Nova u have slowly become my fav artist <3 we gon collab some day

airplane modeΣ(-᷅_-᷄๑)(prod. sorrow bringer)

I tried my very best,
it didn't go to plan,
it probably hurt you more,
all you wanted was a friend,
to you I was never that


You're chasing waterfalls,
Please catch me when I fall,
pretend that you're in love again,
like everybody else
and ive been off these drugs again i dont care abt my health

And I suck, at types,
I always seem to be lied to,
when we fight, your eyes,
they change, its like I don't know you

Waterfalls (prod. Hieloways)

do you wanna watch a movie? (prod. taurs & 5head)

hehe

i didnt expect this from us
from us
when we met it really wasnt much
much
now all we do is fuckin touch
touch
and i cannot deny
i love you
so 
much
moonshine runnin
blacked out summit
shallow breaths and shaky legs
you are my somethin
we dont gotta do nothin at all
as long as im with you it fills my heart
x2
it fills my heart
cause it feels like somethin else
i know
that this is not a coincide
we have something more
than ive ever had
its not just cause its possible
its cause i really want us
moonshine runnin
blacked out summit
shallow breaths and shaky legs
you are my somethin
we dont gotta do nothin at all
as long as im with you it fills my heart
even when im down ill be there for
ill be there for you
dont worry
cause this is not a coincidence,
oh my god..
we have something more
than ive ever had
its not just cause its possible
its cause i really want us

us.

moonshine runnin' (awkward)

wish it never happened (xmichaelwarren)

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
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(Lyrics)
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[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it 

[Auby]
i came to plead again
please end my suffering 
looks like my hands are tied
in the palm of your hand
let me take solace that youll be here with me
im done with all this constant wondering
cant look you into your eyeshouldnt be very surprised
sorry that im a mess
i promise i tried my best
living in a web of lies
without you i wouldnt survive
no type of medicine could fix what is happening

[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it x2

[Verse]
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe 
and i just wanted you closer 
these lonely thoughts are getting colder 

[Outro]
and i just wanted some closure holding each other till we're warmer 
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
 i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe

breathe w/ auby (stezzyxl)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @burylilac
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
Rock bottom
Lower than I’ve ever been
Only hanging on for the sake of my friends
‘Cause I got people who depend on me
And a couple bad habits like dependency

I worry ‘bout my mom
How she’d get on without me
I wonder a lot if you’d still think about me
Only hanging on just to spite those who doubt me
So throw me a rope because I feel like I’m drowning

I’m running out of ways to say this
I hate who I’ve been
Need to make changes
I’ve lost all motivation
Along with my patience
Too long I have waited

I’m running out of ways to say
That I hate myself
Wish that I could change
I think it’s for the best
You and I stay estranged
You wouldn’t recognize the shell I’ve become these days

(lilac heart)
Rock bottom
I’m running out of ways to say
I miss the way you’d get under my skin
Breaking bottles broken glass
Is all that’s left of my ‘lil head
I don’t even know where all the time went

I fell asleep in the snow
And woke up burning on the sidewalk
Take this away before I hurt someone
Try to cover the pain
The broken shards are showing through the holes I burnt into my sleeves

Listen on Spotify!

Rock Bottom w/ lilac heart (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

lyrics:

i will stick it out for you
i will stay the night with you
i will steal the life from you
and i will carve your face in my cornea
so i can see you with you with closed eyes

but if my friends they found out what
you say when you get down
well i think i’d cry in their arms
i’d say i love you too hard

ohhh
oh whatever you need from me
i’ll be there for you
i’ll cast aside my feelings so i can please you
i’ll shut my mouth to make sure that i hear you
and i won’t split the blame
oh i’ll never lay claim to any of the things that i do for you
and i’ll add it to my repertoire as i try to farm love from your stale heart
i’ll let my scale form bleed once i try to leave
i’ll showcase wounds abound since your not around me
and do you still think you did nothing wrong
does your pain feel better now i’m gone
can you justify what you did to me
how simple it was for you to take away my breathing
how often you made me feel a tight chest so easily

and i can feel it when your life’s stressed out
so i’ll lay her refrained from sound
(i’ll keep it quiet)
can i ask you to hold me close
run your fingers through my hair
and i won’t ask back from my cardigan
i’m sorry i know it’s gettin hard again

ohhh
oh whatever you need from me
i’ll be there for you
i’ll cast aside my feelings so i can please you
i’ll shut my mouth to make sure that i hear you
and i won’t split the blame
oh i’ll never lay claim to any of the things that i do for you
and i’ll add it to my repertoire as i try to farm love from your stale heart
i’ll let my scale form bleed once i try to leave
i’ll showcase wounds abound since your not around me
and do you still think you did nothing wrong
does your pain feel better now i’m gone
can you justify what you did to me
how simple it was for you to take away my breathing
how often you made me feel a tight chest so easily
and if i gave you, dear another slice of my time
i don’t think i could go back to what i thought i would find

how short can a breathe be, how long a sigh of relief

Check out the producers

@lu_lo
@oceanonthebeat
(Prod. Ocean & Lu_Lo)
Shout to @Lu_Lo on the Vocal Mix 

Twitter.com/sadmccn
Follow me on Spotify at SadMCCN 

She's a bad girl with a cute smile
Ain't no control when i see her face
So, baby will you come back to my place
We'll take it slow
Or maybe we wont, I don't know
Don't need to know what the future holds 
Girl take my clothes cause you look so cold
I bite your neck
You say you love it when I pull your hair
(Marks on your body left everywhere) 

We got that liquor on our breath
Ooo but we see so clear
Don't want this night to end 
Just wanna lay here.. 
Just wanna lay here.. 
Don't want this night to end just wanna lay here
Just wanna lay right...
Just wanna lay right here...

Cause she's a bad girl with a cute smile
Aint no control when i see her face
So baby will you come back to my place
Bad girl...
She's a bad girl with a cute smile
Ain't no control when i see her face
So, baby will you come back to my place
We'll take it slow
Or maybe we wont, I don't know

She like my fast car... 
Got her a pink Ducati
But she says that she'd rather ride me
I bite your neck
You say you love it when I pull your hair
(Marks on your body left everywhere) 

Cause she's a bad girl with a cute smile
(liquor on your breath)
Aint no control when i see her face
(Don't want this night to end)
So baby will you come back to my place
(Don't want this night to end) 
Bad girl

Bad (Feat. Lu_Lo)

produced by: malith
vocals, mixing and crying by: @sendflowrs
visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ2TJ3aX_Rc

lyrics:

so shut up, shut up,
yeah bitch i just said it,
cus i’m a fuck up, 
but i don’t care anymore,
thinking of you,  
i’m scrolling on reddit, 
cus you’re not on my level, 
why the fuck you sending for?
x2

hit me on my cell,
it’s all you there’s no one else,
you’re the one i call yeah when i need help,
you’re the one i call yeah when i’m in hell
n you can kill me i won’t tell,
you hate me more than you hate yourself
i been sleepin all day, i’m not well,
but im pushin thru, all by myself 

yeah, and i’ve had enough 
of writing all these songs about you,
because you’re dead and gone,
to me you’re just a girl with some tattoos

but when it’s said and done;
i still can’t help myself when i’m around you,
and i won’t hold my tongue,
cus everyday i wake up in a bad mood

so shut up, shut up,
yeah bitch i just said it,
i’m a fuck up, 
but i don’t care anymore,
thinking of you,  
i’m scrolling on reddit, 
cus you’re not on my level, 
why the fuck you sending for,
x2

airplane modeΣ(-᷅_-᷄๑)(prod. sorrow bringer)

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