cant understand french but i know that was fire as fuck

oh boy this is some sad shit. I need more. 

Nothing can keep being this way
I'm gonna love you like it's my last day

I'm feeling sad but i don't have the time
So I make a song and i forget bout it 
I tend to overthink in the night time
i'm feeling horrible, it's easy to replace me

I'm feeling sad but i don't have the time
So I make a song and i forget bout it 
I tend to overthink in the night time
i'm feeling horrible, it's easy to replace me

Déconnecté du monde, ca m'fait bizarre quand j'reviens
J'réalise pas tout l'mal que j'ai fait avec mes mains
J'aurais pas toute cette force si c'était pas pour les miens
J'vais toucher le ciel et ce peu importe les moyens

J'parle toujours trop parfois j'veux m'trancher la langue
J'sais pas pourquoi je m'ouvre maintenant j'suis taché d'sang
J'me renferme sur moi même tout disparait lentement
Pour tous ces gens une promesse n'est qu'une parole dans le vent

J'crêve de l'intérieur ca devient vraiment horrible
J'garde le sourire ils s'en fouteraient de mes larmes
Quoiqu'il se passe j'suis préparé au pire
Tous mes démons brulent, le soleil va s'coucher tard

Nothing can keep being this way
I'm gonna love you like it's my last day

I'm feeling sad but i don't have the time
So I make a song and i forget bout it 
I tend to overthink in the night time
i'm feeling horrible, it's easy to replace me

I'm feeling sad but i don't have the time
So I make a song and i forget bout it 
I tend to overthink in the night time
i'm feeling horrible, it's easy to replace me

My Last Day

My Last Day (metlast x 5head)

Sitting with the clouds 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down
I’m so high 
Sitting with the clouds 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down
I’m so high

I know it’s way too early 
For me to have this thirty but 
My drinks already dirty 
And I’m feeling kind of flirty with death 
Ella esta nerviosa
Por que nunca hace cosas asi 
Metiendo me la drogas 
No quiero que me ves haci 
Eyes red, bloodshot
I’ll tell you when the fun stops 
Lights low, lines made 
Baby you don’t have to stay 

Sitting with the clouds 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down
I’m so high 
Sitting with the clouds 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down 
I’m so high and I’ll never come down
I’m so high

Adrenaline 
I’m running off adrenaline and 
Can you feel my heart beating 
To the tempo of this melody 
This energy 
Im feeding off her energy 
And you’re better off if you 
Just leave right now

too early for these thirties *johnnyfriend*

this shit is non-profit as fuck.

lyrics:

who have i become?
i can’t look in the mirror. 
i tell them that i’m done
my vision becomes clearer
oh i’m not having fun
i’ll isolate this winter
the thorns stuck in my tongue
my voice falls and splinters

and i don’t know who i see when that reflection stares back
their eyes are sunken in so bad that they almost look pitch black
and they’ve lost all their care cause once their life was filled with gold
now they’re sure that deaths coming real soon, yeah their loved ones won’t grow old

i see
broken people
all around me
they hold on
for futile
reasons
and miracles

oh i’m so jaded oh i’m so numb
i can’t believe the person that i’ve become
i’m not the same person that i used to be
they’re buried in the ground and slowly decaying
i’m fading
i’m fading
these silent
conversations
don’t wonder how
cause you’ve seen the signs
yeah i’ve been breaking down 
almost every night

the apathy (prod. idealism)

pass me by ft.lil waste (bryan he)

im over you but these are some things i still wanted to get off my chest. i hope you see this, take care of yourself.
-
[lyrics:]
i remember when i walked you home
but you left me last november, then i turned so cold
its been more than a year since we called, i shed a tear
no i dont want you back but just know that im here for you
these are some things that im afraid to say 
cus the other girls just always made me feel ashamed
but thats the way i feel, something i cant change
i just hope you healed from the pain i made you feel

now i see you with a smile on your face
another guy on your waist
but its fine, its okay
you deserve to be happy
good that you left me
txnshi the black sheep
dies in the backseat soon
too soon
thats what i learned from shrooms
its true
so cruel
this world is so damn cruel
but you
yea you
i know that you are not like that
my head
is full of things i never said

i remember when we met online 
in december 2016, fuck i hate that time
cus my moms mother died in her arms and she cried
such a horrible life for a 12 year old child
but then we met and my life started to feel liveable
back on track that i lost like its invisible
you took my hand, showed me life is not that miserable
wish it lasted but i did unforgivable things

and now we both moved on and we dont talk no more
i guess we both lost a lot but life is going on
do you still think of me in the evening breeze?
oh tell me what are we? what do you want us to be?

now i see you with a smile on your face
another guy on your waist
but its fine, its okay
you deserve to be happy
good that you left me
txnshi the black sheep
dies in the backseat soon
too soon
thats what i learned from shrooms
its true
so cruel
this world is so damn cruel
but you
yea you
i know that you are not like that
my head
is full of things i never said

17/12/2016 (killedmyself)

prod. @idealismus
cover art by jenny yu

[verse]
and this pain sits right beside me
ignore it? oh it’s not likely
or just like me to forget it
in this darkness i find solace
and it’s taken from me so quickly
a monster born from his humanity
will he breath or succumb to the fighting
taking hits every night but still smiling
bare his teeth show his fangs as a warning
oh his loved ones can’t save him he’s folding
he’s a danger to all those around him
lock him up and just keep it confined in

[chorus]
solitary confinement
isolated, he suffers in silence
but my face always shows my emotions
try to hide it even for a moment

a creature lays in solitary confinement (prod. idealism)

movies w/ irby & jolst

[intro]

Worst days
Worst days
Ooh 
No, no

[chorus] 

So I go
To the same old place that you know
And I wish that I could just hold
You inside my arms, cuz u know, u know, u know

[verse - flesh golem]

I've never felt this safe 
I hope you feel the same 
you wish I wouldn't go 
I know the feeling baby 

everytime that I'm alone 
I start disintegrating 
I can't take this on my own 
could you be my blanket maybe 

its a cold night
really haven't been this frigid in my whole life
baby could you let me in i wanna hold you tight
maybe you could help me get rid of this frostbite

i wanna let you know i got you if it goes bad 
and I'm still gonna love you through every rough patch 
and I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait till I come back to you

[bridge]

Worst days
I really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days, your worst days I’ll love you

[chorus] 

So I go
To the same old place that you know
And I wish that I could just hold
You inside my arms, cuz u know, u know, u know

[bridge]

Worst days
I really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days
I’ll really love you on your worst days, your worst days I’ll love you

your worst days (feat. flesh golem)(boyfifty & autrioly)

prod. wisssery

i think im dying
i dont want violence
i wont sleep, wont close my eyelids
smiling thru pain and dont like it
i did what i could to bite it

u saw the same thing i did
cant lie, i still miss ur lips
my blood seeped thru ur dress
and i think this aint depression
and i think i learned my lesson
oo-
cram it in first,
dont grab ur purse
yeah..
oo!

if i cant lie
then i cant try,
yeah
if i cant smile
then i can lie </3
o - o 
i couldnt care much more than i do,
breaking down my boundaries to make it up to u


( who said im not depressed? )
( im fucked up by thursday next )

who said im not the best?
i know ive been depressed
im in over my head
talking always kills me..

this ain't depression

rainy days w/ yung shinra (prod. discent)

Provided by Biteki

Lineup
@erisu-san
@yvngaxstn
@lullabyboy
@lilskeleskrrt
@ripkais
@sushisai
@deadfishpoland
@ddeadroses
@raeraexo
@silverreapersnroses
@seejayxo
@brushogun
@zxlone
@lilblueq
@gothurted
@deadspyro
@diamoonofnhg
@remghost
@irby314
@prod_loopy
@lilduckk
@nate2timezz
@prodtsurreal

Deadfish - Painful Memory (prod. Wellfed)

🌙 produced for wstdyth, seejayxo, 
Kenny Orlando, emptychest & astral
🌙 member of ⏳@timeless-archive & 👻@ghxstcollective

*SINCE AUGUST 2021*

🥀 i quit university and left my hometown to have every chance to get to my goals

⛓️ from depressed and suicidal in a small town 
⛓️ to fighting for my survival in a bad place.

for collabs > noxiousnights#6098

contact / send beats to : noxiousnights.music@gmail.com

My Last Day (metlast x 5head)

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