NOTE: This song is now on Bandcamp as a Pay What You Want download, including $0! Any funds made from this will go directly towards distributor fees so I can get my music on streaming platforms. ❤️

https://embyr.bandcamp.com/tracks/frostfire

This is my first track that isn't vocal work! If you want to listen first, please do not read any further. If you want to read about the thought process while listening, then continue!

At first it didn't really have a direction but as I started trying different chords and melodies I came up with the concept of uncertainty. The fourth chord in the piano loop doesn't resolve on purpose. When I added the basses, it added a little warmth and a sort of dissonance conceptually with the piano in it's hopeful tone. The lead, the colder woodwinds, were written with a more melancholic tone.

During the second half the basses and lead switch and the bass takes on the warm but melancholic sound while the violins take on a colder but persistent sound. The snare that is introduced represents the concept of forever marching forward despite the warm, the cold, the hope, the sorrow, and the uncertainty.

Finally at the end we see the tempo slow, and with the final chords of the last measure, we finally hear a resolution towards the melancholic resolution. 

Fire does indeed melt frost, but the water that remains takes a toll on the fire.

DAWN: The Prologue

Frostfire

Lyricist and Performer: embyr.
Composers: sk8miles; Jihoon Jang p/k/a jang0 (Collaborator)

HXRTBRXKR

Estranged

Hi! I composed this track from start to finish. While technically Frostfire is my first fully self-composed song, this one incorporates my vocals which I'm very proud of to be able to have a full song start to finish. It even includes a piano and bass solo!!!

This song touches on heartbreak as someone who has been diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder.

Hope you like it 💖

Borderline

prod. aekasora

This is a rerecording of the original version from 2017. Sadly that version has an audio crackle during the chorus that I can't remove since I don't have the master session anymore. The original version is still available though here on SoundCloud!

The Simple Things

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prod. BigBadBeats
Lyrics:

Paralyzed by indecision
I wanna fulfill the vision
The other side of the prism
Caught in what is, and isn't
I'm trapped deep inside the system
Nobody in lie to listen
Alone with me and my isms
No who, what, when, where, how to be guilty
Inside of my mind, I'm confined by all of these feelings
Never can see em clearly, and clearly no one can heal me
And if somebody could hear me
I'm sure they would learn to fear me, cause
Dark thoughts are contagious
They pile high, time flies, why am I complacent
It never really seems to matter all the trials that I'm facing
I been adjacent of failure despite the highs I've been chasing in
Desperation of the time of my life left
Tomorrow might be the door
Feel like I'm always behind death
Stuck in this whirlwind
Feels like I'm bordering lifeless
Always feel deprived of good karma and kindness

Oh no, there I go
Going round and round again in my head
Hope it doesn't continue until my life's end
Guess I done did it
I got myself caught up into this whirlwind
Oh no, there I go
Going round and round again in my head
Hope it doesn't continue until my life's end
Guess I done did it
I got myself caught up into this whirlwind

Oh
No
There I go
Guess I done did it I'm caught up into this whirlwind
Oh
No
There I go
Guess I done did it I'm caught up into this whirlwind

My time ticking until I'm gone
Cause I've tried living, but feeling like I've lived life wrong
So I'll die livid, I've given me and all my songs
And what lies written, is smitten of a life prolonged
What lies ahead of me is an infinite path
I'll walk alone against the world and all of it's wrath
All my life smiling, biding my time and
Fighting my crying, hiding my declining
Even now, can't help but go round
I avow
Some how, I'm deafened with no sound
So loud
Like wow, thoughts seemingly disallowed
They're seemlessly in the crowd
I'm dreaming out in the clouds like
Oh
Wait I'm doing it again
Great, I'm ruining it then
And I'm brooding with the pen
Straight up moody when it end
Ain't this new to me my friend
Now I'm soon to be condemned
Guess I'm doomed to be content in
This whirlwind, whirlwind
This world ends, world ends
Round and round does it go
My oh my does it show

Oh no, there I go
Going round and round again in my head
Hope it doesn't continue until my life's end
Guess I done did it
I got myself caught up into this whirlwind
Oh no, there I go
Going round and round again in my head
Hope it doesn't continue until my life's end
Guess I done did it
I got myself caught up into this whirlwind

Oh no, there I go (Oh)
Going round and round again in my head (No)
Hope it doesn't continue until my life's end (There I go)
Guess I done did it (Guess I done did it)
I got myself caught up into this whirlwind (I'm caught up into this whirlwind)
Oh no, there I go (Oh)
Going round and round again in my head (No)
Hope it doesn't continue until my life's end (There I go)
Guess I done did it (Guess I done did it)
I got myself caught up into this whirlwind (I'm caught up into this whirlwind)

Oh
No
There I go
Guess I done did it I'm caught up into this whirlwind

Whirlwind

prod. sk8miles

Lyrics:

Where am I now
And where do I go from here
I call out and hear echos
But the silence is deafening here
What do I know
Oh nothing was an easier answer
Terrified by the echos
Of my mind there's only darkness inside here

I beg but time accelerates
I await and why do I hesitate
This ain't the world that I've known
Well, maybe this place ain't ever been home
I can't escape this velocity
Free fall, scared of, this philsophy
But I don't know anything else
I just cannot seem to help myself
Runaway, runaway
Find a place
Anywhere but where we are
Doesn't matter how where, or why, or how far
As long as this world's left behind
I don't mind
What I'll find
Since that nothing would be better
Than whatever is right here in my head
Awake in my bed
Reminding myself of every me I've ever misled again

Where am I now
And where do I go from here
I call out and hear echos
But the silence is deafening here
What do I know
Oh nothing was an easier answer
Terrified by the echos
Of my mind there's only darkness inside here

What do I know
Oh nothing was an easier answer
Terrified by the echos
Of my mind there's only darkness inside here

Echo

This song will be available everywhere on February 19th!!
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Prod. Tundra Beats
Lyrics:

Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Tear drops sting my skin, they always do
I endure the rain, waiting day by day
Waited for a change, that never came
Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Drops sting my skin, they always do
Waited for the sun, but rays never come
I'll wait forever at the thought of you
Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Tear drops sting my skin, they always do
I endure the rain, waiting day by day
Waited for a change, that never came
Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Drops sting my skin, they always do
Waited for the sun, but rays never come
I'll wait forever at the thought of you


Let's watch the rain it's falling down
I bare too much pain deep inside this sound
I scream your name please let me out
Why have you refrained don't forget me now
I just wanted you right by my side, might
My suicide become homicide 'cause I
Just eyed what I idolized and now where I reside
You terrorize, my love
Sky high when I feel like this
Hold you like this the last minute I'll live
Baby I'm begging for you to never let me go
For I know that if you did then I couldn't keep going
I been living in hell, under a spell by the devil
Ain't been feeling myself, thunder and hail as he revels
Ancient the tale that I speak when a girl loves girl, but the girl just leaves her

Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Tear drops sting my skin, they always do
I endure the rain, waiting day by day
Waited for a change, that never came
Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Drops sting my skin, they always do
Waited for the sun, but rays never come
I'll wait forever at the thought of you

My heart so hot, maybe my skin more molten
You're so cold baby, your heart more frozen
I'm familiar with that omen woven, but
Oh my god darling you're so well spoken
Please run the water, my motion's stolen
Your touch explosive, lemme feel the voltage
My death beholden from a million jolts with
My hand now folded, you must be embolded
From my mind now open, huh
You should be an author
With the story you've woven?
I could be Queen Arthur
Your Excalibur swordsman
Could you open the door then?
Lemme know before I die before you 

Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Tear drops sting my skin, they always do
I endure the rain, waiting day by day
Waited for a change, that never came
Rain clouds fill the sky, and I think of you
Drops sting my skin, they always do
Waited for the sun, but rays never come
I'll wait forever at the thought of you

So blind to who you are
Never admit to it inside my heart
Baby I been so blind to what this was
I done took my own eyes just because 
Baby I been so blind to what you are
Never admit to it inside my heart
Baby I been so blind to what this was
I might take my own life just because
I thought that I needed you

Forever is too long, but for you I'll wait

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