bed rot nd slit my veins
i hope i make a change. 

Credit to @dalepilledd for art 🐸🥂❤️

out on all platforms

SLOWLY DETERIORATING

i want a girlfriend is that to much to ask
want her to hold my hand i wont be alone atlast
she'll tell me it will be ok and i wont be feeling this way
wherever she is come to me my only  female company



girlfriend come to me come to me
help me stop feeling this agony
girlfriend help me from this misery
girlfriend hold me tight dont let go of me



i want a girlfriend is that to much to ask
want her to hold my hand i wont be alone atlast
she'll tell me it will be ok and i wont be feeling this way
wherever you are come to me my only female company



girlfriend come to me come to me
help me stop feeling this agony
girlfriend help from this misery
girlfriend hold me tight dont let go of me

Girlfriend

a cover I made yea

[Verse 1]
What could I do
I was crazy for you
I'm crazy all the time
I fell in love I fell in love with you
I put my life on the line

[Verse 2]
I wonder why you had to lie
I wonder all the time
I fell in love I fell in love with you
I put my life on the line

[Chorus]
People tell me that I'm crazy
I guess that is true
I don't blame you if you blame me
I blame myself too

[Verse 3]
You were
In my mind when I was feeling low
When I was feeling high
Losing you made me lose control
You made me lose my mind
[Verse 4]
So I hurt myself in any way I could
Feeling bad felt good
Sometimes I'm glad that I didn't die
But then I wish that I would

[Chorus]
People tell me that I'm crazy
I guess that is true
Now I know that I'm crazy
I'm crazy for you

[Verse 5]
Sometimes I'm glad that I didn't die
But then I wish that I would
I can't erase you away from my life
But I wish that I could

[Chorus]
People tell me that I'm crazy
I guess that is true
'Cause I know that I'm crazy
I'm crazy for you

You tell me that I'm crazy
I guess that is true
'Cause i know that I'm crazy
I'm crazy for you
You tell me that I'm crazy
I'm crazy for you
I know that I'm crazy
I'm crazy for you

Crazy 4 U (School Shooter/Negative XP cover)

uh excuse the way it sounds lol i fuckin suck at mixing  atleast drums actually came out good

verse
she appears to me
in my dreams
i want her now
so i call her name
then i wake up and she's not there
soon she will be mine and i will  be alright

chorus
everyday fucking sucks because I'm not happy 
cannot sleep cannot dream
cuz you come back right to me
I'm in pain cant complain
all i do is think all day
my minds a fog all day long 
please come back it wont go wrong

verse
she comes to me and tells me that she loves me
i tell her back and tell her don't you ever leave
she has to go oh no
if you ever come back
will you let me know?

chorus
everyday fucking sucks because I'm not happy 
cannot sleep cannot dream
cuz you come back right to me
I'm in pain cant complain
all i do is think all day
my minds a fog all day long 
please come back it wont go wrong

girl in my dreams

enjoy :)  thank u dedcat for the cover art check em out!
https://on.soundcloud.com/VH6TV

[Intro]
O-o-o-O-oo-0-o
O-0-o-OO-o-o

[Verse]
I wish you wouldn't ignore me
I texted you last morning
You said you’d call me early
You said you’d call me early
I thought you didn't like parties
Apparently now you’re changing
I hope you don't exchange me
I hope you don't exchange me
You're so cute maybe
We could still start dating
You said you'd think about it
I doubt you think about it
I don't wanna die alone
Can you just pick up the phone
I'm so in love with you
I'm so in love with you
[Verse]
I wish you wouldn't ignore me
I texted you last morning
You said you’d call me early
You said you’d call me early
I thought you didn't like parties
Apparently now you’re changing
I hope you don't exchange me
I hope you don't exchange me
You're so cute maybe
We could still start dating
You said you'd think about it
I doubt you think about it
I don't wanna die alone
Can you just pick up the phone
I'm so in love with you
I'm so in love with you

Beta Orbiter (XO_WILLOW cover)

K

this time im gonna do it 
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it 
slit my wrist drop on the floor

and i dont understand 
how youd move on so fast
i fucked up real bad
and now youre gone and now im sad
and all the times we had
are gone and in the trash
i wish we couldve last
but now your with another man

this time im gonna do it 
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it 
slit my wrist drop on the floor

this time i'm gonna do it.

trash cover.

I just want to kill myself
I just want to kill myself
I'll put a bullet in my head

Paint the walls with my brain  
Paint the walls with my brain
I guess nobody cares

Just want to kill myself
Just want to kill myself
Just want to kill myself
Just want to kill myself

Nobody Cares (belowground cover)

whyd u have to go away i sit and lay all day
no goals no energy just want to rot away
ill just close my eyes go to bed i hope i die
when i do youll be the last one on my mind

cuz i hate living the same day
wishing I can go away
slit my veins and blow my brains
im fucking going insane
solitude and emptiness
im falling into pieces
now my life has no meaning
soul has died and IM SCREAMINGGG

and now youve came and went
along did my soul too
i wish that i could have held on to you
seems to be too late now, youve found somebody new
oh how i wish that i didnt know that too

cuz i hate living the same day
wishing I can go away
slit my veins and blow my brains
im fucking going insane
sollitude and emptiness
im falling into pieces
now my life has no meaning
soul has died and IM SCREAMINGGG

Solitude & Emptiness

i wrote this around sept of 2022 glad i can finally finish it.

i dont wanna go to school
i dont wanna go to work
stay at home all day
drink my problems away
yea im such a fucking fool
to think id ever be with you
i see u have someone new
wish i didnt have a clue
led me on i feel so used
feel so sad i feel abused
yea i bet you feel amused
i feel like this because of you

i dont know why i feel this way
you make me feel Not Ok
it hurts to think of you
your in my head rent free
id rather you just drop dead
just to get out my head
i hate your fucking guts 
thought of you just drive me nuts

because of you

you laughed at me i cried
ive tried to make it right
dont wanna be alive
i hope you suicide
youll pay for what you did
i want you off the grid
youre such a big mistake
i want you out my face

dont care just live your life
i want you out of mine
cant get a peace of mind
with you right by my side
i never asked for this
to be treated like shit
if you hate me just go
im getting sick of it     


SO I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE
AND   I MEAN IT OUT OF SPITE
THIS ANGER DEEP INSIDE
YOU FUCKED ME UP FOR LIFE 

AND I JUST WANNA QUIT
I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS 
YOURE SUCH A FUCKING BITCH
AND IM GETTING SICK OF IT

Sick of It

i dont relate to fucking whores so i changed the lyrics to something degen i can relate too like self harm

so lame and fake
should kill myself
wake up fucked up
every single day
my soul for sale
i've lost my faith
and I can't see any trace of God anywhere.
cut and drink is all i do
Tears and pills fill my room.
flirting with suicide
no morals, no laws
wasted life take one more shot 
another downer down my throat,
a shotgun in my fucking mouth
my brains on the wall

Suicide Note (belowground cover)

This and my covers are now on Spotify check it out 🐸🥂 https://open.spotify.com/album/5xEjDACqvsVYVyFc0JKh1Y 
recorded jan-25-2024
this time im gonna do it
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it
slit my wrist drop on the floor

and i dont understand
how youd move on so fast
i fucked up real bad
and now youre gone and now im sad
and all the times we had
are gone and in the trash
i wish we couldve last
but now your with another man

this time im gonna do it
no more turning back no more
this time im gonna do it
slit my wrist drop on the floor

this time im gonna do it. (acoustic) (Read desc!)

verse
i lie awake and i think of your face
you never seem to go away
every thought it drives me insane
When ur deep inside my BRAINN

chorus
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
FOREVER INSIDE MY HEAD
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
REMEMBER U UNTIL IM DEAD

verse
and every night i break down and cry 
ive tried so hard to make it right
ever since youve left without a trace
im stuck alone here with this PAINN 

chorus
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
FOREVER INSIDE MY HEAD
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
REMEMBER U UNTIL IM DEAD

NEVER SEE U AGAIN

Woah

cant take it
its over
cant be myself when sober. x4
 
it hurts to think of
the times we spent together 
and times where im thinking i wish that it were better
i sing along, this little song 
entertain myself as i think of 
past times and bad times and sad times
and i sing along this little tune 
you know i wrote this song to you
and i sing along this little tune       

Its Over

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

one day, ill do someday
 
somedays i always feel the same 
im Not Ok ill never change
and all this rage  it drives me insane 
ill run away and never show my face
ill fade away while im stuck 

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

slowly deteriorating 
i fucked my life up
ill never see the day
where i make a change
slowly deteriorating 
i fucked up everything 
blow off my fucking face
im gonna make a change  


slowly deteriorating

chorus
ill always be alone
ill always be at home
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same
ill always be afraid
ill never be Ok
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same

verse
marching towards insanity
it has the best of me yea
i dont know whats wrong with me
im living on repeat and
i can fix it easily
but im too sad and lazy
everything is such a waste
all of this pain just breaks me

chorus
ill always be alone
ill always be at home
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same
ill always be afraid
ill never be Ok
ill never change my ways
ill always stay the same


stay the same

Shoutout to nil for helping learn the chords to this song 🐸🥂

OoooOoOooo

“If you don’t put in more effort, you may as well kill yourself"

Well I started pulling the trigger as soon as you opened your mouth
I'll end my life forever just to hope I'll ruin your day
I hope you choke and gag on my grey
Matter cause by now it’s not gonna matter to me
I shot myself in the head I was never gonna be happy
But at least I can die laughing with a smile on my face
Hoping fragments of my skull
Impale into your eyeballs
And that the last thing that you see
Is the end of my suffering
Now that it’s all over theres a lesson to be learned
To anybody who cared you got what you fucking deserved
And I can't start having second thoughts about what happens next
Because suicide is the only thing you can't regret

Spite! (preripped cover)

I'm not tryna ruin your fun
You're just a little bit late
I guess you're already done
There's this feeling I can't shake 'cause I'm too dumb
I'm never doing the right thing so I'm so stuck
If you see me in America I might say hi
But if you meet me out in Europe I'm a talkative guy
Maybe we'll talk over scones around lunch some time
And I've never met a fan so it might be nice
But I can't take this paparazzi, geez
It's like the camera's always out and always starin' at me
And if I say the wrong thing, they'll cut my tongue 'til it bleeds
Always whippin' out their pitchforks when you try to speak
But that couldn't be me

Next day I'm walkin' the road, kickin' rocks, it's my fauuuult
My life's the worst story told, I'll be this way 'til I'm old
I rip a page out the book, I'm just so misunderstooood
I always think about her and when my life felt gooood
I smoked a cig on the porch
It doesn't help me at aaall, I wonder what's it all for?
Is this the girl I adooored and I know I can't afford
Watchin' her walk out the dooooor
So I keep it to myself and keep my feet on the flooo

nope your too late i already died (wifiskeleton cover)

Song I wrote a long time ago was able to finish :)

Verse 
I hate to see you smile
You drive me fucking wild
You’re such a huge disgrace 
You give me so much pain
I wanna drink away my paranoia and ignore ya 
But you give me so much rage 

Shoo wap doo wap doo wop shoo wop ou

Chorus 
I wanna see her dead I want 2 fucking kill her 
I wanna bash her head I want 2 fucking kill her
Death won’t be her end I want 2 fucking kill her
Never texted me now I want 2 fucking kill her

Shoo wap doo wap doo wop shoo wop ou

Verse 
It’s been a while and I’m still broken
I’m so obsessed with u I haven’t gotten over it
Stuck in my head like glue I never thought that we’d be through
So I’ll choose your fate but I still love you 

Chorus 
I wanna see her dead I want 2 fucking kill her 
I wanna bash her head I want 2 fucking kill her
Death won’t be her end I want 2 fucking kill her
Fucking tested me now I want 2 fucking kill her

iw2fkh

my voice hurts lol

verse
i fell in love with a screen
you always come back right to me
i wake up and i daydream 
i see ur face and i still scream
im so obsessed you possessed 
my mind and everything i think
its been a year i still send text
and still get left on seen

chourus
i fell in love with a screen
the only love so real to me
i read old text smoke ciggerates
and then i cry myself to sleep
and everyday i lie awake and 
think of times where we  would speak
so far away and yet so near
youve gone away and im still here

verse
 Still stalk ur page on instagram 
I see you moved on way to fast
I hate that I have been erased 
U left me in the past
And everyday I dream ur face 
And want you to text back
500 miles away I’m still sad ohhh


chorus
i fell in love with a screen
the only love so real to me          (i fell in love with a screen)
i read old text smoke ciggerates     (i fell in love with a screen)
and then i cry myself to sleep       (the only love so real to me)
and everyday i lie awake and         (i fell in love with a screen)
think of times where we  would speak (i fell in love with a screen)
so far away and yet so near          (i fell in love with a screen)
youve gone away      and im still here    (the only love so real to me)

girl behind my screen

i dont condone violence song is about retarded shooters like William (couch cuck)

(lyrics will be on genius soon don’t want it to get taken down)

couch_cucked

chorus
so tired nd depressed
so ill down my sleeping meds
drift off in peaceful sleep
nd rest eternally
x2

it will not matter no more
when i drop dead on the floor
u hurt me straight to the core
when u moved on nd got bored

so tired hate myselffffff
i wont escape my  hell
and everydays the saaaaamee
ive lost my fucking brain

so tired nd depressed
so ill down my sleeping meds
drift off in peaceful sleep
nd rest eternally
x2


tired nd depressed

another bad classic by urs truly🐸🥂

[verse]
im so fucked up in the head 
i don’t know what to do 
id rather kill myself and 
drop dead to get over u
im so fucked up in the head 
i don’t know what to dooo
ill shoot my brains out just to
geeeet ovveer u 

[chorus]
ill get over u
thats exactly what ill do 
ill just get over u 
i don’t wanna but it’s true 
ill just get over u 
nd ill drink my sorrows too
hated losing u while ur on 
with someone new

on with someone new 
on with someone 

[verse]
i don’t know what to do
u make me so confused 
like shooter sad nd blue 
oh u don’t have a clue

how much u put me through 
u cut my heart in 2 
i guess that all this proves 

is i can’t get over u

GET OVER U

i hate that i lost myself
u came back put me through hell
though id say i want 2 change
so leave my brain so i can say

woah woah yodoohuhouhhh 
forget you


 waste my time id rather shoot u dead too
dont wanna live you make me wanna tie a noose
around my neck until im dead and turning blue
i hate this shit i guess ill never try to

woah woah yodoohuhouhhh 
forget you

FORGET U

(updated version)
choke on my vomit
im gonna get so drunk
im gonna end it
and i dont give a fuck

im gonna drink away all of my fucking pain
i wanna get so drunk and blow off my fucking face
u drive me so insane  i dont wanna hear ur name
i wanna grab my keys and crash into YOUR FUCKING PLACE     

choke on my vomit
im gonna get so drunk
im gonna end it
and its all ur fault

CHOKE ON MY VOMIT

Ghosted

[Verse]
You stopped texting me again 
I'd like to know your reason
Did my  craziness  for you drive you away?
Because you haven't texted me in about a day


[Chorus]
You ghosted me 
Cant you see
Why cant we be together again?
You ghosted me
Please come back
Or I'll have a heart attack. 

[Verse]
I know I've been obsessed with you
But everything I'm saying is true 
Oh beautiful why dont you be in my life 
So you can be my future wife 


[Chorus]
You ghosted me 
Cant you see
Why cant we be together again 
You ghosted me
Please come back 
or I'll have a heart attack.

Ghosted

I suck at everything.. like at making music lol


[Verse]
still think of her
cuz my mind is such a blur
damn I really wish I tried
but I really wish I died
I don't wanna be alive 
I just wanna go and hide
because 
being lonely is not for me
damn I wanna find the one 
but i wanna point a gun
at the top of my head 
and just drop dead

[Chorus]
I suck at everything 
My life is not what it used to be
I want to hang from a tree 
And hide from everybody

[Verse]
man it hurts my head
I just wanna drop dead
I still think of memories 
of all the good times you and me
I wish we both lived happily 
but it wasnt supposed to be
being lonely sucks 
but it's just part of my luck 
I wanna just take my life
I just don't wanna be alive 
I wanna be a ghost 
or just somewhere in the afterlife

[Chorus]
I suck at everything 
My life is not what it used to be
I want to hang from a tree 
And hide from everybody

I Suck at Everything

cover and stuff I know it doesnt really sound different from the original but eh

Fever Dream (negative xp cover)



[Verse]
I dont know why you cant get out my head 
I wanna die take my life i wanna drop dead
I cant image you with someone else 
It hurts my soul it makes me wanna cut myself 
I wish I can move on but that cant do
Cuz my mind and my heart cant get a clue 

[Chorus]
I cant help myself 
I wanna kill myself 
I wanted just to move on 
And just accept myself
I don't like it here 
Its something that I fear
I don't wanna be here 
I wanna be with you 

[Verse]
I dont know why 
You make me wanna cry 
Cuz you said we'd last I guess that was just a lie
Please just take me back 
Our love will never crack 
I just wanna be with you 
Until our time is due

[Chorus]
I cant help myself 
I wanna kill myself 
I wanted just to move on 
And just accept myself
I don't like it here 
Its something that I fear
I don't wanna be here 
I wanna be with you 

i wanna be with you...

yea sorry sometimes it goes loud on the second verse kinda its fucking bandlab I tried my best to fix
unless Its not bandlab and I'm retarded idk

[Verse]
I wake up andi  feel sad and gloomy 
I feel like I could put a knife right through me
But I have one more thing in mind there called my happy pills
There the only ones that help me feel 

[Chorus]
My happy pills 
Keep me from going down hill
My happy pills
Only thing that's real 

[Verse]
My day is going bad and that's ok
I got fired from my job cuz I'm always late
But none of that bothers me because of my pills 
Without these I would go downhill 

[Chorus]
My happy pills 
Keep me from going down hill
My happy pills
Only thing that's real

NotOkGhost

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