Songs for my next album. A journey of pain, problems, and progress.

COLLIDE

I’D DO IT AGAIN

THAT RUSH - BY NOVA J

Sometimes I miss that rush (that rush)
A spark that burned but turned to dust (to dust)
A touch that felt like too much (too much)
But somehow, never enough (oh-oh, oh-oh)
Sometimes I miss that rush.

(Ooh-ooh ooh, ah-ah ah)
(Ooh-ooh ooh, ah-ah ah)

I used to sit in circles, confessing to the air
Saying I hated those moments, pretending I didn’t care
But fireworks burn so brightly before they disappear.

Of course it wasn’t all bad
Some nights felt like I could fly
No weight upon my shoulders
Just a blaze lighting the sky.

Sometimes I miss that rush (that rush, that rush)
A spark that burned but turned to dust (to dust)
A touch that felt like too much (too much)
But somehow, never enough (oh-oh, oh-oh)
Sometimes I miss that rush.

(Ooh-ooh ooh, ah-ah ah)
(Ooh-ooh ooh, ah-ah ah)

The fire always asked for more, shadows creeping in
The thrill became a prison where the darkness would begin
But even as it hurt me, I still let it win.

The sparks would dim, the rush would fade
I chased it anyway (anyway)
And lost myself in the chaos
Until it took it all away.

Sometimes I miss that rush (that rush, that rush)
A spark that burned but turned to dust (to dust)
A touch that felt like too much (too much)
But somehow, never near enough (oh-oh, oh-oh)
Sometimes I miss that rush.

The fire always asks for more (for more)
And shadows grow when you ignore (ignore)
I lost a friend to that abyss (that abyss)
And yet there’s moments that I miss.

But as strange as it sounds…
Sometimes STILL I miss that rush (that rush, that rush)
A spark that burned but turned to dust (to dust)
A touch that felt like too much (too much)
But somehow, never near enough (oh-oh, oh-oh)
Sometimes I miss that rush.

(Ooh-ooh ooh, ah-ah ah)
REPEATS, FADES OUT

THAT RUSH

WATCH THE SHOW
BY MADRE AND NOVA J

Sit back, watch the show (show, show),
Let it come and let it go (go, go).
No skin in the game (game), no bruises to claim (claim),
I’m just here to take it slow (slow, slow).
Sit back, watch the show (show, show),
Feel the stillness take control (control, control).
No need to fight (fight), I’ll be alright (right),
Let the silence softly grow (grow, grow).

Thinker, thinker, running free (free, free),
Pulling, pushing, chasing me (me, me).
Each thought fades, it slips away (away, away),
I’ll let it drift, I’ll step away (away, away).

(Ooh-oh-oh) Let it go, let it go.
(Ooh-oh-oh) Watch the show, watch the show.

Sit back, watch the show (show, show),
Let it come and let it go (go, go).
No skin in the game (game), no bruises to claim (claim),
I’m just here to take it slow (slow, slow).
Sit back, watch the show (show, show),
Feel the stillness take control (control, control).
No need to fight (fight), I’ll be alright (right),
Let the silence softly grow (grow, grow).

Talking, talking, fills the air (air, air),
Empty words go everywhere (where, where).
I don’t need to say too much (much, much),
Quiet moments hold my trust (trust, trust).

Step aside (step aside), let them play (let them play),
Close your eyes, it’s all okay (all okay).
Breathe it in (breathe it in), let it out (let it out),
That’s what peace is all about (all about).

INSTRUMENTAL

Sit back, watch the show (show, show),
Let it come and let it go (go, go).
No skin in the game (game), no bruises to claim (claim),
I’m just here to take it slow (slow, slow).
Sit back, watch the show (show, show),
Feel the stillness take control (control, control).
No need to fight (fight), I’ll be alright (right),
Let the silence softly grow (grow, grow).

(Ooh-oh-oh) Let it go, let it go.
(Ooh-oh-oh) Watch the show, watch the show.

Sit back, watch the show (show, show),
The thinker fades, the calm will grow (grow, grow).
No need to fight (fight), I’ll be alright (right),
Just let it go and feel the light (light, light).

WATCH THE SHOW

PAST LIVES by NOVA J

On a quest to find what’s haunting me.
Yoga at sunrise, rehab by the sea,
Searching for answers, what’s it all for?
They say I’m paying for lives before.

Karma’s a bitch and I can’t ignore
The price of the pain I caused before

Blame it on my past lives, ghosts I can’t escape,
My suffering tomorrow for my sins of yesterday 
Blame it on my past lives (past lives)
(Ooooh, ooooh)
Blame it on my past lives (past lives)
(Ooooh, ooooh)

Lost in my twenties, chasing the high,
Every thrill cut deep—never knew why (never knew why)
Life keeps spinning, but what’s the deal?
How do you heal when you can’t even feel?

Screaming through the pain, praying it away
flashbacks from the past keep ruining my day

Blame it on my past lives, ghosts I can’t escape
My suffering tomorrow for my sins of yesterday 
Blame it on my past lives
(Ooooh, ooooh)
Blame it on my past lives
(Ooooh, ooooh)

Karma can hunt me, but it won’t take me down,
I’m rising up now on this battleground.
No more running, I’ll stand up and fight,
The ghosts can come—I’ll take back my life.

Blame it on my past lives, ghosts I can’t escape,
My suffering tomorrow for my sins of yesterday 
Blame it on my past lives
(Ooooh, ooooh)
Blame it on my past lives
(Ooooh, ooooh)

Blame it on my past lives
(Ooooh, ooooh)
Blame it on my past lives
(Ooooh, ooooh)

PAST LIVES

KILL THE BITCH by NOVA J

This song is a work of artistic expression and does not condone or promote real-life violence or harm. The themes explored are metaphorical, representing inner struggles and emotional turmoil.

Let’s kill — the bitch for the thrill (for the thrill of it)x4

There’s something strangely comforting about an existential crisis
The kind that burns when you take wrong turns 
Down the dark alley of your vices

I should probably stop
But I don’t wanna quit
So let’s kill the bitch 
For the thrill of it

Let’s kill — the bitch for the thrill (for the thrill of it)x4

I say no drama, then I dive in deep, into your icy ocean
Lying to myself, vows I’ll never keep, risk dying from implosion 

I should probably stop
But I don’t wanna quit
So let’s kill the bitch 
For the thrill of it

Let’s kill — the bitch for the thrill (for the thrill of it)x4

If you haven’t figured out
If you really can’t see
The bitch that’s dying 
Is little ole’ me

I should probably stop
But I don’t wanna quit
So let’s kill the bitch 
For the thrill of it

Let’s kill — the bitch for the thrill (for the thrill of it)x4

There’s something strangely comforting about an existential crisis
So…fuck it

Let’s kill — the bitch for the thrill (for the thrill of it)x4

KILL THE BITCH

A TREASURE AND A HANDFUL by NOVA J

I’ll never forget when we met
Told you not to take me seriously
Isn’t that sad?
Now here we are, we’ve come so far
Still together after all this time
And I’m so glad

I had a lot of healing to do
I was in pieces, you were the glue

You saw what nobody else could see
Beyond my broken personality
You gave me all your love for free
You saw the hidden treasure in me

I’m a treasure and a handful
Poison pleasure, it was painful
But you never called me shameful
You’re a treasure and a handful

High beams in a taxi cab
Scanning sidewalks for someone to grab
Me and a stranger sharing a room
Fighting off the impending doom
But you found me there
No judgment, just care

All the others held a grudge
But you never held back love

You saw what nobody else could see
Beyond my broken personality
You gave me all your love for free
You saw the hidden treasure in me

I’m a treasure and a handful
Poison pleasure, it was painful
But you never called me shameful
You’re a treasure and a handful

Oh, the world is breaking, creating
Oh, the tides are rising, cascading
Oh, the earth is shaking, rearranging
But through it all, you’re the one I call

Helping break my fall
Standing strong and tall

You saw what nobody else could see
Beyond my broken personality
You gave me all your love for free
You saw the hidden treasure in me

I’m a treasure and a handful
Poison pleasure, it was painful
But you never called me shameful
You’re a treasure and a handful

A TREASURE AND A HANDFUL

ANALOG by NOVA J

In my dreams I’m back in ‘93
In the office, computer-free
Fluorescent lights and rotary
Full of vintage machinery

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

Yes to corded simplicity
No to scrolling anxiety
TV static serenity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

In my dreams I’m trauma-free
Blur the bad that happened to me
Rose-colored glasses, simplicity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

ANALOG

BEAUTIFUL PLACE by Nova J

I’m in a beautiful place
Sitting next to your beautiful face
Left the city lights far away
In the woods where the wild things play

All of this beauty surrounds me
And yet inspiration confounds me
Why do I feel so dead inside?
What will it take to bring me back to life?

How much luxury do I need?
To satisfy this endless greed?
Will I ever feel something at all?
Or did I let that ability fall?

(Feel… feel… feel…)
(Have I lost it?)
(Feel… feel… feel…)

The wind won’t answer
The sky won’t speak
I whisper to the trees
But they just creak

What will it take to make me feel something?
Will I ever feel anything at all?
Or has a darkness taken hold
That beauty can’t dissolve?

This place is beautiful
But I am not
I left something behind
Or maybe… I forgot

BEAUTIFUL PLACE

I just wanna be free by NOVA J and MADRE

Woke up in the woods again
Sky so still, no sign of wind
Your face in firelight fades
But I still hear what you didn’t say

Breathin’ in the golden air
Nothin’ moves, I’m barely there

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

City dreams, they blur and fade
Got no heart left to persuade
I used to wish for better days
Now I just want peace that stays

Built a shield inside my mind
To block the noise I couldn’t fight

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

River at my feet
Wind don’t speak
Sunlight fades
But I still seek

Do you feel it too?
That hunger we hide?
The one that never dies—
The one we feed inside…

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free
Oh oh oh oh…
Don’t wanna bleed
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me

I JUST WANNA BE FREE

INSOMNIA by NOVA J

(Oooh oooh Sleep)
You can’t wake up from

Why’s my mind playing tricks on me tonight?
Got heavy eyes but I’m wide awake and I
Just wanna sleep, just wanna stop
This anxiety I’ve got.
I’m overthinking. (Yeah) I’m overthinking.

About you,
About us,
About my stupid luck—
I’m still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (still)
Awake 

Insomnia
Wish I had some
Marijuana 
Can’t stop replaying all the
Drama
In my head I’ve got
Insomnia
Oh, Insomnia
Feel like screaming
But I just lie
Daydreaming
Eyes wide open
Heart still beating
I’ve got…
Insomnia

Oooh oooh
Oooh oooh

Past mistakes and future fears,
Playing loud between my ears.
Scroll my phone, no end in sight,
It’s 3AM and now it’s 5—
Oh God, I’m dreading the sunlight

Close my eyes,
But then I see
All that terrifies 
In front of me.
I’m still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (awake)
Still (still)
Awake

Insomnia
Wish I had some
Marijuana
Can’t stop replaying all the
Drama
In my head I’ve got
Insomnia
Oh, Insomnia
Someone please
Put me to sleep,
Or maybe just
Some ketamine—
Knock me out
Or set me free
From
Insomnia
Insomnia…
Insomnia…
insomnia
Insomnia…
Insomnia…
(insomnia)

INSOMNIA

COLLIDE by Nova J

Ahmmmm

I woke up from anesthesia
Found out I was black and blue
Traced the bruises on my body
(Back to you) Back to you

I was running from the heartache
But I knew I couldn’t fake
Kept on using ‘til I’d break
The biggest dose that I could take

The pain hits like a freight train
Right when all the drugs subside
The tracks are lined with bodies
When you and I collide
(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh…)
You and I collide

(Collide… collide…)
I almost died
(Collide… collide…)
But I survived

Now I’m lying in this bed by
Hooked up to a machine
My hands are shaking, I’m deleting
Every photo of you and me
(You and me…) You and me
(You and me)

Now I might be lying down
But I swear I’ll soon be free
Walking through my hometown
Without your shadow haunting me

The pain hits like a freight train
Right when all the drugs subside
The tracks are lined with bodies
When you and I collide
(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh…)
You and I collide

(Collide… collide…)
I almost died
(Collide… collide…)
But I survived

I Still Remember Love by Nova J

I wake up in a room I don’t know
The curtains bright, the light is low
She smiles at me and says my name
I don’t recall hers, I feel ashamed 

She helps me sit and brings my plate
I try to eat but barely taste
She holds my hand and doesn’t rush
And somehow it feels just enough

I still remember love
Even when the rest fades out
I still remember love
And that’s what life’s about

A man walks in and calls me “dear”
His face is kind, his voice is clear
I don’t know the place or day
But feel safe with him anyway

I get confused out in the hall
Forget the way, forget it all
They find me there and bring me back
No one laughs or gives me flak

I still remember love
Even when my mind’s not right
I still remember love
Like a porch light in the night

There’s a song that plays inside my head
I hum along though words are dead
I don’t know where the tune came from
But singing it still keeps me calm

I still remember love
Even when I lose my place
I still remember love
When I see a caring face

So if I forget your name
Or don’t know where we are
Please don’t feel ashamed
Just stay right where you are
I forget a lot
But when push comes to shove
I still remember love
I still remember love

I STILL REMEMBER LOVE

BORDERLINE HEAD CASE
by Nova J

Rain is coming down like buckets
Life’s spinnin’ out—I’m outta luck, it’s
Hard to stand still, hard to stay chill
Hard to get ahead, hard to pay my bills

(Dancing in my kitchen like Britney
Wondering why bad luck had to hit me, baby)

I’m a borderline head case
Stuck in my PJ’s
Wondering if better days (better days)
Will come my way (my way)
Eventually… (eh-eh-eh-eh-ehhhhhh)

Borderline (head case)
Will I find (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh
Borderline (head case)
Will I find (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh

Spinning down into a dark vortex
“Life’s a circle,” that’s what my guru texts
That memo from GOD? lost in the spam
Now I’m askin’ OUT LOUD—is this part of the plan?

(Dancing in my kitchen like Britney
Wondering why bad luck had to hit me, baby)

I’m a borderline head case
Stuck in my PJ’s
Wondering if better days (better days)
Will come my way (my way)
Eventually… (eh-eh-eh-eh-ehhhhhh)

Borderline (head case)
Borderline (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh
Borderline (head case)
Borderline (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh

Forecast says depression’s back
My life’s a train that jumped the track
Lost my mojo—ran away
Left me here on a rainy day

(Dancing in my kitchen like Britney
Wondering why bad luck had to hit me, baby)

I’m a borderline head case
Stuck in my PJ’s
Wondering if better days (better days)
Will come my way (my way)
Eventually… (eh-eh-eh-eh-ehhhhhh)

Borderline (head case)
Borderline (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh
Borderline (head case)
Will I find (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh

Borderline (head case)
Will I find (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh
Borderline (head case)
Will I find (better days?)
Ooh-oooh, ooh-oooh…

BORDERLINE HEAD CASE

DO YOU FEEL? by Nova J

(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki) (Comfortable?) (baba no kiki)
(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki) (Do you feel?) (baba no kiki)

Do you feel like you’re living your purpose?
In your country club casual attire?
Swimming laps in your Olympic sized pool
Instead of puttin’ your feet to the fire

When’s the last time you did something real—
That thing that sets your soul on fire?
Do you feel like you’re living your purpose
Or just lost in your own desire?

Look at this view
(Not the scenery)
Why do you seem so blue?
(What the hell happened to you?)

Do you feel it?
Do you feel it? (Feel it?)
Do you feel like you’re living your purpose?

(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki) (Do you feel?) (baba no kiki)
(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki)

Do you feel like you’re living your purpose?
Still clingin’ to your comfortable life
In your shiny penthouse by the park
Do you fear you’ve lost the fight?

You think you know the true meaning of life
When’s the last time you truly felt alive?
Do you feel like you’re living your purpose?
Or are you just trying to survive?

Look at this view
(Not the scenery)
Fake smiles are see-through
(What’s that thing you cling to?)

Do you feel it?
Do you feel it? 
Do you feel like you’re living your purpose?

(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki) (Do you feel?) (baba no kiki)
(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki) 

You bought time
(But it won’t last)
You played it safe
(You’re fading fast)
You chased the prize
(The price was steep)
You won the world
(But you can’t sleep)

Do you feel it?
Do you feel it?
Do you feel like you’re living your purpose?

Do you feel it?
(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki)
Do you feel it?
(Do you feel?) (baba no kiki)

DO YOU FEEL?

SCAR by Nova J

I got an open wound
Will it bleed under pressure?
Will it hurt forever?
Will it hurt?

I got a long road
Will I ever get better?
Will healing take forever?
Will I heal?

I’m trying to take this day by day
I’m dying to take this pain away

But I keep staring at this scar
And I can’t walk very far
Without feeling pain
And dreamin’ of the day

That I can heal this open wound
Ease the pain I’m feeling soon
Lost in the walls of this empty room
Staring at the door you ain’t coming through

I don’t wanna be alone
I don’t know where to go
You led, I followed.
Am I hollow?

I’m scared to break
Every step I take
I feel the pain
Will I break?

I’m trying to take this day by day
I’m dying to take this pain away

But I keep staring at this scar
And I can’t walk very far
Without feeling pain
And dreamin’ of the day

[HOOK – reintroduce hook with new vocal layer over choral harmonies]
That I can heal this open wound
Ease the pain I’m feeling soon
Lost in the walls of this empty room
Staring at the door you ain’t coming through

I still got an open wound
Healing cannot come soon
Enough (Enough)
Enough (Enough)
Enough (Enough)
Enough (Enough)

I still got an open wound
Healing cannot come soon
Enough (Enough)
Enough (Enough)
Enough (Enough)
Enough (Enough)

I’m still staring at this scar
Prayin’ it won’t leave a mark
I just wanna feel okay
And I’m praying for the day

I got an open wound
Will it bleed under pressure?
Will it hurt forever?
Will it hurt?

SCAR

I LOVE ME by Nova J

Oh I love me
Don’t need validation, baby
Cause I love me
Yeah I love me
Oooh I love me

The names you called me
I saw them
In the mirror
Every day

You said I was lucky
To be loved by you
Said nobody else
Could love
A mess like me

Do you remember (do you remember) your words?
(Ahhh pathetic trash)
Do you remember?
I do.

Oh I love me
Don’t need validation, baby
Cause I love me
Yeah I love me
Oooh I love me

And for years, I believed you
Believed your lies were true
Because they came from you
And you knew—
You knew I was fragile
Terrified and weak
So you used that power
You found your leverage in me

Do you remember your words?
(Ahhh pathetic trash)
Do you remember?
I do.

But I found out I deserve more
Picked myself up off the floor
Found someone worth fighting for
That someone is me

Oh I love me
Don’t need validation, baby
Cause I love me
Yeah I love me
Oooh I love me

I survived your cruelty
Everything you threw at me
Now I’m free
Oh yeah, I’m free

Oh I love me
Don’t need validation, baby
Cause I love me
Yeah I love me
Oooh I love me

Oh I love me
Don’t need validation, baby
Cause I love me
Yeah I love me
Oooh I love me

I LOVE ME

It’s time to talk about AI…

THE BATTLEGROUND IS CULTURE by Nova J

(Is this the death?)
(Is this the death of humanity?)
(Or the beginning?)
The battleground… is culture.
The battleground… is culture.
The battleground… is now.

Is technology boosting creativity?
Or killing off originality?
Everything you see,
Everything you hear,
Came from a thought,
In between the ears

Absorbed by the net,
Now wired in code,
Ones and zeroes
Overload
(Ones and zeroes
Overload)

And now it’s back
Half-baked and cloned
No blood, no soul
No skin and bone
Just a quick fix
From a dopamine machine
When did music become
A video game?

The battleground is culture
The battle is now
The battleground is shifting
We gotta ask how
Is this the death of humanity?
Or just the beginning somehow?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

The battleground is shifting
We gotta ask how
Is this the death of humanity?
Or just the beginning somehow?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

If I tap keys instead of ink and pen
Am I still a writer then?
When spellcheck scripts my inner monologue
Am I the maker?
Or the catalog?

What if the tool becomes the voice
And stories bend without a choice?
The dreamer fades
the screen’s the star
Do we forget who we are?

The battleground is culture
The battleground is now
The battleground is shifting
We gotta ask how

Is this the death of humanity?
Or just the beginning somehow?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

Not just a song
A declaration
A line drawn between
Truth and imitation
A soul you can feel
Or a hollow simulation
The battleground… is culture.
This is the confrontation.

Is this the death? (Is this the death?)
Is this the end? (Or just a test?)
Is this the death of humanity?
Or something else instead?
The battleground is culture
The battleground is now

The battleground is culture

ARE YOU WEIRD? ME TOO by Nova J

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

Happy Hump Day, handsome
Feelin’ dry as a desert anthem
Wishin’ I was trippin’
But I’m sober as a dry was slippin’

Ever wonder what it’s like with a dwarf?
I think I might be… dwarf curious, of course
Pretty Little Lady, three-foot fire
Biggest beaver west of the muddy mire

Mind in the gutter, yeah, can’t deny
Got questions that make angels cry
Get my mind out the gutter
But it’s warm down here, why even try?

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

Wheelchair Granny rolls with pride
Army of lesbians at her side
Beautiful Bettys on a joyride
Don’t block the road, don’t even try

Trendy then, twenty years ago
Now it’s vanished like a late night show
Sometimes they hit, sometimes they flop
But I keep on writing, can’t make it stop

‘Cause Madre’s lovin’ it, I won’t quit
She’s the winter bird-feeding kinda spirit
Makes life better just bein’ around
A quiet saint on this messy ground

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

Mind in the gutter, thoughts run free
Pink Dino starin’ back at me
No eyes, no lies—just mystery
Am I okay? Depends on the week

Are you craving sushi?
Are you? Are you?
Fatty tuna, holy glory
Some fish look just like feet

This office visit was supposed to be routine
Now I’m strapped into a giant X-ray machine
Quiet death rays beamin’ through my teeth
Gums receding, but at least they’re clean

Producer’s rude, kill my groove
Mood’s gone south, can’t approve
You’re 32, go catch a flight
Toodle-oo, London’s callin’ tonight

(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)

I’m grouchy too, maybe feelin’ blue
But there’s sushi dreams and sky so true
Is that a dog or a tiny pony?
I swear that bird just winked at me slowly

Thank the fish for their sacrifice
Thank the birds for their paradise
Thank the cattle, thank the grain
Thank the earth for takin’ our pain

Mind in the gutter, can’t pretend
It’s a wild world, my weirdo friend
So here’s to truth and chaos too
Are you weird?
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dah-dah)
Me too. (Me too)
(Ooh-bah, dee-dee)
Me too. (Me too)

Are you weird? Me too!

We wait and see how it goes by Nova J

(Ooh-ooh, ahhh, ahhh, ahhh)

How do kids connect these days?
When screens are always in the way?
What’s the point of outdoor play
When you swipe the sun away?

Glad I grew up without the net
Millennial child with some regrets 
I was young n’ dumb without SnapChat
Nude selfies, there was none of that!

(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
We wait and see how it goes
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
Soak up the sun, roll down the windows 
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
You never really know
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
So we wait and see how it goes

Library cards and DVDs
Monty Python, midnight cheese
Pizza’s hot, ice cream pops
Two-for-one at the local shop

Nostalgia, yes. I messed up too.
When it comes to regrets I’ve paid my dues.
Demons came, I shared my room
20 years of impending doom

(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
We wait and see how it goes
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
Chasing highs, crashing lows
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
You never really know
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
So we wait and see how it goes

I used to stay up high all nights 
Now I sleep and wake up nice
Used to play with thieves and tricks
Now I crave my baby’s kiss

I’ve been a mess, I’ve played the fool
But all my scars became my tools
Every failure, every mistake
Built the life I have today

(Oh today)
Today is a gift 
(Oh today)
That’s why they call it
(Oh today)
The present 
I live in the now
(Oh today)
Oh, who knows what tomorrow will bring?
(Oh today)
But today it’s time to sing!

(Laaaa la la laaaaa la la laaaa la la laaaa la la laaaa la la laaaaa Laaaa la la laaaaa la la laaaa la la laaaa la la laaaa la la laaaaa
Laaaa la la laaaaa la la laaaa la la laaaa la la laaaa la la laaaaa)

I built a home
(Don’t wanna burn it down)
I found some peace
(Don’t wanna lose it now)
I rebuilt me
(Don’t wanna fade away)
So I keep trying today
(Yeah, I keep trying today)

(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
We wait and see how it goes
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
Yeah, we wait and see how it goes
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
You never really know
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
So we wait and see how it goes
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
We wait and see how it goes
(Ooh-ooh, la-la, ohhh)
Yeah, we wait and see how it goes

We wait and see how it goes

Doom is knockin’ by Nova J

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

The world right now feels dark, deranged
The ruling power is greed and rage
Hell beings and chaos goblins in control
You look in their eyes and see no soul
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Will darkness prevail?
Or will there be light?
Will we climb this hill
Or descend into night?
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Empires rise (rise)
Empires fall (fall)
Just ask the Romans
They conquered it all
But the fire spread (spread)
From greed they fed (fed)
Once mighty powers
Now ruins instead
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

We can battle the world
But the world always wins
There’s always a price
For our shortsighted sins
All that we think is forever is not
We could be a blip the timeline forgot
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Ba-da-da doom… ba-da-da doom…)

So we keep on consuming, devouring at will
Indulging our impulse for pleasure and thrill
But we must remember
And never forget
There’s a price to be paid
Someday… we can’t escape
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Empires rise
Empires fall
Greed builds the tower
Then crumbles it all
(We never learn…)
(We never learn…)
There’s a price to be paid
Someday… we’ll burn
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)
(Ba-da-da doom… ba-da-da doom…)

There’s a price…
To be paid…
(Oh-ohh, ah-eh, doom-doom)

Doom is coming (doom!)
Doom is near (doom!)
Doom is whispering
In your ear (doom!)
Doom is rising (doom!)
Doom is fate (doom!)
Doom is knocking
At the gate (doom-doom)

Doom is knockin’

A shift to steady and true by Madre & Nova J

(hmmm… hmmm…)

I’ve been a fish out of water,
Struggling to breathe,
Trapped in the turbulence,
Trying to leave.

Some days would drag forever,
Hopeless and bleak,
Trapped in the stillness of nothing,
Tired and weak.

A shift has occurred,
Subtle yet bright,
A calmness, a peace,
That feels solid and right.

The storm may return,
As storms often do,
But so can a shift
To steady and true.

(Ooooooooh) steady and true.

(Ooooooooh) 

I wrestled with my shadows,
I sank in the noise,
Lost in endless whispers,
Searching for my voice.

The whispers come from inside,
A storm I cannot flee,
But now I sit in silence,
And let it flow through me.

A shift has occurred,
Subtle yet bright,
A calmness, a peace,
That feels solid and right.

The storm may return,
As storms often do,
But so can a shift
To steady and true.

(Ooooooooh) steady and true.

(hmmmm…)

Of course, things will change again,
That’s what they always do,
But I’ll meet every shifting tide,
steady and true.
steady and true.
(Ooooooh)
steady and true.
(hmmm…)

A shift to steady and true

ROOM KEY by Nova J

I found that old room key near my credit card
Room 1603 on Hollywood Boulevard
I paid in cash, cause you froze my accounts
I hated you for that, and I hated our house 

Pounding the pavement with no place to go
High as a kite, but I’m sinkin’ down low
A long list of lovers, now I’m flying solo
My vices take over—this is how it goes

Caught in a cycle
I can’t break free
Got a bag in my pocket
And that old room key
Loneliness
Oh, Loneliness
got chains on me
(I don’t wanna die alone)

Booking hotels, but I live in this city
Scared to go home, you-know-who’s gonna hit me
Bathtubs and bubbles, might die just like Whitney
Livin’ the dream—how can life be so empty?

Caught in a cycle
I can’t break free
Got a bag in my pocket
And that old room key
Loneliness
Oh, Loneliness
got chains on me
(I don’t wanna die alone)

Sometimes I scream, but nobody can hear
Drowning my sound in the atmosphere
Smaller and smaller, my life disappears
Smoking and choking, just fueling the fear
I don’t wanna die alone

Caught in a cycle
I can’t break free
Got a bag in my pocket
And that old room key
Loneliness
Oh, Loneliness
got chains on me
(I don’t wanna die alone)

Caught in a cycle
I can’t break free
Got a bag in my pocket
And that old room key
Loneliness
Oh, Loneliness
got chains on me
I don’t wanna die alone
(I don’t wanna die alone)

ROOM KEY

Shut up, sit pretty By NOVA J

Shut up. Sit pretty.
In this pretty city.
Think about blinkin’?
Don’t. That’s a pity.

Daddy gonna cut you off.
Piggy at the trough.
Wanna eat? Wanna stay?
Then shut up. Sit pretty.

Hands folded. Smile wide.
Mouth shut. Swallow pride.
Heels high. Head low.
That’s the only way it goes.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Sit pretty. Hush that mouth.
Take what you get—don’t dare call out.
Wanna eat? Wanna stay?
Then shut up. Sit pretty’d.

Diamonds tight around your throat.
Wrapped up pretty, velvet rope.
Let ‘em stare. Let ‘em touch.
But don’t you ever ask for much.

Daddy keeps the power on.
But it’s a loan—it won’t last long.
Play your part. Keep it tight.
Smile sweet. Say goodnight.

Hands folded. Smile wide.
Mouth shut. Swallow pride.
Heels high. Head low.
That’s the only way it goes.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Sit pretty. Hush that mouth.
Take what you get—don’t dare call out.
Wanna eat? Wanna stay?
Then shut up. Sit pretty’d.

Cage is gold. Walls too tall.
Dressed up. Stripped down. Watch you fall.
Dance on strings. Smile through pain.
Deep inside, you curse his name.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Shut up, sit pretty

I’D DO IT AGAIN by Nova J

I never took the good days for granted
Grateful for our quiet, simple life
But these days I’m panicked
staring at my phone… all night

No news… worse than bad news
Confusion… worse than pain
Always…worryin’ bout you
Will I ever… see you again?

You and me
We’ve been torn apart
Now I bleed 
With a broken heart

And if it’s time
To say goodbye
You’ll always be
The love of my life…

I keep on writing
My messages unread
My mind racing
Are you alive… are you dead?

No calls. No clues. No power.
My mind is racing fast.
Each minute’s like an hour.
How long… can this last?

You and me
We’ve been torn apart
Now I bleed
With a broken heart

And if it’s time
To say goodbye
You’ll always be
The love of my life

Even through struggle
Even through pain
With you beside me…
I’d do it again
I’d do it again
Mmm…
I’d do it… again

You and me
We’ve been torn apart
Now I bleed
With a broken heart

And if it’s time
To say goodbye
You’ll always be
The love of my life…

The love of my life…
The love of my life…
The love of my life…

I’d do it again

SPOILED by NOVA J

How did we become so spoiled?!

How did we become so spoiled?!

How did we become so spoiled?!

Sunday brunch at Sugar Pea
Glaring at me. You sip your tea.
Moaning ‘bout your Maui Jims 
“You want a pair just like his,” you grin.

Cold brew drip.
Attitude: flip.
Tone so sharp,
It cuts like a whip.

How did we become so spoiled?!

How did we become so spoiled?!
(Spoiled rotten, spoiled rotten, spoiled rotten)
Love was pure — now it’s soiled.
(Spoiled rotten)
Used to sweat and used to toil…
(Spoiled rotten)
Now look at us — so spoiled.
(Spoiled rotten)

Booked a suite at Mandarin
Thirty minutes from our flat again.
“Need a change,” you said with flair 
Then moaned, “There’s no bidet in there!”

Bubbles burst.
Bubbles pour.
We treat life
Like a corner store.

How did we become so spoiled?!

How did we become so spoiled?!
(Spoiled rotten, spoiled rotten, spoiled rotten)
Used to climb and used to build 
(Spoiled rotten)
Now we whine when wine is chilled.
(Spoiled rotten)
Tell me how we got this spoiled?!
(Spoiled rotten)

Ooooh la la laaaa
You throw fits, I match your sass
Ooooh la la laaaa
Yeah, we’re bougie — bold and brash
Ooooh la la laaaaaaaa
Laaaa la la

How did we become so spoiled?!

I said some things I can’t unsay
You slammed the door and walked away
I sat alone with guilt and dread
Thought I’d lost my love — it’s dead.

Then you came back — I saw you smile
We kissed and hugged and stayed a while
It’s messy love. It’s richly oiled.
And that’s why we became so spoiled.

How did we become so spoiled?!

How did we become so spoiled?!

Spoiled

THIS BIRD FLYIN’ FREE by NOVA J

Since when are mullets back in style?
Curly porn-stache growin’ wild?
I used to be cool, now I’m just mild
Gotta new boss, he’s a damn man-child

May I digress?
I’m a hot country mess
Time flies so fast
Hop, skip n’ you dead

I don’t feel doom
I don’t feel dread
But bitch I’m too old
To keep playin’ pretend

Ta-ta (take it or leave it)
Ga-ga (give it or take it)
You be you
And I’ll be me
Bye bye baby
This bird flyin’ free

Bye bye baby
This bird flyin’ free
Mmm-mm-mmm
(Ooooh weeeee)
Flyin’ free-ee-ee
(Ooooh weeeee)

Scrollin’ through my exes late at night
One’s a preacher, one’s a parasite
One sells crack and fake delight
One’s still cryin’ over prom night

Bless their hearts
Bless my past
Bless this drink
It goes down fast

I’m not mad
I’m just amused
By all the ways
We stay confused

Ra-ra (roll it or rock it)
Nah-nah (outta your pocket)
You keep talkin’
I’m already gone
Bye bye sugar
I been movin’ on

Ta-ta (take it or leave it)
Ga-ga (give it or take it)
You be you
And I’ll be me
Bye bye baby
This bird flyin’ free

Bye bye baby
This bird flyin’ free
Mmm-mm-mmm
(Ooooh weeeee)
Flyin’ free-ee-ee
(Ooooh weeeee)

I wore the boots
I played the part
Held it together
With a broken heart
But freedom’s callin’
On line two
And honey,
This phone call? ain’t for you!

Ta-ta (take it or leave it)
Ga-ga (give it or take it)
You be you
And I’ll be me
Bye bye baby
This bird flyin’ free

Bye bye baby
This bird flyin’ free
Mmm-mm-mmm
(Ooooh weeeee)
Flyin’ free-ee-ee
(Ooooh weeeee)

This bird flyin’ free

SAFE SPACE by Nova J 

Get with the program
Sorry, but no ma’am
My life’s not broken
(My life’s not broken)

So why you tryna fix it
Throwin’ snap decisions
You seem so committed
(You seem so committed)

And now you’re tearin’ up my safe space
Doing damage I cannot erase
I don’t wanna go back
(No, don’t wanna go back)
To that dark place
But you keep tearin’ up my safe space

(this is my safe space — ahhh)
(this is my safe space — mm-mm)
(my-my-my… safe space — shhhhhh)
(this… this… this is safe — safe — safe)
(mmm this is my…)
(…safe space — safe space — safe space)

Pushing your opinion
Like it’s your dominion
I’ve got my own rhythm
(I’ve got my own rhythm)

You call it tough love
I call it just dumb
And now the time has come
(And now the time has come)

That you are tearin’ up my safe space
Doing damage I cannot erase
I don’t wanna go back
(No, don’t wanna go back)
To that dark place
But you keep tearin’ up my safe space

(this is my safe space — ahhh)
(this is my safe space — mm-mm)
(my-my-my… safe space — shhhhhh)
(this… this… this is safe — safe — safe)
(mmm this is my…)
(…safe space — safe space — safe space)

I don’t wanna go back to 2022
On my knees cryin’ — I was barely over you
I prayed my way out, with God’s good grace
Now you say get out, of my safe space

(this is my safe space — ahhh)
(this is my safe space — mm-mm)
(my-my-my… safe space — shhhhhh)
(this… this… this is safe — safe — safe)
(mmm this is my…)
(…safe space — safe space — safe space)

My life’s not broken
(So why you tryna fix it)
Pushing your opinion
(Like it’s your dominion)

And now you’re tearin’ up my safe space
Doing damage I cannot erase
I don’t wanna go back
(No, don’t wanna go back)
To that dark place
But you keep tearin’ up my safe space

SAFE SPACE

RABBIT HOLES by NOVA J

I know it’s an unhealthy obsession
Afraid of things that haven’t happened
I’ve never been this happy in my whole life
May I introduce… my sappy crazy side

(Down I go — down I go)
Into rabbit holes
In my head
I picture the end
(Down I go — down I go)
Into rabbit holes

I try
To live my life
But I love you too much
(Not to worry)
I pray
That you will stay
But I love you too much
(Not to worry)

I know I have a tendency to overanalyze
Decode the mystery behind your amber eyes
You say you’re not the type to leave
But that’s what the last one said to me

(Down I go — down I go)
Into rabbit holes
Every look
I read like a book
(Down I go — down I go)
Into rabbit holes

I try
To live my life
But I love you too much
(Not to worry)
I pray
That you will stay
But I love you too much
(Not to worry)

Tell me it’s safe
Tell me it’s real
Don’t make me hurt
Help me to heal
Is this a trap?
Is this a test?
Are you a rat…
Just like the rest?

I try
To live my life
But I love you too much
(Not to worry)
I breathe
I believe
But I love you too much
(Not to worry)

(Down I go — into rabbit holes)
In my head
I picture the end
(Down I go — into rabbit holes)
Every look
I read like a book

Rabbit holes

IN TOKYO by NOVA J

Taxi riding to Roppongi
I am eyeing on the crowd
Lookin’ for lover in the Red Hat
Don’t say his name too loud
They call him Precious he’s a bouncer
At the Mongolian strip club
Meet in the bathroom for a dime bag
Then stick it where you want some love

You best be careful of the police
Don’t wanna look too rough
Your best disguise is dressin’ preppy
You’ll take it all off at the club

(And when you get there)
Gonna (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance 

Because you playin’ like a hoe (hoe hoe)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
And you takin’ too much blow (blow blow)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
Sometimes you puttin’ on a show (show show)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
You gettin high and going low (low low)
In Tokyo (yo yo)

Wait for the signal close to midnight
When Nova J’eyenah lights her smoke
Order a cocktail with a wink-eye
Then laugh like you just heard a joke
Slip the baggie in your left sock
The bouncer does not check too deep
You got ten minutes in the back lot
Before the rich boys start to creep

They’re sniffin’ powder off their car keys
Callin’ you “Daddy” just for fun
But don’t you dare forget the plan, babe
We disappear before the sun.

(But right now we are)
Gonna (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance 

Because you playin’ like a hoe (hoe hoe)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
And you takin’ too much blow (blow blow)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
Sometimes you puttin’ on a show (show show)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
You gettin high and going low (low low)
In Tokyo (yo yo)

Oh not again
It’s 5AM
what’s his name?
Oh missed my train
I will behave
Another day (another day day day day day)

In Tokyo

KARAOKE by NOVA J

My neighbors are starting to hate me
It’s 3am and I’m driving ‘em crazy
All that noise from the upper floor
Now someone’s bangin’ on my door

But I don’t care
I’m in my underwear
Microphone in my hand
Singin’ “No Man’s Land”

Do you wanna come play with me?
And sing karaoke? (Karaoke)

So c’mon by and sing along
Show me your favorite song
I’ll show you mine if you want me to
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)

(ahh-ooo, mm-mm, oh-oh-oh)

I’m not too proud to sing alone
But I’ve got a blank space, and baby I’m home
Life can be toxic, and God bless the child
Who knows every word to Taylor’s “Exile”

If we’re a match
Let’s mess around
I’m a good catch
When I’m not spiraling down

Do you wanna come play with me?
And sing karaoke? (Karaoke)

So c’mon by and sing along
Show me your favorite song
I’ll show you mine if you want me to
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)

(ahh-ooo, mm-mm, oh-oh-oh)

I don’t really mind
If you sing out of key
As long as you’re singing
Right here with me.
(Do you wanna come over?)
And sing karaoke?
I don’t wanna be a loner.
I’m tired of lonely.

So c’mon by and sing along
Show me your favorite song
I’ll show you mine if you want me to
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)
(ahh-ooo, mm-mm, oh-oh-oh)
(Singing karaoke with you)
(Singing karaoke with you)

Karaoke

Try to change what’s mine BY NOVA J

Why are we making the same mistakes?
We all know how this ends
Time we keep wasting, the pain, heartaches
Too late to make amends

When I look in the mirror, I see mankind
Universal problems, uniquely mine
I wish I could fix the world
But I’m running out of time

So today, I’ll try to change what’s mine
Oh today, I’ll try to change what’s mine
Won’t rewrite the past
And I can’t rewind
So today, I’ll try to change what’s mine

I’ve talked in circles, placed the blame
Pointed fingers, played the game
But hell don’t care who sparked the fire
We all get burned, then blame desire

The world keeps spinning, around the sun
But I keep chasing around the fun

So today, I’ll try to change what’s mine
Oh today, I’ll try to change what’s mine
Your darkness comes 
But I won’t hide
So today, I’ll try to change what’s mine

I’ve cursed the stars
I’ve read the signs
maybe the blame
Was always mine
Perhaps the truth
was shining bright
I was too lost
To see the light

So today, I’ll try to change what’s mine
Oh today, I’ll try to change what’s mine
One foot forward
In my own time
So today, I’ll try to change what’s mine

Try to change what’s mine
Try to change what’s mine
Try to change what’s mine

Ooooooh today…
I’ll try to change…
what’s mine….
I’ll try to change what’s mine….

Try to change what’s mine

THE EMPEROR’S PARADE by Nova J

The emperor’s parade rolls down the road
Clearly a charade — he’s got no clothes
Why pretend he wore it best?
Dead end coming, one by one — we fall off the cliff

They cheer and wave their signs
Their silence bought and sold
They swallow all their pride
Surrendering their souls

We’re complicit in this dumpster fire
(Got what we deserve)
Sold our virtues to the highest buyer
(Watching the world burn)

He has no clothes
(emperor)
But still we go
(emperor)
Follow his way
(emperor)
We cannot stray
(emperor)

He has no clothes
(Oooh) the emperor (has no clothes)
(Oh-oh-oh-ooooh) (Oh-oh-oh-ooooh)
(Oooh) the emperor (has no clothes)
(Oh-oh-oh-ooooh)

Bans the books we read — rewrites the past
Breaks the law, then toasts the glass
The crowd just claps — no time to think
We sold the truth for circus and a king

No one’s really speaking
Too scared to make a sound
As long as he keeps walking
He’s the only king in town

And we’re livin’ a reality show 
(Bad jokes on repeat)
A bag of trash with a golden bow
(We’re on a losing streak)

He has no clothes
(emperor)
But still we pose
(emperor)
Eyes closed tight
(emperor)
Pretend it’s right
(emperor)

He has no clothes
(Oooh) the emperor (has no clothes)
(Oh-oh-oh-ooooh) (Oh-oh-oh-ooooh)
(Oooh) the emperor (has no clothes)
(Oh-oh-oh-ooooh)

We hold our nose, swallow our pride
We shut our mouth, die inside
We sit and wait, get used and bruised
We limp away, battered and used

He has no clothes
(emperor)
Still, no one knows
(emperor)
We play the game
(emperor)
Ignore the shame
(emperor)

He has no clothes
(Oooh) the emperor (has no clothes)
(Oh-oh-oh-ooooh)
(Oooh) the emperor (has no clothes)
(Oh-oh-oh-ooooh…)

The Emperor’s parade

WHAT WILL I DO? by Nova J

We’ve got a good thing, baby, you and me
Yeah, I know all good things fade eventually
So if the end comes
Oh, what will I do? (what will I do?)
I’ll spend it with you (ooooh)

If a planet killer’s headed this way
And the earth begins her last ballet
I won’t feel dread
If you’re in my bed
(I won’t feel dread)
(If you’re in my bed)

If sirens wail and skies turn red
Ashes falling like tears we’ve shed
I’ll stay calm
With you in my arms
(I’ll stay calm)
(With you in my arms)

No, I’m not scared (I’m not scared)
Of what tomorrow brings (ooooh)
If you are there (if you are there)
I can face anything (ooooh)

We’ve got a good thing, baby, you and me
Yeah, I know all good things fade eventually
So if the end comes
Oh, what will I do? (what will I do?)
(I’ll spend it with you)
Yeah, what will I do?
I’ll spend it with you (ooooh ooooh ooooh)

If World War Three breaks out tonight
And we’re sleeping rough beneath the city lights
I’d still find peace
If you’re close to me
(I’d still find peace)
(If you’re close to me)

If the night is cold and hope is gone
But we’re wrapped up tight with your body warm
I won’t lose heart
If we don’t fall apart
(I won’t lose heart)
(If we don’t fall apart)

No, I’m not scared (not scared)
Of the fire and smoke (ooooh)
Long as you’re there (you’re there)
I’ll never lose hope (ooooh)

We’ve got a good thing, baby, you and me
Yeah, I know all good things fade eventually
So if the end comes
Oh, what will I do? (what will I do?)
(I’ll spend it with you) (oooh)
Yeah, what will I do? (oooh)

No, I’m not scared
(Of what the future brings)
As long as you care
(I can face anything)
No, I’m not afraid
Of the end of days
As long as you stay
I’ll be okay

What will I do?

DOPAMINE by Nova J

(Where’s my) dopamine?
(Where’s my) dopamine?
I said—where’s my dopamine?
(dopamine… dopamine… dopamine)

His passport said Saint Kitts
But I swear he’s Russian
Called me “Angel tits”
While his hips were thrustin’

I blacked out at sunrise
No purse in sight
Missed the red flags
Hid in his blue eyes

I’m defeated
Utterly depleted
Can’t feel a thing
Lost my mama’s ring
Woke from a dream
Low on dopamine

(What goes up)
(Must come down)
High on dopamine
(What goes up)
(Must come down)
Bye bye dopamine
Where’s my dopamine? 

Where’s my (dopamine?)
(Where’s my) dopamine?
Where’s my (dopamine?)
(dopamine, dopamine…)

Never trust a loner
With a pocket of pills
Said he’s from Dover
Flashin’ hundred-dollar bills

Woke up in Thailand
Now I’m broke again
He had such a nice tan
I can barely stand

I’m sarcastic
Tragically fantastic
Life felt magic
Now I’m the Titanic
Her Majesty, the Queen
Low on dopamine

(What goes up)
(Must come down)
High on dopamine
(What goes up)
(Must come down)
Bye bye dopamine
Where’s my dopamine? 

Where’s my (dopamine?)
(Where’s my) dopamine?
Where’s my (dopamine?)
(dopamine, dopamine…)

I’m defeated
Utterly depleted
Can’t feel a thing
Lost my mama’s ring
Woke from a dream
Low on dopamine
(Low on dopamine)

(What goes up)
(Must come down)
High on dopamine
(What goes up)
(Must come down)
Bye bye dopamine
Where’s my dopamine? 

Where’s my (dopamine?)
(Where’s my) dopamine?
Where’s my (dopamine?)
(dopamine, dopamine…)

Dopamine

INFINITY POOL by NOVA J

Feel the breeze (breeze)
Could all fall down
You and me (me)
One slip — we drown

They say I’m lost
I stare too long
At the edge
Of what feels wrong
Every step
Led me here
Now my head
Is full of fear

Did I lie to me?
Was this ever true?
Did I chase a dream
Built on you?

Feel the breeze (breeze)
It’s breaking down
You hold me (me)
Still might drown

Infinity pool (ooh)
Infinity pool (ooh)
Infinity pool (ooh)

Sun on skin
Toes in sand
If I sleep
Might burn my hand
Wave comes fast
Can’t rewind
It’ll take
All that’s mine

Did I lose my path
To make this real?
Did I trade it all
For a feel?

Cracks show now (now)
This place breaks down
You hold me (me)
Still might drown

Infinity pool (ooh)
Infinity pool (ooh)
Infinity pool (ooh)

Sharks around
They smell the fear
We go down (down down down)
If they get near

Did I lie to me?
Was this ever true?
Did I lose my way
Chasing you?

Feel the breeze…
One slip…
We drown…

Infinity pool

VULTURE by Nova J

Bitch I see you, yes I do
Your entitled attitude
You so petty, full of hatred
Scavenging oh you so shameless

You think I don’t know (ooo)
You a sneaky hoe (ooo)
Pack your shit and go (ooo)
Leave my studio (ooo)

I got breaking news, bitch
I am onto you, bitch
You and me are through, bitch

You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
Got no manners, got no culture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You’re a shady lil’ fucker
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture! Vulture!)

You circlin’ close, smellin’ death
Talkin’ sweet with toxic breath
Fake concern, fake regret
But you just waitin’ for what’s left

You think I don’t know (ooo)
You a sneaky hoe (ooo)
Pack your shit and go (ooo)
Leave my studio (ooo)

I got breaking news, bitch
I am onto you, bitch
You and me are through, bitch

You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
Got no manners, got no culture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You’re a shady lil’ fucker
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture! Vulture!)

Vulture. (Yeah, I said it.)
Vulture. (Best forget it.)
Vulture. (You thought you’d win it)
Vulture. (It’s time to quit it.)

Bitch I see you, yes I do
(Your entitled attitude)
You so petty, full of hatred
(Scavenging oh you so shameless)

I got breaking news, bitch
I am onto you, bitch
You and me are through, bitch

You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
Got no manners, got no culture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You’re a shady lil’ fucker
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture! Vulture!)

Lillian

VULTURE by Nova J

Bitch I see you, yes I do
Your entitled attitude
You so petty, full of hatred
Scavenging oh you so shameless

You think I don’t know (ooo)
You a sneaky hoe (ooo)
Pack your shit and go (ooo)
Leave my studio (ooo)

I got breaking news, bitch
I am onto you, bitch
You and me are through, bitch

You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
Got no manners, got no culture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You’re a shady lil’ fucker
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)

You circlin’ close, smellin’ death
Talkin’ sweet with toxic breath
Fake concern, fake regret
But you just waitin’ for what’s left

You think I don’t know (ooo)
You a sneaky hoe (ooo)
Pack your shit and go (ooo)
Leave my studio (ooo)

I got breaking news, bitch
I am onto you, bitch
You and me are through, bitch

You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
Got no manners, got no culture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You’re a shady lil’ fucker
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)

Vulture. (Yeah, I said it.)
Vulture. (Best forget it.)
Vulture. (You thought you’d win it)
Vulture. (It’s time to quit it.)

Bitch I see you, yes I do
(Your entitled attitude)
You so petty, full of hatred
(Scavenging oh you so shameless)

I got breaking news, bitch
I am onto you, bitch
You and me are through, bitch

You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
Got no manners, got no culture
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You’re a shady lil’ fucker
(Vulture! Vulture!)
You ain’t nothin’ but a vulture
(Vulture! Vulture!)

Vulture

BLESS THE ONES By Nova J

You grind (mmm), you hustle (yeah)
But no one sees the strain (strain)
You hold onto the pain (pain)
Through every loss and gain (gain)
When you’re broke and low (low)
No one’s at your door (no no)
But when you’re flying high (high)
They all want more (more, more, more)

You built it brick by brick (brick)
You carried all the weight (weight)
Now hands reach out to pick (pick)
Want to decide your fate (fate)

Bless the ones (bless the ones)
Who rise on their own (own, own)
Bless the brave (bless the brave)
Who face it alone (alone, alone)
Money buys more (more)
But love is rare (so rare)
Keep what’s yours (yours)
Not gonna share (no no)
Bless the ones (yeah yeah)
Who stand don’t fall (fall, fall)
Who walk through hell (walk on)
And still stand tall (stand tall)
You shine bright (bright)
Never dim your flame (your flame)
Bless the ones (bless the ones)
Who fight through pain (pain, pain)

(Bless the ones – who fight for light)
(Bless the ones – who earn their rights)
(Bless the ones – who rise from night)
(Bless the ones – who stand and fight)

They smile in your face (fake)
While scheming for your place (your place)
When the fun runs dry (dry)
They vanish with no trace (just gone)
Blood ain’t the bond (nope)
It’s what’s real inside (inside)
The truth you hold (hold)
That no one can hide (hide)

You’re tougher than you know (you know)
You wear your scars like gold (like gold)
Don’t let them dim your fire (no no)
Story still untold (untold)

Bless the ones (bless the ones)
Who rise on their own (own, own)
Bless the brave (bless the brave)
Who face it alone (alone, alone)
Money buys more (more)
But love is rare (so rare)
Keep what’s yours (yours)
Not gonna share (no no)
Bless the ones (yeah yeah)
Who stand don’t fall (fall, fall)
Who walk through hell (walk on)
And still stand tall (stand tall)
You shine bright (bright)
Never dim your flame (your flame)
Bless the ones (bless the ones)
Who fight through pain (pain, pain)

When the world says “no” (no)
You say “watch me GO” (GO)
Bless the hands that give (give)
And the ones who never stole (never stole)

Bless the ones (bless the ones)
Who rise on their own (own, own)
Bless the brave (bless the brave)
Who face it alone (alone, alone)
Money buys more (more)
But love is rare (so rare)
Keep what’s yours (yours)
Not gonna share (no no)
Bless the ones (yeah yeah)
Who stand don’t fall (fall, fall)
Who walk through hell (walk on)
And still stand tall (stand tall)
You shine bright (bright)
Never dim your flame (your flame)
Bless the ones (bless the ones)
Who fight through pain (pain, pain)

Bless the ones
(Oh, bless the ones)
Bless the ones
(Yeah, bless the ones)
Oooh, bless the ones
(Bless the ones…)

Bless the ones

CATFISH by Nova J

Got a face? (Not your own)
Got a name? (One you stole)
Got a story? (Full of holes)
Got some shame? (God, I hope so)

Feeling pretty? (Only online)
Feeling wanted? (On borrowed time)
Feeling brave? (Behind the screen)
You fooled me once — but now I see

You’re a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Yeah, a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
You thought you’d get away with this?
You’re just a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)

Five eleven
Twenty-nine
Model pics
(Not even mine)
Stolen smile
Bedroom eyes
Face-tuned deep
Full of lies

One old selfie
From who knows when
You showed up
And lied again

You were looking (looking, looking)
For tonight (tonight, tonight)
Wanna trick me (trick me with a)
Pretty lie (lie, lie)

You were looking
For tonight
Tried to take me
For a ride

When we met
I saw the truth
Not the guy
From in the booth
You flinched hard
When I said hi
You said your name
I said “goodbye”

You meant no harm? (You swear, you swear)
But all I see is vacant stares
You built a mask, played the part
Now deal with it — I know your heart

You’re a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Yeah, a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Fake as hell and full of glitch
You’re just a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)

Five eleven
Twenty-nine
That ain’t your dog
That ain’t your ride
Bubble butt? (Nice try)
Laughed so hard
I nearly cried

You deceived me (And yourself)
Go get help (You need some help)

You were looking (looking, looking)
For tonight (tonight, tonight)
Tried to trick me (trick me just to)
Feel right (right, right)

You were looking (now exposed)
I saw through you (strike a pose)

You were looking (now exposed)
I saw through you (strike a pose)

You played a role
You wore it well
But fairy tales
Can go to hell
I don’t date liars
With bogus names
Delete your apps
And own your shame

You’re a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Yeah, a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)
Don’t DM me — I ain’t your wish
You’re just a (Ca-ca-ca-ca…) catfish (Catfish)

You feel pretty? (Filter lies)
Feel authentic? (In disguise)
Five eleven? (Try five-five)
Fake the world — but not my eyes

You were looking (for tonight)
Tried to trick me (with a swipe)
You were looking (but I’m gone)
Try again — on someone dumb

Catfish

PETTY by NOVA J

I don’t even care that you unfollowed me
It actually led to an epiphany 
I think you are psycho crazy jealous of me
And I’m living in your ugly ass head rent free

Okay your head’s not ugly
You’re actually kinda pretty 
But your attitude is shitty 
And I don’t say that to be petty

BUT you really crossed a red line
WHEN you tried to take what’s mine MINE
I was just here minding my business 
And you’re here just talkin’ shit shit 

(OOOH) You think you’re special
(OOOH) So deep, so intellectual
(OOOH) Oh please, you’re superficial
(OOOH) Not exceptional
(OOOH) At alllll… (ooooh)

Go ahead, unfollow me 
Is that the best you can do?
I don’t care, you don’t bother me
I already forgot about you

You’re not the first, and you won’t be the last
Just another fly I flicked off my ass
You were never close, not even warm
So why you creepin’ girl, BE GONE, BE GONE!

You’re not a total wreck, okay
You’d be fine if you’d behave
I think your ego’s in the way
You should hear what people say

BUT you really crossed a red line
WHEN you tried to take what’s mine MINE
I was just here minding my business 
And you’re here just talkin’ shit shit 

(OOOH) You think you’re special
(OOOH) So deep, so intellectual
(OOOH) Oh please, you’re superficial
(OOOH) Not exceptional
(OOOH) At alllll… (ooooh)

Go ahead, unfollow me
Is that the best you can do?
I don’t care, you don’t bother me 
I already forgot about you

You might be just a one-trick pony
I won’t waste my time on a phony
Shiny toys always fade
I work harder every day
(harder) (every) (day)
(harder) (every) (day)
I work harder every day
(harder) (every) (day)
(harder) (every) (day)
(Oooooooh)

(OOOH) You think you’re special
(OOOH) So deep, so intellectual
(OOOH) Oh please, you’re superficial
(OOOH) Not exceptional
(OOOH) At alllll… (ooooh)

Go ahead, and follow me 
Is that the best you can do?
I don’t care, you don’t bother me 
I already forgot about you

Go ahead, and follow me
Is that the best you can do?
I don’t care, you don’t bother me
I already forgot about you

Petty

Here is my music as I make it. Check out my latest mixtape, Rearranged: https://open.spotify.com/album/7sFQUJ5sNiGDXlxPUdZiFo?si=p-PofiBhT--D0BABF78tFA

NOVA J is a songwriter from the United States who has spent the last decade living and working abroad.

nova.j.artist@gmail.com

NOVA J

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