Resting

wadewilson

1on1 (bloodxxet)

Spotify

baby do you hate me (prod. sketchmyname) out on spotify

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I make this music to hardly cope with life & to make my life in art form! I luv me some / #hyperpop / #pop-punk & #experimental, Alternative Rock & Emo R&B Trap-Soul + sadrap music creator! I also am a 7 yrs in the game industry ug alt & etc.. 

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