I can see my corpse drowning in this river
I can see it rotting in there forever
I can't take a deep breath, girl i'm underwater
I'm bleeding rn but it's okay whatever

I don't remember when I had the highest hopes
Cuz now i'm laying low, or i'm hanging by a rope

If I love u it doesn't mean i can put you first
Because rn i'm blinded by my hunger
I know so many people that would have gave up
I got my hood and a mask why would i keep my head up ?

Some people are scared of me
My friends think i'm just a baby
I don't know if i deserve it too
Is living this life what i chose to do ?

I gotta adapt, everyday I change
But I know inside, I still got my ways
Nobody knows how hard i tried
I'm just tryna forget all my lies

They say to me, it's hard to tell when i'm happy
Cuz now there's no emotion that i want to show

If I love u it doesn't mean i can put you first
Because rn i'm blinded by my hunger
I know so many people that would have gave up
I got my hood and a mask why would i keep my head up ?

Some people are scared of me
My friends think i'm just a baby
I don't know if i deserve it too
Is living this life what i chose to do ?

keep your head up (@prod. Waves)

SwampOfSorrows

BONES - SwampOfSorrows

Ratatat

BONES - Ratatat

MyOwnPersonalHell

BONES - MyOwnPersonalHell

BasketCase

BONES - UncleRicksMonteCarlo

BONES - KidNPlay

.ZIP

BONES - 1987

BONES - Tru2DaGame

BONES - ShadeRoom

BONES - Genesis

all instrumental rights belong to @idealismus
(completely non-profit)


legs shaking
sitting down's not enough, still vacant
just erase me
head down when i walk, they gazing
why talk when you know not a word getting through now
i don't wanna
but still gotta
be not a brain rotter

souls may tie
turn cries to weeps
don't try to be so kind to me
be my relief, so kill me now

make it my fault
just enough for the guilt to be wiped off
don't really care what they lied for

three down, feeling tipsed, no staging
falling used to feel amazing
my voice stay shaking
i'm sorry for the drinking

by the morning i mourn some more
throat burnt, puke all on the floor
i swore i used to be more than this
borderless, now i'm losing time
no love could be enough
but you said, "don't close in"
you were meant for me, "stay open"
thought clouds clear up real nice
but it's only for the night (3x)

respite [prod. idealism]

🌙 produced for wstdyth, seejayxo, 
Kenny Orlando, emptychest & astral
🌙 member of ⏳@timeless-archive & 👻@ghxstcollective

*SINCE AUGUST 2021*

🥀 i quit university and left my hometown to have every chance to get to my goals

⛓️ from depressed and suicidal in a small town 
⛓️ to fighting for my survival in a bad place.

for collabs > noxiousnights#6098

contact / send beats to : noxiousnights.music@gmail.com

keep your head up (@prod. Waves)

noxiousnights🌙

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