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just messing around with vocal layering and harmonies 
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this place (w/ falesia) - India Alice

FAREWELL, HEYMISH

FOREVER

Did you get my text back?
Are you even going?
Shawty yeah you owe this 
Did you ever text back?
Tell me that you noticed 
I’m sick of all this bullshit 
Why 
Sipping on this bottle till my body starts to fly 
Then get sentimental when I look up in the sky 
Light a cigarillo to get some color in my eyes 
Kindled in her eyes but I tend to wonder why 

Would you even text back?
Could you stop the hurting?
Please don’t say you wouldn’t 
Why 
Would you even  text back?
You said that I’m worthless 
Not worth a single second of ur time 

Sippin on this bottle till my eyes start to cry 
Then get sentimental when my cup starts to dry 
Light a cigarillo and get some color in my eyes 
Hatred in my “i’s”and I tend to wonder why 

I will win you back again 
I will win you back again 
I willl win you back again 

I will win you back again 
I will win you back again 
I will win you back again 

Ur the only girl that I love 
Tell me what it is that you want 
I will give you the world if you want 
I will give you the world if you want 
Party all night till the day 
Girl just look my way 
Hold me like always 
I’ll hold you till we’re grey ay 

I will win you back

cigarillo (Prod.Deadends)

Cigars, graveyard and medicine 
Black tar, white bars. Let me in 

I don’t wanna be with anyone but you 
Lay me down and watch me do what I do 

Sunrise 
let me die 
And I won’t fight 
I won’t back down 
So sometimes 
I will try 
It’s a long way forward 
But a longer way down 

I don’t wanna be with anyone but you 

Sick of basic bitches that just can’t relate 
I will hide away just to feel okay 
Sober state glistens will it fade away?
To be frank, I don’t want it anyway 
Why my medicine have a candy taste?
I won’t let her in, till she runs away 
Getting sentimental about better days 
Lookin in the mirror, will I pray today?

i dont wan be with anyone but you

sunshine + im terrified (interlude)

Lyrics : 

I was standing tall then I hit the fall 
Shadows on my walls darkened consumes all 
She ain’t picking up my calls then I start to drawl 
Soon I start to bawl “ is this all my fault ?” 

I’m crawling back to earth 
I’m needing love from her
I’m crawling back to earth 
I’m needing love from her 
I feel so fucking hurt 
Face down in the dirt 
I feel so fucking hurt 
Face down in the dirt 

I cannot form my words struggling with these terms 
Feeling all this hurt after all that has occurred 
I’m struggling so and it just gets worse 
Struggling so I don’t know if I’ll return 
I’m really so concerned after every twist and turn 
I hope one day that maybe I’ll learn 
I hope one day that maybe I’ll learn 
Learn how to deal with all this fucking hurt 

I was standing tall then I hit the fall 
Shadows on my walls darkened consumes all 
She ain’t picking up my calls then I start to drawl 
Soon I start to bawl “ is this all my fault ?” 

I’m crawling back to earth 
I’m needing love from her
I’m crawling back to earth 
I’m needing love from her 
I feel so fucking hurt 
Face down in the dirt 
I feel so fucking hurt 
Face down in the dirt

All My Fault (prod. deadends)

for so long (w/ deadends) - India Alice

I still need you 
Do you need me?
Ur love is ice cold 
And I’m freezing 
I won’t leave you 
Dont leave me
Where’d the years go?
There fading 

I still need you 
Do you need me?
Ur love is ice cold 
And I’m freezing 
I won’t leave you 
Dont leave me
Where’d the years go?
There fading 

Would you even care if I’m not here 
I was so faded wearing moncler 
I need prescriptions not to feel fear 
I wake up everyday but I’m still here 

The earth is in rotation but it stops when your around 
I can’t feel my feelings I can’t feel my own frown 
Everyone is after me it’s hard for me to stand my ground 
I just feel useless everyday year round 

Yea yea yea 

Let me take a sip 
Swerving in my friends whip 
Let me take a trip 
Xanax or klonopins 
I feel sad again 
wouldnt wan do that again 
If ur heaven sent 
Then why the devil is on my bed?

I’ve came out of the mud 
I’m a muck I’m so yuck 
Everybody in my phone 
Don’t give a fuck 
Won’t give a fuck 
Maybe I’ll feel fine when I’m drunk 
Double fisting cups of bud
Then I spark a blunt 
Then watch the girl I love run

watch her run from me

Lyrics : 

I need you here 
But you’re not near 
Year after year 
I can’t see clear 
Across the sphere 
Would you appear ? 
Oh you my dear 
Don’t disappear

I need you here 
Oh I need you here 
I’m crying tears 
For you my dear 
I need you here 
Oh I need you here 
I’m crying tears 
For you my dear 

On my own 
All alone you’re all I know 
Please don’t go you feel like home 
Please don’t go you feel like home 
Counting down the metronome 
After all this time we’ve grown 
Waiting here right by the phone 
Waiting for you to come home 

I need you here 
But you’re not near 
Year after year 
I can’t see clear 
Across the sphere 
Would you appear ? 
Oh you my dear 
Don’t disappear

I need you here 
Oh I need you here 
I’m crying tears 
For you my dear 
I need you here 
Oh I need you here 
I’m crying tears 
For you my dear

I Need You Here (prod. deadends)

Lyrics : 

Back to earth as I lie inside this hurt 
Question my worth as I lay under the dirt 
Feeling so much hurt after all that has occurred 
After all is this what I have deserved 

In my thoughts I drown six feet down no one’s around not a sight or sound 
I’m so lost I can’t be found underground as the earth goes around 
In my soul losing all my hope I’m so alone so cold to the bone 
Without control ina deep dark hole I can’t feel the end drawing close 

Cold to the bone as I’m losing my soul cold to bone as the end draws close 
Cold to the bone as I’m losing my soul cold to the bone as the end draws close 

Back to earth as I lie inside this hurt 
Question my worth as I lay under the dirt 
Feeling so much hurt after all that has occurred 
After all is this what I have deserved

After All (prod. deadends)

Lyrics : 

Yeah I miss you everyday 
I don’t know what else to say 
Yeah I miss you I’m every way
I wish you meant it that you’d stay

Now you’re not here 
As I’m slowly fading away 
Now you’re not here 
As I miss you every single day 

And I can’t seem to get my mind off you 
I got nothing left but memories running through 
In the end you were so mine to lose 
And now I’m here I don’t know what to do 

Yeah I miss you everyday 
I don’t know what else to say 
Yeah I miss you in every way 
I wish you meant it that you’d stay 

Now you’re not here in my bed 
Alone at night aches 
But you’re still here in my head 
I still see your face 

And I can’t seem to get my mind off you 
I got nothing left but memories running through 
In the end you were so mine to lose 
And now I’m here I don’t know what to do 

Yeah I miss you everyday 
I don’t know what else to say 
Yeah I miss you in every way 
I wish you meant it that you’d stay

Everyday (prod. deadends)

computer screens

brain zaps w/ vails

left for dead

My lyrics are : A room full of people 
That I don’t know 
She Said “it’s nice to meet you” 
I’m still alone 
A room full of people 
That I don’t know 

She said “it’s nice to meet you”
I’m still alone 

Bed spins, bad bitch tugging on my belt 
Block spins, medicine I think I need help 
Clocked in, I’m locked in, I don’t wanna yell 
Hurting since then I’ll tell you how it felt 

Like Orton 
I quit 
I get no joy 
From you 
from this 
Guess I’m an asshole but I can’t win 
I can’t pretend it’s not hurting 
I can’t pretend that I’m enjoying our time 
I can’t pretend that I’m worthy 
I cant pretend cause I’m feeling like hell tonight

(Notcursed) 

he likes to pretend that he want me
i'm falling asleep to the voice notes
a whisper from the haunting
the cold snow days, i forgot those
new phone, text out my number
no calls, guess i have fumbled
am i so forgettable, maybe i'm the asshole for wanting more
maybe they could replace me
i feel my heart beat every time i try
everyday feels lazy
or maybe most days i dont have the time

room full of people w/ notcursed

left for dead (intro)

Lyrics : 

I’ve been thinking lately nothing else can save me 
Girl you were my baby so kill if you hate me 
Lay me down safely lull me in a day dream 
Rip my heart out its yours for the taking
Playing with my heart girl I wish you weren’t so flakey 
Right from the start i wish you would embrace me 
When you leave alone it’s so heartbreaking 
Right from the start I knew that would leave me 

I’m all here for it 
Now My souls distorted 
Im all here for it 
Ever night Im deep in mourning 
I’m all here for it 
Now My souls distorted 
Im all here for it 
Ever night Im deep in mourning 

I’m dreaming of you daily I’m missing you gravely 
Without you here girl I am going crazy 
Thinking that you hate me I haven’t seen you lately 
Everytime you leave my body going shakey 
In the end I blame me my worlds gone shady 
Everywhere I look yeah my visions gone hazy 
Lay me in the flowerbed lay my down safely 
Without you here girl now I’m picking daisies 

I’m all here for it 
Now My souls distorted 
Im all here for it 
Ever night Im deep in mourning 
I’m all here for it 
Now My souls distorted 
Im all here for it 
Ever night Im deep in mourning 

I’m alone now but that’s fine though 
I’m tired of spending all my time crying for love 
I trust me to be true to myself atleast once 
Atleast once 

I’m all here for it 
Now my souls distorted 
I’m all here for it 
Every night I’m deep in mourning 
I’m all here for it 
Now my souls distorted 
I’m all here for it 
Every night I’m deep in mourning

Mourning (feat. Cineraria)(prod. deadends)

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