shimmer

@kirxcy

ib : @stopcry1ng

For my girlfriend <3 i love you

you are the only one

make this song as a "vent song"
(please understand).

stream/buy : https://zaran1.bandcamp.com/track/mentally-scared-to-talk
find me on : https://linktr.ee/prodzaran

perhaps any all of you have seen or not seen my very first description or status with the words "mentally scared to talk", i had to tell u the reason why.

yknow, i am a introvert guy who really hard to society with other people, just love being lonely, and also have a few friends that i can trust, a trusted friends.

but.. i have a lot question on my head. something like,

"am i deserve having a friends?"
"am i good enough for the other?"
"am i deserve to be forgettable?"
"am i too quite?"

and i was told i was arrogant when im not talk that much, like why? why im being like this.? am i deserve all of this...? i feel like i have to deserve it all.

looks, im sorry for not interact with yall, because im still scared or still in doubt should talk or not. like, i am can't be that goffy or even making a good joke. and too many apologies, make people feels annoying. i feel like i should disappear from this world already. this world is madness.

i think im not a enjoyable person to talk with. u deserve better friend than me. i deserve to be alone.

please, forgive me.

"why does it hurt so fucking much?"

(also if everyone think this is just a april fools plan, no. im so fucking done. im not even joking rn im serious i wanna to talk about my deep throught feelings).

mentally scared to talk.

2018. 𝔴/𝔥𝔦𝔯æ𝔱𝔥

Memories

https://soundcloud.com/karefuluk

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6t2jsqfuSymmmvx1cQfKGs?si=IoJZH8kKR7aDoxtzEe0y3Q

distorted memories w/kareful

Tarnished (feat. LochHaven)

Babygirl
Come get your mind right
Ich hatt' schon so viel von deiner Art
Auf meiner timeline

Und ich merk' du bist doch anders
Das' der Grund warum ich bleib-bleib
Du trägst lovescars auf deim' body
Doch bist in der Nacht allein

Kalte Tränen auf der Wange
Wenn du weinst-weinst

Und du weißt niemals 
Was du suchst
Kaufst dir expensive shit
Doch bleibst im gleichen loop

Und du bist stuck in deinem daydream
Ich glaub das tut nicht gut
Du hast kein bad luck mit love
Du bist der Grund für deine mood

Du bist der Grund für deine Habits
Sprich große Worte, doch ich glaub' dir nichts
Weil's Cap ist (aha)

Du suchst material attention
Weil du die von deinem Dad kriegst
Und erzählst mir du bist traurig
Weil dein Kopf seit Jahren ein Mess ist

enjoy your song <3

LOVESCARS (prod. shvde)

last track in this style for a while -- my upcoming tracks will most likely be more raw and emotional. i hope you guys will receive them well! until then, enjoy this one. <33

LOVESCARS (prod. shvde)

@nottwentyseven

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