FORGETTING TO CARE ABOUT MYSELF

15 mins (prod. eric godlow)

Raindrops by Dreamsi ☔️ 

This song is dedicated to my angel dog, Jakiba 🌌

Song written, arranged, produced, mixed and mastered by Dreamsi. 

Lyrics:

あの頃君のそばに歩いたんだ
空まで飛ぶように
思いは散らかしたまま
嵐の風で
君まで届くよ

ボケてる消えてる
見えるもの
現れたのは誰?
信じてた守ってた自分じゃない
悪夢から離れない

灰色の道
にポツポツしてる
涙が雨
君のためだよ

あの君好きだったのに
もういないよ
もう泣かない、溺れかけ
波まで願いをかけたんだけど
潰してた消えてる

息苦しくて胸が痛い
吐きそう気分になる
回る回る悪夢の世界
目を覚ましてお願い

待ってたんだ、ここで
ああ、来なかった
会えなかった
待ってたんだ、ここで
ああ、来なかった
会えなかった

あの頃君のそばに歩いたんだ
空まで飛ぶように
思いは散らかしたまま
嵐の風で
君まで届くよ

***

Translation: 

Back then I walked along by your side 
Like we could fly to the sky 
My feelings all stirred up by the storm 
They will be carried to you

They’re getting blurry, they’re vanishing 
The things that I can see 
Who is it that appears? 
It’s not the me that I believed in, that I fought for 
I can’t escape my nightmares 

On the grey road 
Drop drop is it tears or rain? 
It’s all for you

I liked you just the way you were back then
But you’re not here anymore 
I won’t cry anymore, half-drowning 
To the waves I cast a wish 
But it was crushed and disappeared

It’s getting hard to breathe my chest it hurts 
I feel like I’m going to be sick 
The nightmare world it spins round and round 
Please wake up now 

I waited for you all this time here 
But ah, you never came
We never got to meet again 
I waited for you all this time here
But ah, you never came 
We never got to meet again 

Back then I walked along by your side 
Like we could fly to the sky 
My feelings all stirred up by the storm 
They will be carried to you

***

© Shipwreck City Records 2023

Raindrops

Raindrops ☔️

baseline prod @fleshgolem + @ripwarheart

lyrics:
despite what i say i
i just scrape by
my life on display
but ill only say what they'd like
you got what you wanted but you left me at the baseline
at the baseline
at the baseline 
look me in my face
ive got all the same expressions on me
nothing left to say
cuz all the words you said they've really got me
fucked up but ive been here before
no matter what you say i still come back for more

no matter what you do
i cant block out the view
it wont ever make sense all that you put me through
i cant stay out my way
ive been stuck in a phase 
lifes been monochromatic
all the colours turn grey

love when you tell me im nothing so say it again
played with my heart like a game so play it again
nothing i do could get you out of my head
so please just stay

despite what i say i
i just scrape by
my life on display
but ill only say what they'd like
you got what you wanted but you left me at the baseline
at the baseline
at the baseline 
look me in my face
ive got all the same expressions on me
nothing left to say
cuz all the words you said they've really got me
fucked up but ive been here before
no matter what you say i still come back for more

baseline (prod. flesh + ripwarheart)

then, i saw myself

a collection of songs that you maybe will see yourself in

dedicated to rose and onlyfriend, two people that see in me what i can't always see myself

huge thank you to shizukesa for providing a beautiful verse on revisionist

thank you for listening

to grieve [prod eeryskies]

defenseless

ASTROLOGY

cedar street w/ evergarden

big (prod. wale)

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

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